Saturday, June 3, 2006

THAT'S IT! I CAVE!
That's it. I'm a horrible, HORRIBLE person! >__> I took this quiz on quizilla a long time ago, but I didn't post my results.

There is definitely something seriously wrong with me. And the sad part is, I actually really like the result I got. I adore the pairing (on occasion). I'm definitely screwed up. The only thing I can say to you, is: be grateful I didn't get something completely whacked out, like SchuldigxOmi (Oh yes, because THAT would go over well after what Schu did to Ouka. *growl*).

What's your Schwarz x Weiss YAOI paring? Weiss Wei Kreuz, anime

BradxKen=. . . X. X=Unknown? 0.o
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And sometimes the image doesn't show up at all, and it has words on it, so here's what it says:
"In the words of Himura Kenshin: "Ore?" Honestly I was shocked when I saw Brad Ken fics popping up on ff.net like daisies over the septic tank. I see no evidence, chemistry, or reasoning at all behind you. Perhaps every other couple had been done and people didn't want to dip into Takatori territory... Well, you could discuss sports I suppose."

YES!!!! BRADxKEN!!! XD XD XD Actually, I read this really really awesome one shot, about them working out at the same gym, and eventually liking each other. And it was all Schuldig's (Pronounced: Shool-dig, or Shool-deeg) fault, because he completely destroyed Brad's private gym, so he had to go to a public one. *giggles* And that's somewhat of my only justification.

The BEST Weiss/Schwarz (Pronounced: Vais/Shvartz) pairing is undeniably SchuldigxYohji. Try looking up the artist "vitamine" on deviant art (or try "mon" on mediaminer) - she has the BEST, most kick-ASS SchuxYotan pictures ever. Those pictures actually made me fall in love with the pairing. *giggles* Someone was even inspired by the pictures to write a SchuldigxYohji fanfic. It's called "Heart's Truth" on fanfiction.net. I've even read some of the author's Gundam Wing fics - she indulges in 1x5 (*giggles*), which is another obscure but really good pairing.

And just for the record, it's not like BradxKen is my favorite pairing or anything. But it's one of those quirky pairings that I read once in a while, and that I just can't help loving. ;_;

Ultimate Weiss Kreuz (Pronounced: 'Vais kroytz') pairing: YohjixOmi (or OmixYohji) and Aya(Ran)xKen (or KenxAya) in the same story. I don't think Seme/uke status really applies to any of the WK pairings - they're all forceful in their own ways, so don't get hung up about the order when I give them, 'kay?

I also really like AyaxOmi, though there aren't really a lot of them.

Though, I refuse YohjixAya and KenxOmi! NEVER!! *growls* >_>

I want to read a BradxAya(Ran) fic, because I just think it would be absolutely bizarre, and I would want to see if it could even be *done.* Can you imagine that: Takatori hater + Takatori protector-not-by-choice. And on top of that, if you use anime-fied Brad (who indulges in torturing Weiss), you've got some pretty f*ed up shit to work with. I'm really not sure it can be dome anime-wise. Manga-verse where Brad is a little less psycho over Weiss and advancing Schwarz, it may, MAY work. Maybe... . if the author was really talented. ­­¬_¬

OmixNagi is interesting, though for some reason, they're all written poorly. I've seen one really good one, and it's unfinished permanently. ;_;

BradxSchuldig is awesome. Really intense, though. I've got this kick-ass story bookmarked, but I hardly ever read it, because it's so... intense. Well written, and the fact that they're just a really mind-blowing couple. *grins and sweatdrops*


BY THE WAY, if you this it's strange that I'm discussing WK yaoi pairings in my myO, it probably is.

It's slightly stranger than my entire couples list, but not by too much.

Yes, I actually went through all the listed anime categories on fanfiction.net, picked the ones I knew, and made a (hand written) four page list of all my favorite pairings. Lumi has this list, and I feel like I'm never going to see it again in my life, but she promised not to lose it, and I trust her.

So with that list in mind, if you think BradxKen, or SchuldigxYohji is strange, you haven't seen the Count Cain pairings on my list which includes (non-sexual) CainxMerry (Not such a great couple, but a fascinating story idea!), and AlexisxRiff (in that order... seme/uke ordering very applicable here). Yes, for all you Count Cain fans, you heard me! AlexisxRiff! MUWAHAHAHAHA!!!! *cackles*

And so, as I ride off into the desert, just remember: it could be a lot worse than just BradxKen! ^_^;;;;;;;
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Monday, May 22, 2006

Oh! - But I suppose it IS strange to call yourself a whore when you are not that in the slightest.
Don't even ask about the title.

The other notice before I get started on this post: The school that I go to, and the school in the town over, are part of the same school system. We're a regional district, with two schools serving three towns. All of the people mentioned either go to my school, or the other school. 'Kay? Good. ^_^

I played the piano at Cabaret night on Friday. I wasn't so great, but I don't care - it was hard to hear the (electric) piano, so I'm sure my mistakes were minimized.

What was funny was that a girl, Liz S., who graduated last year (and whom I'm friendly with), came to cabaret night! And so did her other friend Liz B., and um... some of her friends.

But afterward, Liz S. (I assume at suggestion of Liz B.) asked me if I wanted to hang out Saturday night to watch Firefly! Tom has been nagging me forever to watch it. I realized after a second that *THAT* was what they were talking about, so I agreed! It would be the perfect opportunity for me to see what he was talking about. *smile*

So Saturday came. I went over to Lumi's first, where me, Tom, Missy, and Heather watched part of Howl's Moving Castle (heh, I went to Rachel's on Sunday to finish it. lol). Missy and Heather had to leave. Liz S. came over to pick one of us up (Lumi can only drive w/ one person in the car... GDL rules). So I went with Lumi, Tom with Liz S., and we ended up going over to someone else's house. I'll just call him "K". *giggles*

Lots of people came. Me, Lumi, Tom, Liz S., Liz B., some kid that goes to the other of the two schools in the district, Danny-who-I-only-know-from-Asian-Civilizations-class (back from college, too), and K, of course. (K is his last name, and though I could us his first, it would be weird, since it's quite apparent to me that no one else does.) Two other girls came later. I have no idea who they were. lol.

I feel kinda bad, because I told my mom we were going to watch it at Liz S.'s house. I thought she wouldn't let me go if I said it was going to be at the house of someone I didn't know at all, so I lied. God, I just hope she doesn't find out or I'm screwed. ;_;

When I got there, K showed us all his Stargate!!!! Yes, he made his own Stargate! It was sooo funny. It was definitely 'nerdly cool' - it was really funny.

I met all the other Firefly nerds, and I found out that the reason they had invited me was because I reminded them of River (form the show). THANKS! But really, I understood what they meant because, well, I'm obsessed with Anime shows, too. ^_^ So it was all good fun.

So we watched. We watched the first episode (2 hours long!), then had Pizza, Soda afterward (yes, afterward) while watching. We also saw "Our Mrs. Reynolds" and to accompany that, "Trash." And we saw whatever episode comes after that... The one with the Russian guy who tortures Mal? Hello? ;_;

I... it was so strange. K is good looking in his own way. It's a VERY strange way, but he is. He sat on the couch next to me at one point... and after about fifteen minutes, moved away. *laughs*

It was a combination of things. I was surrounded by all these people I hadn't known before. I felt that most of them, too, were older than I was, and I felt that I *shouldn't* go around acting like my raving anime-lunatic self. So I was very Lolita-ish. Shy, smiling, polite. (Though I occasionally made inside anime jokes with Tom and Lumi). And god, I even turned my feet inside, as I felt the need to! (It hurt after a while, so I simply had to show shyness by looking small.)

The whole goddamn TIME, I thought K, like Liz S. and Danny, had just gotten home from finishing freshman year of college. So that made me feel a little strange, too. In a stranger's house, who is two years older than me! It was only now, right before I started writing this, that I looked him up in the school directory (to find out how to spell his name), and discovered he's in the same grade as I am, and that he just goes to the other school in our district! But he's so tall! ;_; I've been laughing at random intervals while writing this. I feel like a FOOL.

I really really enjoyed Saturday night. Firefly was so much fun, and now I understand Tom when he talks about it sometimes. *giggles* But it was K, too, that's made me feel just a little bit happier.

I've been quite... sad while waiting for my Heero Yuy to come for me. I have been wondering if he shall ever come. K showed me that Heero Yuy will come for me someday. K is no Heero Yuy, but somewhere on the right track. (By the way, that sentence did not come out the way I wanted it to, but I can't find a better way to put it, so don�t think of it *that* way). It�s not a crush, but that�s the closest word I can give to describe how I feel, and even �crush� is too strong. It�s just... I like him that way because of the hope and assurance his existence gave me, to let me know that Heero Yuy WILL come.

As I said, I wondered, have been wondering for a while now (these past couple weeks?) if I would ever find Heero Yuy in my life. Meeting K - who is somewhere on the Heero Yuy scale (heh, albeit near the lower third; Heero is perfect. ^_~) - meeting K let me know that I could find Heero some day. And letting me know, giving me that hope, has made me really happy - yesterday and today it has. *smiles*

Oh God, I know, I'm absurd. Oh please stand my whiny cheerleader writing just this once. Oh please! I wanted to tell you all about Firefly it was just that cool, but I knew if I did, I had to talk about that hope, too. I'm sorry. Forgive me this sappy discussion this once. *bobbs head, bowing* Thank you. :)
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Thursday, May 18, 2006

HOLY SHIT - MEMORY SLIP!
Warning!: Lots of cussing to follow. Just came off of reading a couple crazy Weiss Kreuz fics, and of course Yohji�s swearin� up a storm every five seconds. ^_^;;; (And No, I haven�t SEEN the series, so don�t try to talk to me about an episode - I won�t have the faintest idea of what you�re talking about). So anyways, let the post continue!


I was walking in the hallway today on my way to my 8th period class (and we have nine periods in my school. Yeah: 7:30 A.M. - 2:39 P.M. Longest ****ing school day in the county. Hell, one of the earliest opening in the whole COUNTRY.).

But suddenly, I see this girl, Alyssa S. She's a senior, a gymnast on the gymnastics team (she's really good), and the only other thing I know about her is the guy she's going out with. Whose name is Jeff C., and he's Asian... and Chinese (his last name says so). They go really well together, I think, from what I see in the halls. They're really... mature. O.o

So anyways, I SEE this girl, and one of her guy friends are teasing her or something, and for some reason, because I know she's going out with Jeff, The thought occurs to me, "Oh SHIT, I forgot to tell everyone on my myO that I broke up with that dude I was going out with!" LOL. Yeah, forgot to tell you all. So sorry about that. ;_; *weeps at her poor memory/organization skills*

It was ironic. I broke up with him on the day that would have been the 1 month anniversary (May 3rd! ZOMG!!). Not that I think he even noticed. Guys don't notice stupid shit like that. He was cool with it. Told me he wasn't ready for a major commitment - his life was fucked up at the moment or something. He's seeing a therapist. Yeah, he's crazy, because I don't care if he is or not, and I didn't need to know that.

I'm really glad I'm not going out with him. It makes me really happy. He's such an ass - completely stopped talking to me after that. Whatever.

So I broke up with him, and I'm still waiting for my Heero Yuy to come and sweep me off my feet completely.

I've been reading a lot of Gundam Wing fics (a LOT), and though I can't point to any specific ones, my opinion of Heero has been raised a lot. Out of the five, he was like... four or five in order on my list of who I liked the best. He's like... three (an almost two type of three) right now. It's just that he seems so goddamn perfect.

...*laughs* Well yeah, he IS the perfect soldier. I think, too, I've been looking at too many PICTURES of Heero. I can kinda see why Relena's obsessed with him. He's gorgeous. Electric cobalt blue eyes beneath a shower of bangs. And that incredibly toned body, the biceps ripped and yet so subtle you hardly notice how toned they are (because you're staring at his face).

With just a TAD of emotion, he'd be a perfect romancer. (Is that a word?) I do admit that while even in this newfound light I've put him, he still isn't perfect for me. He's too cold, too much of a soldier. Too many scars for me to handle. But by god, he just seems like the perfectly, silly-romantic type with a push in the right direction. I'm just waiting for Heero Yuy to come along, and sweep me off my feet - literally. His strong muscles wouldn't have any problem carrying me as I'm hoisted up into his arms and whisked away.

FAIRY TALE - CAN YOU TELL???


*change of topic... slightly* Does it ever bother you how many love songs there are? It's hard to find something that's not about love. It's just that, I feel like I'm waiting for Mr. Perfect (Heero Yuy) so that I could enjoy those songs too, you know? No, you don't know. That even sounds weird. But just pretend/try to understand. *shakes head*

Oh and for god SAKES, if you haven't done a google image search for 'Milliardo Peacecraft' and seen the picture of a half naked Zechs sitting on the floor drinking bourbon, DO IT! I know I've mentioned searching for it in the past, but I want to make sure everybody knows. IT'S A DROOL WORTHY PICTURE!!!

And once you've done that, get a hands on a subtitled version of Gundam Wing. Or not even subtitled, but something with Zech's (Milliardo's) Japanese seiyuu. His voice is so incredibly sexy. *dies* ^___^

Wufei's Japanese seiyuu is REALLY awesome, too. Very suave, IMHO. I know, the voice is weird; it even SOUNDS Chinese (like Duo's sounds American), but I like it. And compared to the American voice actor? Wow - world of difference. His seiyuu can really sing, too. I d/led one of Wufei's image songs to hear this guy sing - he's really good.

*laughs* I was going to AVOID talking about Wufei. I really would like to talk to someone. I only talked to one person, but I didn't talk about everything. Asked for advice, mostly. Marlena. *small grin*

I've been reading WAY too my Gundam Wing fanfiction. I felt like Wufei.


But you know who's seiyuu I could kill? Quatre's. She's a WOMAN for chrissakes! X_X Orikasa Ai (sp?) is a very TALENTED voice actor, but it�s just that... he's... he's... MY BELOVED QUATRE!!!!!!! *sobs loudly* @_@ ;_;

Trowa's seiyuu - he doesn't speak enough - how can I make a good opinion!? Duo's is awesome. His American voice actor did a good job of imitating that style, too. *giggles* And Heero? Same as ever. *grin, shrug* I like the Jpns seiyuu slightly better than the American v/a, but the latter is pretty good, too.


AND I AM NOT GOING TO DISCUSS RELENA, DOROTHY, NOIN, OR ANYONE ELSE BECAUSE I'LL GO CRAZY IF I TRY TO TALK ABOUT THEM ALL. (Just know that Dorothy is CREEPY. In fanfics where he's practically hiding from her, if you've heard her Japanese voice, you'd know why. ;_; )

Er... that's it for my rant and rave. I'll be quiet... for now. =D XD
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Monday, May 15, 2006

My life as a poetic narrative
Have you ever had a time in your life where some moment seemed... like it was right out of a poem, or a story? (Or a fanfiction?)

I'm not sure if you have. But I just had a moment like that today, so I'd like to detail the events as, well, a poetic narrative. An account of an event in life, told as a real story. So... forgive me for acting strange, but I've *got* to write it down, and I've *got* to write it like this.


Lumi gave me her newly bought L'arc~en~ciel today after school. I was so incredibly excited about it, and as soon as I got in the carpool car, I pulled out my CD player from my backpack and placed the L'arc CD inside.

I skipped the first track and went to listen to the second, "Ready Steady Go," which I knew. I was listening to see if it was different than the version I knew. Lumi swears there are three versions of the song. Then I listened to the next song, "Lover Boy," and I was surprised at how much I liked that song, too.

I was in the car, almost at my house, and now listening to track four, "Feeling Fine." It was then that I had words, or an idea for what I had been feeling while listening to L'arc.

Perhaps it is because I have been conditioned by myself to have an inclination for J-Rock (and J-Pop) songs. But even if that is so, I knew that, listening to L'arc, it was as though I had never truly listened to music before. Listening to them, I thought that L'Arc was the beginning of all music. The alpha from which all other music came afterward; and that which came before was not really music.

Whenever I have listened to music before, it elicits responses from my heart and my mind. It makes me emotional in some way: Happy, sad, awe-inspired, heart-tugged. The songs on this album do none of that. I feel absolutely nothing when I listen to it. I don't even produce the feeling of "ugh, I hate this." But you see, feeling nothing about it isn't such a bad thing at all.

Once I listened to this, and I knew it was as though I was listening to music for the first time, I understood. It's as though all other music, music that I like & enjoy, presses up against me. It's on the same plane, right next to me. But this... "Smile," gets inside my head and my spirit and blends with me. It's in perfect harmony with me, because for a while, "Smile" and I become the same thing, whatever that is.

Just listening to L'arc~en~Ciel feels so completely right.

My only complaint about the album? It was too short.
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Wednesday, April 26, 2006

Auxiliary
Man, I really miss you guys. I miss talking to you all, so much. I really do. Maybe I'll be able to actually *talk* to you guys again - I'm never on AIM the same time you are, or you all change your SNs/ blocked me. *sigh* If I don't hear from you, I'm going to track you all down and e-mail you. *growls* I do save my contact lists from Christmas, and I do have all your e-mail addresses. *grins*

Points if you know what 'Auxiliary' means. I mean, it's not *that* tough.
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Wednesday, April 19, 2006

Bah, what a loser she is.
So... fourth marking period. Very calm, no more fucking projects, papers, and crazy shit! SO MUCH BETTER THAT WAY!!!

I've got so much time on my hands, did anyone see my posts on OB?!?! OMFG! A MIRACLE!!!!! O_O "i fell lik a godamn n00b' So I whipped out the old banner! XD

AND LOOK, TIME TO POST POINTLESS MyO ENTRIES!!!! Lol.

I'm making a Gothic Loli shirt right now. I'm really excited about it. Really excited. It's giving me a headache, but I loooves it. ^_^ *sigh*

What a blessed random post. =)
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Saturday, April 15, 2006

Which Gundam Wing Pairing would you write? (yaoi, yuri, het friendly.... mostly)

3x4: Trowa Barton and Quatre Winner.Awwwww...... The absolutely sweetest, most kawaii couple in the GW world! =^_^= How sweet! You love the romantic stuff. Sweet, innocent Quatre with enigmatic and silent Trowa? They're just too perfect together! As Hiriyou would say,
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YAY! I love 3x4. Trowa and Quatre are MADE for each other!!!!!!!

I read a 3x4 fanfiction once, and it turned out to be the BEST 3x4 fanfic I have EVER read. I used to have a favorite before this, but it got pushed to second place. It's called "Tears In Heaven" (yes, like the Eric Clapton Song), and it's REALLY REALLY good. AWESOME, in fact.

Here's the link - GO READ IT and tell me it was awesome!! ^_^ :

http://gwaddiction.com/p.php?title=Tears+In+Heaven&author=FractalForge &to=23&series=&part=&last=&authorpage=Fractal.shtml&fic=./fractal/tears

(There's a space in there, so watch out when you copy&paste)
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Monday, April 10, 2006

SHE POSTS!
OMG! ROESER PAPER IS FINISHED - COMPLETELY!!!!! I'm waiting for a friend to come pick it up and then drop it off at Mrs. Roeser's house because he said he would. ^^; Yes, you're allowed to bring it to her house (she's got bins out front to put it in), provided it gets there before midnight, because the due date is strict. Originally I was going to go with him, but he said he's gonna be staying up late to finish it, and I know I can't stay up that late, so he said he would come by my house, pick it up, and then drop it off.

...Remember that paper I was stressing over in January? That's this one. lol.


Anyway, I guess this is big news. And I know people read this (For the longest time I though people didn't, but frequently I'll get PMs replying to things I've said). So I guess I wanted to share with you... I'm going out with someone. Wow - that felt cool to type. lol.

I don't know. It's kind of exciting, because I've never gone into this relationship territory stuff/crap. He's nice. In fact, he's dropping off a paper for me tonight (lol). I like him a lot though. He's really sweet. ...Did I tell you he got me chocolate on white day, even though I didn't get him anything on Valentine's day? ^^' And it was AWESOME chocolate too. White chocolate coconut!

So er, yeah. There you have it. ¬¬ *keels over and dies.* X_X
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Saturday, February 25, 2006

Where's your Messiah?
You know, I had Feb. break this week. So I've been home. But I'm really sad that it's almost over. I didn't do ANYTHING over break except hide deeper, and read GW fanfiction. (Mmmm... my blond Arabian.) ;_; I'm such a loser.

I understand Yalta, too. Read the documents and stuff last Friday and I got it.

By the way, in my Gundam Wing traverses, I went hunting for pictures of Quatre to update my collection (yes, I have a collection), and I found some awesome pictures of him that I'm arranging right now. But, I also found the sexiet picture of Zechs... ever.

Here's the link:

Now please, click on it! Zechs is sooo f*ing hotttt. Needless to say, I saved the picture on my computer (wow, couldn't spell 'computer' for a sec. ;_; ), and I named the file "Wild Turkey drunken hot Zechs.jpg" *cackles* I remember one time in eight grade, I shouted Zechs to Lumi in the cafeteria, and everyone sort of stared because they all thought they had heard "sex." Pfft. ZECHS. We love you! (Even if I love my Quatre even more. lol. I actually have an e-mail address that slightly resembles "quatre-chanLover @ blahblahblah.com". lol.)

Alright. I'm going back to read more perfect 3x4. (Yaoi - yay!!) I heart 3x4, for they are perfect. ^_~ [Hint: if Quatre is four, then ... is three.]


Blue - Where's your Messiah? I heard that, and I thought of people who would loved to come up to me out of nowhere and simply shout "HAH! WHERE'S YOUR MESSIAH NOW, HUH?!?!" I'm surprised no one in this world has ever done that. Perhaps I'm not among the truly insane yet, and that should be a relief. But only perhaps...

And Greenbird plays now. Actually, I have a .pdf copy of the sheetmusic for Greenbird on my personal website. It's http://freewebs.com/roxanne. (Iframes, I know. php is out of my league, gimme a break.) click on "greenbird", then ignore all the other crap and scroll to the bottom. It's there. I just checked. ¬_¬

Alright, I'm going now! ARGH, RAWR. *signs off, ~Roxanne*
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Friday, February 17, 2006

ABUSE OF FRIENDS!!! X__X I'm here at school in the computer lab with my history class. We're studying the Yalta conference, and our teacher gave us really good links to info about it (which I read), but I just don't understand what she wants us to do. We're supposed to be deciding whether or not FDR's deal at Yalta was a "sell-out" of Eastern Europe, and whether or not Yalta was the beginning of the Cold War.

I've yet to come to conclusions on either of these, but on the first, I'm leaning toward the side that, no, Yalta was not a "sell-out" but I'm not really sure, because I'm still a little confused. Perhaps when I go home and read this, I'll understand it better. And if not it shall be - ABUSE OF FRIENDS, I need your help, Ken!!! X__X TE AMO, HERMANO! *HUGS* X.x
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