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Friday, May 13, 2005

I've been listening to alot of Ayumi Hamasaki and doing alot of thinking. I think I'm going to make that big leap and go back out with Joe again.... ok maybe not going back out for definent but just make that connection again. I need a shoulder to cry on these days and he is the only one I can rely on. He's leaving me in 3 weeks or so and by making that connection we can at least be thinking about each other. How I look at it is if you think of one eachother its like being with one another. He's going to Africa for 5 months with his family. That means Bethan (his sister in yr 7 who has become my mate) will be leaving too. She seemed pretty upset that I didn't come in today because of her leaving so soon and wanting her friends around her. Shame I ran out of credit on my mobile because I couldn't text her back since she was on the 43 bus and she was upset sine some people had pissed her off. She is like the only girl in her family apart from her little sister Lydia (I love that name) who is only 5 years old. But still with Joe being the eldest and not being able to relate to Bethan its hard on her. Not to mention having 2 other brothers, Ben and Dan who are 10 and 8 but still it isn't really a big help. I was kinda guilty that I didn't call her back telling her I had no credit but... what more can I do? I have feelings for myself to figure out alone with everyone elses.
I hate it I really do... I mean I have problems of my own and all but most of the time because I'm so open, everyone seems to open up to me more. So when people open up to me they look for guidence, which I can normally do. It tears me up instead when I don't know what to do or caught up in something else to do or say something to that person. Sometimes it can't be helped yet others it can... I want to do something in life to help others. But I have come to the conclusion that I can't, since all the problems do seem to come back to me threefold anyway. Therefore I don't think I would be able to do anything even if I could... might be upsetting but... thats life isn't it? You get what you get...nothing you can do about it.
.... Joe... shouldn't or should I? If I don't I will regret it for alone time. One piece of advice I always follow on is "regret nothing" and I stick by that!
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