Saturday, March 27, 2004

The Human Psychology They Will Never Come to See

The Human Psychology They Will Never Come to See
I
I gag myself
to see myself
to show myself
that I am myself
as I see myself

I feel myself
to know myself
to be myself
as I want myself

I feel small
I feel small
I see small
I see small

I feel small

I see small

I look at myself
through myself
in myself
to have myself
as I be myself

I kill myself
to bleed myself
to thin myself
to hold myself
as I bruised myself

Oh I feel
I feel small
Oh I feel
I see small
Oh I feel
I feel small
Oh I feel
I see small

I feel small
I see small
I feel small
I see small

I see small
in these arms
I feel small
in these arms
I see small
in these arms

I hold myself
in my arms
I hold my arms
on my back
in my arms
I hold myself
cradle myself
to feel
I hold myself
I feel myself
to feel

To feel
I do it to feel
To feel
I do it to feel
To feel to feel
I do it to feel

Hold me
I hold me
Hold me
I hold me
Alone
Hold me
I hold me
Hold me
I hold me
Alone
Hold me
I hold me
Hold me
Alone

Alone
I hold me
to myself
on myself
in myself
around myself
over myself
Alone


This is myself
These are myself
It is myself
All of it is myself
No one can take myself
Steal myself
Be myself
Know myself

I see myself
I am myself
I feel myself

I see myself
I am myself
I feel myself

I feel myself
to touch
the touch
to my fingers

I feel myself
to touch
the touch
to my hands

I feel myself
to touch
the touch
to ease
the feeling
to make the feeling
to create the feeling

I feel myself
to myself
on myself
all over myself
to touch
the feeling
to let it be alive
to myself

I have myself
for myself
I have myself
I have it for me
I have myself
I have it for me

None of it is here
but me
None of it is here
but me

But me
But me
But me

Release me
Please
Release me
Please

Please
Oh please
Release me
for myself
to myself
on myself
around myself
all over myself

Release me

II
Shut your eyes
the lashes closed
Shut your eyes
the lashes closed
the sockets closed
the pupils unexposed

Shut your eyes
the lashes closed
Shut your eyes
the lashes closed

I see with my eyes closed
I see
I see with my eyes closed
I see

How can this be?
How can this be?
I see with my eyes closed
I see
I see with my eyes closed
I see

It is you to me to I to these
It is me to you to them to we
It is I to who to some to these
It is all to nothing to every to we

It is not here not there not about
It is not there not here not about
I pout I cry I spout I bout
I cry I spout I bout I pout
Who are these and those
This and that that is we hold

Who are these this that and those
When eyes are shut and lashes closed
Who are you to me to I to them
When eyes are shut and lashes closed

Exposed
Be exposed
Open wide be exposed
Exposed
Be exposed
open wide be exposed

I see you in that pose
I see you wearing a rose
I see you in that pose
I see you wearing a rose

The heart speaks louder
Than what is seen
The heart bleeds louder
Than what it means
The heart knows better
Than what it breathes
The heart is greater
It is not a machine
It is alive it is a being

The eyes speak louder
Than nothing there is
The eyes blear louder
Than nothing they hear
The eyes see nothing
More than they fear
The eyes are windows
Vantages where we fear
more than when we're near

The eyes see nothing
In the small Earth
see nothing worthwile
to touch so worth
The eyes see nothing
They are flirts
And glean on over
The reality of the world
Making it not twirl
Making it not whirl
Making it mechanical
and sprawl in on
the bodies
and sprawl in on
the assets

For eyes are holes
And holes are meant to be entered
And holes that can see what enters
Should not be holes
And holes should not hold so as they do
They should not glance where they go
Eyes shall blind as and we do not even know

The heart knows better
Than what it breathes
The heart bleeds more
It is not a machine
The eyes give it vision
The heart give it worth
The eyes give it clarity
The heart give it hurt

I close my eyes
To breathe with my heart
I close my eyes
To breathe with my heart

The breathing is a wheeze
It coughs it sneezed
I cannot do this right
I cannot breathe without a fight
I close my eyes
To breathe my heart
And in my throat
I catch it sharp
And my eyes want to see it
And focus the view
But I shall not
See the hurt so true

I stiched a name into my heart
With words which matter
Which have much to say
I stiched a name into my heart
The operation severs the art
It awakens it all and groans here
The blood vessels are what you should fear

The blood vessels are what you should fear
Full of anger anguish here
Full of meaning breathing feeling that sears
The blood vessels are what you should fear
Eyes have nothing, mean nothing
Here

What I see
is more near
The heart that beats
Thuds my ears

III
The android
Is a human machine
The android
Is still human but a machine
The android is human
But still a machine

You seek to tear me, rend me
Bend me to believe
You seek to tend me, fend me
Bend me to believe

You seek to take my heart
as it bleeds.

You will not.

I am an android
I am a human machine
I am an android
I am a human machine.

You will not numb me
You will not dumb me
You will not make mechanical
I will not be a mechanical animal

You seek to take my heart
as it bleeds.
You will not take it
that is me.

You will not take it
that is me.

You will not take it
that is me

I will be an andriod

I will be a human machine.

And in your presence
I will be a machine.

And in her presence
I will be a human being.
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