Sunday, March 26, 2006

Blue
Well after a couple of weeks being away from my àrents it had to come, I´m blue. Well I´m sad yet I haven´t cried or anything, actually my uncle exaggerated when he talked to my dad he said he found me crying, my dad of course didn´t believe him since I barely cry, not even when I break a bone. Well today was my grandparent´s anniversary, if my g-ma as alive they would have 58 years married. Is sad, all her family was here so it was full house and a couple of friends, it was nice... well I´m tired now so I´ll go to bed now.
Everyone take care,
Gabriela
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Wednesday, March 22, 2006

   Guess what?
Life is fun. I´m getting use to life more and more every day here. I made friends, yipeeee!!!! Well I had friends already but since they are still in high school and I´m in college I had to make new friends, one of which is gonna get married soon. Did you know there is 7 Gabriella´s in the classes I´m in, its crazy. I´ve been writting more, with an optimistic point of view now, even if in one of my classes we only talk about depressive moments. Being the youngest in my college is not easy but I´m hanging in there ^_^ I´m gonna visit other uncles and aunts I don´t know yet, I´m happy even though people keep annoying me about my weight, hehehehe, I don´t really care, I´m me and no one is to change me, if they love me they will accept me for who I am! Right!
Much love,
Gab
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Sunday, March 12, 2006

   Laughing all day long
Guess what people, I have internet connection, well its only at night, like really at night. Tomorrow I start school and guess what, I can´t sleep, I was playing with my doggie all night so I smell like a dog, hehehe. I got to see a couple of cousins today and the little 9 year old cousin I have didn´t stop hugging me and her dad has to pull her away literaly from me when I had to leave. I guess is a sign now since all the little kids I have met have practically adored me, I feel so loved. Is crazy, little kids and animals love me, and I get along with the elderly. Has my aura changed? I think so, I feel more free kind of, everything´s good besides for the first 2 days here, I even got along with my cousins better. Mostly my cousin Oswaldo who I had never really gotten along with and by the end of the week we were hugging all the time and going everywhere. Well my aunt is kicking me out of the comp since I have school.

Much love, I mean it.
GABBY
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Saturday, March 11, 2006

Hey there again
Well I got hom, lets just say the party went well, except for 2 drunks that pretty much ruined part of the time but it was crazy. My flight was delayed and I had to spend 4 hours in Miami, with a giant overcoat my dad made me wear and carrying 50 pounds of stuff in my hand bags T_T worst was getting home at 1|00 am My life has been pretty hectic, the next thing I know is that I have a million relatives and well it was a mess. I talked to my best friend from here and I´m actually meeting her on Friday, sleepover, hadn´t had one of those in years, I remember her brother was pretty cute so who knows.... XDDDD I have a problem, I think I´m still in love with my ex-boyfriend and is horrible, I need to think happy thoughts. Anyways I love you all, start school on Monday wish me luck.
hugs and lots of kisses
Gabby


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Tuesday, February 28, 2006

   Hyper
Well my nervousness kind of went away by the fact that embarrasment took over XDD. My aunt send me a picture of the dress I have to wear for my grand-pa's 80th b-day bash. Lets just say it in one word, "PINK" Last time I wore a dress, nevertheless pink was when I was 8 years old. HEHEHE, those days when I didn't realize I loved green, purple and white. Fact of the matter is 300 people are attending my grandpa's birthday, that is a lot of people, mostly people he knew aons ago, family I don't know(I have a huge family, no kidding) and friends of both his sons and himself (meaning their whole families included) I'm gonna be laughing at myself once I get there, well the party is exactly 32 hours after I arrive, and Ecuadorian parties go onto the next's day's afternoon. Funny part, I get home at 12:00 am, that is when I get outside the airport with my bags and everything. That day I have to be at school at 9:00 am, so that leaves me with exactly 5 hours to sleep because I average that my aunts are gonna be talking until 4:00 am. And yeah from the song I posted I am a pretty talkative person now a days, should have seen me when my cousins came to visit, I was talking like a parrot, non-stop. So unlike me, lol. Today is my last day and I have to be stuck in the Miami airport tomorrow for 4 hours, not that bad but I'm gonna run out of things to do. I want to thank all of my friends here for all their support, I love you guys so much.
Thanks to Lydia, Casey, Tim, Kevin, Dani, Manda. If I forget anyone is not my fault, think this, 16 year old girl, all night re-packing(my bag broke), has had a lot of caffeine and was a nervous reck until just recently.
Much love,
Gabby
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Monday, February 27, 2006

Butterflies on my stomach
Okay, there is exactly 1 1/2 days til my flight and I'm feeling sick, I mean really sick, I have butterflies on my stomach, feeling like I'm gonna faint, and my worries started my eczema again so I've been bleeding from my arms, which hurts like hell. I've barely got any sleep last night T_T I'm gonna miss my family sooooooooooooooooooooo much I mean I have never been so much time apart from them, even if I feel alone even if they are near but I'm really nervous. I keep having nightmares about school and new people. One good news though, I'm gonna be a cousin again, well second cousin since my cousin Ingrid is pregnant. I love kids so much, its a thing that comes from being from a huge family, my friends all told me they see me in 10 years with 5 kids already XDDD. Well that is all I have to say for now.
Much love, hugs and kisses to all,
Gabriela
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Friday, February 24, 2006

   If people are interested
Well if people are interested to view more of my works, mostly poetry I'm in allpoetry.com/IceRose A better view of what I think at times ^_^;
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Thursday, February 23, 2006

   Another new song- title- Past
I hope people like this one

Past

There was a girl
A shy little person who used to never talk of what she felt
To anyone…..

There was a child
Who used to hide behind the pages of the books she read
Hiding from herself
Hiding from emotions to come

Tell me
Why has the past come back so suddenly
Tell me
Why do I feel like I should hide…again
Tell me
What I did wrong to deserve
The feelings that I get
Of being alone

I might be surrounded
By a bunch of people
But who the hell knows who I am
I’m slowly
Burning out
Someone please just help me
Understand who I am

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Saturday, February 18, 2006

   much better
Well, my raisin and oatmeal cookies did the trick with my mum. She is not mad anymore even though I keep my safe distance. Well nothing else to say but
Much love and I mean it much love,
Gabby
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Friday, February 17, 2006

   Well....
I had a fight with my mum last night trying to defend my dad. Well you see my mum called my dad while he was talking internationally and when I went with my dad to pick her up she began saying that my dad always placed everyone before her, he just told her to wait a minute and he was talking to my uncle. Well I defended my dad by saying that he was finalizing my stay in Ecuador but even then she didn't listen, then she reproached and said I had not inherited anthing from her family, that I was "Carrillo" meaning my dad's last name, meaning his family and I saw that hurt him immidiatly so I snapped at her and said the following, "I have everything from your family, sufferer" her face was mad with fury and I thought she was gonna slap me right there, but she didn't. She hasn't directed a word at my dad or myself ever since. I'm so mad, I talked to my brother and he just told me to back off and let her anger go. Well he never has to worry about that since he is my mum's favorite, and yeah we work in the family with favoritism,meaning I'm my dad's favorite child while Dan is my mum's favorite child. My older brother asked me if I apologized and I told him I did but she is only talking to them and not to my dad and I, I guess is better now that she doesn't have to see me for nearly two years. Her words hurt my dad and pretty much hurt me because she made me feel like the half I have from my father's side is worthless....
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