Monday, November 28, 2005

THIS IS OPTIONAL!!!
Ok i want to do something new for a background. SO i need ya'lls help. PLEASE!!! I need pictures of ya'll. Like actually photos that i can make a background out of. DECENT PHOTOS PLEASE! If you want to be part of it please send your photos through email.

Send pictures to this email:
nightmareeyesopurefear@yahoo.com



Please tell me who you are so i can put your name with the picture


~Really Tired Mimmy~
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Saturday, November 26, 2005

Well...
Ok, short post. Im here, kinda, im in alot of trouble. Im trying to get on every chance I get. ^.^
Not that happy, i feel sick, and im tired. I hate my aunts, well i dont hate them, they just like to talk about how nice i have grown...out....but thats a diffrent story. Ill try to be on later!

~Lost In Confusion Mimmy~
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Sunday, November 20, 2005

I'm doing better right now, im tired and yeah, but not much is going on here cause parents arent home, so no one is yelling at me a yada yada...so hmmm....lets c...BAND ROXS!!!! <---random
Well ttyl!

~Just OK Mimmy~
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Saturday, November 19, 2005

Well
Ok well weird stuff going on here. About 3 months ago my parents put me on the Suscide Watch List FOR ALL 50 STATES!!!! OMFG!!! And now im on extra watch because my parents found cuts on my arms, THAT ARE OLD!!!! Im fucking pissed off!!!! C YA FUCKING LATER!!!!


~Dosent give a shit anymore Mimmy~
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Thursday, November 17, 2005

Well now im of 4 diffrent medications...*sighs* none of it is helping, they not sure if they want to do the surgery yet. I got yelled at by my parents again, but this time it is my fault. I was talking to my mom and she kept asking the same thing over and over and over again. I snapped and started yelling at her...she wants to send my to a counsler, but i think not. Im not going to do that! im fine! JUST FINE!!!! My life is messed up, and it cant be fixed. SO...thank you and have a nice day! ^.^

~Pissed off Mimmy~
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Wednesday, November 16, 2005

Not much going on here...im tired, and board, and crying, as usual. my parents got pissed off at me again b.c i said something loud, and my mom thought i was raising my voice at her, then when she told me to stay in my room i said "Done deal its not like I ever leave this room!" and she said "Things would be so easier if you wernt such a Hard ass!" then slamed my door...But then i just climed out my window and went up to the roof of my house. SO...that was my night, sound like fun?!?!?

~Mimmy~
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Tuesday, November 15, 2005

THIS SUXS!!!
ok i was being stupid last night, and did something that pulled a muscle in my stomach, so now everytime i try to move i feel like im sick to my stomach! AND worse yet, I CANT GIGGLE, OR LAUGH!!!!! NO!!!! oh well i can be quite today. *sighs* i dont think theres anything else, oh i got a new e-mail thing, i post it later. SO yeah....

Im annored...

~Mimmy~
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Monday, November 14, 2005

The nightmares come and they go...but the happen day and night. Im too weak to fight them out of my mind...im too weak to fight anything...

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Sunday, November 13, 2005

My Break down thoughts
I guess the whole point of this post is to sit here and write my heart out...so this might be long and i mean really long...

I feel terrible, something goes right but then something happens to make it worse. Everything is turning on me, nothing is right. I just have this feeling that somethings there...but i cant see it. It haunts me, i think it wants to help and watch me, but im not sure. Maybe its my immagination, or maybe its real. What ever it is its terrifying...
I keep hearing them in my head. They wont go away...i bleed away my pain, never crying, cause there is no pain. They yell day and night, never making up their mind. Im going insane...
Keep hidden i tell myself, but what exactly does that mean? What does anything mean anymore? Everything is a blurr...Nights turn into days, and days turn into nights. It just happens so fast...and i cant stop it...
I cant stop anything! Nothing at all! I cant stop you, or time, or my bleeding, or my death which i welcome so. Death would it make me happier? I bet it would... Cause then everything would stop...
Please forgive my bloody soul, broken life. We said till death do us part. So heres my death, and now we part. your free to go with her. Watch the kids please, they need you in their life...they need everything, everybody, but me...
Nobody needs me, im poor in heart. Will this thing that follows me help me or will it stay with me in death to? Wheres my gardian angel? Huh? It gave up on me just like everyone else did, just like every fucking thing did...i envy the dead...and im greedy of my broken soul.
I have come to the point where I lust for blood, my own blood...I wish to see my pretty little wrist, which are covered in bracelets, bleed their veins out. It drips with no pain, and its so bright too.
The full moon makes me wonder...why am i like this...why is my soul broken, why dont i have feelings? I cant even cry for the dead, why? Why wont they go away and LEAVE ME ALONE?
Kill me, betray me, hurt me, murder me, cut me, love me, hate me, kiss me, and let me be me...
Thats all i ask from you. And im tired of liying...
Do this for me, just this once..
For then i can be whole again...



Till another day,
~NightmaresEyes~



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Thursday, November 10, 2005

Poem written November 3, 2005
How do you chose?
I toss and turn every night...
It seems impossible.
I loose sleep,
I don't eat,
I don't know what to do.
Save Me from this sickness.
Before I hurt myself.

Cause then the choice,
Will be my life...

By: Mimmy Hill




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