Saturday, July 22, 2006

8:09 PM
Hmm... not sure if I like the new colors. Something about the green was more comfortable... huh. Well, if it really starts to bug me, I'll just change it back. Eh. Bored.
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6:17 PM - 6:36 PM
Hmm... I'm thinking of changing this site to a Bomberman and/or Pommy theme, but I'm not really sure. I think that even if I do, I'll keep getting green eggs to match this site. I'll most likely come back to this color layout anyway... so why not? By the time anyone reads this, it'll probly already be done anyway. Eh.

Nothing new. Oh wait, that's a lie. Friday movie night last night. Um... well it actually wasn't Friday Movie Night, cause... it was at some girl I barely know's house, and she invited a bunch of people that I don't know at all.

So Liz, Chris, Brian, and I were kinda off in the corner while they were all talking about shopping (and Cam was near the strangers snacking on Goldfish).

They tried to get us to play some stupid game... Liz, Chris, and all the guys wanted nothign to do with it. So after a few people (me and Cam) snuck away, the host said something about basketball (since we didn't wanna play at all). The next thing I knew, all the movie night people ran over to the side of the house to the driveway with the basketball hoop. So we really kind of made our own party. It was neat.

Then we all went to the nearby elementary school for a while, then back, then um... Well apparently there was some confusion as to when it ended. The Movie Night regulars were leaving at 10, as usual, but the rest thought it ended at 11, because... the email said it did. Email? It's... just not right.

Here are the reasons why it was not Movie Night:
- Way too many people.
- Not even a mention of a movie.
- Shitty popular music in the background the whole time.
- Some people showed up in fucking "cocktail party attire" or whatever.
- Everyone but the regulars were informed via email. It's called a goddamn phone, people.
- They were talking about shopping!
- It wasn't from 7-10.
- Everyone there (other than Liz, Chris, Brian, Cam, and Erik) were most definitely NOT FMN people. They were the people that judge. I would not feel comfortable around those people at all without my friends nearby.

Don't get me wrong, I had fun, but it certainly wasn't FMN. Not at all. I can't wait for the next one, when it'll be back to normal.

Anyway... I've rambled on that subject for long enough, I think. Do do do... can't think of anything else to write about.

abayo
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Friday, July 21, 2006

11:20 AM - 11:27 AM
*sigh* working... I can barely stay awake. I nearly drift off to sleep every time I dare to blink. I didn't even go to bed that late, I just couldnt' sleep (much) last night.

I don't think I'll be able to function again until after lunch, when I have some energy... This sucks.

And something else has been bugging me all day, too, but.. I don't think it would be wise to talk about it here, since many of my friends read this, and it concerns them. Maybe today I'll finally start writing in that journal...

Oh god, I nearly did it again... I think I'm too dependent on coke to keep me awake at work. I need to... not drink so much.

I used to have coke all the time. Then I decided to eat a bit healthier, and I limited it to on the weekends (mostly-- I'd still have coke if I eat out). But now I think I'm having it too often again... 2 every day at work, 1 per every 2 slices of pizza on the weekends... too much.

I need to find something else to keep me awake here. Maybe water? Last time I had water, I got hyper, so maybe it'll work...

Oy. I should probly get back to cleaning the database now. I need to finish it soon, I've spent too long working on it the past few weeks without finishing.

bye
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Thursday, July 20, 2006

10:11 PM - 10:15 PM
Bleh.. bored as hell. I'm working again tomorrow. I hate working two days in a row... especially since I haven't had much time to relax today. Got home at 4:45, had to leave at 5:15, came back at like 7:45... and no one's been on since then. Grrr.

Oh well... oh, that whole mess with Tony worked out fine, I guess. I haven't actually talked to him though... eh, I don't really care anymore.

Bored... started reading Frankenstein. But I don't wanna read this late at night, I wanna do... other stuff... bleh.

Nothing interesting happens during the week anymore... I never have anything to post about other than depressing things anymore. Not cool.

I'm hungry. For some reason lately, everyone else is... not hungry. All the time. It's really weird.

I'm gonna go get some food now... can't think of anything else to say.

bye
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Wednesday, July 19, 2006

5:21 PM - 5:24 PM
Fuck... something tells me that... well, if I ever converse with a certain person by the name of Tony again, things will be uncomfortable.

His buddyprofile... had a bunch of random links. I am VERY bored right now. So I click a few for fun, and one of them is a "crush calculator" or whatever. So I type in the names of the first three females I can think of, which are of course all three of my close female friends... one of which happens to be a girl that he likes and I don't.

And it says that i've been tricked and that all the information on it has been sent to his email. So... yeah, I should probably prepare myself for awkwardness... >_<

Note to self: Never click links on anyone's buddyprofile ever again, unless you know what they are.

edit: On the bright side, now I know his email and can possibly bug him with it. woo, I guess. whatever. I just don't want him thinking... things... bleh.
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1:49 AM - 2:04 AM
Today (technically yesterday, shut up) has been AWESOME.

I beat Baten Kaitos.
I started Xenogears.
I went swimming in the neighborhood pool for the first time in what seems like years.

I found most of the music from Bomberman 64: The Second Attack. Music that I have searched for in vain for years. It is good.

I also found pictures of Pommy from that game. Also something that I've wanted for quite a while, thought not as much as the music.

And I've had an awesome conversation with Liz the past few hours.

Life is good.
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Tuesday, July 18, 2006

2:33 PM
O_o

HOLY SHIT!

I... won? I was losing terribly and I killed him! I was about to reset it, but I took one more turn and said "it would be really great if you died right now" and.. he died. Freaky. Yay I'm happy now.
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2:28 PM
Bored. Fighting end boss in Baten Kaitos (I think).

He's flippin' annoying. And oddly boring. Oh well.

Um... nevermind, I forgot what I was going to post about.
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Monday, July 17, 2006

9:18 PM - 10:29 PM
I'm home. I'm finally home. My lack of respect for my father is turning into resentment. I don't even think I love him anymore, if I ever did. Would you love someone who has done barely anything more than give you 15 years of crap? I didn't think so. I don't care if I'm being overdramatic, this is how I feel.

I realize that I may have sounded kind of emo last night. But I'm alright, I was just really lonely. I also had some coke... that probably added to it.

*long pause while I do other stuff*

*ahem* As I was saying... I'm fine now. And I'm certainly not emo. I lack several qualities that make up emo people, including, but not limited to: A complete lack of self-confidence, the delusion that everyone on earth hates me, and listening to emotional music.

Which isn't to say that the music I listen to doesn't involve emotion, just that it doesn't involve people crying. I don't know how anybody can put up with shitty "music" like that, but hey, to each their own I suppose.

Well I'm in a better mood now. Thanks almost entirely to Kora. Yay!

I'm gonna go do internet stuff now. Bye.
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12:17 AM - 12:33 AM
I wanna go home... I'm talking to Liz, which is good, and Bob went upstairs and is no longer around me, which is good, but... it's just not the same. It's not my chair, and my bed, and my computer, and my internet... it's all different.

I'm never comfortable here. I may think I am, but I always have this... feeling, that something isn't right. I have a bunch of summer projects to do, too, and I can't do any of them over here... The only things I can do are whatever I bring with me or sleeping... *sigh*

I just want to go home. I like this place less every time I come. I liked it much better when I first started coming here... oh well. There's nothing I can do about it...

I'm really sad. I don't know why. I've been having really bad moodswings the past few hours... I should probably go to bed so I don't start pissing people off or something. And that's not an irrational fear of that, it's happened before and I don't want it to again. *sigh*
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