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Tuesday, September 23, 2003
Mind the gap.
Mood: Read to go for a walk, do the rest of my Latin, then sleep the rest of everything away.
Music:Interpol-The New
I joined Latin club, then picked my brother up from soccer. The way my brother has been recently...hurts in some ways.
He still, as I said in that really long post. acts like he's such a little kid and all. He's struggling in school now...simply because he doesn't want to try and just refuses everything. I was somewhat like this...but not this bad, I hope.
On the way to Taco Bell to eat I talked to him as a brother...tried to say something that would help him..yet he still didn't seem to listen. And that's about all I can really do to try and help him...he's the one that has to open the door.
Today has been a really...melancholy day for me. I've been near depressed, then up again, then down again...and yet I still feel empty and apathetical most of the time. I'm trying to stay happy, and I'm trying not to over-dramatize things...but everything is starting to feel so monotonous...and at times I am brought to that bare fact. But I still try to stay happy.
I've decided...I will go to every single practice of soccer my brother has if I can. And every game. I will sit there and scream at him to do better...now he just usually falls over, lies there, does nothing. But when he tries...you can tell. And I want to get him to the point where he tries. Why I dont' exactly know.
Hopefullly it'll do something for him as he gets older.
Otherwise a walk sounds really good right now. Then study for my history test. Then...sleep. I love sleep. It's one of the best things I know and it never gets old.
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