Saturday, June 18, 2005

AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

It's like 03:05 am but who cares! I WANT TO WATCH MY DESCENDANTS OF DARKNESS! But my bloody sister has deleted the folder!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! How could she do this to me??!! *cries a massive tsunami*

I don't fucking care if its pasted 3am when I want something... I WANT SOMETHING! IF I WANT TO WATCH DESCENDANTS OF DARKNESS I WILL! DAMNIT!
Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww man this is not fair!!!!! No ones online, oh the sadness! Since Jaz is not home and somewhere else I can't have our late night conversations that last until we are too tired to talk! Ever since I blocked and deleted that Shane guy I have no one to talk to. But it's a good thing I did delete him... HE HAD MY PICTURE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I DIDN'T EVEN SEND HIM A PICTURE OF ME!!!!!!!!! BUT HE HAD MY PICTURE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I was sooo freaked out when he changed his msn pic to me! I was like ....... well... Godsmacked! I was soooo freaked! He kept trying my webcam as well... I kept deleting it and said it was broken but he kept insisting! I SWEAR BRITISH GUYS ARE MORE PERVY! THATS IT! I'm moving to Japan forever! I don't wanna be surrounded by pervy guys and chavs anymore!!!
Do you know what that guy kept asking me?! What would you do if I came to your house?
I WOULD FUCKING RUN TO THE OTHERSIDE OF THE WORLD! Or shoot him dead on the spot! I hate it! I really hate it!
Do you see why I try to be different and unpopular?!?! Because if I wasn't I would be felt up more than usual!
NEVER WHERE A THONG TO SCHOOL, EVEN IF YOU HAVE RUN OUTTA PANTS! Do you know how many people have snapped my thong in one day?!!?!? *cringes* I tell you... society is fucked up! People are really fucked up!
You know it could be the fact its like past 3am and probably really tired but I've managed to freak myself out! I KEEP THINK SOMEONES WATCHING ME! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! I keep playing the same song over and over again. The song being BitterSweet by Within Temptation. It's a calming song but... I'm still freaked. AHHH I don't like being scared!! I'm going insane! Fucking crazied!
Flashes from previous pervs fill my mind! AHHH DANNY ANSTEY! He lives down the road to me! Though he used to walk past me and say URGH! Now he just walks past me and smells my hair! I'm always like +.O;;
He acts sooo fucking camp! But he's as creepy as the doctor in Descendants of Darkness! Now thats creepy!
Who else is there? *thinks*
Well obviously that pervy guy Shane *shivers furiously*
Oh Stefan is a manager perv! Not in his actions but the way he talks to me! Suggests things! He kept saying to me "I want a hug", in that wanting obsessive way. As me him and Jaz used to hang out, even though it was me and Jaz before always (and is that way currently) he kept saying we should meet up on the weekend. I'm like... I don't know, I might not feel like it. I will never in a thousand endless years want to hang out with him! It worse that everytime he sees me, he drops what he is doing and has to talk to me! I've blocked him online and tried sooo hard to cut him out of my life! It really freaks me out when people are obsessive over someone and won't just leave it!
I'm not that special, HONEST! I don't even know why they always pick on me! Me only tiny T_T !! I think I should put on weight... become really fat! Repulsive! Maybe I should quit having showers! SO PEOPLE WILL STOP SMELLING MY DAMN HAIR! Thats a thing! Everytime someone sees me they hug me! Even random people in school! PEOPLE I DON'T EVEN KNOW! It's ok and all... I do like hugs but I don't think they do it for the same reason I do! I hug people all the time out of insecurity in myself! (I figured that out on my own, oh so proud!)
I can think of many times someone has come up to me and done something weird!
James Robinson... he jumped on me from behind and well you know... I flung him off onto the ground and put my foot on his chest. Sadly, he didn't seemed threatened and felt up my leg instead! Stupid prat!
Cameron fucking licked my neck! I had to sit next to him in the seating plan. I was quietly working (actually drawing anime), he leaned over, I just thought he wanted to copy my work, so I didn't move or anything. But no! He leaned over and licked my neck! I was like "URAGHH!!" I smacked his neck with the back of my hand and he had trouble breathing for awhile. Served him fucking right, dirty wank.
I never wear skirts to school anymore! If I do they have to be more than knee-length! My trousers were in the wash late so I had to wear a skirt. The only skirt I have is a black mini skirt. So I wore that to school. I was standing up the top of the stairs hugging my friends goodbye (we part eachother come lesson time, brings a tear to the eye) and Joe... Cheeky ass Joe!!! Was walking up with a bunch of his yr 10's mates and then he came up behind me and put his hands up my skirt! I was like "WTF?!!?!" ... I turned round and slapped him as hard as I could, since I didn't know who he was! We were going out at the time so I didn't mind as much when I found out it was him. The crap I got from his yr 10 friends though... oh the shame!

Yeah... there are many tales of my pervy stalkers. Don't exactly what to remember anymore!

I hope you are all fucking traumatised! I know I'm fucking scarred for life! I'm suprised I'm not a fucking lesbian! Guys are scum! Apart from the funny ones... oh and quiet ones! Like Will he's quiet and Dan Crossman he's funny. Those guys I like! I always feel uneasy when I hug guys though... I feel like they are gonna do something! Like Stefan for example! He always turns round and says he feels like a hug! He always has to say he wants one from me! I'm like... err no! When I give him a hug he fucking stinks of B.O!! I don't think he uses lynx! I'm really glad he's stopped with the nick names, oh and the phone calling... and the staring in German, though he does it more in Geography now... not to mention texting me every 5 mins! He still likes to demand unwanted hugs, strongly suggest to see me out of school and asking me "what I've been up to"... WHAT HAVE I BEEN UP TO?! I'm hardly gonna say thinking about you am I??!?!?!!!! Well unlike you Stefan... I have a life! It maybe crap but... it's still a life!
The only obsession I could possible have is with Anime!!!!!! Hee hee and anime guys!

The post has gotten extremely long... maybe I should shut up as it's coming to like 4am now... oops!

Do you think I overdid it a litte?
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