Friday, January 11, 2008

Time: 2:18pm
Mood: tired
Listening to: the spanish teacher down the hall
"In the stress of modern life, how little room is left for that most comfortable vanity that whispers in our ears that failures are not faults!."
Agnes Repplier



Hi
School started back up for me. I'm on my 2nd day of classes. its going to be an interesting semester. I can say that much. I have Psychology which I am loving. then I have a math class right after it XP. Math isnt so cool it hates me. well laters
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Monday, January 7, 2008

Time: 12:21am
Mood: stupid? thats how I feel
Listening to: All Star
Quote: "You must never feel badly about making mistakes," explained Reason quietly, "as long as you take the trouble to learn from them. For you often learn more by being wrong for the right reasons than you do by being right for the wrong reasons."
Norton Juster



hi...
well, i once again managed to say the wrong thing and ended up hurting my boyfriend.

I saw my ex-"boyfriend" today with a girl who i know he's not dating. i dont know why but i got jealous i dont like him i never liked him! i dont know what the world is wrong with me. its killing me inside. i dont know why i'm doing this. i hate it so much. but my boyfriend noticed i was upset and he got worried and asked me why so stupid me said "I love you and everything but..." why the heck did i say that!? so he got worried and I dont blame him. then I explained that I was jealous but I think it would be better if i disappeared or something,. cause i'm only hurting people here. *sigh* i dont know. well. bye...
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Saturday, January 5, 2008

Time: 2:33am
Mood: lonely
Listening to: I Will Carry You
Quote: "You should know now that you're not alone. Take my heart and we will find, you will find, your way home. ."
Clay Aiken



*Yawns* Well, I just redid my and my boyfriend's sites. It was fun. but *looks around* it seems there really isnt anyone here to tell... *Sighs sadly* Its alright I suppose. ...*mumbles* it just seems to be my lot in life... *looks up again* well. I chose a cuter layout this time! I'm hoping it will help me be more happy? though it almost made me sick to put it up. all well I'm ranting. *Waves bye to my shadow and the dust bunnies*
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Thursday, January 3, 2008

Time: 11:03pm
Mood: Content
Listening to: You'll Be in My Heart
Quote: "Forgive me, my weakness, but I don't know why; Without you it's hard to survive."
Cascada



HAPPY 2008

Well, I hope the New Year has begun well for you all. Mine had a good start. Much better than being insulted the minute the new year rang in *shakes head sadly* I'm not one to have New Years Resolutions but if you do them what are your goals for the new year?

Well, for the past few days I've been feeling really sick. My chest is tight such as it hurts to breathe at times. then I feel like throwing up all the time. yesterday I started to get dizzy and had almost no sense of balance and today I started to ache all over. For no apparent reason! I have no idea whats wrong. My mom wants me to go to the doctor but I really dont want to. I dislike doctors strongly. I'm hoping it will just go away over time.

ack! *realizes she left her water in the other room* well I have nothing really to say. I have kept you kind people long enough.

I bid you Farewell, until we meet again...
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Sunday, December 30, 2007

Time: 4:24pm
Mood: happy
Listening to: the hum of a computer
Quote: "True love is night jasmine, a diamond in darkness, the heartbeat no cardiologist has ever heard. It is the most common of miracles, fashioned of fleecy clouds -- a handful of stars tossed into the night sky."
Jim Bishop



hey all!
Well my Christmas was okay. my boyfriend had been away for a week and got back last Friday. I missed him terribly. life here is normal thats all I can say to it. but I hope next year is better than this one. *sighs*

well laters
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Tuesday, December 11, 2007

Time: 11:06pm
Mood: depressed
Listening to: Blvd of Broken Dreams (well not really but its in my head)
Quote: "The good die young - because they see it's no use living if you've got to be good."
John Barrymore



I feel so cruddy. I cant seem to help any of my friends like I once could. I feel so worthless. Like everything I do goes down in flames. I'm not good at anything and if it weren't for my boyfriend I dont know why I would even be alive. i feel sick so I guess thats all
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Sunday, December 9, 2007

Time: 11:12pm
Mood: depressed
Listening to: Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas (its on the radio)
Quote: "In order to succeed, we must first believe that we can."
Nikos Kazantzakis



hi. it took me 10 minutes to find a quote... im lame thats pretty sad. well, im feeling pretty depressed right now. i have one friend all my other ones have left me. even my online friends seem not to be talking to me anymore. ive been told that im pretty and that i can sing. hm, i dont think so, there are so many people prettier and better singers than i am. maybe my standards are too high. grr my screen is shaking... or is it my hands? bah, whats it matter. i highly doubt anyone will read this. though i will still be careful what i say. cause the last time i said no one would read it my dad got on some how and found my site. and i dont look to well upon having to be counseled. not a fun thing. well. i feel really lame. too bad theres nothing i can do to feel better.... well... bye....
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Sunday, December 2, 2007

Time: 10:34pm
Mood: annoyed
Listening to: nothing
Quote: "Too often we underestimate the power of a touch, a smile, a kind word, a listening ear, an honest compliment, or the smallest act of caring, all of which have the potential to turn a life around."
Leo F. Buscaglia



Well, school is ending early for us. It ends this Friday. but I have the symptoms for that stupid virus or whatever so I'm in "isolation" I have to stay home for 5 days!! I'm missing all my classes. not to mention all my exams and since this is the last week of school I cant make it up. my boyfriend gave me a promise ring (basically a pre-engagement ring) :D so thats really cool. its so pretty!! I love him alot. well I'm on a TON of medicine so I'll see you later


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Thursday, November 29, 2007

Time: 4:47pm
Mood: bleh
Listening to: nothing
Quote: "Dont let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game.."
a person (I forget)



I'm so tired! I have a ton of stuff I have to do for tomorrow and I had to get a Tdap shot ...ew... some student got Pertussis (whooping cough) and so the entire campus is going crazy!! and since they updated the vaccine for that I had to get it today. that was not fun. well I have to work on some stuff. laters
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Wednesday, November 28, 2007

Time: 3:20pm
Mood: bleh
Listening to: nothing
Quote: "Dreaming permits each and every one of us to be quietly and safely insane every night of our lives.."
William Dement



hey
hm, well while I was traveling I managed to lose my wallet. I feel very stupid. It seems that everything I'm trying to do ends up failing completely. I dont know but the past couple of Christmas's haven't been very good for me. I get really depressed and stuff. I love Christmas and all its so neat but... I dont know its weird.

I feel like writing a poem but I cant seem to start one. This Friday is special at our school. Its when we turn all the Christmas lights on our campus on and sing carols. and this will be my boyfriends first time going. so I want to make it special for him. I just dont know what to do. (by the way my boyfriend is Angels Protector he's just not online very much)

well I guess I'm done here. I might redo my site some, I dont know yet.
laters
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