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myOtaku.com: MistressRoxie


Monday, March 30, 2009

I have so many thoughts and feelings inside. (Warning: Emo-ness ahead)
They're all there, inside my head and my heart and threatening to come out of my throat in a strangled cry.

I just have this litany of thoughts and feelings, streaming around inside. They go in no particular order, but here they are:

Love? Let it break, let it break wide open. Only then can you completely love. (Only then can you get better.) Goodbye. Au revoir. Sayonara. Saraba (さらば。). Owari. Owakare. Things fall apart; the centre cannot hold. "Sabishii desu ne. Mosugu wakare desu." Mosugu, wakare... Goodbye. I'm sorry. Gomen. Every day, with every worthless word we get more far away | the distance between us makes it more hard to stay | but nothing lasts forever but be honest, babe | It hurts but it may be the only way. It hurts. Wishing for someone's happiness can be a very sad thing. To love, to wish for it anyway. To want to be in a better place. To want to journey to a better state of mind. All the love is inside of us. Catalyst. Wishing for my own happiness. Goodbye. The pain of saying goodbye, of transforming into a new person. Maybe I'm a little scared, after all. I just want to say something. All the words threaten to come out of my throat at any second, and fighting to suppress them, to keep them inside.

I don't know what to say, how to express all this and keep it all inside, at the same time.

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