Monday, November 12, 2007

   Proctor and My Tiresome Days
EASY LISTENING: Drown by Three Days Grace
READ UP ON IT: Ironside by Holly Black

We finished The Crucible in survey, and I thought Proctor had some funny/meaningful lines:

Parris: "There is a party in this church. I am not blind; there is a faction and a party."
Proctor: "Against you?"
Putnam: "Against him and all authority!"
Proctor: "Why, then I must find it and join it."

Proctor: "Can you speak one minute without we land in Hell again? I am sick of Hell!"

Proctor: "Make your peace with it! Now Hell and Heaven grapple on our backs, and all our old pretense in ripped away--make your peace! Peace. It is a providence, and no great change; we are only what we always were, but naked now. Aye, naked! And the wind, God's icy wind, will blow!"

Proctor: "I say--I say--God is dead!"
Parris: "Hear it! Hear it!"
Proctor: "A fire, a fire is burning! I hear the boot of Lucifer, I see his filthy face! And it is my face, and yours, Danforth! For them that quail to bring men out of ignorance, as I have quailed, and as you quail now when you know in all your black hearts that this be fraud--God damns our kind especially, and we will burn, we will burn together!"
. . .
Proctor: "You are pulling Heaven down and raising up a whore!"

Proctor: "Because it is my name! Because I cannot have another in my life! Because I lie and sign myself to lies! Because I am not worth the dust on the feet of them that hang! How may I live without my name? I have given you my soul; leave me my name!"

Proctor: "I can. And there's your first marvel, that I can. You have made your magic now, for now I do think I see some shred of goodness in John Proctor. Not enough to weave a banner with, but white enough to keep it from such dogs. Give them no tear! Tears pleasure them! Show honor now, show a stony heart and sink them with it!"
Rebecca: "Let you fear nothing! Another judgement waits us all!"
Danforth: "Hang them high over the town! Who weeps for these, weeps for corruption!"
[After a few more words, Proctor is walked out of the jail and hung]

It was a very good play to read (and we're finishing watching it). Much meaning.

Well, not much about my days. Tiresome as they may be, I must continue on with them, keeping one foot in front of the other. I don't want to fall.

How was everyone's weekend?

*hug*
~Okami~
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Tuesday, November 6, 2007

   Flying on Broken Wings
EASY LISTENING: We Didn't Start the Fire by Billy Joel
READ UP ON IT: Hellsing

Creative Writing is...interesting so far. There's not much I can say about it yet, since it hasn't even been a whole week yet... I've made one "good" poem so far. We had to write up personification poems, and I decided to personify Evil. If you can see anything that needs to be changed, please tell me:

"False Promises"

Solidified midnight
Tumbling in gentle waves
Down her back,
Her blood-red eyes
Filled with malice,
Lips of pure sin
Smiling sadistically,
Skin the color of
Freshly fallen snow
Wrapped in black velvet,
All who cross her path
Turn from their own
Smitten by her temptaion,
Dragging them down
Into her false promises
And untruths.
She befalls many a man
With Pride and Greed,
For she it their sister
And works by their side
To fulfill Chaos,
Their mother.


Personally, I think the ending is weak. Maybe it should be something like "To fulfill Chaos's wishes" or something. *shrug* I just think it's not that great of a finish.

Now I have to go do a simile poem...that one'll be a little harder. I don't even know what to write -about- much less a start to a poem. *shrug* hopefully by the end of tonight, something will come.

Ugg. I drifted off this morning and missed my bus. I've done this once before, and I want to keep it that it never happens again (and I swear, I really hate asking for Sara or Dad to drive back to the house to give me a ride...). After I'm halfway done with my morning rutine, I have about an hour to do homework, read, or whatever. Normally I read or set my alarm so I CAN drift off without missing 7 o'clock, which is when I normally finish up. Sadly this morning, I forgot to set the alarm again and drifted off. I woke at 7:30 (my bus comes at 7:15), cursing my head off. Since I don't even have my learners yet, I couldn't drive the car sitting right outside in the driveway. =.= I had to get my sister to come pick me up. Started my day a little badly. THEN I couldn't stay after for the drama thing we're doing.
"The Girl in the Mirror" and "Surviving Lunch" are the two One Act plays we're doing over at the middle school. "The Girl in the Mirror" has a bigger impact than "Surviving Lunch" but then again, it's about suicide and "Lunch" is about bullying...

Hope everyone else had a good day.

~Okami~
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Sunday, November 4, 2007

   (Creative) Writing
EASY LISTENING: Bathwater by No Doubt
READ UP ON IT: Chapter 9 of The American Pageant (kill me now...)

These chapter packets will be the death of me, I just know it.

I've also been working on a poster for creative writing. So far I've looked through most of the pictures I have printed out, and only chose one for the damn poster. Really...I am having trouble finding a role model or "hero"
I've decided since my dad got me huge poster board (two pages) that one's going to be the poster and the other is going to be fun for my room. Maybe something that you see first thing...

Ah....if I got an F in AP US, my mom won't be surprised....but my dad will. Since he hasn't been home nor has he checked his email, he's going to be -very- surprised. Though here's the conversation with my teacher after I handed in a crap-load of make-up work the day after I took a whole night off just to DO it:
Him: "You know this might not bring your grade up that much, right?"
Me: "I don't care anymore."
Ta, so that problem is fixed and I'm working on my Chapter 9 packet... Maybe, JUST MAYBE, this quarter will be better.
HA. like that would ever happen.

With a poster half done, I sit and think. Why do I even bother.

~Okami~
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   Revelations at 12:43 in the morning
EASY LISTENING: Killer Queen by Queen
READ UP ON IT: Hellsing Vol.3

I love when the major says "Vat a superb var declaration. I'm so glad. This means var. It means ve can go to var again." It reminded me of what was happening now in the world. With all the rasism, war, and plundering. Maybe what the world needs is a Revolution. Or maybe another 60's. Either one would work. If all the world leaders got together and went to Disneyworld for a day...or maybe just got stoned. Hmm, maybe that would work...

I'm on the line between sleepy/half-asleep and coherent thought, which always comes out interestingly. The Disneyworld thing was something Emi and I thought up when we were down there. Maybe if the world leaders went to Disneyworld and just hung out like friends, with no worries in the world, maybe something would get done, no?

Well, that's my revelations on an early Sunday morn'

ciao
~Okami~
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Saturday, November 3, 2007

   The Other Shoe Must Drop
EASY LISTENING: Dare by Gorillaz
READ UP ON IT: Treason Keep by Jennifer Fallon

I have no clue what I am feeling at the moment. After having done absolutely nothing today, I got to relax and put my emotions back into their respective boxes. Last week just wrecked me. Since I just needed a breather, I decided to take this weekend off from friends and life, just sitting back and relaxing. Drawing a few pictures. Doing some homework when I feel like it. Do whatever comes to my head.
It's working, but I know it'll be so funky on Monday. I have Comic Book Club and I have to get to the auditorium for Eric's acting skit that we're doing for the middle school (it's about drugs and suicide and stuff...). I am an Extra, but I still need to be there. *shrug*

Creative Writing is so far so good. Dreamwrights meetings have been moved to Thursday instead of Wednesday. Art Club still meets on Mondays. Eric's drama thing is meeting Monday, Tuesday, and Thursdays, 3-5. Shakespeare is...interesting (if you knew the teacher, you would understand perfectly).

How's everyone's weekend going so far?

LOVE
~Okami~
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Friday, November 2, 2007

   All I Want to Do is Sleep
EASY LISTENING: Criminal by Apple Fiona
READ UP ON IT: --

I've been so tired today because of yestuday, and I can't even go to bed early. Lucifer and I are going to the football game. Don't get me wrong, I wanna be with her, but I'm just really tired and don't know if I can make it through the whole game.

Now I gotta go call her and make sure what time we have to meet there...

How was everyone's week?

LOVE
~Okami~
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Thursday, November 1, 2007

   Now I Feel Like I'm Just Ranting
With my raging emotions (I had to mix them up today, making me unstable....) and then I get a grade report saying I have an F in US History. Does that mean I can make up all the crap I missed? He sent it today... Maybe I can hand crap in tomorrow? Yeah, I really hope so, because I have a 43%.... Yeah...I need to kick my laziness/procrastination.
ARG! I tried out for something today that I don't even know what it is, and I did a rant (but they called it a "monologue") all about my real emotions. That's what really mixed up my emotions, sending me spiraling for the rest of the day. I'll be able to find out tomorrow if I made it...
I probably didn't make it. I can't do shit.

~Okami~
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   The Death of a Loved One on Halloween
I just found out that my dog had to be put down yesturday. It was the worst news at the worst time.

I've known that dog since she was born, she was motherly and playful at the same time, always found the simple pleasures in life (scratch on the ear, a pet on the head)

Now I don't know what to do with myself...

Maybe I'll try to go pick myself together...

~Okami~
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Tuesday, October 30, 2007

   Mischief Night Tonight
EASY LISTENING: The Distance by Cake
READ UP ON IT: evening news paper

Right now I'm in my halloween costume so that I know it works. Since I'm going as a vampire (I can't go as Roy yet because I need to get the costume for that together), I am in a black dress that buttons up in the front, black high heels (no pointy-toe) and sun glasses. *shrug* I can't do fangs because of my damn braces...

Since Paul wants pictures, I'll take some as well. Might post them on theOtaku when I get the chance (I also need to scan a crap-load of stuff).

Well, I must be off. Homework to (actually) do and all that stuff. (I can't do Mischief Night this year, but I can still give people suggestions)

LOVE
*hug*
~Okami~
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Monday, October 29, 2007

   Why Can't It Be Wednesday Yet?
EASY LISTENING: Shadow of the Day by Linkin Park
READ UP ON IT: Harshini by Jennifer Fallon

The only thing really going on tomorrow is my final in Drama and Journalistic Writing. That's it. Oh, and a crap-load of stress. AP US for short. I need to finish chapter 8 tonight and hand in a ton of stuff that I'm missing by Thursday (end of quarter).

Lovely...

Halloween is almost upon us, and I can't wait to dress up and go to school (we're allowed to get into costume if it's not severly breaking the dress code...)

LOVE
~Okami~
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