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Friday, April 6, 2007

12:18 PM - 12:27 PM
Heh. Heheh. I'm so hopeless right now.

See, until last year around January, I was in almost complete control of my emotions, to the point where I didn't really ever feel. Then I got a bunch of new friends, and things started changing rapidly. All of a sudden I had an outlet for my emotions, and there was no reason to bottle them up. Unfortunately, I soon lost all the control I used to have, because I was unused to feeling.

After summer, I was mostly in control again. But it was different; instead of not feeling at all, I would just make it so I wouldn't get too extremely emotional about anything. Life was good and everything was awesome. But during the past month or so, my control has started slipping away again.

There are a huge number of factors, which is really messing with me. Up until now, all of my emotional problems have had one or two origins. So I keep looking for what's made me lose control this time so I can say 'ohhh, so that's the problem' and fix it. But that's not gonna happen, cause there's way too many things going on.

A lot of it has to do with being a teenager, I think. There's so many hormones in my brain right now that I can't think about anything in a logical manner for very long.

The worst part of all this is that I keep thinking that I'm back in control, because I go a whole day without getting sad. But when I'm alone and have time to think about this, I lose control again.

Anyone reading this is probably pissed that I haven't stated the causes of this miniature emotional breakdown I've been having. Too bad for you, because that's private. If you really do want to know, you can call or email me or whatever. I just don't want to state it here, where anyone can read it.

Alright, that's all I had to say. I'm gonna go clean the house now. Jaa ne.
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