Saturday, December 24, 2005

Merry Christmas
Well merry christmas to all my beloved friends, not gonna mention all of you because then everyone is gonna complain for who I mention first, anyways *Hugs to all* love you all. I have to go back to making X-mas dinner I'm a good cook, well love to all
peace on earth
and dancing around the X-mas tree
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Wednesday, December 21, 2005

Cheer
Well I'm trying to be cheerful still, *sends everyone a hug and an extra hug to Starwind* well I just wanted to tell everyone how much I appreciate your support and know I must go because my little brother is annoying me to leave the comp.
Much love,
Momo
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Monday, December 19, 2005

Well
Not to be a downer on my good attitute as some had said earlier Starwind and Beno, i received some pretty heavy news this weekend, just like last X-mas my family's curse doesn't seem to wear of this time taking its toll on my cousin Lucho who just as the holiday season came fell out of the roof and broke his head, he is still alive but we don't know for how long, my friend from Youth Group, Andres, well his brother died making me think....are all the people who I care about gonna suffer because of me, do I bring bad luck, am I a bad lck charm to have around? My dad got me upset tonight because of college stuff and my mom took his side, even more depressing, I have a down fall on my health again, I can't quite cach my breath, I guess is anxiety, my bones hurt again and my heart is still broken because of all this crap. I know people don't want to hear this mostly because it will ruin their holidays but I feel like crap and I just want to let it all out. I mean I couldn't even bake today and that usually takes my mind of of things. I just want to say I love you all, I guess I never told the people I lost those simple words enough but yeah I'm trying to make up for words I didn't say or didn't write.

Merry Christmas Still and I hope this doesn't put people down, just tell everyone you love you love them before its too late.
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Saturday, December 17, 2005

Merry Chritsmas
Merry X-mas to all my friends from the Otaku! I love you all. Well anyways, I'm finally getting used to math, I still hate it but I'm getting used to it. I'm graduating in a month so I have to bring my grade to an A in like 20 days so yeah....Besides that I'm baking a lot lately it helps, I got people ordering my cookies too so I guess that is good *sends virtual cookies to all* anyways hugs to all and I mean all you guys.
Much Love,
Momo (a.k.a. Gabby)
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Wednesday, December 14, 2005

Feeling better
Well I'm feeling better, I'm writing a play about love, yeah people will have a kick out of this one. I wish I could find love that will not hurt me, I mean my last boyfriend was last year but still I think that if I do venture to ask out a guy he will break my heart and my heart is already broken because I got my results and I failed the math test, yeah, I suck, but still I was forced into taking the class.
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Friday, December 9, 2005

I'm not good enough
"You are not good enough" that is what I keep hearing in my head all the time. As you can see, I'm down. Really down, down to the point I'm crying. My parents changed my plans once again and I'm staying for the looks of it in the US, not to my liking since all I've gotten lately was bad news and stress. I was at breaking point today during my pre-calc exam and I had an anxiety attack which I disguised very well even from my brother who sat next to me.almost broke my ankle again. And I feel like crap. I know its not likely of a nice person to tell all the problems but I really feel bad *sobs* I need help please someone just take me away
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Sunday, December 4, 2005

Sad, lonely, angry and pissed
Well with X-mas coming that is what I feel, no one ever listens to my opinion on anything not even when we had to put up the nativity set, they all yell at me and tell me to go away or like me mother treathened me. Yeah good old family, I can't wait until I'm on my own, sometimes I just feel like yelling at them but I don't doubt they'll hesitate to just slap me. I hate them all of them, maybe my dad gets out of the list but the rest is just like always, holiday season is the worst in my family. I'm still piss at them, the only thing they think I do is go in the computer and play on it, I finished writing my story and posted on quizilla, people just give it an average of 1 out of 5, great, just because my story doesn't contain bloody vampires or werewolfs or for god's sake Aliens that is hy they give me a low rating. People are just annoying, I can't wait to live by myself and don't have to answer to anyone. And my bloody brother telling me to shut down the comp, I hate him so much right now!
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Friday, December 2, 2005

   Finally
Well I've finally chosen my college major and minor. My major is gonna be political science/international relations. I'm so happy because I get to travel, I wanna go to Russia and Portugal, my minor is theology (yeah I'm sort of wanting to understand more of that) If that doesn't work I'm gonna go into Wildlife Rehabilitation. I love my choices and I might get two scholarships which makes me even happier, I love all who gave me confidence and gave me support here in the otaku like Kuro and Chaos and Vagabond Jesse , love you guys! thanks. Now I can rest for a bit and actually let my ligament rest, even though in 2 weeks I'm back in practice, for next year I'm gonna fo into the cyclist team and softball at college
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Monday, November 28, 2005

Getting closer
Well I'm getting closer to my hs graduation and I'm nervous, I have butterflies in my stomach. I mean I can't believe I'm a month away from getting out and two from starting college, how the time has passed, I turn around and see a little girl playing on her clarinet one day and now a teenager with high expectations and goals for a life away from everything she once knew, scary...I guess life is all about risks now, by the way I almost broke my ankle again today while jumping on my hs's gym stairs, I was all hyper with my friend Trisha and all. Well I'll keep you guys updated on everything that goes on and how my grad goes and my first year in college goes.
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Sunday, November 27, 2005

Woke up at 3:00 am to go to the hospital
Figures that my little brother had breathing problems. I told him not to get out in the cold rain. *sighs* My mom was freaking out, her baby boy's first hospital call. He is fine now though its just that I'm still in shock
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