Tuesday, November 11, 2003

MDFMK-Missing Time

Black is everything
Pull me right out of reality
The emptiness that's me
Black is everything
Put me right out of my misery
Do what you want to me

Life outside goes on
The world is crashing inside out
Gently hacking off the hinges

Erase the space, erase the memory
Missing time
What I don't know will never hurt me
Missing time
Cannot forget cannot remember
Missing time
This information is forever
Missing time

Black is everything
Got the answer right in front of me
It's everything I see

Time ouside moves on
The world I know is crumbling down
Bringing to a lost sensation

Erase the space, erase the memory
Missing time
What I don't know will never hurt me
Missing time
Cannot forget cannot remember
Missing time
This information is forever
Missing time

Erase the space, erase the memory
Missing time
What I don't know will never hurt me
Missing time
Cannot forget cannot remember
Missing time
This information is forever
Missing time

Missing time...

Missing time...

Missing time...

Missing time...

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Slayer-Bloodline

Eternal the kiss I breath
Siphon your blood to me
Feel my wounds of your god
Forever rape mortality
I smell of death
I reek of hate
I will live forever
Lost child pay the dead
Bleeding screams of silence
In my veins your eternity

I'll kill you and your dreams tonight
Begin new life
Bleed your death upon me
Let your bloodline feed my youth

First breath born come alive learn to kill
Bloodfest awaits to feed your hunger
Dark side has no rival test your faith in blood
Night hides the hunting packs a feeding frenzy

I'll kill you and your dreams tonight
Begin new life
Bleed your death upon me
Let your bloodline feed my youth

I am the first not the last
Condemned by a single kiss
Betrayed eternally I'll rip inside your soul
Contaminating the world
Defying god and son
Black heart that brings your death
Living in infamy

Drink the flesh of life itself
Prepare to reign a thousand years

I'll kill you and your dreams tonight
Begin new life
Bleed your death upon me
Let your bloodline feed my youth

Blame god chosen children
As you die I'm immortal
Faithless no religion
Stalking prey is my confession
Captive blood enslavement
Pain and hunger drives your madness
Drink flesh life itself
Prepare to reign a thousand years
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Late night conversations...

Shy:

Dilapoid: It is Shy.
Dilapoid: How was the Matrix?
ShyGuy51185: Quite interesting.
ShyGuy51185: It more than made up for the second film, I think.
Dilapoid: I thought it was good.
Dilapoid: But it was lacking..something.
Dilapoid: Not sure.
ShyGuy51185: My brain is working overdrive to flesh out one of my theories about the movie.
Dilapoid: Go ahead. Speak it.
ShyGuy51185: The Oracle is Satan.
Dilapoid: lol
Dilapoid: Explain, explain.
Dilapoid: Although I can see in part.
ShyGuy51185: The Architect is a deist god, where he creates Earth with a set course in mind and chooses to stay on that course without much interference.
Dilapoid: So the Architect is like a god.
Dilapoid: He creates.
Dilapoid: He puts parts of himself in things.
Dilapoid: But he is a machine, he thinks in equations.
ShyGuy51185: Except the Oracle's purpose is to unset what has been set.
Dilapoid: She meddles with what the architect created.
Dilapoid: Tries to make it different.
Dilapoid: But she is doing it for good, it can be seen.
ShyGuy51185: No, she is doing it merely to unset the balance.
Dilapoid: Hm.
Dilapoid: Your theory makes sense to me.
ShyGuy51185: She can only exist in the Matrix, and unlike the Architect she has no purpose in the machine world.
Dilapoid: She is just meddling.
Dilapoid: Nothing more nothing less.
Dilapoid: Trying to unset things.
ShyGuy51185: No, she has a purpose.. and that purpose is to drag people into hell (zion) and away from the lord's (Architest's) plan.
ShyGuy51185: ^Architect
Dilapoid: So you're saying, by this, that the matrix is a good thing, then?
Dilapoid: Hm.
Dilapoid: It makes sense, Shy, it really does.
Dilapoid: The Matrix is heaven?
ShyGuy51185: I'm saying that the Matrix is as close to heaven as man can hope to achieve.
Dilapoid: Makes perfect sense.
Dilapoid: And yet...the people that are in "hell," as I'll say, are trying to get rid of heaven.
ShyGuy51185: They don't know any better. Satan has deceived them.
Dilapoid: Yeah.
Dilapoid: And Neo has been compared as Jesus..
Dilapoid: Heh.
ShyGuy51185: Neo returns to God when he goes to 01.
Dilapoid: 01?
Dilapoid: You should really make a post about this.
ShyGuy51185: The machine city.
Dilapoid: It makes sense.
Dilapoid: I see.
Dilapoid: And what is that one head machine thing?
Dilapoid: Couldn't that be a "god."
Dilapoid: Deus ex machina.
Dilapoid: God comes from the machine..
ShyGuy51185: I think that's the face of God.
Dilapoid: God comes from the machine. And heaven.
Dilapoid: The Architect comes from the machine..
Dilapoid: And The Matrix.
Dilapoid: *machines
Dilapoid: That's another great point to make for your theory.
ShyGuy51185: Yay, great points.
Dilapoid: What else. Hm.
ShyGuy51185: I don't know where Smith fits into all of this, though.
Dilapoid: The machines don't feel emotions...well, they do...as was shown by that girl and her parents...But they have complete control of their emotions. They are as much pure as pure can be, in some ways.
Dilapoid: Smith ...hm.
Dilapoid: He is nihilistic.
Dilapoid: He wants both races to die.
Dilapoid: He wants blackness.
Dilapoid: Nothingness.
Dilapoid: Hm.
ShyGuy51185: But what does he represent on a religious level?
Dilapoid: I am not religous enough to know for sure.
Dilapoid: I'm sure there's something in the bible..
Dilapoid: Let me do some search.
ShyGuy51185: Gracias.
Dilapoid: No, I think I got it.
Dilapoid: He doesn't believe in religion.
Dilapoid: He is a non-believer.
Dilapoid: He doesn't want heaven nor hell..
Dilapoid: So he sees to destroy it.
Dilapoid: And there be blackness instead.
Dilapoid: Perhaps?
ShyGuy51185: Smith is also Communism.
Dilapoid: Control.
ShyGuy51185: *nods*
Dilapoid: Anything else that needs to be sorted?
Dilapoid: Hm.
Dilapoid: Morpheus is easy.
Dilapoid: Morpheus itself is the god of dreams./
Dilapoid: Makes sense to me.
ShyGuy51185: Hm?
Dilapoid: He believed in Neo.
Dilapoid: And Neo was working for hell...he wasn't real. Something like a dream.
Dilapoid: The agents could be heaven's angels.
Dilapoid: Keeping things under order.
Dilapoid: Getting rid of people from hell.
ShyGuy51185: Neo was tempted by Satan herself, and completely fell for it.
Dilapoid: Yeah.
ShyGuy51185: At least to a certain point.
Dilapoid: And Morpheus believed him.
Dilapoid: In Neo.
Dilapoid: And he's the one that got Neo out of Heaven.
ShyGuy51185: *nods*
Dilapoid: Good stuff, Josh.
ShyGuy51185: I'm glad that it makes sense to someone other than me.
Dilapoid: Heh. Just being here as I am.
Dilapoid: Thank God for trial version of AOL lol.
Dilapoid: It's a neat way to look at things.
Dilapoid: Most people see Zion as some holy city...and Neo as Jesus.
Dilapoid: And so on.
ShyGuy51185: But that's too simple.
Dilapoid: I like it. It's a twisted way of what most people think.
Dilapoid: It is too simple.
Dilapoid: And not to mention cliche already.
Dilapoid: Every little thing that looks like Jesus people jump to compare to him.
ShyGuy51185: No, Neo is Jesus.. it's so obvious that I got a headache from how much they pounded it into my skull.
Dilapoid: Yes.
Dilapoid: But to me, it's to me what Jesus really is.
Dilapoid: Just some person that died.
ShyGuy51185: Well this version of Jesus has cool sunglasses.. and flies around like Superman.
Dilapoid: It's easy to see that so many things said about Jesus are expounded and profoundly drawn out endlessly.
Dilapoid: lol
Dilapoid: Crucifixion was a normal form of death back then.
Dilapoid: Also one of the meanest.
Dilapoid: Hm. Anyways..
Dilapoid: Either you make a post about this, or I will.
Dilapoid: It would make a good column, too.
Dilapoid: For the newspaper.
ShyGuy51185: I'm writing it now.
Dilapoid: Good, good.
Dilapoid: It is nice to talk to you again. It has been a long time, really.
ShyGuy51185: Yeah, even though we spoke today (yesterday?) it seems like we never say anything.
Dilapoid: Today heh.
Dilapoid: Yeah...when you're half asleep you just talk a lot more.
Dilapoid: Think out loud.
ShyGuy51185: I think our friendship is made for deep coversations in the middle of the night.
ShyGuy51185: Small talk is what we do worst.
Dilapoid: I agree.
Dilapoid: And the thing is, I can't do this much...
Dilapoid: This trial verision ends soon.
Dilapoid: Plus I am risking being caught right now.
Dilapoid: Ah well.
ShyGuy51185: I understand.
Dilapoid: I would be gone already if I wasn't talking to you lol.
Dilapoid: I am in my boxers and half asleep heh.
ShyGuy51185: I feel special then.
Dilapoid: You should.
Dilapoid: Becuase you are.
Dilapoid: *because
ShyGuy51185: Aw. Heh.
Dilapoid: Anyone that can think of someting as cool about the matrix as you did is special.
ShyGuy51185: That's just the way I see things.
Dilapoid: But not many people saw it this way.
Dilapoid: So it's your own view, in a sense.
Dilapoid: And you're making it more your own right now.
Dilapoid: By making a post dedicated to it.
Dilapoid: Heh. I'm accepting applications for people to marry me on OB.
Dilapoid: Since Jenna said the idea..
Dilapoid: Heh.
Dilapoid: We are still married, aren't we? O.o
ShyGuy51185: I don't know.
Dilapoid: Heh.
ShyGuy51185: Can we get an enullment?
Dilapoid: En...what does that mean?
ShyGuy51185: That would make things easier for you.
ShyGuy51185: The church denies have any part in our marriage.
ShyGuy51185: ^having
ShyGuy51185: It's as if it never happened.
Dilapoid: I wouldn't have church in our marriage anyways.
Dilapoid: Marriage isn't about church.
Dilapoid: It's about two people coming together for each other.
ShyGuy51185: Okay then. Never mind.
Dilapoid: Our marriage would be for each other lol.
Dilapoid: Which...it is.
Dilapoid: Even though it's only an OB mariage of sorts.
Dilapoid: Ah well. I guess that marriage died long ago. Sara was jealous anyways lol.
Dilapoid: I'll always be married to you..in my ways.
Dilapoid: Heh.
ShyGuy51185: I'll always be married to you, too.
Dilapoid: That made me smile.
ShyGuy51185: And I won't be offended when you marry someone else.
Dilapoid: Sounds great. Josh is such an understanding person.
ShyGuy51185: Or lazy.
Dilapoid: Am I so lazy.
Dilapoid: Don't even get me started lol.
Dilapoid: Heh. Sara must have gotten a new name.
Dilapoid: I never really talked to her in a way that fostered our friendship anyways.
ShyGuy51185: I don't see her on much these days.
ShyGuy51185: She is busy, and stressed out, and other stuff.
Dilapoid: Why be stressed when you can just...not care and just feel nothing about something that shouldn't be a big deal anyways.
Dilapoid: I will never know lol.
Dilapoid: Since that is how I handle stress.
Dilapoid: She's also sick from what I have gathered.
ShyGuy51185: Yeah.
Dilapoid: How is college?
Dilapoid: Harder than High Shool?
Dilapoid: *School
ShyGuy51185: Slow, but good.
ShyGuy51185: I have an essay due Thursday that I need to start soon.
ShyGuy51185: It's about Hitler.
ShyGuy51185: Easier, actually.
ShyGuy51185: But I'm only at a junior college. Hm.
Dilapoid: Hitler essay sounds awesome..
Dilapoid: From what I hear, the guy used to get erections from his own voice and speaking in front of people.
ShyGuy51185: That's unusual.
Dilapoid: I want to read his book. See how insane it is.
ShyGuy51185: I want to read the Communist manifesto.
Dilapoid: Put that in the report...but first find the information.
Dilapoid: I might be wrong, but I'm sure I heard it reliably.
Dilapoid: I find it funny how Stalin killed more people than Hitler, with the same reasons: none.
Dilapoid: And just because Hitler targeted certain people...he is more remembered.
Dilapoid: Much more remembered.
ShyGuy51185: Yeah, Stalin is an interesting fellow.
Dilapoid: Stalin was a schitzophrenic from what my history teacher said.
Dilapoid: He'd kill people if they looked at them wrong..
Dilapoid: He was paranoid.
Dilapoid: History is interesting to me.
ShyGuy51185: It is very interesting for me as well, with the exception of my current teacher.
Dilapoid: lol
Dilapoid: Some old fogey?
ShyGuy51185: Yeah, he is very full of himself.
Dilapoid: As all old people should be..heh.
Dilapoid: My teacher is awesome.
Dilapoid: His name is Mr. Schimdt.
Dilapoid: Schimdtler if you're savvy.
Dilapoid: He basically talks the whole class...and fools around mostly.
Dilapoid: But when talks about his stuff, history, he knows what he's talking about.
Dilapoid: And it's interesting.
Dilapoid: He's cynical too.
Dilapoid: He's a lot like me.
Dilapoid: A humorist-is funny, but deep down in that humor is cynicism.
ShyGuy51185: You should be a history teacher.
Dilapoid: Or an english teacher.
Dilapoid: I will end up being a teacher, it is likely.
Dilapoid: I doubt my writing shall get so radically acclaimed that I will be rich in my 20s.
ShyGuy51185: It's like that with most people.
Dilapoid: I suppose it is.
Dilapoid: I'm getting really tired.
Dilapoid: We need to both go to sleep soon.
Dilapoid: And I won't leave until you leave to sleep.
ShyGuy51185: I'm not leaving for quite a while.
ShyGuy51185: My post is far from complete.
Dilapoid: Hm.
Dilapoid: Where's the comrade mentality?
Dilapoid: Heh.
Dilapoid: I'll leave soon..
Dilapoid: Where are you posting this post?
Dilapoid: My O or in the thread?

ShyGuy51185: The thread.
Dilapoid: Okay.
ShyGuy51185: I could copy it in your O, though.
Dilapoid: Be sure to say deus ex machina.
Dilapoid: I will love you for saying it..
Dilapoid: Not that I don't already heh.
ShyGuy51185: I'll try to find a way to work it in.
Dilapoid: Well, it's simple really./
Dilapoid: God comes from the machine.
Dilapoid: HEaven is created by the machines.
Dilapoid: The architect is created by the machines.
ShyGuy51185: Yeah.
Dilapoid: Yeah.
Dilapoid: Dilapoid: Techonolgu.
DeathKnight V4: But when they a longer in Modern history alot more people die.
Dilapoid: *technologu
DeathKnight V4: One more try.
Dilapoid: *technologu
Dilapoid: I can't spell lol.
Dilapoid: I found this funny.
ShyGuy51185: It is funny.
Dilapoid: lol
Dilapoid: You know you're tired when you can't spell a simple wod.
Dilapoid: *word
Dilapoid: The irony.
Dilapoid: Oooh.
ShyGuy51185: ?
Dilapoid: I said you're tired when you can't spell a simple word right.
Dilapoid: And I spelled word wrong.
ShyGuy51185: Very ironic.
Dilapoid: Ten minutes and I go to sleep.
Dilapoid: .But first this is posted in My O.
ShyGuy51185: I'll try to finish my post for you to read, then.
Dilapoid: Take as long as you want...but do it if you want.
Dilapoid: I'd love to read it, of course.
Dilapoid: I sense genius in it.
Dilapoid: And to make genius one must be.
ShyGuy51185: Ok.
ShyGuy51185: The short little thing is posted.
ShyGuy51185: *eats a cookie*
Dilapoid: You know you aren't eating a cookie.
Dilapoid: That is your filler comment.
Dilapoid: Mine is "Heh."
Dilapoid: Or "lol."
ShyGuy51185: You weren't saying anything.
Dilapoid: Yeah. I want to talk too.
Dilapoid: I was just going on what you said heh.
Dilapoid: Good job no the post.
Dilapoid: *on
ShyGuy51185: I'm happy that the Oracle is Satan.
ShyGuy51185: Stuff like that amuses me.
ShyGuy51185: Thank you.
Dilapoid: lol
Dilapoid: Me too.
Dilapoid: I love you for this idea shy lol.
ShyGuy51185: Now you can poke a hole in other people's argument when they start comparing the Oracle to God.
Dilapoid: Yes.
Dilapoid: As can you.
ShyGuy51185: But I wouldn't have said anything about my theory without reassurance from you and James that it made sense.
Dilapoid: Yeah.
Dilapoid: Yuo need to learnt o speak for yourself.
Dilapoid: It makes you be your own person.
ShyGuy51185: But I thrive on the reassurance of others.
Dilapoid: As do I.
Dilapoid: I guess it's just another thing to love about yo.
ShyGuy51185: Thanks.
Dilapoid: You're welcome.
ShyGuy51185: You should sleep now.
Dilapoid: I won't sleep when I get in my bed as it is lol.
Dilapoid: Always happens.
Dilapoid: Just sit there and think like an open wound breating.
ShyGuy51185: Open wounds don't think,
Dilapoid: Figurative language.
ShyGuy51185: They don't really breathe, either.
Dilapoid: I guess I might as well face the facts.
ShyGuy51185: ?
Dilapoid: Reality is that wounds don't do what I am trying to express by comparing them.
Dilapoid: I guess I am a realist. Might was well accept the factsd.
ShyGuy51185: I like realism.
ShyGuy51185: Metaphors are lost on my most of the time, anyway.
Dilapoid: I love writing with them..
Dilapoid: But I doubt I'll become anything big as a writer.
Dilapoid: And I'm sure my style will change drastically.
ShyGuy51185: Don't doubt in yourself like that.
ShyGuy51185: You know how much I enjoyed your vague aspirations.
Dilapoid: Well, as you said in my 567 thread, modesty is dead.
Dilapoid: And ain't that the truth.
ShyGuy51185: I hope you didn't take too much offense to that.
Dilapoid: Not really.
Dilapoid: Ain't...I never wanted to use that word.
Dilapoid: But here I am,using it lol.
ShyGuy51185: There are some situations where ain't can be useful.
Dilapoid: I agree.
Dilapoid: When is SHy sleeping?
Dilapoid: Doesn't he ave work tomorrow?
ShyGuy51185: I have no idea.
ShyGuy51185: I have school tomorrow.
ShyGuy51185: No work.
Dilapoid: Not til late?
ShyGuy51185: School is at 11, so I have more than enough time to sleep in.
ShyGuy51185: I don't work on Tuesdays and Thursdays.
Dilapoid: DeathKnight V4: Why would I care if you did.
DeathKnight V4: lol
Dilapoid: Beccuasde I am Mtich.
Dilapoid: lol
Dilapoid: I can't even spell my own nanme.
Dilapoid: lol
ShyGuy51185: Heh.
ShyGuy51185: Mtich.
Dilapoid: Shyboo.
ShyGuy51185: Only Wehboo may call me that! >_<"
Dilapoid: Do you even tal to him?
Dilapoid: Anymore?
ShyGuy51185: No, I have not spoken to Wehboo in months.. but the name will always be his.
Dilapoid: Shywoo.
Dilapoid: It's like a fortune cookie.
Dilapoid: Anyways, I am ready to post this convo in My O.
ShyGuy51185: Shywoo fortune cookie company.
Dilapoid: *copies and pastes*
Dilapoid: Heh.

Ken:Dilapoid: http://www.myotaku.com/users/deathknight/comments/view/15916/
Dilapoid: :0P
Dilapoid: :-P
DeathKnight V4: And?
DeathKnight V4: lol.
Dilapoid: And...you think what I commeneted is funny.
DeathKnight V4: No.
Dilapoid: Okay.
Dilapoid: Woe is me.
DeathKnight V4: I always found it amusing how DarkOrderKnight became KnightOfTheRose.
DeathKnight V4: That sounds like Dracula transforming into Tuxedo Mask from Sailor Moon.
Dilapoid: lol
Dilapoid: Didn't you find it funny how I went from Anime Lover to Mitch?
DeathKnight V4: No.
Dilapoid: Ah well.
Dilapoid: I did.
DeathKnight V4: Sorta.
Dilapoid: But that is because I am full of myself.
Dilapoid: But I guess I have to be, kind of heh.
Dilapoid: Sorta reminds me of Sora.
DeathKnight V4: The train of thought for what you have said for the last few minutes is interesting.
DeathKnight V4: :P
Dilapoid: It's because I'm tired and open.
DeathKnight V4: heh
Dilapoid: I always have loved your buddy icon.
DeathKnight V4: Heh.
DeathKnight V4: Oh?
Dilapoid: Yeah,.
DeathKnight V4: Why?
Dilapoid: What is it from, exactly?
Dilapoid: Is it Death?
DeathKnight V4: Part of The Magus
Dilapoid: That is what I think of when I see it.
Dilapoid: All shadow and brown and hidden.
DeathKnight V4: No, it is part of the magus.
DeathKnight V4: heh.
DeathKnight V4: http://images.art.com/images/PRODUCTS/large/10034000/10034766.jpg
Dilapoid: That is awesome.
DeathKnight V4: You must not look at art alot.
DeathKnight V4: lol.
Dilapoid: No...I have not.
Dilapoid: Who is the artist?
DeathKnight V4: http://www.english.uiuc.edu/maps/scw/photoessay/guernica.jpg
Dilapoid: Picasso?
Dilapoid: Really?

DeathKnight V4: H.R. Giger did The Magus I think.
Dilapoid: Picasso is so awesome.
DeathKnight V4: The last one is Picasso.
Dilapoid: lol
Dilapoid: I knew that much.
DeathKnight V4: That was inspired by the Spanish Civil War.
Dilapoid: You mean, more oft referred as the spanish-american war?
DeathKnight V4: No.
DeathKnight V4: The Spanish Civil War.
Dilapoid: Oh.
DeathKnight V4: Post WW2.
DeathKnight V4: Pre-WW2.
DeathKnight V4: Rather.
DeathKnight V4: 1937.
Dilapoid: Didn't know about that...for, I am learning about history right now. We are onyl up to WWI.
DeathKnight V4: The Monarchy was abolished in 1921.
DeathKnight V4: It became Republican Spain.
Dilapoid: Civil war is bad.
Dilapoid: Heh.
DeathKnight V4: The elections of 1937 had a left wing government installed.
DeathKnight V4: the conservatives were afraid of the reforms.
Dilapoid: Ken, you're going to be a history teacher. Do it for me.
DeathKnight V4: Franco was the leader of a Spanish garrison in Morroco.
DeathKnight V4: He started the civil war.
Dilapoid: You're such a cool person. I'd love to have you as a teacher heh.
DeathKnight V4: German Junker airplanes transported them over to mainland spain and alot of people died.
DeathKnight V4: heh.
DeathKnight V4: It lasted for two years I think.
DeathKnight V4: o_O;
Dilapoid: That's quite some time for a civil war?
Dilapoid: Or is it not?


Dilapoid: Not sure.
Dilapoid: I can't remember most about America's civil war, really.
DeathKnight V4: With the Facists winning.
DeathKnight V4: o.o
DeathKnight V4: Because the USSR withdrew support eventually.
DeathKnight V4: o_O;
DeathKnight V4: For the Republican government.
DeathKnight V4: American Civil War lasted for.. 4 years I think.
Dilapoid: Hm.
DeathKnight V4: Might be less.
DeathKnight V4: Wars have gotten shorter and shorter overtime.
Dilapoid: Techonolgu.
DeathKnight V4: But when they a longer in Modern history alot more people die.
Dilapoid: *technologu
DeathKnight V4: One more try.
Dilapoid: *technologu
Dilapoid: I can't spell lol.
DeathKnight V4: Ok, you fail.
DeathKnight V4: lol
Dilapoid: I am laughing lol.
Dilapoid: *Technology
Dilapoid: Yes.
DeathKnight V4: I don't like knowing about history.
Dilapoid: Why not?
Dilapoid: It's so terrible?

DeathKnight V4: No.
DeathKnight V4: My life was terrible, I don't care about that.
DeathKnight V4: The ideals they sacrificed themselves for, however, are mostly gone.
DeathKnight V4: Father Germany lost and was split in two, the USSR fragmented.
DeathKnight V4: the US is now the watchdog for the world forcing freedom of choice on Islamic nations.
Dilapoid: Yeah..
DeathKnight V4: France stopped mattering, the UK is a slave.
Dilapoid: But you know what?
DeathKnight V4: Millions of people died for pretty much nothing.
Dilapoid: Nothing lasts forever.
Dilapoid: The US will eventually die].
DeathKnight V4: Not neccesarily.
DeathKnight V4: o_O;
Dilapoid: Inevitability.
DeathKnight V4: Nations continue to exist, they usually just evolve into something else.
Dilapoid: That's what the matter of it is.
DeathKnight V4: Holy Roman Empire>WW1 Germany>WW2 Germany> West / East Germany > Germany.
DeathKnight V4: It is still Germany.
Dilapoid: But things change.
Dilapoid: Russia is democracy now lol.
DeathKnight V4: Not.. really..
DeathKnight V4: lol.
DeathKnight V4: I mean in name.
Dilapoid: I know..
Dilapoid: lol
Dilapoid: Communism is sort of dying though.
Dilapoid: The US hates communists.
Dilapoid: Especially during the cold war and such.
DeathKnight V4: The Cold War isn't over.
Dilapoid: Well, I am not educated as much as you are on history.
Dilapoid: So I will take your word.
Dilapoid: NOt that I wouldn't either way.
DeathKnight V4: Russia might be a democracy but I don't see thousands of them in Iraq.
DeathKnight V4: Russia and the US square off constantly.
DeathKnight V4: heh.
DeathKnight V4: Plus, Socialism will never die.
DeathKnight V4: It still lives on.
Dilapoid: Yeah,.
DeathKnight V4: Just, I don't think things are going to last much longer the way they are.
DeathKnight V4: NK is a major arms dealer.
DeathKnight V4: If they have nukes.
DeathKnight V4: Worse people will soon.
Dilapoid: The prospectso of nukes is scary.
Dilapoid: *prospects
DeathKnight V4: Not really.
Dilapoid: WHy isn't it?
DeathKnight V4: It is not like you can stop it.
Dilapoid: That doesn't make it terrible.
Dilapoid: *that doesn't not make
DeathKnight V4: It isn't terrible.
DeathKnight V4: Just another weapon.
Dilapoid: Have you been where radiation poisoning was? Have you seen peopel dying from it?
Dilapoid: It's terrible.
DeathKnight V4: Just another weapon.
Dilapoid: A powerful one.
Dilapoid: One that could destroy all life.
Dilapoid: All the earth...
Dilapoid: If used enough.
DeathKnight V4: We play god constantly. I am not going to get jumpy from nuclear weapons.
Dilapoid: There is a lot of terrible things.
DeathKnight V4: The Earth doesn't matter. It is just a planet with sentinent beings on it.
Dilapoid: And frankly, I don't really care if I die or about the earth.
Dilapoid: Yes.
Dilapoid: Exactl.
Dilapoid: But it is terrible, I at least see that much.
DeathKnight V4: The only time it was used was when a stubborn nation wouldn't let down it's ego.
DeathKnight V4: If it is used beyond that, it is our own faults.
Dilapoid: Indeed.
DeathKnight V4: So we might as well take the cards we dealt ourselves.
DeathKnight V4: San Antonio has three air force bases and alot of military presence.
DeathKnight V4: hehl
Dilapoid: Go San Antonio.
DeathKnight V4: It is a prime target for something massive and destructive.
DeathKnight V4: From a mix of population and that.
DeathKnight V4: The Symbolism in Nukeing the Alamo wouldn't pass without media notice either.
Dilapoid: lol
Dilapoid: Nuke the white house!
DeathKnight V4: But, no matter what, from now on someone will be running around scared the sky is going to rain death on them.
DeathKnight V4: From Communists to terrorists and beyond.
DeathKnight V4: Might as well not waste time on it.
DeathKnight V4: If it is dropping on you, it is too late to do anything.
Dilapoid: Live as you live.
DeathKnight V4: Might as well watch the sky before you die.
DeathKnight V4: Plus, it would be a good thing.
Dilapoid: I'd agree.
DeathKnight V4: Because the country that was harboring the people that did it.
DeathKnight V4: Would be a wasteland.
DeathKnight V4: In around 7 minuets.
DeathKnight V4: [time it takes an ICBM to hit its target].
Dilapoid: Heh.
Dilapoid: Have you read The Stand?
Dilapoid: GOod book.
DeathKnight V4: I don't read much anymore.
Dilapoid: I don't either, really.
DeathKnight V4: I have stopped enjoying it.
Dilapoid: My ambitions for writing are slowly dying too.
Dilapoid: I doubt I shall amount to anything, really.
Dilapoid: And frankly, I don't care mostly.
DeathKnight V4: If you don't care, push foreward.
Dilapoid: That is what I do.
DeathKnight V4: I have a feeling this is a shot ride for me anyway.
DeathKnight V4: short*
Dilapoid: Just try not to kill yourself. I don't know, but it's just not the way thing should go.
Dilapoid: Slap life in the face.
Dilapoid: And live it out.
DeathKnight V4: I dunno. I tasted the world and it was bitter.
Dilapoid: As have I.
Dilapoid: But not as bitter.
Dilapoid: As yuo.
DeathKnight V4: There is no reason to be melodramatic about my past anymore.
DeathKnight V4: My mother had a bad childhood too.
DeathKnight V4: Cause and effect.
Dilapoid: I am not being dramatic.
DeathKnight V4: It always seems like it.
Dilapoid: Honestly, you life HAS been worse than me.
Dilapoid: From what I've read and you've said.
Dilapoid: I ahte being drmatic too.
DeathKnight V4: It takes expierence to have wisdom.
Dilapoid: People seem to do that on the net often.
DeathKnight V4: Yeah..
DeathKnight V4: They cry about boyfriends and school.
DeathKnight V4: Oh well. Everyone has their war.
DeathKnight V4: Minor or great, they will fight on.
Dilapoid: I do it often I admit as well, I guess. Who knows.
DeathKnight V4: It's alright to do that.
Dilapoid: It's just venting in my O really when it's posts like that.
Dilapoid: Lately I have just said screw it all. Why worry and stress over something that doesn't matter anyways?
Dilapoid: So I just don't care and go on.
DeathKnight V4: Heh.
DeathKnight V4: Well.
DeathKnight V4: I think that is alright.
DeathKnight V4: But sometimes it is good to care.
DeathKnight V4: When you have run out of care is another matter.
Dilapoid: People surround themselves with things that give them reason to care.
Dilapoid: I care about things.
Dilapoid: I care about online people--such as you.
Dilapoid: Why I do not know.
DeathKnight V4: Heh.
Dilapoid: Soon I need to sleep.
DeathKnight V4: Get some now.
Dilapoid: Wrapping up my first convo with shy in a long time.
Dilapoid: SOon.
DeathKnight V4: Heh.
DeathKnight V4: We should hold a small chat.
DeathKnight V4: lol
DeathKnight V4: The best ones are small.
Dilapoid: I so agre.
Dilapoid: Do it if you want.
Dilapoid: I searuolsy can't spell.
Dilapoid: My fingers just clack on the keyboard and end up pressing the wrong key most of the time lol.
DeathKnight V4: I think the chat server is dead.
Dilapoid: Stupid chat server.
Dilapoid: At least soemthing's died this night.
DeathKnight V4: Heh it is almost JAnuary again.
Dilapoid: The thing I bet I'll find is that as I lie down in bed I won't be able to sleep.
Dilapoid: And I'll just think about things.
Dilapoid: Always happens.
DeathKnight V4: Heh.
Dilapoid: Post-hypnotic suggestion running ships to the shore.
Dilapoid: *suggestions.
Dilapoid: Mor elike past-hypnotic.
Dilapoid: But whatever System says.
DeathKnight V4: Heh.
Dilapoid: I wonder who made up the word heh.
Dilapoid: He muist've been a cool guy.
DeathKnight V4: I did in a past life.
Dilapoid: No wonder.
Dilapoid: A cool guy is definitely you.
DeathKnight V4: I was like "heh"
DeathKnight V4: and it was a disease in all the Roman forums.
DeathKnight V4: everyone was saying it.
DeathKnight V4: so I put together an assassaination and killed the emperor because I was so pissed.
Dilapoid: Pissed is such a cool phrase too.
DeathKnight V4: Pissed is a word.
DeathKnight V4: Phrase is more than one word.
DeathKnight V4: Unless I missed a day of "Polotical Correctness and How To Be a Jackass By Using It" 101.
Dilapoid: lol
Previous message was not received by DeathKnight V4 because of error: User DeathKnight V4 is not available.

Dilapoid: lol
Dilapoid: Previous message was not received by DeathKnight V4 because of error: User DeathKnight V4 is not available.

Dilapoid: lol
Dilapoid: That was messed up.
DeathKnight V4: AIM: KILL THE DEATHKNIGHT.
Dilapoid: Yes.
Dilapoid: Kust like you killed me early tofay.
DeathKnight V4: I am not laughing at that IRL.
Dilapoid: What?
Dilapoid: My horrid typing?
DeathKnight V4: Nope.
DeathKnight V4: o.o;
Dilapoid: You must be laughing then.
Dilapoid: Since sarcasm is awesme.
Dilapoid: *awesome
DeathKnight V4: Not laughing at Kust like you killed me early tofay.
DeathKnight V4: You are lagging.
DeathKnight V4: I know this mainly because you said 4 things in one second.
Dilapoid: lol
Dilapoid: Well, I am lagughin.
Dilapoid: Man, I need to sleep.
DeathKnight V4: Followed by a correction.
Dilapoid: I am laughing at the stupidedst things.
DeathKnight V4: Blueberry mufflepuffin.
DeathKnight V4: I think that sounds funny.
Dilapoid: That even made me laugh.
DeathKnight V4: o.o
DeathKnight V4: Heh.
Dilapoid: Ken is funy.
DeathKnight V4: Yes.
Dilapoid: Why atren't you tired?

Dilapoid: Stupid amnesica.
Dilapoid: *amnesiac
DeathKnight V4: No.
DeathKnight V4: Amnesiac?
Dilapoid: Ita vero.
DeathKnight V4: lol.
Dilapoid: I forget what this word means, exaclty.
Dilapoid: Let me consult dictionary.com
Dilapoid: And he says/
Dilapoid: Partial or total loss of memory, usually resulting from shock, psychological disturbance, brain injury, or illness.
Dilapoid: Hn.
Dilapoid: I love how I pull words out of my ass.
DeathKnight V4: I think you meant insomniac.
Dilapoid: I was thinking of Radiohead.
DeathKnight V4: As in one suffering from insomnia.
Dilapoid: And their album of that name.
DeathKnight V4: As in someone who can't sleep.
Dilapoid: Shh.'
DeathKnight V4: Because I do not have any memory loss.
DeathKnight V4: I can in one second, however.
Dilapoid: Don't you...block certain things?
Dilapoid: That you don't want to remember?
Dilapoid: Even subconciously?
DeathKnight V4: *takes a volume from the britannica and raises it above his head*
Dilapoid: I do./
DeathKnight V4: No.
Dilapoid: UI don't quiote belive you.
Dilapoid: Subconcioulsy even?
DeathKnight V4: Why would I care if you did.
DeathKnight V4: lol
Dilapoid: Beccuasde I am Mtich.
Dilapoid: lol
Dilapoid: I can't even spell my own nanme.
DeathKnight V4: The mind is your own.
DeathKnight V4: You control it as much as it controls you.
DeathKnight V4: Everytime I repress memories they come back and destroy me later.
Dilapoid: Ture.
Dilapoid: I wonder if ture is a word.
DeathKnight V4: So I would rather be in a state of perpetual bleeding than a cycle of total destruction.
Dilapoid: Damnit.
DeathKnight V4: Maybe French.
Dilapoid: Ture is not a word.
Dilapoid: Fuck you dictionary.
Dilapoid: Heh.
DeathKnight V4: No entry found for fuck you dictionary.
DeathKnight V4: Try looking up each word separately:

fuck
you
dictionary
Dilapoid: lol
DeathKnight V4: DIYF=
DeathKnight V4: Do it yourself, fucker.
Dilapoid: And we agree.

Sleep...time.


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Monday, November 10, 2003

This is for you, Jenna.

I am now accepting applications for those who would like to marry me. I only have a select few people whom I would choose, but I suppose I can be swayed. I'm that fickle, folks.

Here's the drill:

1) Send me a PM detailing why you want to marry someone such as me. Do it in a creative fashion--one that catches my eyes (poetry would be a prime example.) Be sure that the proposal is as verbose and as lengthy as to why you would marry me as it can be.

2) Get as many people that recommend me to marry you as you can. Make them write verbose and hotly creative pieces which scream for me to give marriage to your hand. The more the merrier. You must have at least two. More is always less, though. And less is always better than more.

3) Dedicate some part of your signature to me--and make it apparent. Put in bold letters, "Mitch is my long-lost lover," or some other corny phrase. Try to make it as funny as you can, and as short as you can. Because I understand that signatures require other things as well.

4) Be sure, if you have a My O site, to post yet another conveyance of your undying love and want at marriage. Make me proud.

5) Try to include a picture of yourself in some wild pose...or suggestive pose which shall make me really want your hand in marriage. While this isn't required...I highly recommend it. It will sway me. I'm a sucker for sucking up, as well as a sucker for faces.

6) I allow the right to have more than one marriage at a time. I allow myself to be the whore of OB. And all-in-all, each thing you send me or say about me I allow to be used by me in my sig, or otherwise.

Now get to work, and marry me!

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My thoughts exact;y.

Best sink a couple of pints and turn up late, to "ooh" and "aah" over the big battle scene, which perks things up somewhat, even if you do start to root for the machines. Reminiscent of Ray Harryhausen epics, with its convincingly otherworldly effects, it's also heavily influenced by Aliens and The Terminator, without equalling either.

The main issue is that nothing is at stake. By extending Neo's powers to 'the real world' and overplaying the resurrection theme in Reloaded, the makers have removed all sense of danger, and, in fact, all sense at all...

The death of a major character elicits no emotion, the blinding of another brings sighs (you've read your Greek myths, lads - well done!). The more thought you give the film, the less it deserves, and when the (anti)climax rolls round, Smith's nihilistic diatribe sounds endearing. Thus, a would-be paean to the power of belief ends up meaning nothing at all.

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The posting of random conversations begins...

With a lack of wanting to post anything much in here, I shall resort to posting inane conversations upon ye ole AOL Instant Messenger.

The first is one between Ken and I. I highly love Ken, and hope to marry him on a dessert island of ice creamily creamed bloodiness.

And here it begins.

______________________

"Cock a Trices and Sex Ual Fair Ies."

Gurthang16: Where's hell?
DeathKnight V4: New Jersey.
Gurthang16: Ah. I see.
Gurthang16: You coming?
DeathKnight V4: haha.
DeathKnight V4: Yea.
DeathKnight V4: =P
Gurthang16: Don't forget the bat.
Gurthang16: I can't wait to meet the cockatrice down there.
DeathKnight V4: o.o;
Gurthang16: Cockatrices are cool. What?
DeathKnight V4: You know whats cooler?
Gurthang16: Eh?
DeathKnight V4: Sexual Fairies.
DeathKnight V4: o.o
Gurthang16: <.>
Gurthang16: No. Cockatrices are awesome.
DeathKnight V4: SEXUAL FAIRIES
Gurthang16: COCKATRICES
DeathKnight V4: *WAGS FINGER* SEXUAL FAIRIES
Gurthang16: V-V;;'
DeathKnight V4: -_- Bad Mitch.
Gurthang16: *is wagged*
DeathKnight V4: VERY BAD MITCH
Gurthang16: Me bad? No.
Gurthang16: Cockatrices are cool.
DeathKnight V4: Naughty, Sexy Mitch.
DeathKnight V4: =P
Gurthang16: Sexy. Yes, I agree.
DeathKnight V4: SEXUAL FAIRIES
Gurthang16: COCKATRICES
Gurthang16: COCK
Gurthang16: ATRICES
Gurthang16: lol
DeathKnight V4: SEX
DeathKnight V4: UAL
DeathKnight V4: FAIR
DeathKnight V4: IES
Gurthang16: COCK
Gurthang16: A
DeathKnight V4: Cock.
Gurthang16: TRIC
Gurthang16: ES
DeathKnight V4: Mitch wants some Cock.
Gurthang16: -.-
Gurthang16: So what if I do?
Gurthang16: COCKATRICES RULE THE EARTH
DeathKnight V4: SEXUAL FAIRIES POPULATE THE EARTH
Gurthang16: God. Deus ex machina COCKATRICES.
DeathKnight V4: The People!
DeathKnight V4: SEXUAL FAIRIES
Gurthang16: Yes! We the people!
Gurthang16: And cockatrices
Gurthang16: !
Gurthang16: They rule the Earth.
Gurthang16: !
DeathKnight V4: No.
Gurthang16: Si.
Gurthang16: Si. Yes. Si. Yes. Yes. Yes. Yes.
Gurthang16: Yesssssss.
Gurthang16: Yesssss.
Gurthang16: Cockatrices. Yessss.
DeathKnight V4: No.
Gurthang16: =-=
DeathKnight V4: *pulls out a blender*
DeathKnight V4: ITS A HOSPITAL
DeathKnight V4: AhaHAAHAHah
DeathKnight V4: *shoves blender on mitches head*
DeathKnight V4: *puts it on puree*
Gurthang16: Any fucken time any fucken day.
Gurthang16: I still have my cockatrices.
Gurthang16: Bahahah.
DeathKnight V4: *massacres them*
Gurthang16: I'm sorry. You'd die before that happened.
Gurthang16: Just from touching them one dies.
DeathKnight V4: They are all dead.
Gurthang16: But, alas, their blood is poison, as is their breath, their entirety.
Gurthang16: Thus. You die.
Gurthang16: Goodbye. *waves*
DeathKnight V4: My blood is poison.
DeathKnight V4: My breath is poison.
Gurthang16: -.-
Gurthang16: Then you are a cockatrice.
DeathKnight V4: Nah.
DeathKnight V4: i'm a demon who hasnt brushed his teeth.
Gurthang16: It's not possible..no..no...NO...NO...Noooooooooooooooooo.
Gurthang16: Cockatrices are still cool.
Gurthang16: No matter what you say.
Gurthang16: So learn to swim.
Gurthang16: :D
DeathKnight V4: *swims*
Gurthang16: *watches him drown*
Gurthang16: It's really too bad.
DeathKnight V4: How can I drown?
DeathKnight V4: I'm 6 feet tall.
DeathKnight V4: the water is 5 feet deep.
DeathKnight V4: *Stands stareing at him*
DeathKnight V4: o.o;
Gurthang16: The water's infested with Cockatrices.
DeathKnight V4: So?
DeathKnight V4: I killed them all.
DeathKnight V4: They're just floating around.
DeathKnight V4: o.o;
Gurthang16: They still kill.
DeathKnight V4: How?
Gurthang16: The poison.
DeathKnight V4: I'm poison.
DeathKnight V4: Didnt we go through this process already?
Gurthang16: No.
DeathKnight V4: Yes.
DeathKnight V4: *drags him into the pool*
Gurthang16: They turn you to stone.
DeathKnight V4: *shoves his face into a cockrice's body*
DeathKnight V4: DRINK THE MOTHERFUCKING POISON
DeathKnight V4: SMELL IT
Gurthang16: THEY FUCKING TURN YOU TO STONE.
Gurthang16: ONE FUCKING TOUCH ONE FUCKING TAP.
Gurthang16: *turns into stone and sinks*
DeathKnight V4: I didnt touch them.
DeathKnight V4: You did.
DeathKnight V4: o.o
DeathKnight V4: *Gets out and sits on the side*
Gurthang16: *is reincarnated as the mother cockatrice*
DeathKnight V4: Haha! You have a pussy!
DeathKnight V4: HAHAHA
Gurthang16: *looks*
DeathKnight V4: MITCH IS A GIRL COCKATRICE
Gurthang16: *blushes*
DeathKnight V4: Cover yourself up.
DeathKnight V4: With some..
DeathKnight V4: cockatrice.. pants..
DeathKnight V4: ....
DeathKnight V4: .......
DeathKnight V4: or something.
Gurthang16: *takes a tampon*
DeathKnight V4: No.
DeathKnight V4: Dont insert that when i'm looking.
DeathKnight V4: -_-
Gurthang16: lol
Gurthang16: *does it as he is looking*
DeathKnight V4: Bad Mitchena.
DeathKnight V4: Bad Mitchena!
Gurthang16: *hisses at you*
Gurthang16: *lays 2,000 eggs*
DeathKnight V4: Time for some..
DeathKnight V4: scrambeled eggs.
Gurthang16: lol
DeathKnight V4: *nukes them all*
Gurthang16: *flies away*
DeathKnight V4: *chases after her*
Gurthang16: *gathers a straying herd of other cockatrices*
Gurthang16: *sends them after you and quickly builds a nest*
DeathKnight V4: *blows them up with Anti-Air missles*
DeathKnight V4: -_- you cannot hurt el Keno.
DeathKnight V4: *kills Mitch*
Gurthang16: *lays 5 trillion eggs and scatters them all over the world*
DeathKnight V4: *again*
DeathKnight V4: *killed him first. =)*
Gurthang16: *is reincarnated as a Chimera and makes 5 trillion spongebobs with his fractioned mind*
DeathKnight V4: o.o;
Gurthang16: Bahahah.
DeathKnight V4: *kills them*
DeathKnight V4: o.O...;
Gurthang16: *5 million years later*
Gurthang16: You finally killed them all, eh?
DeathKnight V4: Yeap.
Gurthang16: *makes 5 trillion Barneys from his frationed mind*
DeathKnight V4: *walks past them and silently kills mitch*
Gurthang16: *dies*
Gurthang16: *again*
DeathKnight V4: *then instates martial law on his new nation of demonized Barneys*
Gurthang16: lol
Gurthang16: Damn, we really do go places, lol.
DeathKnight V4: haha.
Gurthang16: First it was cockatrices and secxual fairies..Oo
Gurthang16: *sexual
DeathKnight V4: that seems to occur with me around.
Gurthang16: Cockatrices are still awesome. Heh.
Gurthang16: One of the coolest mythological creatures.
DeathKnight V4: IF you say so.
Gurthang16: And only if.
DeathKnight V4: I think the coolest mythological creature is the "Richard Nixon"
DeathKnight V4: Lore has it that way back when he was some sort of leader..
Gurthang16: Haha. But he ain't no mythological creature.
DeathKnight V4: ;P
Gurthang16: He's a damn diety. A god of gods.
Gurthang16: :-P
DeathKnight V4: Could be.
DeathKnight V4: Could damn well be/
Gurthang16: Is well damned be.
Gurthang16: It's been awhile since I've done some comical conversation with Ken as this.
DeathKnight V4: We must do it more often.
DeathKnight V4: While dressed in Tutu's reciting ancient curses from a book I got at the library.
Gurthang16: heh.
Gurthang16: Harlot!
Gurthang16: Thou art a harlot!
DeathKnight V4: Yeap.
Gurthang16: *crooked grin*
DeathKnight V4: ;P
Gurthang16: Thou curr, thou dog. Thou art a villian.
DeathKnight V4: Yeap, Yeap and Yeap.
Gurthang16: *nod nod*
DeathKnight V4: Thou arent e-c-o-modig.
Gurthang16: lol
Gurthang16: That sure chizzles my pussyizzle.
DeathKnight V4: Fer shizzle, yo.
Gurthang16: Yo. Yo. Yo. Bring it down.
Gurthang16: Ken's a dog. He bites, my god.
DeathKnight V4: Niggah, please.
Gurthang16: *points* over there.
DeathKnight V4: Thank you, yo.
Gurthang16: No prob dogg.




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Sunday, November 9, 2003

Gouge away.

I am posting in here again without reason. Eheu.

I have gotten nothing done yet again today. Not a thing.

It's a good thing it is a long weekend...thank god for that. I am so sick of school as it is.

I stayed up the latest I have in a long, long time last night. I ended up just playing Metal Gear Solid 2 just to pass the time. I didn't get to sleep until about 5 AM. That's quite late for me, with school and all.

I think I'll do it again tonight. Nothing else to do. And I like to actually have a heavy sleep.

I am not a heavy sleeper most of the time. I'll wake up in the middle of the morning sometimes, then drift off again into a slow sleep. It's annoying, mostly. I love sleeping.

I think sleeping is one of my favorite things. It's as close to nonexistence as I can come to. It's like a black hole gap in existence that passes so quickly, as if without time or dimension, whereas being awake at daytime, time passes so slow.

I guess I'm just a night person.

Right now I feel comfortably numb. I am just sitting here, doing nothing, listening to Pixies' "Gouge Away." It suits how I feel well.

I also downloaded more MIDIs, and was listening to those earlier. Those things are relaxing...and very mellow. That's the stuff I like. It makes time seem to pass faster than it does.

So yeah, I did not do a thing yet again today. I didn't even get to a friend's house. I probably could have called Adam, but I believe he's gone, and Ryan had bowling.

And Ryan and Adam are the only quote "real" unquote friends I have.

Right now I am in a conning mood. I'm just thinking and quiet. Musical and solemn.

I see tomorrow's face and I see today's death.
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To be a rock and not to roll. And she's buying a stairway to heaven.

It is now that I wish I could go for a walk...hm.

Stupid snow.
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Man, I am MIDIed out.

I just downloaded a whole SHIZ NIZ OF MIDINESS. And I mean a lot. What a lot of senseless clicking that is. O.o.

Yes. This is site is really awesome though...so much music.

I downloaded all of Chrono Trigger's music, all of Xenogear's, all of Final Fantasy 7's, all of Parasite Eve's, all of...I can't even remember. All I know is it's a lot. I have at least 1,000+.

The website is http://www.vgmusic.com. Go download, today!

Heh.
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A nice little poem.

I
tears are always crying
tears are always crying

the cry of the planet
the cry of the planet

tears are always crying
the cry of the planet
tears are always crying

an introspective
view of slaughter
in the niceities of the
open air
offers me a nice view
of the sky's carrion
and cadaver's care.

the planet is moaning
the planet groans.

dead men wander
in the fields
of corn.
children of the corn
and children of the planet.

they all groan together
they all moan.

tears are always crying
tears are always crying

the cry of the planet
the cry of the planet

tears are always crying
the cry of the planet
tears are always crying

trying to bury
what's been destroyed
in ashes
too dead
and too devoid
of emotions.
the insipid taste
offers me a nice skull
full of leeches that call
and maggots
eating it all.

tears are streams
in a mountain
and tears are dreams
in their hearts.
burying it all
in its substance
and part.

water is devoid of form
an escaper of death
with its wet breath.

tears are always crying
tears are always crying

the cry of the planet
the cry of the planet

tears are always crying
the cry of the planet
tears are always crying.

II

the sky is always full
and open and hued gold.
rich in value.

the sky has teeth
that aren't even there
clouds the prickle skin
and little hair.

one day it will blacken
with smog.
one day it will gouge you
with sticks.

it's sharper every day
eating.
feasting on nausea.
asphyxia.

the taste is good to its mouth.
and as it blisters
and as it pusses
one day its mouth will shut.

the sky is always full
but not forever.
and not never.

let us breathe the open air
as we can.

III

urbanity is in the hospital
as a car changes lanes.
the mechanic wizard
of its age.

i see its metal heart
in its chest.
that engine the sputters
like all the rest.

mechanical beetles
that scurry the bones
on narrows and straights.
this is the world alive.
this is the world died.

gasoline like lice
crawling in veins
the ribs that need punching
for getting more and more depraved.

the price for a gallon
inflates like a balloon
smushed hard
and cradled in a cocoon.

the greenness of the money
like the hair of trees.

it is growing but crashing.

when it shall end
it shall end.

IV
a grave in the woods
where children play.
the place where
death played a game.

russian roulette
with no gun
nor bang.
but with
god's name.

jesus some said,
and christ even as well.

the martyr
of hell.

V
what is left to cry
and why?

for such a fickle thing
as life
has its own eyes.

the cry of the planet—
the sputtering beetles—
the greenness of money—
a grave in the woods—

the sky is always
full of woe.

water is always flowing
in our veins.

and sometimes we sweat
and sometimes we bleed.

but other times
we cry what weeds.

to die or live
is not the question
but rather,
it is to escape death
with our machinity.

build forth—build grand—
let us breathe as we can.
for there is a grave in the woods
of us all—

that place where our hearts
shall always lie
and always beat.

and let our hearts be strong
where we belong.
let us know
that life is short.

...

blood on the tracks
that falls on the steel
and is ugly, and beauty
and so free.

blood on the tracks
that melts from my hands
and is full of sweat, and moist
and so smooth.

blood on the tracks
staining all them away
like rabbits, running away,
through their fields
and scampering.

expose
destroyed and dead.
limb by limb
and two by two
we all go to the tracks
and slit our wrists.

in the host of hands
as the train runs by
they put their hands out
in bleed.

in the host of hands
as the train runs by
on all its steam
there isn't anything
but passing.

and dreams will rape you
and dreams will hug you.
and rope will bind you
and rope will hug you.

but that steel is still there
and the tracks still dripping
and the hands still slitting.

the blood on the tracks
that bob dylan knew.
and the blood on the tracks
which is you and i and all.

wll you come through?
will you be cut too?

the train
shall keep going.
and the tracks
shall keep there.

and what happens
will stain our eyes.
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