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Saturday, June 28, 2008
the year 2008 just isn't cutting it.
have you ever fucking noticed that everything goes wrong right when you think it's getting better? have you ever felt so fed up with shit that you want to stab yourself in the chest? well, welcome to my life at this point. my uncle just died, well he died on monday. i attended his wake on friday and his funeral was today. today was the first time i've been to church in six years, which is ironically how long i've been cutting. everything just keeps fucking up, like its some kind of twisted little game that HE likes to play with me. i bet he's sitting there, all high and mighty, talking to his fucking deciphels. "hey, hey guys look at this. we'll let brytney's uncle survive a cardiac valve replacement, let them believe he's getting better by moving his hands and feet, and then we'll let him die." i know someday my fucking anger and sadness is going to come back and kick me in the ass, but right now all i really believe in is karma. what goes around comes around, and god's no exception. i dont know how karma could come back to hurt HIM, but maybe its just some sick fantasy i have, that those who make us suffer will therefore suffer sevenfold. but i guess you can't always get what you want. which is true, in my case anyway, im one of those people who gives and gives and gives until there's nothing left to hand out and all i usually get is a fucking whack aside the head because i didn't do something right. i'm so ready to give up, just fucking put the razor a little deeper, and then everything will be okay. but i can't even do that right...
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