Sunday, June 4, 2006

6:21 PM - 6:57 PM
Well, Brian's back to normal. In some ways he seems more normal than before. It's good to have the old Brian back. Yay!

So, Chris came over today and we planted ze flowers. It was fun. I was worried that with just the two of us there it would be a bit awkward, but I think it went okay. We planted some dahlias (crazy awesome colorful things), and some nasturiums (these things that look like little umbrellas). So yeah. That was nice.

Oh yeah, I forgot one of my points in the midst of yesterday's rant. Um...

Right, about the condescending parent thing. There are those parents that choose careers for thier kids. The kind that try to control every little aspect of their precious child's life. Those jerks. People have a right to pursue their own dreams, make their own goals. Don't even try to pass it off as the parents caring about the kid being well off in life. That's bullshit. The people that succeed in life are the people that are happy. Lots of money and a big house does not mean happiness. Hell, working at Starbucks is enough to makes some people happy. And that is awesome.

But no, some parents just feel the need to decide what their kid's life is going to be like. Kids aren't little drones around for your amusement, nor are they there to please you. Children are human, just like you. If anything, you live to ensure their survival, because they are the next generation of our species. But that might be taking it a bit too far... I think I've said enough on the matter.

Well, anyway, I'm gonna go start what little homework I have now... Ja ne!
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Saturday, June 3, 2006

6:29 PM - 8:10 PM
Finally, another rant. Woot.

Okay, I'm sick of condescending adults. The kind that think you never know what you're talking about. They dismiss valid arguments because you're young. They don't let you make decisions for yourself because thet think you'll mess up.

The worst are the parents though. Most condescending parents probably don't even realize how horrible they are. That's no excuse though. The worst is those parents that have the same answer to every question from a kid: "Because I said so."

That.. it's just one of the worst things you can say. You're basically just saying "I don't want to tell you." Parents that I've seen do this just think that when kids ask why, they're being difficult or don't want to do it. There's no reason to say "Because I said so". Other than wanting to be an asshole to your kid. They don't consider the fact that maybe their child just wants to know why they're being made to do something. But no, the kid never gets a straight answer. That pisses me off to no end.

And as for adults thinking that kids don't know anything, age isn't relevant to knowledge. Granted, kids don't have as much "life experience" or whatever, and their brains aren't fully developed. But that doesn't mean that their thoughts aren't valid.


I might have had more to say, but since I forgot I was writing this I don't remember. So yeah bye.
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11:23 AM - 11:37 AM
Well, I just got back from getting flowers...

*yawn* It's funny, normally I'd still be in bed for another hour... I didn't get much sleep last night... about 5 hours maybe? I dunno.

I wanted to go to sleep earlier, but I had to spend a while trying to convince Brian to stop being so damn pessimistic and live his life. Hopefully he'll be his old self again... I'm not really sure what to think of what he's become recently. He's just not the same Brian that I knew before... it makes me sad. Hopefully even if he does continue to change the way he is now, we can still be friends... it wouldn't be the same without him at Friday Movie night...

But I can take some comfort in the fact that no matter what happens, I'll always have some friends. I need friends right now.. I guess I'm really emotionally needy. I don't like being like that, but there's nothing I can do about it at the moment. I'm just going to keep working on getting over my obsessiveness and paranoia for now. If my emotional state becomes too much of a problem for my friends or myself in the future, then I'll have to try to... I don't know.

I do know that I can't do too many things at once, which is why I'm focusing on the aforementioned problems, instead of my emotional instability. The latter can be controlled to an extent though... I know that I can control it sometimes. I just don't know why I can't at other times.

The only reason I'm trying to do any of this at all is because of my friends... I don't want to be annoying or bothersome to them. Without my friends, to be honest, my life would be empty. I love my friends. They're the best people in the world.

I just hope that if anything bad happens between two of my friends, that everything will work itself out... I don't want anyone to get hurt.

*sigh*

I don't know what else to say. I kind of lost my train of thought somewhere in there, I suppose. It happens. Ah well. I'm going to go... I dunno. Find something to do. Meh.
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Thursday, June 1, 2006

10:04 PM - 10:09 PM
Oy. You know all that stuff I said yesterday? I didn't do hardly any of it. Oh wait no, I just didn't do the e-mail. That'll have to wait for this weekend. I did get a chance to clean the basment though... yay for that I guess.

I can't wait for this weekend. I'm going to have a garden! Yay! Cept um... I was gonna do it with Liz and Chris... I'm getting the flowers Saturday morning, so I thought we'd plant em together Saturday afternoon. But both of them are busy for various reasons... boo. Oh... I think I might be able to plant Sunday instead. Yeah, that might work... Well, I'm looking forward to having flowers anyway.

I'm... gonna go do something now...
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Wednesday, May 31, 2006

10:05 PM - 10:36 PM
Hm. I was going to say something here. But I forgot what. Ah well.

...

So um... I have a lot of stuff to do tomorrow... Hopefully I can finally get around to doing e-mail stuff, and cleaning the basement. And I need to remember to ask someone a question... the only reason I'm really saying all this is cause I check this thing obsessively and if I write it here it's more likely that I'll do those things. heh.

Mmm.. Life is good. My dad's a creep. David is a lost cause. But life is good anyway. Cause I can ignore those things. Yep. Friends are cool. School is going pretty well. I have 110 stars in Super Mario 64. I might have all of em by tomorrow. Neat. Lots of good stuff is going on.

Oh.. the seniors won't be at school anymore. That kinda sucks I guess. Oh... maybe art will be quiet for a change. Heh. Well, off to bed... or something... away!
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Monday, May 29, 2006

9:02 PM - 9:11 PM
Okay, what the fuck. This has got to be the single stupidest assignment I've ever had to do for Japanese. It's a "review". Basically, we have to write a classified ad (boy seeking girlfriend, girl seeking boyfriend, or seeking friends). It has to be done on a freaking 4x6 index card, and I dont' even have any. And we dont' even know the word for "seeking"!!!

I mean, it.... WTF?!!!! It has the words I need on the back! al;kjsdf;lakjdfl;kJ;alkj

nevermind

gotta go finish this now agh
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1:04 PM - 1:49 PM
Dude... I need to manage my time better. Seriously. I've had since Friday afternoon to do some stuff, and I've barely done any of it.

*goes to make breakfast*
*inhales toast*

So um... what was I saying? Oh yeah. So now today I have to finish this book, e-mail a few people, do some stupid project for Japanese (and knowing me, it'll take an hour or two longer than I expect it will), get some stuff off my phone and onto the compy, and hopefully finally get around to cleaning my CDs. And I have to do all that after I get home at 4:30 today, cept the book. Blech.


Well... I should read now. So yeah. I'm leaving.
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Sunday, May 28, 2006

5:10 PM - 5:29 PM
Hmm... I was going to say I was pissed at my dad. But I'm not. I suppose I'm disappointed. Well, disappointed and kinda creeped out.

He called yesterday because he wanted to know if I would be at my aunt's Memorial Day thing today. I said I wouldn't, because I was at my brother's house and his schedule is very limited, etc. He wanted to come pick me up, and I told him that no, it was fine, I wanted to hang out with Matt and it would just waste precious gas. So he finally says that we'll talk today about it.

When I woke up this morning (er, afternoon), I found out that he had told Chrissy that he was on his way over. So, he kinda lied about talking about it today. What a surprise. So I called him to tell him that no, I wasn't going and he knew that. I had even gotten permission from my mom to not go, because she knew that it wasn't likely that Matt would be able to make it cause of his schedule. So he started on this big 10 minute long rant on how he's out of the loop and no one tells him anything anymore. He was upset that he didn't know where I was on my mom's weekend. He was also upset that he didn't know my mom was up north this weekend. He seems to think that he needs to know things that are really none of his business anymore.

After all of this, he even tried to tell me that the divorce wasn't his fault, that he wasn't "thinking logically" because of his job. I mean, wtf? You don't tell someone you want a divorce, break their heart and make them try to get over you and date other people, then expect them to not divorce you. My dad is a fucking idiot.

People tell me to be nice to him. I'm as nice to him as he is to me. If he can't figure out how to be not miserable, it's not my problem. At least when I started to get depressed I knew it was because I needed friends. He needs... I don't know what the hell he needs, it's up to him to figure it out. Whatever.


Contrary to what you might think, I'm actually in a good mood as I write this. I don't really care about all that stuff, it's just a bit annoying so I wanted to say something about it.

Life is very good right now. I'm hungry. I'm going to go get some pizza now. I wish there was more to do than play videogames... as odd as that sounds. Ah well. I'm off.
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2:21 AM - 2:37 AM
Well, I'm at my brother's house. Chrissy's (my brother's wife) siblings came over, and they're spending the night here too. It... it wasn't really all that fun... It hasn't been since they got here.

Now don't get me wrong, I don't dislike them, it's just... given the option, I'd rather talk online to people than hang out with them. Actually, I was talking to Chris earlier when they came, and I was kinda kicked off the compy for a bit, cept she had to leave then... I dunno if she came back or not, cause other people were on the computers til like 12:30...

*sigh* It seems like I never get to talk to Chris anymore. Whenever she's on I have to leave. Boo for that.

Okay, this is going to be slightly rantish, and I know that Liz isn't going to like it. So Liz, skip the next paragraph unless you want to be annoyed with me.

I've always looked forward to the weekends, I mean, who hasn't? But recently (as in, the past few months), I've enjoyed them more because I can talk to my friends for longer. But mostly because I can talk to Chris for longer. I can talk to most of my other friends online during the week, but Chris isn't on as often and stuff. So it just makes me kinda sad that I haven't had a real conversation with her in a while because I haven't been able to relax on the weekends like I normally do... I know that people are often forced to do things they don't want to, but I just haven't had a chance to get back to my routine in over a month now... maybe even more, I'm not sure. I miss being able to talk for hours with relatively few interruptions...*sigh*


Well, anyway... I should probly get to bed now. No one's online, so there's no reason to stay up... g'night, people.
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Saturday, May 27, 2006

1:27 PM - 1:34 PM
Wow. Life is good. I'm really tired.

So, yesterday was an okay day at school, I suppose. I mean, I don't really even remember anything except how awesome Japanese was again.

But last night was kickass. I saw X-Men 3 with Cam, Steven, Shelby, Katie, Shirley, Chloe, and um... some other guy, I think his name was Kyle or something.

Anyway, it was just really fun. The movie was awesome. Even though I haven't seen the second one. Heh.

Oh yeah, I did that one thing again.. I think I mentioned it here before.... When we were getting snacks and stuff for the movie, I asked the person behind the counter, "Uh, yeah, I'll get a large poop, please."

bwahahahahaha... I love Invader Zim. Last time I did that at a movie theater, the guy just laughed sarcastically and glared at me until I ordered for real. This time, the girl just stared at me for a while with her mouth a little bit open... Oh man that was fun. Steven said he wanted to see her face when I said it, but he was busy laughing his head off behind the column.


Hm... What else did I do... Oh yeah, I talked to Liz and Chris's friend Ronnie last night... she was using Chris's screen name. It was weird. But fun.


And I just rode my bike around and got completely lost for a while. Fun stuff. Right now I should probly go pack... I'm staying at my brother's place til Monday. Psydactyl, away!
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