Thursday, March 31, 2005

So this is it? I guess it isn't so bad.
No, I still haven't figured out what I was going to tell you.

I think I'm permanently scarred from last night's Smallville it's not even funny. I was flipping through the channels and I saw it. Way back when, I did like the beginning seasons, and then I stopped watching, but there was nothing on last night, so I just started watching it. But when I flipped the channel, the guy that plays Clark Kent was making out/having sex with some blond bimbo girlfriend. And his eyes were really freaky - kinda like one of those episodes where he's evil, sadistic and possessed. And I think the image is permanently branded into my mind, because I keep thinking about how creepy it is, and it's making me really uncomfortable, sitting here in my mind. >_> (And yes, I switched the channel right away. >_<)

Oh. Now I remember what I wanted to tell you all. I thought I had a craptastic computer with 15.8 GB of space. Turns out there's a kid at my school (in my grade - he's acquaintance-ish) with a computer from 1996 with 1.5 GB of space on his computer. *laughs hysterically* He has Aol 4.0 and can't do much else with it. Wow. Now I don't feel so bad. *sweatdrop* ^^;;;;;; (I know, I'm horrible.)

You know, I was reading someone else's myO. I know they've been diagnosed as clinically depressed, and they were describing a lot of feelings I've had (the similarities are freaky. o.o). Is this what depression is? Lethargy, apathy, inability to concentrate. Focusing on mundane things like watching a TV show so you don't have to think about the real world?

This is it? I guess it's not so bad.

Of course, this could be one of many forms of depression, but this isn't so bad right now. I think I can last two more years (end of high school - hell of all hells).

And the funny thing is, mean, I'm glad I turned off the comments box (It's retarded now anyway - *snickers*). If it was still on, I bet you I'd get responses about the Clark Kent or the computer thing, and there'd be nobody talking about the depression bit. And that would drive me crazy. Actually, I got depressed about the comments box for about two months. It almost quite literally drove me insane. And now I'm glad it's not in my myO. ^_____^