Saturday, August 27, 2005

   It's the end of the month I gotta pay the rent , I wish I was the President
Lalalalalala AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
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So I just started my High Skool Year... Woop-DE-FUCKIN'-DO.... I've met alot of old friends and I've made some awesome friends...so my skool dont suck that much...but I've fallen asleep in one of my classes...and some ppl Said that I was high... So I dk... It was b/c I was laughing at a lot of stupid shit...and one of my friends bit/scrached my hands but me and her were cracking up afterwards....

I got the new Dope CD fuckin' love them...my da wasnt so happy about me gettin' it...all mad about the anarchy sign....ooooh its so bad ooh...and yet he bought me tarot cards with hardly an objection...hmm...he's FUCKED up...

So I'll c'ya guys laterz...
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I might be dreamin' but these lights these trippy lights keep me livin'...
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Sunday, May 22, 2005

   Sick
Hey guys I am not feeling well I have my court date comming up and I am getting sicker...blood is spuing out of my mouth so Ima take a fews days off and never log back on if you want you can IM me any time ex at 1:00 a.m. I am not in my house at that time I amwalking or shooting my bow and arrow or w/e the fuck it is haha a state champ has to do her term Psycholoagy paper and stiop sum one from killing himself yesh I am so sleepy that I cant sleep which is really werid does any one know what can help me on that........hate me I dont care just dont bug me any more I am so sick of the names my dad calls me so plz plz find the true nature in your heart to stop bugging me and saying I am A "poser" cuz I am NOT calling my self "gojth" its an ancient tribe fromt eh 16oos to 17oos so yea I reed to much hephe .....by9epl DAMN CAT!!
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   Sorry I havent been posting lately I just met with my lawyer just yesterday and I am so sleepy not being able to cry takes a lot out of me.....sleeeeeeeeeeeeeep
Call me what you want a bitch poser whatever...if every person who called me that I dont think I'd be here right now....ok time for one of my poems that I have been working on la-di-da. Hehe
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~Who said~
Who said love was easy?
Who said letting you go was simple?
Who said forgetting you wouldn’t be hard?
Who said that love was hard?
Who said the thoughts of you would go away?
Who said love was easy?
Who said letting you go was simple?
Who said forgetting you wouldn’t be hard?
Who said that love was hard?
Who said the thoughts of you would go away?
Who said the thoughts of you would go away just like that?
Who said any of this?
Why would I give up?
If it wasn’t meant to be then it won’t be.
I’ll give all of this up just forget you and all of this…pain.
I’d give it all away for love.
Who said love was easy?
Who said letting you go was simple?
Who said forgetting you wouldn’t be hard?
Who said that love was hard?
Who said the thoughts of you would go away?
Who said love was easy?
Who said letting you go was simple?
Who said forgetting you wouldn’t be hard?
Who said that love was hard?
Who said the thoughts of you would go away?
Who said the thoughts of you would go away just like that?
Who said any of this?
Why would I give up?
If any of this was easy can it be?
Or was it all harder for you?
WHY…?
WHY…?
WHY…?
WHO SAID…. That this was easy?
WHO SAID….That the thoughts would fade away?
WHO SAID ANY OF THIS!?
WHY…?
WHY…?
WHY…?
Tears hit me hard,
They hit me fast,
They hit me strong.
How could this be so hard?
It wasn’t hard for you?
Why is this so hard to forget all of the love we once had?
ALL OF MY THOUGHTS OF YOU FLOOD MY MIND LIKE THE BIGGEST STORM……
WHY…?
WHY…?
WHY…?
WHO SAID….That this was easy?
WHO SAID….That the thoughts would fade away?
WHO SAID ANY OF THIS!?
WHY…?
WHY…?
WHY…?
Tears could hit me hard,
They could hit me fast,
They could hit me strong.
How could this be so hard?
It wasn’t hard for you?
It could never be hard for you.
If I tried could I lie?
Who said love was easy?
Who said letting you go was simple?
Who said forgetting you wouldn’t be hard?
Who said that love was hard?
Who said the thoughts of you would go away?
Who said love was easy?
Who said letting you go was simple?
Who said forgetting you wouldn’t be hard?
Who said that love was hard?
Who said the thoughts of you would go away?
Who said the thoughts of you would go away just like that?
Who said any of this?
Why would I give up?
If it wasn’t meant to be then it won’t be.
I’ll give all of this up just forget you and all of this…pain.
I’d give it all away for love.
Who said love was easy?
Who said letting you go was simple?
Who said forgetting you wouldn’t be hard?
Who said that love was hard?
Who said the thoughts of you would go away?
Who said love was easy?
Who said letting you go was simple?
Who said forgetting you wouldn’t be hard?
Who said that love was hard?
Who said the thoughts of you would go away?
Who said the thoughts of you would go away just like that?
Who said any of this?
Why would I give up?
If it was that easy why didn’t you go….?
If I was that conniving why’d you stay….?
If I was that vain why’d you stay….?
Who said love was easy?
Who said letting you go was simple?
Who said forgetting you wouldn’t be hard?
Who said that love was hard?
Who said the thoughts of you would go away?
Who said love was easy?
Who said letting you go was simple?
Who said forgetting you wouldn’t be hard?
Who said that love was hard?
Who said the thoughts of you would go away?
Who said the thoughts of you would go away just like that?
Who said any of this?
Why would I give up?
If it wasn’t meant to be then it won’t be.
I’ll give all of this up just forget you and all of this…pain.
I’d give it all away for love.
Who said love was easy?
Who said letting you go was simple?
Who said forgetting you wouldn’t be hard?
Who said that love was hard?
Who said the thoughts of you would go away?
Who said love was easy?
Who said letting you go was simple?
Who said forgetting you wouldn’t be hard?
Who said that love was hard?
Who said the thoughts of you would go away?
Who said the thoughts of you would go away just like that?
Who said any of this?
Why would I give up?
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Friday, May 20, 2005

   ~has a shakey voice~When was the last time I was high??????????????????
~has a shaky voice~When was the last time I was high?????????????????? May 20, 2005, 04:15:am

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Ohhh man I cant remember the last time I was high....the only thing I got high off of was a perment marker, pain killers, and maybe some speed...wait was it last week?? Yesterday?? Oh man now this is gunna bug me all day....and I have a mid-term paper due for my psychology class hehehehehehehe Wait I am always high...ooooooooooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa hehehehehe ~laughs for no reason~Infomertals/Paid Programing are FUNNN!!! Hehehehe....~giggles for no reason~
Signs I was/am high:
1)When I laugh/giggle for no reason.
2)When I laugh/giggle in a library.
3)When I ask if you have a perment marker.
4)When I do some thing stupid.
5)When I scream/yell at the computer.
6)When I think I saw Eric Griffin or Joey Jordison.
7)When I have the "munches".
8)When I over eat. (I only eat one meal every two days so I am obviously high)
9)When I ask if you have some "snackums".
Mood:High, high as a kite
Music:You Spin Me Right Round-Marilyn Manson
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Thursday, May 19, 2005

   If you guys can guess who these people are I'll give ya a cookie....BOO COO I have none damn it






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Sunday, May 15, 2005

   Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
I HATE SPAMERS!!! I decided to go to my e-mails I have waaaay to many accounts but any ways my e-mail was flooded with spam, and ironicly I am listening to "Pissed"-Dangerous Toys, maybe I'll change it to "Leather Boyz With Electric Toyz"-Pretty by Floyd, any ways my computer almost crashed on me but gladly enough it didnt so yea I am happy.
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Humans: Worthless, peathic, heartless beings who deserve to be wiped off the face of this decaying world. Yet some of them are good and kind hearted and deserve to stay on this rotting world.
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Human Psyci: Murders, killers, rapeist, theifs, pedifiles really only a sub-concious part of the brain, while the right side knows EXACTLY what (s)he is doing the left lobe of the brain tells them that they are doing right but when they are doing wrong so hence the right side is trying to get them to stop but the left lobe of the brain is to over powering, in some cases they have had the frontal lobe removed, an old experiement where the front of the brain is removed and all violent human emotions are removed to prevent the accused from commiting the crime again. But for some people/accused that is not the problem, the problem is from something more deeply seeded: the family. All of the accused have been turned into what they are today b/c of the family, either it was the mother, father, brother, sister, or any one in the family, you can be a victim and if subjected to it the abuse long enough you can turn into any of the above.
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   My Majors. THEY ARE SO HARD TO LEARN!!

¢¾¢¾¢¾What I am majoring in:¢¾¢¾¢¾

☻Photography

☻Music

☻Instraments

☻HTML

☻Painting

☻Drawing

☻Singing

☻Animal Care

☻Computer Graphics; Example(s):☻, ¡×, ¢¾

☻Human Psychology

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Friday, May 13, 2005

   Stop, stop the lies!
I wish people would stop liying to me, they say they love me then what do they go and do, they go and hurt me....I just wish the lies would just STOP...if you really love me so much then why do you do this to me...I have enough shit to deal with I have to find a job and I have to help my Mummy dearest b/c of my Dad who will reamain nameless. DAMN IT ALL THE WAY TO HELL!!!!!!!!!!!! Ok my rantings are done, how was your day?
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   Well La-di-da its not MY fault you're such an ass-hole!
If I'd known my dad would be such a dead beat I'd gotten a job sooner than later, now, now I need to get a job and I am only 14 but no he doesnt want to give me money or me Mummy dearest money to pay the bills he--being the fat mother fucker that he is-- blames my mum b/c she USE to go to bingo USE to being the main words, so now he is focing me to waste my spare time tring to get a job...DAMN HIM, ey Danny umm yea we prb wont be able to spend much more time w/each other any more Idk but we'll see how it'll cuts up to...So YEA I have little spare time any ways so this Sat. I am going to try and find a job baby sitting maybe Idk and Idc all that much just have to get sum thing to help pay my mum's bills just enough to help us. Well um yea bye guys.
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Monday, May 9, 2005

   No names/Nobodies/Nameless
I look around at all the no names.
They want to...kill me?
But I am already dead...can¡¯t they see?
Why, why, why?
We're the no names...the nobodies.
We've engraved our names into our nameless tombstones.
I'm already dead.
Can¡¯t you see what you've done to me?
Why cant--?
We aren¡¯t the ones.
But we are the...the no names...the nobodies.
We've engraved our names into our nameless tombstones.
Make all the rest depressed.
That¡¯s my job...YES! That is my job, and I can¡¯t wait till next time they want me dead I have some tricks I need to show them. We¡¯re the nobodies the ones who slit our wrist and slit your necks.
CUT US OUT, make a scene and then¡¦SCREAM!!!!
Say it once say it twice take the chance and take the lives of the ones you detest.
La ah ha¡¦ I look around at all the no names.
They want to...kill me?
But I am already dead...can¡¯t they see?
Why, why, why?
We're the no names...the nobodies.
We've engraved our names into our nameless tombstones.
I'm already dead.
Can¡¯t you see what you've done to me?
Lalala I hope you can see me in here in this glass tomb that you¡¯ve buried me in.
So far away, far from grace in this town of the fallens.
They call us the fallen, the no names, the nameless, even if we¡¯re the nobodies.
Inside of these walls are hidden fallen ones the ancient ones¡¦NO MAN NOR WOMAN CAN SAVE YOU NOR ME!!!
I¡¯d give it all away, I¡¯d give it all up if I only could, if they¡¯d only let me.
I can¡¯t say what¡¯s on my mind¡¦give me a day, a lifetime of lies, WHY?
How could you?
A quick yelp, a blood curling scream, a shivering voice, a quaky voice begging for you not to do what you¡¯re to do¡¦to me.
I¡¯d give it all away, I¡¯d give it all up if I only could, if they¡¯d only let me.
I can¡¯t say what¡¯s on my mind¡¦give me a day, a lifetime of lies, WHY?
How could you?
A quick yelp, a blood curling scream, a shivering voice, a quaky voice begging for you not to do what you¡¯re to do¡¦to me.
They say not to yelp, whimper, cry, yell, quake, scream, shiver, but all I could do was all of that and die.
The blood on the wall¡¯s drying, I lay dying.
Oh how I never meant for things to go so aware so much of this is my fault.
You¡¯re not meant for me they were right you and I can never be.
And yet how hard we tried to stop the lies and the betrayals, can you ever for give me?
CUT US OUT, make a scene and then¡¦SCREAM!!!!
Lalala I hope you can see me in here in this glass tomb that you¡¯ve buried me in.
So far away, far from grace in this town of the fallens.
They call us the fallen, the no names, the nameless, even if we¡¯re the nobodies.
Inside of these walls are hidden fallen ones the ancient ones¡¦NO MAN NOR WOMAN CAN SAVE YOU NOR ME!!!
I¡¯d give it all away, I¡¯d give it all up if I only could, if they¡¯d only let me.
I can¡¯t say what¡¯s on my mind¡¦give me a day, a lifetime of lies, WHY?
How could you?
A quick yelp, a blood curling scream, a shivering voice, a quaky voice begging for you not to do what you¡¯re to do¡¦to me.
I¡¯d give it all away, I¡¯d give it all up if I only could, if they¡¯d only let me.
I can¡¯t say what¡¯s on my mind¡¦give me a day, a lifetime of lies, WHY?
How could you?
A quick yelp, a blood curling scream, a shivering voice, a quaky voice begging for you not to do what you¡¯re to do¡¦to me.
They say not to yelp, whimper, cry, yell, quake, scream, shiver, but all I could do was all of that and die.
For all the lies you and I have told they will shun us they will tear us apart to kill us.
The caked blood on the wall is that is left of us and what we were.
All the blood it¡¯s worth nothing, nothing.
The blood curling screams of lovers being killed made not one person help us.
If only we could take them all back to before.
No names, the nameless, the nobodies, why use such names?
If they¡¯re only to bring us down.
Running, running like mice in a maze.
Just shoot us now.
The blood on the wall¡¯s drying, I lay dying.
Oh how I never meant for things to go so aware so much of this is my fault.
You¡¯re not meant for me they were right you and I can never be.
And yet how hard we tried to stop the lies and the betrayals, can you ever for give me?
CUT US OUT, make a scene and then¡¦SCREAM!!!!
Lalala I hope you can see me in here in this glass tomb that you¡¯ve buried me in.
So far away, far from grace in this town of the fallens.
They call us the fallen, the no names, the nameless, even if we¡¯re the nobodies.
Inside of these walls are hidden fallen ones the ancient ones¡¦NO MAN NOR WOMAN CAN SAVE YOU NOR ME!!!
I¡¯d give it all away, I¡¯d give it all up if I only could, if they¡¯d only let me.
I can¡¯t say what¡¯s on my mind¡¦give me a day, a lifetime of lies, WHY?
How could you?
A quick yelp, a blood curling scream, a shivering voice, a quaky voice begging for you not to do what you¡¯re to do¡¦to me.
I¡¯d give it all away, I¡¯d give it all up if I only could, if they¡¯d only let me.
I can¡¯t say what¡¯s on my mind¡¦give me a day, a lifetime of lies, WHY?
How could you?
A quick yelp, a blood curling scream, a shivering voice, a quaky voice begging for you not to do what you¡¯re to do¡¦to me.
They say not to yelp, whimper, cry, yell, quake, scream, shiver, but all I could do was all of that and die.
For all the lies you and I have told they will shun us they will tear us apart to kill us.
The caked blood on the wall is that is left of us and what we were.
All the blood it¡¯s worth nothing, nothing.
The blood curling screams of lovers being killed made not one person help us.
If only we could take them all back to before.
No names, the nameless, the nobodies, why use such names?
If they¡¯re only to bring us down.
Running, running like mice in a maze.
Just shoot us now.
Shoot us now
Shoot us now
Show us how.
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