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Tuesday, July 12, 2005

The Clouds Have Parted & I see Blue Sky

Working Woes: The Last!
Hi guys! I know, you’re mostly likely quite sick of reading my woes of work ^^;; But this entry should be the last…for now ^^;;

I did a bit of thinking today at work, and have decided that I’ve probably been a bit too hard on myself ^^;;

Here was the issue: I do not ask questions at work!
Here is my discovered answer: Like hell I don’t! I do ask questions. Heck, I ask them everyday whenever I am unsure about ANYTHING and to make sure that I am doing things correctly! For heavens sake, I make IV bags for sick people. There is just no way I’m going to let my timidness cause harm onto others. Nope!

So, what was the problem? Hehe…I was just trying to be smart & perfect. I wanted to ask intellectual-type questions so that I can appear smarter than the other intern. But when I couldn’t find very many questions to ask, I freaked out. Then, I also wanted to learn AND do as much as I can to show my mini boss-lady that I’m a quick learner who can do many things. As it turned out, I don’t necessarily set that particular pace -- it is my mini boss-lady who does so. Apparently she wants me to start out slowly until she feels I’m ready to move on [and when the heck will that be!?!]. My only influence over this is to keeping poking her until she gives in ^^;;

I talked to the boss-man about being afraid to poke the mini boss-lady, and he told me it’s okay! *^_^* He WANTS me to poke my mini bosses whenever I can! And…if the mini bosses do NOT like being poked, then he told me to snitch on them ^^;; Hehe! I like my boss man! *^_^*

In conclusion, I’ve realized that I am doing things normally, at a normal pace, and being a very normal intern, I think. My problem is that I don’t want to be normal, and was obsessed with trying to make myself stand out from the other smarter intern. And you know what? It’s freaking tiring ^^;; I need to let go of my obsession. I need to accept that it’s okay to start off normally, otherwise I’ll continue freaking out, stressing out, and losing sleep.

*deep breaths*

And THAT is my resolve.

*^_^*

Good day & thank you SO much for bearing with me through this drama. I really do appreciate and take into account your guys’ words of encouragement. *^_^*

P.S. I start my tennis class today, yosh! *^_^*
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