Monday, May 22, 2006

Oh! - But I suppose it IS strange to call yourself a whore when you are not that in the slightest.
Don't even ask about the title.

The other notice before I get started on this post: The school that I go to, and the school in the town over, are part of the same school system. We're a regional district, with two schools serving three towns. All of the people mentioned either go to my school, or the other school. 'Kay? Good. ^_^

I played the piano at Cabaret night on Friday. I wasn't so great, but I don't care - it was hard to hear the (electric) piano, so I'm sure my mistakes were minimized.

What was funny was that a girl, Liz S., who graduated last year (and whom I'm friendly with), came to cabaret night! And so did her other friend Liz B., and um... some of her friends.

But afterward, Liz S. (I assume at suggestion of Liz B.) asked me if I wanted to hang out Saturday night to watch Firefly! Tom has been nagging me forever to watch it. I realized after a second that *THAT* was what they were talking about, so I agreed! It would be the perfect opportunity for me to see what he was talking about. *smile*

So Saturday came. I went over to Lumi's first, where me, Tom, Missy, and Heather watched part of Howl's Moving Castle (heh, I went to Rachel's on Sunday to finish it. lol). Missy and Heather had to leave. Liz S. came over to pick one of us up (Lumi can only drive w/ one person in the car... GDL rules). So I went with Lumi, Tom with Liz S., and we ended up going over to someone else's house. I'll just call him "K". *giggles*

Lots of people came. Me, Lumi, Tom, Liz S., Liz B., some kid that goes to the other of the two schools in the district, Danny-who-I-only-know-from-Asian-Civilizations-class (back from college, too), and K, of course. (K is his last name, and though I could us his first, it would be weird, since it's quite apparent to me that no one else does.) Two other girls came later. I have no idea who they were. lol.

I feel kinda bad, because I told my mom we were going to watch it at Liz S.'s house. I thought she wouldn't let me go if I said it was going to be at the house of someone I didn't know at all, so I lied. God, I just hope she doesn't find out or I'm screwed. ;_;

When I got there, K showed us all his Stargate!!!! Yes, he made his own Stargate! It was sooo funny. It was definitely 'nerdly cool' - it was really funny.

I met all the other Firefly nerds, and I found out that the reason they had invited me was because I reminded them of River (form the show). THANKS! But really, I understood what they meant because, well, I'm obsessed with Anime shows, too. ^_^ So it was all good fun.

So we watched. We watched the first episode (2 hours long!), then had Pizza, Soda afterward (yes, afterward) while watching. We also saw "Our Mrs. Reynolds" and to accompany that, "Trash." And we saw whatever episode comes after that... The one with the Russian guy who tortures Mal? Hello? ;_;

I... it was so strange. K is good looking in his own way. It's a VERY strange way, but he is. He sat on the couch next to me at one point... and after about fifteen minutes, moved away. *laughs*

It was a combination of things. I was surrounded by all these people I hadn't known before. I felt that most of them, too, were older than I was, and I felt that I *shouldn't* go around acting like my raving anime-lunatic self. So I was very Lolita-ish. Shy, smiling, polite. (Though I occasionally made inside anime jokes with Tom and Lumi). And god, I even turned my feet inside, as I felt the need to! (It hurt after a while, so I simply had to show shyness by looking small.)

The whole goddamn TIME, I thought K, like Liz S. and Danny, had just gotten home from finishing freshman year of college. So that made me feel a little strange, too. In a stranger's house, who is two years older than me! It was only now, right before I started writing this, that I looked him up in the school directory (to find out how to spell his name), and discovered he's in the same grade as I am, and that he just goes to the other school in our district! But he's so tall! ;_; I've been laughing at random intervals while writing this. I feel like a FOOL.

I really really enjoyed Saturday night. Firefly was so much fun, and now I understand Tom when he talks about it sometimes. *giggles* But it was K, too, that's made me feel just a little bit happier.

I've been quite... sad while waiting for my Heero Yuy to come for me. I have been wondering if he shall ever come. K showed me that Heero Yuy will come for me someday. K is no Heero Yuy, but somewhere on the right track. (By the way, that sentence did not come out the way I wanted it to, but I can't find a better way to put it, so don�t think of it *that* way). It�s not a crush, but that�s the closest word I can give to describe how I feel, and even �crush� is too strong. It�s just... I like him that way because of the hope and assurance his existence gave me, to let me know that Heero Yuy WILL come.

As I said, I wondered, have been wondering for a while now (these past couple weeks?) if I would ever find Heero Yuy in my life. Meeting K - who is somewhere on the Heero Yuy scale (heh, albeit near the lower third; Heero is perfect. ^_~) - meeting K let me know that I could find Heero some day. And letting me know, giving me that hope, has made me really happy - yesterday and today it has. *smiles*

Oh God, I know, I'm absurd. Oh please stand my whiny cheerleader writing just this once. Oh please! I wanted to tell you all about Firefly it was just that cool, but I knew if I did, I had to talk about that hope, too. I'm sorry. Forgive me this sappy discussion this once. *bobbs head, bowing* Thank you. :)