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I'm feeling horrible.
I'm crying.
And today sucked.
I broke his heart.
And now he hates me.
He says its all my fault.
I want to say "Fuck you" so badly.
But I can't.
I'm sorry.
Today was terrible
for me. I broke up with someone
very special. But I just didn't
like him. I only cared for him.
And now...he hates me.
I cried for a long time.
But oh well.
Suck it up.
Haha.
My song makes me all energetic.
Makes me think
I'm an actual cheerleader.
Pfft, whateva,lol.
But I like it :)
Well, so far,
I've been feeling okay.
No, not really.
I'm sad, pissed off
and really confused.
Sad-I won't say.
Pissed off-Parents
(ehh, I'll probably
be on good terms
with em by tomorrow.)
Confused-Boy stuff.
Yesh, it kinda sucks,
but I'm sure I'll survive.
Thanksgiving is almost here.
Yay, I have an excuse for eating alot,lol.
I never do :(
But I'm sure I'll enjoy it.
We're going to my cousins house to
celebrate it.
Should be interesting.
I guess if you really wanna know
about whats going on you'd PM me, but
you don't have to.
(You:Phew)
(Me:Eff you)
(You:That's not very nice)
(Me:Yo momma isn't very nice)
(You:Whatcha say to me betch??)
(Me:Chicken)
(You:WHAT??)
(Me:Exactly.)
lol,sorry about that.
Hmm, that's about it.
Take carez and stuff.
ttyl :3
And that's it really.
Last night I had a fight with someone.
I'm not going to say who.
Maybe those who really know me
might've guessed.
Good job.
After that stupid fight, my dad had this
conversation with me. Honestly, I was scared
at first. Because everytime we have one-on-one
conversations, he's either REALLY pissed off
at me, or pissed off at his workers, so eventually he'll take it out on me (funny really)
But this time he wasn't mad. Shocker.
He told me how he understood me.
And I was like," No you don't...liar".
=X I thought he was really mad when I said that.
But he laughed and said,"Not completely".
He understood how I could fight with that person.
He said things like," I know she can get annoying, and you know..".
I wanted to laugh.
After that weird, yet needed, conversation
I went to sleep.
Which was (again) weird because it was only 9:45 O__O.
I usually sleep at 2am or 3am on weekends.
But it was a nice sleep,lol, soo yeah.
Right now...I NEED to go to a party.
Ughh.
It's like I have to...pfft, me and my stupid
needs,lol. Maybe you've noticed I changed my song again...and it fits..lol.
I hadn't heard this song in a loong time,
but I love it,lol.
Pretty pretty old old.
Yeah, if you don't like it...I could just
careless..cause it's my site...betches,hehe.
JK-No...I meant it, in the friendliest way possible =)
That's it I guess.
Mood:Indifferent,
in need of a huge crowd
around me,lol.
Well, I won't make this post too long (hopefully)
I know everyone hates reading long posts.
Things have been going almost great. And yeah, that's good =)
Me and Matthew decided to stay friends, and I think it's for the best, I guess I was just confused and all. But it's okay now.
Like my new songs?
It's a short playlist of mine.
It has:
Sex Pistols-Anarchy in the UK
Motley Crue-Anarchy in the UK
The Ramones-Blitzkrieg Bop
Guns N Roses-Sweet Child O' Mine
The Clash-London Calling
Motorhead-Ace of Spades.
A little metal/punk fusion for ya.
Well, my eyes are burning, so that's about it.
(A-ha! It IS short.Kinda.Fuckk whoever said it wouldn't be,haha).
Alright.
I'll go visit some sites now.
Ehh, I've been acting kinda careless, and
reckless I might even say.
I haven't been too moody, but confused lately.
Mishy, if you're reading this,you probably guessed it. It has to do with a boy.
That's all I'm saying.
I don't really feel comfortable talking about these kind of things for some reason.
It hardly ever happens.
I know, I'm confusing you, but...maybe later on
I'll be able to talk about it more openly, I guess. Highly doubt it.
And one of my teachers is making it much worse.
Odd huh?
I mean, I don't think they can really intrude on your personal life. I'm the kind of person who likes to think teachers have no life, other than teaching. I dunno, I'll just kinda freak out with I see them at the movies or at an arcade wearing shorts,lol.
Well, anyways, my speech teacher, is trying to pair me up sooo badly with a kid named Armando.
Since we both did a same topic, and we kinda dress alike, (meaning style), she keeps asking me, "Have you met him??" or "Isn't he just adorable?". XP haha.
I find it amusing really, doesn't piss me off.
I guess it's cause she's one of my fave teachers =), and I don't have too many at that.
And I must admit, I do find Armando rather cuute <3, BUT, I won't admit it to my teacher, hehe.
He likes anime and cosplayed as Kakashi once, oh squee, lol.
But, I won't give too much thought into him or anything relating to THAT.
I should befriend him though, he'd make a lovely friend =3
*sighs* But the boy problem thingy doesn't
invovle him. Someone else that I really care about...but...I'm rather confused.
I neeeeedd to hear from a close friend sooo badly. I don't want them to like, give me advice,I won't force em, but it's nice when you have someone who is willing to listen to you, no matter how tedious it might be, right?
(I'm deciding to do this only for today):
Questions.
1-Have you ever lied just so you
won't hurt another person's feelings?
(Yess.)
2-Which do you think is better, loyalty or honesty?
(Honesty.)
3-Do you like your name?
(No, but I've learned to live with it.)
4-How old are you?
(14, I might've forgotten peoples ages
around here XD.)
5-If the world were to end right, who would
be that ONE person you'd want beside you?
(Pfft, I dunno. Someone who really matters
to me I guess.)
That's about it, I'll visit some sites today,kay?
take cares and have a great day =3
(Sorry if it was a bit long).
Mood:Apathetic, I might say.
Yesteday was the solo and ensemble.
I got a 2.
That's good.
You can get a 1-5.
One being the best.
Our teacher would only accept 1's and 2's.
He wouldn't hear of 3's, 4's, and 5's haha.
But my teacher thought our judge was being unfair. He said, "He was only giving one's to girls with blue eyes," AWWKWAARD.
He told me I deserved a one, haha, fuckk you judge dude! Sorry, no...I'm not, I'm twisted like that.
We had to be at school by 6:30, it was soo cold and dark outside. I loved it.
Well..it was in the 60's..and thats cold for us,lol. We arrived at La Joya, wherever that was, at around 7:20-ish. I was the 6th one to sing...very very nervous. I think our choir teacher chose that order on purpose, grr, lol.
After I sang, I had to wait with my friends...for about 7 damn hours in the schools cafeteria..ughhh..soo soo boring.
We left that school at around 2:30 and went to Peter Piper. Ate pizza, talked to friends...etc etc.Then I went to play DDR, yeah, yeah...loads of fun-.-
Man, I'm gonna hate tomorrow sooo badly.
I am SERIOUSLY going to cry.
Not gonna say why yet.
Maybe later.
Next post? I dunno.
I suppose that's about it.
Well, off to visit sites now.
ttyl&loads of huggs and all that stuff =]
The weather is soo cool almost cold.
I love this kind of weather cause I live in Texas, it's always hott.
Our summers are humid and our winters (pssh winters) are short.
But that's cause I live at the very bottom of Texas, near the gulf of mexico...sorta-ish.
I'm going back home today.
I hate it.
I hate Sundays so much.
I have reasons.
I have some choir shit, and I think I might get
sickk or something. It's usually because of the stupid weather, dammit.
Oh riight.
Saturday I have solo and ensemble competition
(sp?).
It's in La Joya...no idea where that's at.
About 2-3 hours from where I live.
I have be at school by 6:30 AM, we'll be back
at 4:00. It should be funn cause we're gonna
eat at Peter Piper Pizza =)
I can kick Gabriels ass in DDR there, eek.
Well..Imma go practice my song.
It's called "If", really pretty, but
I hate how it starts.
I would much rather "Send forth a Song" or "The Violet".
Oh well. I think I sound really nice =)
I have improved.
Added a vid to my profile.
Dunno if you like it.
I'll visit some sites today, if I get the chance. Loads of huggs and all that stuff ^^.
Buh bye.
Halloween.
Yup, I love it so.
Horror films, costumes, candy, blood, scaring
little kids, and how can I forget, I have an essay due that date. Fuck.
I might go to the fall festival today.
I won't be dressed up like last year though.
Well..I think it's about time I confess it all.
I'm going out with a boy.
I love him. Just not LOVE love him.
He's great, he's quite the hottie (haha),
and he really knows how to make me laugh and
feel comfortable.
There's one TINY LITTLE problem.
I think I might just like his best friend.
Goshh, what a whore(me).
His friends name is Shiloh.
He's funny and cute. And he listens to Metallica,
Anthrax, Iron Maiden,Alice in Chains I don't know...just
the kinda guy I always sorta pictured myself with. Man...I think I started KINDA liking
him when I heard him play his guitar...
the boy is a fucking GENIUS.
He's like the white Jimi Hendrix, seriously.
I guess I am in mad love with his skills, haha.
But, I'm gonna forget about him,
he's my homeboy,haha.
Nothing more, nothing less.
Plus Matthew is nearly perfect for me.
Or so. No he's not. But he's still a great
guy that I really love. Not LOVE love.
But still. I shouldn't act like this =(
New bg, new song.
This song breaks my heart.
I cry everytime I hear it I don't know why.
I love it. I love that man (Johnny Cash).
Ohh...do you think me...being 14...8th grade..
You think it's alright for me to have like..
a boyfriend? I'm not too young am I?
Goshh..I feel so old-fashioned =).
Alright, peace outt homies ;)
(ppsssshh...hehe)
Ehh, ignore the random title.
It was just for the heck of it.
Well..Friday was our homecoming game, gosh,
it totally sucked. We lost. On OUR own stadium.
I myself feel like a loser now TT__TT
Oh wellz.
I still had lotz of fun ^^.
I talked with plenty of friends and...something
very very awesome happened to me.
I just dont want to share it just now ^///^.
No school Monday, kick ass.
I hope my friends and I can get together and go
do something fun and stuff.
Like ice-skating, or the movies...I dont know.
It's been quite a while since we've done something like that.
Well, I'm gonna visit people who update like at midnight or so, then the rest.
Take carez and...I dunno.
P.S: Like my new theme?
How bout my song..?
(There's a reason I chose that song, I WAS going to see Alice in Chains October 5th, dammit all)
Listening to:Put Your Money Where your
Mouth is (Jet)
Mood: Okay, happy...normal I guess
I'm at school right now...yup.
I'm kinda pissed off at the guy I used to like
and stuff.
He's being a total ass.
Then I ask him, "Why are you being a betch?"
He gets even more bitchyy..mehh, screw him.
But...they say he still likes me.
I dunno, ugh, i hat being confused.
I'm suppose to be working on a speech report..and i am, but i decided to pay you guys a visit, appriciate it, cuzz i'm risking myself here.
I dun think I can visit.
Okay, i just found out I CAN be on the otaku, yay..i'm safed,haha.
Just not on myspace..oohh.
Alright then, a fellow classmate is being an ass, && i have to go, take carez ^^
Mood: Could be better
Listening to: Andy being an idiot
=] bai bai
