Tuesday, February 13, 2007

Good things in the past few days
Well, the past five days or so have been pretty good. So I'm going to tell you about them. Hehe.

Thursday, February 8th,2007
During lunch, two of the girls where I sit (not particularly friendly with them but...) were talking about SCUBA diving, and how to relieve pressure - pooping your ears, yawning, etc., as you go down.

So then I said to them, and the rest of the group (6 in total, including me), "See, these are things I should be remembering but I don't because the guy telling it to me was hot, and had a great accent." And as soon as I hit the word "was hot" everyone burst out laughing. It was actually quite funny. And true, to boot. The crash course on SCUBA that I got in Hua Hin, the instructor was Welsh (but looked like an Australian surfer dude), and incredibly hot. And yes, I had trouble concentrating on what he was saying, partially because his accent was think, but mostly because he was hot. ^_^ =P

That night was the Mr. (High School) competition. Instead of a Miss Pageant (a la Miss America), our school did a Mister Pageant. 11 of the seniour guys signed up. They did swimwear, talent show, formal wear, and interview questions. Some of them were really funny... and some of them I just don't like. lol.

Scott won the competition, and this nerdy kid that can be pretty annoying won for Mr. Congeniality. I think most of the clapping votes, were to humor him, really.

I was kinda disappointed that Chris N. didn't win, but Scott's a good choice. He's an all around good kid. Well rounded - little bit of sports, "super fan" for sports, student council, human activist ( biggest promoter for stopping violence in Darfur in our school), etc. I'm glad he won.


Saturday, February 10th, 2007
Okay, really funny story. I went to Borders to study for Acadec (in their little side cafe). I got there around 12:30 (had to wait abt. half an hour for my fav. table to open up. But you shoulda seen me, I was goin' in for the kill on that table, before anyone else!). Around 3:00 this guy comes in, starts talking to the baristas in the cafe, and they're chatting to him like they're friendly and all (he even complimented/ teased one of them on her hair). At three, he asks if he can sit down at my table (all the others were full).

He kept getting up and walking around, disappearing, picking other magazines, talking to the baristas, going out for a smoke. And yes, he smelled of smoke; at one point, the packs were on the table - Marlboro. >_<

He was kinda weird, and when someone else asked what the hell was up with him (after he disappeared for another magazine), the barista explained that he comes in there every day, grabs some coffee and reads magazines. Then he quizzes and comments on them to the baristas (or anyone else listening...).

When Alex got there at around 5:15, the next time he left, the barista came over to us and gave us each a coupon for a free drink. She said, "this is for putting up with him and not running the first chance you got. He's completely harmless." So we thanked her, and agreed that he was "harmless."

Alex and I went to dinner at TGIFriday's, and it felt weird to me, because I'm sure it looked like a date, but it wasn't, especially because he's gay. Just a tad awkward, but that's me - I'm sure he didn't think so. *shrugs*


Tuesday, February 13th, 2007
Flowers flowers flowers! ^_^ My school sends out roses to people who ordered them (to give to other people), on Valentine's Day. We're expecting school to be closed tomorrow, so the club who does them sent them today. I got two roses - one from Rachel and one from Melanie. Which made me happy. Luckily we got them 9th period (last of the day), and I was able to put them in a vase of water soon enough when I got home so that they didn't die or anything.

And of course, when I got home, there was a BEAUTIFUL (and large, it's enormous!) bouquet on the doorstep, courtesy of my dad, who always sends flowers on V-day and my birthday. ^_^ At first glance I was worried, "oh no, the flowers have been outside all day!" but it's so frickin' cold out, it was probably BETTER for them to be outside than in, lol.

And within ten minutes the house smelled of flowers. It smells amazing, I love it!!


The House episode tonight was about a girl would couldn't feel pain!!! OMG - FARFARELLO!!! ^__^ TOTALLY! I was flippin' out and stuff. How cool?!

And it was a good episode in its own right. The ending with Cameron and Chase was little weird (AND they're getting married IRL, even weirder!), but okay. And you know, this proves House CAN do the right thing once in a while. ^^;;

(*continues to believe in her little fan-girl pairings...*)

I hope we don't have school tomorrow. I really want a snow day!! Wear your pajamas inside out for me.
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Monday, January 1, 2007

*shakes*
I feel all slimy right now (1:26 AM). Like, not literally, but figuratively.

And it's giving me goosebumps.

And urgh, I just feel really slimy. I'm apprehensive about receiving an e-mail from someone. Who probably not only thinks I'm weird, but a terrible person, and a sucky writer.

I guess though, whatever they write back to me I'll be okay with. It's just the anticipation, and the waiting. I'm worried about the wording (harsh, or not?). But I mean, logically, no one's ever flamed me before, right?

Although, *muses* I am a terrible writer. Sappy and all. But they wouldn't be TOO mean, right?

I guess not. That make sense. So, apprehension still, but I'm not afraid of the result, and I'm thinking logically about the tone...
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Sunday, December 3, 2006

American Idol
Is it bad if I know that I'm idol-worshipping-(ish) someone, but still want to idol them anyway? I mean, is it bad if I want to idol them even though I know they're only human and make mistakes, just like everyone else?

What do you think about this? I... want to know what you think. Please.
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Monday, November 6, 2006

I just...
...want to make people happy.

I just want to make people happy, though of course without completely sacrificing my sense of self.

All I want to do is make people happy, and I can't even do that. I can't read minds, and I can't read emotions. And I wish I could.

Please, just tell me to do something for you, and if it's in the range of things I can do, I'll do it. But I don't read minds.

All you have to do is ask. And I'll do anything.



On an unrelated note, I went to school this morning, and I saw Tayyab (who, in my mind, looks like AJ) in the parking lot. And all I could think about was AJ. Sweet, wonderful AJ. *Hugs you* You're amazing, and you're always there to listen to me bitch. Thank you for everything.
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Friday, October 20, 2006

Kill Me Kiss Me
I really don't know what's wrong with me. He said he couldn't hang out at the diner, and I felt so incredibly bad. Depressed about it, really.

I don't know what's wrong with me.

Gin (that’s his name) has a girlfriend. He wanted me to see a movie with him (though both he asked and I answered in a really supreme round about way), but he asked after he told me he had a girlfriend. And I said to him, hey! *not* a date. You already have a girlfriend.

Oh, I'm just going to dig out the conversation because I'm too lazy to paraphrase & narrate it both.

Gin: woo date
Me: >O
Me: date?
Gin: ^-^
Me: don't to that to your g/f. :/
Me: *punches you*
Gin: whowho
Me: *gestures to picture*. (edit: she's his avatar) seriously, don't do that to her
Gin: she did it to meh
Gin: lol
Me: and you're still going out with her? *raises eyebrow*
Gin: yup
Gin: i dun know why
Gin: -0-;;
Gin: should i brake out w her?
Gin: she live far away too

(He moved here from a place that's 30 min away... if you drive 80 mph on the highway. lol)

A while later in the convo:
Me: Look, I don't have a problem if you want to go out with me, but not if you have a girl friend. I don't want to be used as an item to "get back" at her. Be good to her - stay with her, or break up with her.
Gin: >_<
Gin: aww
Me: sorry.
Gin: wat
Gin: wat for
Me: yeah, well with that face you made me feel like a jerk. lol.
Me: be good to her. I'm sure she's a nice girl.
Gin: '-'
Me: what? I'm sure she is, or you wouldn't be going out with her.


The thing is, I really don't want him to break up with her. Even if she did cheat on him it's not okay to do the same. It's not okay to get involved with a guy like that. And I don't even think it's okay for him to break up with her so he can go on a date with me.

I honestly, truly believe it's not about me. It's about her, and being good to her. *Be good to her* - that's what I feel is the most important thing in this situation.


I know that if I keep talking to him, and getting closer to him, I'll be leading him on. But then I get depressed when he can't go to the diner to hang out in a group (w/ a bunch of my friends).

So, it's not fair for me to get closer to him, but I feel depressed that I can't hang out with him.

I feel really bad about a lot of things right now. I feel bad he can't hang out, and I feel bad about getting closer to him, and I feel paranoid of all things - what if he's only pretending too? I feel as though we're playing games with each other. -Which is absurd to think, but that's the paranoia that I feel.

I also feel pretty guilty about bothering AJ with it. He’s been my agony aunt through the whole thing. I love you, AJ! ;_;

If anybody has any advice for me, *please* send me a PM. I’m completely lost, and I feel out of touch with reality because of all this. Any (appropriate – don’t send me nasty, mean things ^^) advice or insight would be much appreciated.
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Thursday, September 21, 2006

Never double posted
I have never posted twice in my myO, in one day. But I did want to make that other entry separate. ^_^;;

Anyway, I do have my head in the clouds, and I do have a crush on this guy at school. Have had it ever since I saw him on the first day of school in gym class. According to my Horoscope, if I talk to him, "my efforts will be rewarded" so we'll see. =P


I ALSO had a really creepy, but totally AWESOME dream last night. ^___^ (And I wanted to share! lol)

It was about Mana. MANA!!!! Can you believe that?!?! "Oh!" She says, and promptly feels her heart flutter. I don't even like Mana as much as I like Gackt or Hyde, and I even like TMR more. But for some reason, it was Mana in my dream. (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mana_%28musician%29 There's a Wiki article for all of you who are like, "Huh? Who's Mana?")

Anyway, in the dream, Lumi and I visited Mana at his house/apartment. It was really bizarre, because it was located in the middle of the woods, but I don't think we were too far away form civilization.

His house wasn't really a house, either. It was an apartment, but it looked more like a house.

We weren't visiting as friends, but just as fans. Almost like we had won a contest, and got to spend time with him or something, but in the dream, we didn't win anything of the sort - we just went over and visited.

The main room, living room, had a fire place, and dark wood. Almost log-cabin-ish without coming even close. (That style would look very cheesy and bizarre in Mana's house, and yeah, that's not it). The rest of the house, like the kitchen, was normal. White walls, sage green drapery. Actually, Lumi, it kinda looked like the color scheme of the kitchen in your old house (the one in front of the church).

Mana looked pretty normal, and pretty masculine, considering. Lol. Considering who he is, yeah, pretty normal. He looked like this picture: http://www.mana-sama.net/images/MM/Mana211.JPG only his hair had blue highlights in it, like this picture: http://membres.lycos.fr/ozkraland/hpbimg/mana%20moi%201.jpg

There weren't as many blue highlights, though. It was mostly scattered. I'm not surprised they showed up in the dream because as you can see, Mana often wears blue as a hair color. Not only does he use blue with that style, but he does a lot of lolita stuff with blue-haired ringlets. So... ^_^;

He really looked a lot like the first picture, although maybe a different leather top. He also really didn't have a lot of black eyeliner on, like he does in most of his photos. Oh, and again, his lipstick was blue, not black. (Same style, though. See the top where his lips make a "V"? That's a "staple" of his make-up look.)

Anyway, he was quite nice to us. He actually talked twice, but most of the time, he wasn't really talking. You know how in dreams people don't really talk, but you KNOW they're talking? Well, there were times when he was actually talking, and times when he wasn't really talking but he was saying something. If this was real life, I suppose the times when he wasn't talking, he'd be using telepathy or something. ...If any of that makes sense.

We had tea and scones and stuff. I kept making a mess, though! Really, I washed my hands once for some reason, and then there was something to do with apricot preserves/marmalade that I had to wash off my back. ...??? - Question Mark on that? You bet.

So that's what I was doing for most of the dream. While Lumi was talking (or "talking") to Mana, I was in his bathroom to wash my hands (and back, I guess. lol.). This bathroom, where I was for most of the dream, was REALLY bizarre. The floor was while tile, but the color (walls) were a "vanity pink." It's just this ugly pink color, and if you're not really sure what I'm talking about, it's a Sherwin-Williams paint color you can look up. The S-W paint color is actualy more purple thank pink. Mana's bathroom was definitely more pink, but close to that color. And I remember there being a seashell hanging on the right wall. I would say that it was a seashell lamp, but the only lights were from the ones stuck into the ceiling.

I got the impression that he didn't exactly LIKE this particular color scheme, and that he was going to fix it soon.

In the dream, Mana's bathroom, by the way, was also REALLY tiny.

In some Japanese apartments in Tokyo, especially the really cheap ones that are like $250-$300 (yes, I converted right) a month, they don't have a real bathroom. These apartments have a powder room, with a toilet and a sink, and that's it. The shower is on that floor, shared by everyone on the floor in that apartment.

The fact that he didn't have a shower told me that this was definitely an apartment, although it's confusing, because there definitely was NOT anyone else living near him at all (middle of the woods, but only 10 minutes from civilization, remember?) I think it might have been in another part of his house/apartment, or tacked onto the structure.

So I'm telling him, "Wow, you have a really small bathroom. Even mine is bigger than yours." And in the dream I was thinking about my bathroom, and thinking about measuring it when I got home, just to see how long it was in comparison. (BTW, I measured it just now and my bathroom is 10' 9" long x 4' 7" wide. And you've got a shower, toilet, long countertops, and a linen closet [with clothes shoot] to fit in to both sides of that space. So there's only about a 2' 10" width and the length of the bathroom to walk in. I thought my bathroom was small, but dream-Mana's was quite a lot smaller.)

The weird thing was, as I'm picturing my bathroom in my mind, I get transported there for a minute, and Kirsten G. (a girl at my school) pops up in the bathroom out of nowhere, and she's about to measure the length.

And then the dream ended. I know I was asleep for a while afterwards, and THEN I woke up. I didn't even remember the dream until first pd. this morning. ^_^;;

I think the scene change (with me being taken to my bathroom because Kirsten wanted to measure it - grrr...) is what made the dream end. Because then I couldn't get back to Mana (and Lumi). ;_;

So there you have it. My dream from last night about Mana. ^_^
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This is a classified message from the Roxie Central Intelligence Organization of Vague References.
I thought I had already hammered this away, but it came back up today, unexpectedly. It's on my mind, and I'm acting very stupidly and impulsively, so I'm doing it. I'm just saying hello to someone - and it will be quite a feat if they actually read this.

Push
Sarah McLachlan

Every time I look at you the world just melts away
All my troubles all my fears dissolve in your affections
You've seen me at my weakest but you take me as I am
And when I fall you offer me a softer place to land

[CHORUS:]
You stay the course you hold the line you keep it all together
You're the one true thing I know I can believe in
You're all the things that I desire, you save me, you complete me
You're the one true thing I know I can believe

I get mad so easy but you give me room to breathe
No matter what I say or do 'cause you're to good to fight about it
Even when I have to push just to see how far you'll go
You wont stoop down to battle but you never turn to go

[CHORUS]

Your love is just the antidote when nothing else will cure me
There are times I cant decide when I cant tell up from down
You make me feel less crazy when otherwise I'd drown
But you pick me up and brush me off and tell me I'm OK
Sometimes thats just what we need to get us through the day

[CHORUS]
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Thursday, August 3, 2006

I have concluded!
I have concluded that Fujimiya Ran, better known as Aya, Aya-kun, or Abyssinian, from the Anime (Kapitel and Glühen), OAV, and Manga Weiß Kreuz, is the HOTTEST anime character EVER. In the history of all anime characters starting with the first anime up until now.

He is incredibly hot. I challenge you to find another male anime character that is as hot as Aya (Ran!).

Aya even looks good in an orange sweater - when he has red hair!!!!

I don't even like Aya. He's too cold for my tastes. Too pyscho on Takatori, too moody, too hurt, too unrelatable to me. Oh, I understand PERFECTLY where he's coming from, but I can't relate to it in any way.

So no, I prefer Omi as my kitten of choice. And Nagi too. (Would that make him my puppy?)

BUT IT DOESN'T CHANGE THE FACT - and perhaps lends credibility to the fact - that Fujimiya Ran is the HOTTEST anime character EVER.

EVER!!!!! MUWAHAHAHAHA!!
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Thursday, July 20, 2006

My Birthday - May 29th
Okay. So, I am the laziest ass in the entire world. Don't try and argue with me for that title. It's not gonna work.

I want to post a series of entries (of different events) that have happened to me in the past couple months. This is entry one - Birthday Fun


SOOOO My birthday was on May 29th, and it was Memorial day. Which usually sucks, but not this year. ^^

I was woken up at 10:00 AM in the morning by LUMI-SAN!!! *glomps* who drove by my house in her car which is, as we say [er, Tommy Wong says], a 'pimp-mobile'). She had my present all ready for me, and I must say I loved it! It was My Neighbor Totoro - SQUEEE!! ^^

She also made me a card, which I enjoyed more than the DVD (No lie!). It had Cain and Merry on the front, and inside, she wrote a really lovely heartfelt birthday letter. I really appreciate it a lot, and the things she said prove how amazing she is. Yes, I definitely loved the card better than the DVD. *_* (Although the DVD was great, too. lol.)

Then I called her later, and she's like, "I'm at a memorial day BBQ at Liz Sharber's house. *noise in background* You can come if you want - it's for the church."

So I did. I dressed up really special for my birthday. I was wearing a white knee-length tierd skirt in a light fabric, and a white shirt with these cute patches on them. I really liked the look. It was a perfect birthday outfit.

So then my mom drove me to the cook-out, and I met Liz's two brothers (older and younger). We talked and chatted. We had food (MMM!!!). I had a hot dog, and all these different pasta salads. They were good. And I had cookies and chocolate cake, too!

A while after eating, Lumi had to leave for work (yick). I stayed, and Liz's family and some of the parishoners started a volleyball game. I ahve to say, none of us were really that great, but we didn't really care at all, and that's what I thought was the best part. And that's what made it different from volleyball at school. At school, I hate when I mess up and all because I feel like an idiot. But not here.

I watched them play, first, and then I joined. And it was cool.

Then my mom came to pick me up at around three (nooo! ;_; ). I went home, walked the dog, went online and read fanfiction (My new obsession IN CASE YOU HAVEN'T NOTICED!).

Then I had dinner, which was steak, grilled vegetables (AWESOME!), and noodles (penne). Mmm. ^^

The best part about my actual birthay was how perfect the presents that my mom and my sister gave me.

My mom gave me a car freshener. She said she would, but I thought she was joking. I *did* use it in my car, but it gave me a headache so I had to take it out, and mom hung it in the basement.

My mom also bought me Kamikaze Girls (*squeal*), which I still haven't finished watching. >_> Ironically enough, I'm cured of my lolita obsession (via AnimeNext), but the movie is really great. It's so funny and quirky, it's great.

AND she bought me Apocalyptica - Cult. FOUR CELLOS doing rock music? *drool* I LOVE LOVE LOVE PATH. Path path path FOREVERRRRR. (Um, that's a song on the album, btw). The funny story is, that I decided I wanted Apocalyptica because I realized I didn't actually own an American band (besides boy bands). I don't actually have a lot of bands in general. So anyway, I tell my mom I want this, and then when I'm actually listening to it on my birthday, I realized something.

I was sitting on my bed, and suddenly I said, "Oh shit. They're Finnish, Roxie." I can't believe I forgot! I KNEW they were Finnish, too when I asked my mom - I just forgot. lol.

So I'm still in search of an American band. *laughs*


Well, I took a break there for a minute, to finish watching Kamikaze Girls. *giggles* It was really good! I loved the way everything went. ^__^

Right, so, back to my birthday. My sister bought me a cool coffee mug (a tall one, you know for the car!) form borders. And she got me a gift certificate to borders! (Which I used on a couple things. Mmm. ^_^)

She also bought me this really cute kit of stuff. It had peppermint lip blam, "fancy soap," and sticher's hand cream. It had a thimble and a sewing kit (travel-sized) in it, too. All the artistry on it is themed like the 1950's, and it's really cute. You know, like the typical 50's domestic housewife? But really, this stuff is cute! ^_^ It's times like these I wish I had a digital camera to show you a picture of it. *laughs*

So all in all, my 17th birthday, May 29, 2006, was really great!!! I got FABULOUS presents, and I got to do something cool - hanging out at a barbecue. ^^ (I mean, it was better than staying home all day!)

Here ends the first post in this series, about my birthday. Tomorrow (or whenever): entry two - MVC (DMV) blues. Mata ne!

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