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Saturday, April 19, 2008

Roxie doesn't think she can stand it.
I know, I KNOW about the world system, and I know I should be on it. No bugging me about it. Moving on to other topics...

I honestly don't think I can stand *it* anymore. I wish I had never found out and never known. I wish I wasn't so fucking obsessed with finding information. I'm such a stupid dreamer. In this, and in general, it all goes something like this:

The discovery.
The dream. (~~!!!)
The practicality.
The readjustment. (~!)
The letdown/the reality.

And I KNOW there's going to be a letdown due to reality. I KNOW that. And yet, I still hope there won't be. I'm going to be fucking miserable when it happens, which'll suck a lot.

I'm in the readjustment stage right now, which is just a less intense version of "The Dream," but still very impractical, so it'll still be a big let down.

The girl and the cigarettes don't even matter like they should. Oh fuck, this'll be a let down. I can only hope I won't cry.

I'd get myself drunk silly instead, but that'll just make me more depressed.

...Sugar might work. Yeah, I'll try that. *slow smile*

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