Monday, March 22, 2004

Head like a hole/ Black as your soul/ I'd rather die/ Than give you control.

Basics
Name::	Mitchell Grant Smith.
Birthplace::	Casper, Wyoming.
Birthdate::	October 12th, 1986.
Current City of Residence::	Bismarck.
Family Members::	Terry, Tammy, Kellan, Britty Sue, Buttons, Bunny Love.
Favorites
Color::	Dark blue.
Beverage::	Milk.
Movie::	Bowling for Columbine.
Musical::	No.
Board Game::	No.
Computer Game::	Hmmm. Warcraft III at the moment.
Game to Roleplay::	No.
Animal::	Female.
Sport::	Writing.
Book::	Hmm. Hard. Too hard.
A Day In The Life..
School::	Is the lamest, stupidest way I spend about 75% of each weekday.
Typical Mood::	Melancholy.
Usually Found?::	Down in my room, music playing, lights off, computer screen on my face, maybe writing something.
Collects::	Your moms.
Have You Ever
Been kissed::	I kissed myself once/ It opened my eyes/ I caught the lips wide.
Done drugs::	All of the time, man.
Eaten an entire box of Oreos:	Of course.
Eaten sushi::	No.
Been on stage::	No.
Been in a car accident::	Two times to my name. . .both my fault, techincally, too.
This or That
Cold or Hot::	Cold.
Blue or Red::	Blue.
Rain or Snow::	Rain.
Wool or Cotton::	Wool.
Private or Public School::	Privates.
Chocolate or Plain Milk::	Plain.
Celsius or Farenheit::	I don't care.
Spring or Fall::	Fall.
Science or History::	History.
Math or English::	ENGLISH.
"Love Life"
Do you like somebody?::	I like you.
Do they know?::	Yeah you know.
Do you want them?::	Yeah I want them like I want your mom.
Are they hot?::	Yeah like totally they are like hot.
Random
Who do you e-mail the most?:	You.
Who do you IM the most?:	You.
Who are you talking to now?::	You.
Are you currently in love?::	No.
Is this survey lame?::	YES.
Isn't bzoink! nifty? =) ::	No.
In 24 hours have you...
...Showered?::	Yeah.
...Had a serious talk?::	No.
...Hugged someone?::	No.
...Gotten along with your parents?::	Yes.
...Fought with a friend?::	No.
...Done something kind for someone?:	Yes.
Do You Like To...
Give hugs?::	No.
Give back rubs?::	No.
Take walks in the rain?::	Sometimes.
Cook?::	Sometimes.
Eat?::	Sometimes.
Sleep?::	Sleep is my favorite thing.
Who..?
..Knows you the best?::	Me.
..Have you known the longest?::	Me.
..Do you know the most about?::	Me.
..Do you consider your friend?::	Me.
..Is most likely to end up in jail?::	Me.
..Can you go to with your problems?::	Me.
..Do you want to get to know better?::	Me.
..Do you spend the most time with?::	Me.
Have You...
..Been to a concert?::	No.
..Loved someone so much it made you cry?::	No.
..Cheated on a test?::	Yes.
..Ever stalked someone?::	No.
..Done something you regret?::	No.
..Been in an online relationship?::	No.
Random Questions
Single or Hooked?::	No.
What is your worst habit?::	You.
Scariest moment?::	You.
Do you swear too much?::	No.
How do you feel about homosexuality?::	It is fine.
Where are you right now?::	My room.
Are you sitting by anyone?::	No. Alone.
What song are you listening to?::	"Nobody's Fool," Cinderella.
What is the last thing you said?::	Your mom.
What's on your mousepad?::	I don't have a mousepad.
What are the last four digits of your phone number?::	I am not going to tell you, you stalker!
What was the last thing you ate?::	Frosted Mini-wheats cereal.
If you were a crayon, what color would you be?::	Your mom.
How many buddies do you have on your list?::	93.
What's the weather like right now?::	I don't know. I don't peek my head outside every moment.
What do you feel like doing?::	Sleeping or writing.
What is your favorite quote?::	You.

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I come along but I don't know where you're taking me. I shoot and go but you're reaching dragging shaking me.

The Generic Teenager Stereotype
Do you drink [alcohol]?:	No. As I said, I'm never going to drink that shit.
Do you party a lot? How often?:	No. Zero hours a week.
Do you use drugs for recreational purposes?:	Oh yes. You know I do.
How often do you use the word like in an average hour?:	I don't say it often. But since I like to use similies, it may be often. At least in my head.
Do you skip classes? How often?:	No. I never skip. . .need my good education if you know what I [don't] mean.
Do you have casual sex? Protected?:	I've never had sex. When and IF I do, I shall have protected sex. What exactly is "casual sex," anyway?
Do you steal?:	I steal hearts.
Do you wear inappropriate clothing?:	All of the time. A few times I have gone to school just wearing boxers. [The answer is no. Not really. If wearing a somewhat tight shirt counts, I guess yes too.]
Do you drool over celebrities?:	No. They're so fake.
Do you watch a lot of TV?:	Nope. I haven't watched TV all week. I think that says a lot about TV and me.
Do you ever watch the News?:	No. The news is about selling fear for you to consume.
Do you even care about world issues?:	Not really. But sometimes. Sometimes.
Do you read books often?:	Often. Hm. I guess so. I read at least ten pages a day, at the least.
Are you failing a lot of your classes?:	I think so. I have a D in Geometry and Chemisty I think.
Do you spend most of your time with your friends?:	Yeah. All my friends are in my head.
Do you smoke cigarettes?:	I smoke the bones of baby dolls.
Do you hang out a lot in malls, or at Seven Elevens?:	No.
Do you often find yourself with a crush on someone?:	No. It's more like lust.
Do you cuss a lot?:	If I'm in the mood.
Are you desperate to fit in?:	No.
Are you intelligent?:	I don't think so, but people say I am.
The Goth Stereotype
Black lipstick?:	I'm not a woman, sorry.
Black eyeliner?:	I'm not a girl, sorry.
Black eyeshadow?:	I'm not a puella, sorry.
Black trenchcoat?:	I wear a black leather coat, if that counts.
Black boots?:	Nope. Why would I wear boots when shoes are infinitely more comfortable?
Black fishnets?:	Fishnets? What?
Black nail polish?:	No, I'm not a woman, as I have said afore.
Cigarettes?:	You already asked this. My mom smokes and I hate it. I hate cigs.
Heavy metal music?:	Yes, when I am in the mood.
Marilyn Manson?:	He's good.
Kittie?:	They're okay.
Cradle of Filth?:	Haven't heard any.
Constant frown and perpetual angst?:	No.
Do you like to be seen as:	What? What do I like to be seen as?
Are you an intellectual?:	I don't think so.
An atheist?:	If I have to give a label to it, yes.
Horrible home life?:	No.
Hopelessly depressed?:	At times.
Suffering with suicidal idealations?:	At times.
Self-mutilation?:	No.
The Punk Stereotype
Plaid?:	What about plaid? What is plaid, anyway?
Big black boots?:	You already asked this. No.
Mohawk?:	They're ugly. Another thing for me to point and laugh at.
Excessive piercings? [Especially facial]:	I cannot stand piercings, except for ear piercings, those I can stand. Especailly facial, no no no no. Ugly.
Loud, confident and opinionated?:	No, no, and no.
Wild hair colors?:	Not really. I've dyed my hair blonde a few times. That is about the extent of it.
NOFX?:	Haven't heard much of them. From what I can tell, I don't like them. Punk music isn't my thing, really.
Rancid?:	They're okay.
Well versed on political scandals and outrages?:	No.
A:	What about "A"? It is the first letter of the alphabet. A is for asshole, which describes this quiz.
The Jock Sterotype
What's your IQ?:	-1232242353456467667856876876.65657576876878078978
Do you watch a lot of sports?:	HELL no.
Play a lot of sports?:	HELL no.
Talk a lot about sports?:	HELL HELL HELL no.
Do you do anything, really, but think about sports?:	Yes. I think about how much I hate sports.
Are you arrogant?:	The pope a jew?
Are you a male or female whore?:	I'm a male whore. I sold myself to you.
Are you homophobic?:	Not at all.
Do you tease other people a lot because you want to seem confident?:	I tease them, but not for that reason. More like flirting I guess.
But really you're a quivering mass of insecurity?:	Indeed,.
Boobs = yes?:	Boobs=yes.
Parties = yes?:	Parties=no.
Dropping out of high school and flipping burgers = yes?:	No. I wish but no.
The Girl Stereotype
Do you spend a lot of time on your appearence?:	Oh like yeah like totally like I like my butt.
Have you ever been on a diet?:	Yeah, I have. On my own way though.
How much did you lose?:	About 40 pounds.
Was it not so much a diet as it was an eating disorder?:	I am not sure. Sometimes I think so.
Make yourself throw up?:	No.
Make-up?:	Sure, I'll make out with you.
Low-cut tops?:	Those are sexy. I like skirts--those are sexy.
How big are your boobies? [Cup size]:	About size F.
Do you flip your hair when you talk, even if you don't realize it?:	Yeah. At the same moment I extend my middle finger, giving a nice birdie that lays an egg.
Giggle a lot?:	Yeah. I giggle about your mom.
What's the deal with boys?:	They need sex. That's what it is, I think. Damn pigs. We should slaughter them all.
Thongs?:	Thongs are sexy. Yes.
Pretty bras?:	Oh yes! I like ones that have flying butterflies on them! Makes you want to go into a cocoon and become a butterfly yourself.
YM, Teen, Cosmo, et al?:	I read Playgirl. Not that stuff though. That stuff's for wussies.
Who's the weaker sex?:	George Bush is.
Are you a feminist?:	Yeah. I hate you.
Do you think Brad Pitt is hot?:	Yeah. I think he was burned in a fire, and he had all this plastic surgery down afterwards so he could show that he wasn't burned.
How often do you shave your legs?:	Every second.
How about your armpits?:	Every millisecond.
Are you emotional?:	Yeah. Emotional like a car. I also rev, and my engine's well-oiled.
Especially when on your period?:	Yeah--when I get to the end of a sentence, and put down that period, and am on it, I am very sad and emotional. Whyt do sentences have to end?
This Or That [Oh, that old coconut.]
Originality or Acceptance?:	Originality, bob.
Independence or Companionship?:	A middleman of the two~
Stability or Freedom?:	Your mom.
Personal or Interpersonal?:	Chicken, please. Personal.
Introvert or Extrovert?:	Introvert.
Popularity or Isolation?:	Isolation.
Unique or Loved?:	Both.
Understood or Individual?:	Individual.
You or Them?:	Muffin Man.

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Sunday, March 21, 2004

Machine Star

Numb drip
the fury kiss
so toilet yellow
nothing she--she's nothing
she's machine stars.

Numb drip
the fury kiss
taste of pulp
suck dry.
she's a woman--she's red
blood flesh in the flesh.

Usless pigskin
rock and roll.

Horny
Small.

This is just
the beginning
this is just.
This is just.
This is just the
beggining it's just
the beggining.

This is just
the beginning.

woman machine,
blood flesh in the flesh.
she's nothing--she's nothing
machine star.

Beginning
is here.

Here.

Surgery
on the heart.
Vena cava
bleed apart.

Surgery on
the heart.
Vena cava.
Bleed apart.

Machine
star.
Machine
star.
Surgery
on
the heart.
Machine star.
Machine star.

Machine machine
star machine star
machine star.

Mechanical we are.
Mechanical we are
Mechanical
we are
we are
we are.

Mechanical we are.
You know, you know
you know who
who you are.
You know, you know,
(Mechanical we are)
you know who
you are.
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Nine Inch Nails- Heresy(Blind)

he sewed his eyes shut because he is afraid to see
he tries to tell me what i put inside of me
he got the answers to ease my curiosity
he dreamed a god up and called it christianity

god is dead and no one cares
if there is a hell i'll see you there

he flexed his muscles to keep his flock of sheep in line
he made a virus that would kill off all the swine
his perfect kingdom of killing, suffering and pain
demands devotion atrocities done in his name

god is dead and no one cares
if there is a hell i'll see you there
your god is dead and no one cares
if there is a hell i'll see you there

god is dead and no one cares
if there is a hell i'll see you there
your god is dead and no one cares
if there is a hell i'll see you there

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The weary weak cripple to the ground.

machineofbones (4:14:27 PM): *dies*
Karmi55 signed off at 4:14:31 PM.

So, she signs on, and Mitch is amazed. So Mitch IMs her and the instant he IMs her, she is gone.

Interesting.

Interesting indeed.

Quite interesting indeed.

The captured mind needs a captured state.
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Amorphis- Alone

Tear-dimmed rememberance
In the womb of time
Breathe upon me
Possessed by the passion
Fate will set you free
Infertile
Chaste be the precious
When flesh is an enemy
Fair weather man

Step aside from the way of a better man than you
So you fall at his feet he's the one who betrays you
It's the servant's devotion, fatherly care
Stand up

There are no flowers on your grave
There are no chains
There I keep chanting for the forgotten names

There are no flowers on your grave
There are no chains
There I keep chanting for the forgotten names

Why you feel so empty
And still have everything
It's fullfilment
I've got more companions
When I'm all alone
Flesh is fetching

Step aside from the way of a better man than you
So you fall at his feet he's the one who betrays you
It's the servant's devotion, fatherly care
Stand up

There are no flowers on your grave
There are no chains
There I keep chanting for the forgotten names

There are no flowers on your grave
There are no chains
There I keep chanting for the forgotten names

Step aside from the way of a better man than you
So you fall at his feet he's the one who betrays you
It's the servants devotion, fatherly care
Stand up
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Slowly breaking through the daylight. Slowly breaking through the daylight.

What comes to mind when you hear..
..snow?:	Numb.
..rain?:	Drip.
..tornado?:	Fury.
..summer love?:	Kiss.
..Jon?:	Toilet.
..Mike?:	Nothing comes to my mind. Mike is Mike.
..Shea?:	She.
..banana?:	Yelllow.
..dizzy?:	Stars.
..Laura?:	Croft.
..Juan?:	Nothing. Juan is Juan.
..car?:	Machine.
..white?:	Holy.
..peppermint?:	Cane.
..New Found Glory?:	Terrible.
..placebo?:	Band.
..orange juice?:	Pulp.
..candid camera?:	Stupid.
..sister?:	Woman.
..brother?:	Kellan.
..hate?:	Red.
..school?:	Useless.
..President?:	Bush.
..football?:	Pigskin.
..rap?:	Crap.
..pop?:	Popular.
..rock?:	Roll.
..punk?:	Spike.
..sex?:	Horny.
..death?:	Inevitable.
..baby?:	Small.
..duuude?:	Stereotypical.
..the end?:	Beginning.

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Tongue-tied and twisted just an earth-bound misfit I.

I know this song--"Learning to Fly"--by heart. I can recite the lyrics pretty much, it might take some time but I can do it.

Choose a band/or artist and answer only in song TITLES by that band::	Pink Floyd
Are you female or male::	In the Flesh?
Describe yourself::	Comfortably Numb.
How do some people feel about you::	Brain Damage.
How do you feel about yourself::	Another Brick in the Wall.
Describe your ex girlfriend/boyfriend::	Young Lust.
Describe your current girlfriend/boyfriend::	Any Colour You Like.
Describe where you want to be::	On the Run.
Describe what you want to be::	Fearless
Describe how you live::	Money.
Describe how you love::	Terminal Frost.
Share a few words of wisdom::	Wish You Were Here.

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What does friend mean to you, a word so wrongfully abused, ah-hah you like me confused, all included but you. Alone.

What is your favorite..
gum:	Winter Fresh
restaurant:	Applebee's is fine.
drink:	Milk.
season:	Fall.
type of weather:	A grim type of weather, clouds and the feeling it's going to rain.
emotion:	Melancholy.
thing to do on a half day:	Write. Listen to music.
late-night activity:	Write. Listen to music. Lie in my bed alone, just me.
sport:	Writing.
city:	And a city is not a home, the heart is the place.
store:	Target is fine.
When was the last time you..
cried:	Probably some time when I was a little kid. I haven't cried for a long, long time. I won't let myself and I guess deep down I feel that it is weak.
played a sport:	I hate sports. I like writing.
laughed:	Negative five billion seven hundred million eight hundred and fifty-five.
hugged someone:	I don't hug anyone much. I'm not someone that's very open, and I don't allow other's to affectionate me unless I know them enough.
kissed someone:	I have never kissed a member of the opposite sex, and the only people I have kissed--mostly when I was younger, if that--were my parents.
felt depressed:	I feel depressed off and on throughout the day. I'd say the last time I would say I was mostly depressed was when I did my math test and did so terrible on it.
felt elated:	Last night, after I drank some caffeine.
felt overworked:	I never feel overworked. Just unmotivated.
faked sick:	I don't fake things.
lied:	Hard to remember that. When I lie I usually don't realize it.
What was the last..
word you said:	I don't know. I don't pay attention to myself when I talk.
thing you ate:	I had some Pringles potato chips--the ones that are in a stack, like pringles, and are better.
song you listened to:	Right now it is Coldplay- "Politik," but before I was listening to Slayer, "Angel of Death."
thing you drank:	Milk.
place you went to:	I was here all day. My parents went to the Casino, so I was left here. . .
movie you saw:	Starsky & Hutch I believe.
movie you rented:	I don't rent the movies--my dad does. I made him rent Lost in Translation a few weeks ago. What a weird movie that is.
concert you attended:	I've never been to a concert.
Who was the last person you..
hugged:	I don't hug people.
cried over:	I don't cry.
kissed:	I haven't kissed anyone for a while, and when I did kiss someone it was my parents.
danced with:	This is really, really hard. I think it was Chelsea, way back at the dance. It was nice. Chelsea is a nice girl.
shared a secret with:	I haven't a clue at all.
had a sleepover with:	I stay the night at my friend Ryan's house sometimes. We play computer games to the wee hours of the morning.
called:	Ryan. I called him earlier today to see if we could do anything before my parents left.
went to a movie with:	My grandma.
saw:	My brother, as he was going to bed.
were angry with:	I don't get angry, really. Just bitter.
couldn't take your eyes off of:	Not sure. I'll just say me in the mirror.
obsessed over:	I'm not obsessed over anyone, really.
Have you ever..
danced in the rain:	Not really.
kissed someone:	Haven't you asked this question enough? I think you're trying to show just how lame I am, or something. I hate you, quiz!
done drugs:	Caffeine.
drank alcohol:	No. I plan to never drink that shit, either.
slept around:	Have I ever. . .slept around? What? I don't even know what the question is.
partied 'til the sun came up:	No. I've never been at a party, and I doubt I will.
had a movie marathon:	No.
gone too far on a dare:	No.
spun until you were immensely dizzy:	Of course. Any child does that once or twice at least.
taken a survey quite like this before:	Indeed.

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Your face, your race, the way that you talk, I kiss you, you're beautiful, I want you to walk.

Today I did absolutely nothing. Which is a good day any day. A day where you sit there and do nothing, and just relax--that is living.

My parents and grandparents went up to a Casino a ways away, and they're staying the night there. So I've been forced to be home all day today--which is no big deal. I didn't have much better to do.

I was up on the computer upstairs all day, mostly. I woke up around 1 or so, and was up till 6 AM last night. I'm still tired right now from staying up so late last night.

I like staying up late like that, though. I get in an extremely vulnerable mood, a penetrating mood. I'm sure Mimmi realized this, since I was talking to her. As well as Rando did, too.

I'd like to say that Rando's now one of my best online friends. I mean, I still have other online friends. . .but Tony's usually so quiet, I don't know what it is with him--that is just the way he is, I guess. But Rando always has some interesting thing to talk about, usually, and I just find it easy to talk to him at times.

Last night, around 6 AM as it was, I started a chat randomly. Shin, now, don't kill me--but I started up tehsillycircus again.

And let me tell you, tehsillycirucs was a silly circus indeed.

Mimmi mentioned she was getting drunk off the room, and I think that is right.

Mitch Tired+Up late+Hormones rushing+other things= Mitch at tehsilly circus.

Perhaps I'll post some of the chat we had in tehsillycircus. . .but I don't know. It was pretty insane, the way it went. I'm not sure you awake and not intoxicated by tiredness people will handle it--I'm not sure at all.

Today I started up tehsillycircus again. It was the same as before--just me and Rando and Mimmi. But Mimmi said she was not in a good mood and so Rando left, and then I followed in leaving. That was the death of tehsillycircus--and it was sad.

You suck and that's sad.

Let's see. I downloaded the entire movie of Bowling for Columbine, as well as The Last Samurai. I can now watch them from the comfort of my computer.

I plan on buying both of those movies, though, since I downloaded them. I mean, I like both of those movies enough that I'd be glad to pay some money for them. They deserve it.

I also downloaded about 100 new songs, and Tony sent me a few other songs. I gave Tony a Placebo song, since I think the band's pretty good.

Otherwise, there isn't jack that happened today.

My brother's got a cold, and he's in his bed trying to sleep. . .sniffing and all that. Wonder if he'll get to sleep.

I'm thinking of maybe watching Bowling for Columbine, and I'm also leaning twards sleeping as well.

My parents are coming back around noon tomorrow, so hopefully then I can go to Ryan's, perhaps, or just get out of here for a while. As long as I can do something else other than I did today. Downloading all day today got a little tiring.

I also downloaded some Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles episodes. . .but I'm not sure if they work.

Also got some Simpsons episodes. Watched one of them with my brother.

Otherwise, I'm just ranting now. It is fun to rant. I think everyone should go to Shin's site and read what he says about being able to post a My O post daily. Ranting is one of the keys.

I'm the master ranter, baby. You can't hold me down. I'm saying nothing and I'm making entertainment for the global masses!

Daily masses got to have their meat
Gotta have the raw strange treat
Daily masses, the daily masses gotta beat

Their fists
your fist
Their kiss
your kiss
Their fists
your fist
Their kiss
your fist

Daily masses
Daily masses

Resist,
desist,
fist,
kiss,
resits,
desist,
fist,
kiss,

daily masses,
the daily masses.

They gotta have their meat
gotta have their eat
gotta have it.

Daily masses,
their daily passes.
Daily masses,
they gotta have it.

They gotta have it
gotta have it
they gotta have
gotta have it
they gotta
have it.









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