Tuesday, November 27, 2007

Time: 10:05am
Mood: sleepy
Listening to: nothing
Quote: "No more lives torn apart/ That wars would never start/ And time would heal all hearts/ And everyone would have a friend/ And right would always win/ And love would never end/ This is my grown up christmas list."
Kelly Clarkson




hey,
I'm back!! I had a good time with my boyfriends family. It was neat, I have bruises up my arms because I was playing with their dog and got rough. I had a ton of fun though. I'm back in school and its crazy I have a bunch of projects due this friday!! well, I cant think of anything else to say. I hope you guys had a good Thanksgiving!!
laters
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Tuesday, November 20, 2007

Time: 10:12am
Mood: sleepy/excited
Listening to: nothing
Quote: "Not what we say about our blessings, but how we use them, is the true measure of our thanksgiving."
W. T. Purkiser



hey.
I wont be on for awhile I'm going to my boyfriend's house for Thanksgiving with my family. Its going to be neat. I have till monday off for Thanksgiving break. ^_^ thats neat, he's spending the night at my family's house so that we can get an early start. We're leaving at 4 am tomorrow!! insaneness!!! but yeah, his house is like 9 hours away. and they only have dial up so I wont be on at all probably... unless I find a coffee shop with free wireless *shrugs* we'll see. but I hope you all have a good Thanksgiving. laters

O LORD, our Lord, how majestic is your name in all the earth!
You have set your glory above the heavens.

From the lips of children and infants you have ordained praise because of your enemies, to silence the foe and the avenger.

When I consider your heavens, the work of your fingers, the moon and the stars,which you have set in place,

what is man that you are mindful of him, the son of man that you care for him?

You made him a little lower than the heavenly beings and crowned him with glory and honor.

You made him ruler over the works of your hands; you put everything under his feet:

all flocks and herds, and the beasts of the field,

the birds of the air,and the fish of the sea, all that swim the paths of the seas.

O LORD, our Lord,how majestic is your name in all the earth!
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Sunday, November 18, 2007

Time: 12:18am
Mood: lousy
Listening to: "I Guess It Doesn't Matter Anymore" Blackmore's Night
Quote: "There is nothing that makes a person feel quite so lonely, as to be in the company of others laughing and enjoying each others' company; and yet to feel completely left out of their joy."
Anonymous



Hey, I am feeling extremely lonely at the moment. Like insanely so... I helped put the Christmas tree up. actually I put the tree up and eveyone else did everything else. so my arms are covered in scratches. well I did help them a little bit with scissors. but all well its not bad. bleh. I really dont feel like saying anything. well I do but because of past experiences I wont
later
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Thursday, November 15, 2007

Time: 1:41pm
Mood: here
Listening to: nothing
Quote: "Whatever course you decide upon, there is always someone to tell you that you are wrong. There are always difficulties arising which tempt you to believe that your critics are right. To map out a course of action and follow it to an end requires courage."
Ralph Waldo Emerson



*a cold wind whips around an empty field causing the carpet of grass to become displaced.*

Hey. I feel like writing I should work on a story... I have one but it was based on a friend that betrayed me... so I dont want to work on it. What to do instead. Well, I'm planning on working out today. I'm going to a Shakespearian play. um, Much Ado About Nothing Also I hope to be on more. well later
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Wednesday, November 14, 2007

Time: 3:18pm
Mood: here
Listening to:
Quote: "Have the courage to say no. Have the courage to face the truth. Do the right thing because it is right. These are the magic keys to living your life with integrity."
W. Clement Stone



Hey,
well... hm.... life is as life can be. I've been stupid and said something I shouldn't have... and in result I hurt someone.... that seems to be the only thing I can do, is hurt people. Everyone I try to help or love I end up hurting.... I almost gave my younger sister a black eye the other day, I threw something and she moved. you can guess where thats going. anyway. I feel super gross today. I guess thats what happends when you go to a school with a bunch of stick thin athletic girls, with perfect hair and clothes. *Sigh* all well, but yeah I'm really missing my friend that ran away, she doesnt talk to me at all any more.... but yeah.. hm, I think the wooden bench I'm sitting on is covered in termites? .... great....
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Thursday, November 8, 2007

Time: 3:27pm
Mood: Wanting to go back to bed
Listening to: nothing
Quote: "I am the one you dream of but cannot have, i will haunt you but you will not see me, i will protect you, but you cannot thank me. But have no fear I'm as strait as an arrow. 'Honesty is nobility'."

My Boyfriend: D-Angel



Well, another week and come and almost gone. I'm going to a mystery dinner thing tomorrow night its based off the board game "Clue" I'm Scarlett. so that will be interesting. I'm really bored and tired. I have 1 hour and 30 min till I can go home. I got some books from the library. thats neat. well, I really dont have much to say I'm going to an 8 yr olds birthday party Saturday (thanks to my parents being their good friends) but hey free pizza I wont argue with that :)

well laters all
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Monday, October 29, 2007

Time: 1:12pm
Mood: Awake
Listening to: a lecture
Quote: "Anyone can give up, it's the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that's true strength."
Anonymous



Hey all,
well I hope things are going well for ya'll. Things here are....difficult. I had to block 4 friends off my facebook. So it was sad, they were my friends last year but they ended up stabbing me in the back.

har har, my boyfriend just fixed the teachers computer. he's so smart!!

Its getting cold here!! I need to get my coats out *shivers* well, I hope ya'll have a good day!

laters
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Wednesday, October 24, 2007

my life's story: read at your own risk....

Time: 9:16am
Mood: tired
Listening to: nothing really the outside noises
Quote: "If you don't know where you are going, any road will get you there."
Lewis Carroll



Hey all,
I'm half way through the week! *sarcastic* yey!! School seems rather boring to me at the moment. I don't know if its just because its all rather monotonous or just cause I have whats happened this past summer still on my mind. Well, since I think I got this site after the incidents of which I am speaking I shall relate what has occurred this summer. (and I feel like writing about it)

If you dont care to read it then I wont feel offended I just need to get some thoughts on paper, so to speak

Well, this summer started like any other summer for me of course with one thing added. I had known my boyfriend for 3 months and things were going really great. but let me take you back to where I think my whole year started....
January 1, 2007. 12:00 am
I was out with my parents cause every year theres a get together at my church we all stay up till midnight and then shoot off fireworks. well on this particular occasion I had my glasses on (I normally wear contacts but I think I had just run out or something) so the I'm outside watching the fireworks having a grand time when the guy standing next to me turns and tells me that he hates my glasses. Yes I know listening to people like that normally isnt a good idea cause they are usually wrong but for some reason I did. not the best way to start the year.... anyway back to the summer.

This summer was hard for me. mainly because, well lots of things. The end of the school year went poorly I lost one of my closest friends because she thought I betrayed her, she still wont talk to me actually. then I wasnt going to see my boyfriend for a month (just a side note my boyfriend and I are planning to get married after college so we are very close, but we hadnt decided that at this point). I was afraid he would find another girl and leave me, then my best friend was having troubles at home which she did exaggerate but were still there none the less. So the in the middle of June I go to Texas for a couple of weeks, and when I got back I called my best friend (I got back on Saturday night, I called her Sunday evening)then Monday, I get a call from her dad asking me if I knew where she was. So my best friend had run away without even telling me. She ran to her "boyfriend" half way across the country. So I was able to find her since she had a site on here. She's living with relatives now and doenst talk to me much anymore.

The tore me up pretty bad but I was ok after a month. Oh yeah and the beginning of the year I was having a problem with cutting I was doing it like crazy. I've been able to calm it down some with the help of my boyfriend. any way then I found out that my one friend the one that thought I betrayed her well she got married... we think? at any rate she's living with a guy saying shes married. she didnt tell anyone not even her parents.

then a guy friend of mine is engaged but hasnt told people like his parents yet.

My dad found my old site so I couldnt post on it anymore (which is why I now have this one) he made me get counseling because of it. that was really lame, I had to see the guy at our school for that so now he knows me by name V_V its sad. I was in his office for like 2 or more hours. I hate counseling I dont know it really bothers me.

well those are the big things that have happened to me this summer... yeah its long sorry you guys. but I felt like writing it out. I highly doubt any one actually read this far but yeah it seems that all my friends are leaving me. thats the way my whole life has been though....

well thanks for stopping by *looks up* heh, sorry for the novel... I'm not really one for long posts I figure ya'll have better things to do. well
laters

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Monday, October 22, 2007

Time: 9:19am
Mood: alive
Listening to: rain falling
Quote: "Depression is the inability to construct a future."
Rollo May



Hey all,
well its another week... oh joy. I think there is something wrong with me? I feel sick all the time. hm. all well, not that it matters. I think I'm the single most boring person on MyO. oh! I found out one of my friends called me a "backstabber and betrayer" so thats new. though I dont know who it was. bah I'm pretty sure I know though just cause I know someone who thinks of me in that way. Midterms were last week and I was sick pretty much the entire time. well I'm done boring you.

laters.
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Saturday, October 13, 2007

Time: 10:55am
Mood:depressed
Listening to: I'm Already There
Quote: "Stupidity is evil waiting to happen."
Clay Bond



well I've yet again failed someone I love.... sheesh this is becoming a bad habit V_V
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