Thursday, May 25, 2006

4:21 PM - 4:36 PM
Today is a good day. Well... for me anyway, I guess. Me friends, not so much. Some of em anyway.

Today, I saw all of my friends. That has never once happened to me (since I've had a lot of friends, anyway). Most of my friends aren't in any of my classes... Ah well.

Also, Japanese ROCKED. My friends at the other school (let's just call it "school A" or how about just "SA") are so much better than my friends at the school near me (ST).

Okay, it looks like I have to explain some things here. First, I go to two different schools. They're in the same district, but due to a schedule conflict I had to take Japanese at the other school. So I get on a bus and head over there for 1st hour, then I get to leave early from there, and I still get back late to 2nd hour. Not that I mind.

The other thing! When I say my SA friends are better than my ST friends, I don't mean that they're better than Liz, Chris, Brian, etc. I mean they're better than the people that I kinda know from ST. As in, they're pretty much as awesome as my close friends.
ST friends =/= close friends
STF < CF
SAF = CF

So yeah. Also, I finally got to ride my new bike! I've had it for about a week now and haven't gotten a chance to ride it... Oh man, it's so hot out there. I think I need to start wearing shorts..

Hmm.. I might say something else later. For now... I need a coke.
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Wednesday, May 24, 2006

10:11 PM - 10:29 PM
Hmm... It appears that nothing has happened today. Well, some stuff happened, just not to me. Unless you count arguing about the shape of waffles for half an hour...

Oh, I saw the first X-Men movie. It was pretty good.

Oh... why are PMs so friggin' screwed up on this site? I sent one months ago, and it never showed up in my sent box. So I sent one last night, and the one from months ago finally showed up, but the one I just sent didn't show up til I sent another one, and also it says I haven't received any... well, not that I was expecting to, but you never know. Whatever... stupid myO...

Mah, anyway... I'm bored.

I want to rant. But I also don't. I'll wait a while... maybe tomorrow. More likely this weekend.
night...
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Tuesday, May 23, 2006

4:18 PM - 4:27 PM
I'm really out of it... A friend isn't doing well. I really want to be able to help, but I have no idea what I can say or do. And I know talking to said friend right now would just end up in both of us pissed off, thanks to my depressed mood.

Which is why I'm writing this, to get all these feelings away from my mind right now so I can think rationally. I used to be able to control my emotions to the point where I almost didn't have any.

Now the best I can do is make myself not be as whiny or something... I don't know what happened to me. I need to get at least some of that control back. But at the same time, I'm afraid that having my emotions totally under control will make me cold and distant again, like I was last year. I had barely any friends...

*sigh* I suppose it's a sacrifice that I made though. In order to be more open, to make more friends, I had to give up the control that prevented me from feeling.

This has helped a little... I don't feel quite as sad now.

I think I need a hug... mm... *sleeps*
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Monday, May 22, 2006

3:51 PM - 3:59 PM
Agh, why am I so freaking paranoid? Right now it seems like everyone's pissed at me or something... But I know that's extremely unlikely, which is why I'm trying not to worry about it.

*sigh* I really need to find a way to get rid of my intense paranoia. I don't even know where it came from or how long I've had it. I mean, it's one thing to be freaked out and look over your shoulder every few minutes, but it's kinda... very much worse when it gets to you thinking that everyone hates you or something...




Okay, yeah, it's fine. Just a series of coincidences, I guess...

Life is... I dunno. Good, but um... well, I'm dreading tomorrow, but other than that tis good.
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10:27 AM - 10:31 AM
So, it appears that I'm staying home from school today. It makes sense, considering that I've now been sick for two freaking weeks. I think a day of rest will do me some good...

I'm not particularly sick right now though. I feel quite normal at the moment, other than the coughing and sneezing and stuff. Well no... I'm also really lethargic and I'm having trouble thinking straight for long periods of time. Which is why I've been so forgetful lately, I suppose.

But I was feeling quite a bit worse this morning, hence why I'm not at school currently. Anyway...

I still feel like a jerk for staying home, even though I am sick... I also dread the homework I'll probly get in all my classes tomorrow.
*sigh* whatever...

I think I'll go take a nap now...

(is it just me, or have my posts been really short and meaningless lately?)
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Sunday, May 21, 2006

11:06 PM - 11:08 PM
*sigh* I feel sad, and I dunno why. I guess I expected to have some awesome convos with friends after having no contact with them since Friday night.

I mean, I had a totally awesome conversation with Cam. Hence the last post. But like... I dunno, everyone else just seemed so rushed. It was weird.

Oh well... I'm still sick. Hopefully I'll be better tomorrow. I need to sleep now. G'night.
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8:50 PM
Cam is AWESOME. Yay.
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7:08 PM - 7:10 PM
Oh man, it's so good to be home... I was at me dad's for the weekend, but I unfortunately I had no internet.... On the plus side, I did get around to playing Super Mario 64. Tis fun!

Um.

I had something to say. But I forgot it. That's been happening a lot lately, it seems...

I'm hungry. Bye.
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Thursday, May 18, 2006

10:43 PM
Oy, forget what I said earlier, it'll have to wait for tomorrow...
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7:17 PM
Oy. I have thoughts that I would like to speak about, but now is not the right time. Maybe later tonight... I hate sickness.
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