Friday, December 30, 2005

Begin
Well since I thought about life the past couple of days I began looking at all the aspects of it on which I have been succesful at and the ones on which I have failed. I have good friends here and in the outside world, my mom always said to have a sucessful life you must have at least one good friend. I got that, in fact I have four good friends which is more than I can ask for. I also sort of published a children's book, "Kitty's journey to the Milky Way" which is in an elementary school in FL, so that takes one out. I can sing and song write, even though I can write better than sing. But not all my life has been so good. I have made so many enemies throughout my life, that started when I was in the 4th grade, with a girl in my bus, her name was Pamela, she was stuck-up and stuff, but that was my only enemy back home. In the states, mainly NJ I was to realize something, even your family can be your worst nightmare, referring to my dad's brother's family who spend 2 1/2 spreading rumors about me, and my 3rd cousin Tony tormenting me every single day at school(in 9th grade), well then we moved to Fl until something happenned and all my friends turned against me. Luckily there was always someone there to make me feel safe, in NJ was Jenna, my best friend, in Ecuador it was Adriana, in Florida, thanks to God, he send me my best friend Vivian, who in my opinion is one of the nicest and pure hearted people in the universe, she helped me this year with so much stuff that I shall relate later on this post.

I left with all my FL friends betraying me, well yeah, I don't care anymore, I'm out of there and life goes on, doesn't it?

Well here comes the really bad. Last Christmas I lost a cousin and a friend who was like a cousin to me. German and Evelyn both died of cancer both on Christmas day. Not a month before on Thanksgiving I was told my godfather had died and my grandfather was in the hospital because one of his veins in his brain had snapped and well caused internal bledding. He survived though and he still annoying like always, I love my grandfather but he can be a little nicer at times. Well on January of the year my friend Alan started on drugs, his brother told me that his father had been shot dead and Alan was not doing so well, I couldn't see Alan because he was in Mexico. In January through April I had gotten in so many fights with my ex friends from Fl and my health went down, I had cough attacks it was horrible...

My confort then was my friend Vivian's approach on religion, back then I was buddhist, well at least that is what I followed. I turned last October back to catholism, Vivian helped a lot. Well on my birthday, the remaining of my friends dissapointed me by acting the only way I told them not to act "peverted", my mum was present at the time, it was horrible. So I got into a huge fight with two of them. We moved into a big house near the airport, well the house was haunted and it was FL weather and the AC broke down, we decided to move again, this time it was a small house, cozy. During that summer, two of my uncles from my mom's side of the family died, then the worst news that I got involved Alan, he got a drug overuse and he died.

Well my folks decided to move to NC, that is where I am now. Its nice here, boring but nice, I got friends and the fourth best friend Patricia. Well that is my story, that is why my self-steem is low almost always

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