Wednesday, October 24, 2007

my life's story: read at your own risk....
Time: 9:16am
Mood: tired
Listening to: nothing really the outside noises
Quote: "If you don't know where you are going, any road will get you there."
Lewis Carroll



Hey all,
I'm half way through the week! *sarcastic* yey!! School seems rather boring to me at the moment. I don't know if its just because its all rather monotonous or just cause I have whats happened this past summer still on my mind. Well, since I think I got this site after the incidents of which I am speaking I shall relate what has occurred this summer. (and I feel like writing about it)

If you dont care to read it then I wont feel offended I just need to get some thoughts on paper, so to speak

Well, this summer started like any other summer for me of course with one thing added. I had known my boyfriend for 3 months and things were going really great. but let me take you back to where I think my whole year started....
January 1, 2007. 12:00 am
I was out with my parents cause every year theres a get together at my church we all stay up till midnight and then shoot off fireworks. well on this particular occasion I had my glasses on (I normally wear contacts but I think I had just run out or something) so the I'm outside watching the fireworks having a grand time when the guy standing next to me turns and tells me that he hates my glasses. Yes I know listening to people like that normally isnt a good idea cause they are usually wrong but for some reason I did. not the best way to start the year.... anyway back to the summer.

This summer was hard for me. mainly because, well lots of things. The end of the school year went poorly I lost one of my closest friends because she thought I betrayed her, she still wont talk to me actually. then I wasnt going to see my boyfriend for a month (just a side note my boyfriend and I are planning to get married after college so we are very close, but we hadnt decided that at this point). I was afraid he would find another girl and leave me, then my best friend was having troubles at home which she did exaggerate but were still there none the less. So the in the middle of June I go to Texas for a couple of weeks, and when I got back I called my best friend (I got back on Saturday night, I called her Sunday evening)then Monday, I get a call from her dad asking me if I knew where she was. So my best friend had run away without even telling me. She ran to her "boyfriend" half way across the country. So I was able to find her since she had a site on here. She's living with relatives now and doenst talk to me much anymore.

The tore me up pretty bad but I was ok after a month. Oh yeah and the beginning of the year I was having a problem with cutting I was doing it like crazy. I've been able to calm it down some with the help of my boyfriend. any way then I found out that my one friend the one that thought I betrayed her well she got married... we think? at any rate she's living with a guy saying shes married. she didnt tell anyone not even her parents.

then a guy friend of mine is engaged but hasnt told people like his parents yet.

My dad found my old site so I couldnt post on it anymore (which is why I now have this one) he made me get counseling because of it. that was really lame, I had to see the guy at our school for that so now he knows me by name V_V its sad. I was in his office for like 2 or more hours. I hate counseling I dont know it really bothers me.

well those are the big things that have happened to me this summer... yeah its long sorry you guys. but I felt like writing it out. I highly doubt any one actually read this far but yeah it seems that all my friends are leaving me. thats the way my whole life has been though....

well thanks for stopping by *looks up* heh, sorry for the novel... I'm not really one for long posts I figure ya'll have better things to do. well
laters

Comments (0)