Thursday, October 23, 2003

murder me
life munches
murder me.
inside my pain
the bloodflower cruel.
twinkle twinkle stupid star.
how i wonder where you are
murder me.
life munches
chews skin
to muscle lines
then bones.

muscle,bone,skin,
deep in me.
life munches
chews skin.

it's either life
murders me.
or i murder me.
choose neither
and choose none.

fate's wide eyes
through freedom's ribs.
the sleep monster sins.
and bleeds in the darkness
that is not feeling,is not killing,
is not living,nor breathing,nor needing.
just breeding.
just sleeping,justdreaming, just cleaving.
here inside my wall.

waiting for the worms
the barnacle's claw
that is my brain's
wide beady eyes.
fate's wide eyes.

murder me.
life munches
chews skin.
rips my heart.
and eats of it.

wandered in the desert
of my mind,the barnacle's claw
found me, sitting alone,behind my wall
tearing my heart out, blood be red
there i talked to me,my life's shed.

"do you eat oyour heart," i asked
in the most quiet lisps of my tongue.
"no," was the answer.
"it eats me."

"does it be bitter?" for bitter
be bitter as bitter fingers are.
he ate of his heart,after so looking to me.
"bitter, yes. but it be bitter
because i be bitter."

he puked of my heart
on desert granite
and died to my feet
murdered by his heart.
torn to sleep's death.

looking to the clouds
where choirs sing above
of god's greatness clue.
and finding the clouds
to be deep blotches
of wounds.
just sleeping,justcleaving,
tighter than a man's head.
and tighter than a mangled deathbird.
life is live even in the sky
breathing its hoe to space's lips.

what a whore's lips
blackness be.
and eternally the dead man
buried in his grave died deamed
he puked of my heart
on dessert granite
and died to my feet
murdered by his heart.
torn to sleep's death.

looking to the clouds
where choirs sing above
of god's greatness clue.
and finding the clouds
to be deep blotches
of wounds.
just sleeping,justcleaving,
tighter than a man's head.
and tighter than a mangled deathbird.
life is live even in the sky
breathing its hoe to space's lips.

what a whore's lips
blackness be.
and eternally the dead man
buried in his grave died.
kissed by the whore
that life knelt.
that stabbed rustily
in his throat.

tear out my heart
there be a hole in my chest
that will bleed the brightest red
so all can drink of death.
tear out my eyes
there be a hole in my head
that will be the brightest black
so all can drink of death.
tear out my arms
and my legs
murder me.

monsterous monstrosity
the humanity
of life's heavetear out my eyes
there be a hole in my head
that will be the brightest black
so all can drink of death.
tear out my arms
and my legs
murder me.

monsterous monstrosity
the humanity
of life's heave.
endlessly
clutching me.
in my sleeve.
and in my lungs.
the oxygen's cleave
cuts me to life.

shoot out my lungs
and smoke them with smoke
then tie a tight rope
on the end of the lump.
pulling tightly to shove.

life rapes you
into life
then murders you
out of it all.
lovely.
like being a virgin
in the flow of nothing.
then nihilistically life creates
and inseminates a lover's pleasure
to make another being forever.
so i can kiss another lover's pleasure
to make another being forever.

murder me.
grey me.
wrinkle me.
shoot me.
strangle me.
i'm amazed i've survived.
survival saved my life.
the life's clutch that chokes
shall kiss my wounds

life rapes you
into life
then murders you
out of it all.
lovely.
like being a virgin
in the flow of nothing.
then nihilistically life creates
and inseminates a lover's pleasure
to make another being forever.
so i can kiss another lover's pleasure
to make another being forever.

murder me.
grey me.
wrinkle me.
shoot me.
strangle me.
i'm amazed i've survived.
survival saved my life.
the life's clutch that chokes
shall kiss my wounds
and masochistic,make a new moon.

an interstellar birth
am i back,a star,to rot my time.
sleepmaker,take your sweet insanity.
to sleep is to be,for a moment, meaningless.
life's endlessness.
tedium,meticulum,fastidium,
built block by block,by reaction.
by fraction,intention,and inflection.

muder me.
MURDER ME.
MuRdER Me.
i live
to breathe.
to die
to heave
to sleep
to be
to hate
to love
to need
to heed
to be
to intend
to cleave
to cut
to wound
to rot
to decay
to sheave
to kiss
to miss
to feel
to kill
to motion
to devotion
to layer
to care
to hair
to brain

to never
ever change.
to always
be
the same.

to live in the whore's lips.
the anal retentive click.
the dream that dreams
the dream of my existence.

to be gone
to be dead
to not be here
to never feel
to never need
to never shed
to never cry
to never touch
to never learn
to never turn
to never kiss
to never want
to never be.
the most best
of all things.
the whore's lips
deny
and leave me
benign.
leave me
to find.

life rapes you
into life.
gives you an umbilical
dream in the light.
then kills you
in cold blood, in cold night
in cold blood.

life murders
murder me.
life murders
and ends all.

suffering
suffer
suffering
suffer
suffering
pleasure
suffer
pleasuring
suffering
pleasure
suffer
pleasuring
sickness
deathing
living
machine.

the endless
knee of knees.
the endless
fingers of finger.
the endless
hands of hand.
the bodies body of
the land.

living
to stand.

erotically
painfully
so light headed.
so beheaded.
so vented.
so close,so gutted.

break me through
freedom's ribs
so i can end
at love's sin

suffering
suffer
suffering
suffer
suffering
pleasure
suffer
pleasuring
suffering
pleasure
suffer
pleasuring
sickness
deathing
living
machine.

the endless
knee of knees.
the endless
fingers of finger.
the endless
hands of hand.
the bodies body of
the land.

living
to stand.

erotically
painfully
so light headed.
so beheaded.
so vented.
so close,so gutted.

break me through
freedom's ribs
so i can end
at love's sin.

for i need
and for i want.
and so life lives.
to want.
and need.

to suffering.
murder me.

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