Monday, May 15, 2006

My life as a poetic narrative
Have you ever had a time in your life where some moment seemed... like it was right out of a poem, or a story? (Or a fanfiction?)

I'm not sure if you have. But I just had a moment like that today, so I'd like to detail the events as, well, a poetic narrative. An account of an event in life, told as a real story. So... forgive me for acting strange, but I've *got* to write it down, and I've *got* to write it like this.


Lumi gave me her newly bought L'arc~en~ciel today after school. I was so incredibly excited about it, and as soon as I got in the carpool car, I pulled out my CD player from my backpack and placed the L'arc CD inside.

I skipped the first track and went to listen to the second, "Ready Steady Go," which I knew. I was listening to see if it was different than the version I knew. Lumi swears there are three versions of the song. Then I listened to the next song, "Lover Boy," and I was surprised at how much I liked that song, too.

I was in the car, almost at my house, and now listening to track four, "Feeling Fine." It was then that I had words, or an idea for what I had been feeling while listening to L'arc.

Perhaps it is because I have been conditioned by myself to have an inclination for J-Rock (and J-Pop) songs. But even if that is so, I knew that, listening to L'arc, it was as though I had never truly listened to music before. Listening to them, I thought that L'Arc was the beginning of all music. The alpha from which all other music came afterward; and that which came before was not really music.

Whenever I have listened to music before, it elicits responses from my heart and my mind. It makes me emotional in some way: Happy, sad, awe-inspired, heart-tugged. The songs on this album do none of that. I feel absolutely nothing when I listen to it. I don't even produce the feeling of "ugh, I hate this." But you see, feeling nothing about it isn't such a bad thing at all.

Once I listened to this, and I knew it was as though I was listening to music for the first time, I understood. It's as though all other music, music that I like & enjoy, presses up against me. It's on the same plane, right next to me. But this... "Smile," gets inside my head and my spirit and blends with me. It's in perfect harmony with me, because for a while, "Smile" and I become the same thing, whatever that is.

Just listening to L'arc~en~Ciel feels so completely right.

My only complaint about the album? It was too short.