Wednesday, January 28, 2004

In the jungle the mighty jungle...

Schoool started back yesterday.. I was awake since 1AM so for the first part of the day I was a nut.
Then I got really tired and irritable... and ended up going to bed at 7PM.

So my Womens Studies class has only five Stage 1's and the rest are Stage 2's. [Stage 1 = Year 11, Stage 2 = year 12]
My Photography class has only two Stage 1's and the rest are Stage 2's. Which is utter crap and I'm gonna see if I can switch into a different subject, maybe health or something.

I've pretty much worked out how to get Naomi's boots before fiday, all I gots to do is call her later. Also need to get my teacher a note as to why I won't be partaking at the school thing on Friday. Sooo... what was I gonna type... shoop shoop shoop de doop doop doop.

Um... With being back at school I feel over my head and I have no idea how to do anything or go about doing everything... itchyyy... *scratches*
What else to write...

I don't have Peter for art, which sucks majorly!!! Grrraaahh!
Oh well... nothing else comes to mind right now... BDO! w00!
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Monday, January 26, 2004

Jamies are cool

Okay, I spent my last night in a movie cinema watching all three LOTR movies. Which was great. I reckon it would of been better if I had all my friends with me, including Ashbo.
Then I realised there were too many beautiful/pretty people in the movies to be jealous of if Sera was there [yes I am lame].
So anyways, that was good. Mum and Brit cried during Return Of The King.
The cartharsis effect didn't work on me and Brit said I didn't cry cause I don't like showing emotion.

Anyway, yesterday I was talking to Sera on the phone and then Mum and Brit gave me my presents cause I was asleep for most of today, Brit made me open her present first so then I could get Dad's.
So I got pink and white striped jamie pants and a white jamie tank top with pink on the edges. As we all know Pink is one of my least favourite colours but it was that or blue and both me and Brith avoid too many blue things cause Tamara loves that colour to the point of buying anything blue. And actually these jamies are quite cool and nice looking.
Keep in mind I was still on the phone to Sera while opening these. Which was a bit embarassing. Anyway, Dad stuck his hand in the room and in his hand was a ticket to BDO, and I screamed, my psycho excited happy scream. Its a scream Ashlee should know cause I'm sure I did that once when we talked on the phone cause she mentioned Placebo.
So yeah, Sera was laughing at me. But god, I was just so happy!
Mum got me two art jounals, A3 and A5 sized. She also got me three tops that are one colour and have white collars and cuffs. which is cool.
Earlier during the day Pam and Leon [family friends] came around and Leon woke me up because they had my B-day present for me, cause they're usually late and this time they wanted to be early.
They got me a candle holder that holds two candles, two really nice smelling candles and two of those gel candles that had shells in them. I can't wait till Andy and Tamara move out at the end of the week.

So today Wendy came around and gave me my present, it was one of those binders that you can zip up and she had a note pad in there and seperators and 11 different sized lead pencils, a metal sharpener [which I'm grateful for cause I haven't had one for years], an eraser and a black fineline pen [Also grateful for cause my other one was stolen]. So that was super cool.
Tamara got me a pedicure thing which is nice cause its all pepperminty and I like my feet to feel nice.

De-Arna droped by today to wish me a Happy Birthday, which was ever so nice.
I got a SMS from Sera wishing me a Happy Birthday and also saying she hopes I get one of those giant cakes with Brian dressed in bikini's hiding inside [which I didn't! >:(]
And Rach also SMSed me wishing me a Happy Birthday. Ashlee sent me a SMS at like 1AM while I was in the movies, but luckily my phone was on silent ^_~. I hate turning it off in the cinema. Anyway, I've had a really good birthday, nothing over the top and nothing dissapointing. Very cool day and fun.

Well, I'm off to wait for Ashbo to come on.

Happy Australia Day too.
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Saturday, January 24, 2004

What Snack Food are You?
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So, I've been thinking, which will come as a shock to many of you... yes I actually do think. Wow, I have a brain and its not fawlty... [heh, sorry... lame joke]
Anyways, I've rambled too much and have forgotten my point... I was thinking.

I shall call Sera on tuesday if we don't speak before then. I think too much and end up way too paranoid.
I haven't spoken to Rach in ages.. actually no, I spoke to her last night breefly, but it was too short.

My chest hurts.. stoopid chest.

Is it wrong to be ready to completly hand your love, trust, life, etc when your only 15 going 16 in two days?
Is this feeling just a delusion made by adolecent hormones?
Should I just stop thinking about the logical side of this, which is making me paranoid and just go with my feelings, seeing as I love to emote?



You know what I just realised? It'll be my birthday when we get out of the movie marathon.. hehe.
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RUN FOREST RUN!

I am going to see LOTR in a movie marathon tomorrow.... all threeeee... yay! *dances* It'll be the best 9 or so hours of my life! Okay, of my movie experiences... so far... *sly grin*
The best moment/experience of my life happened yesterday... but I don't think I can talk about it here yet. Anyways... FUN!

*sings* Sunday, bloody sunday

Another good thing is Ash might be calling me, which is always EXCELLENTLY GREAT!
A movie marathon and a conversation with Ash in one day... what could make it even better?
..I know one thing... and I think Ash can figure it out too... lol.

Wonder if anyone's gonna call me on my birthday... which I have been trying to avoid mentioning..
Anywho... school is back on tuesday. W00! Yes I am looking forward to school... call me crazy if you wish.

*dances* Happyness....
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Friday, January 23, 2004

theOtaku.com: What Anime Legend Are You?
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Thursday, January 22, 2004

I'm on a Placebo

Placebo are going to be here in Adelaide on March the 15th. I have to gooo I muuussssttt!!

It'll be the coolest ever, cause Rach'll go too. And this time I'll take a camera and get photos. Ahh... must gooo...

In the words of Comic Book Guy: Best News, EVER!
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"You're lying to yourself again
Suicidal imbecile
Think about it, put it on the faultline
What'll it take to get it through to you precious
I'm over this, why do you wanna throw it away like this
Such a mess, why would i wanna watch you
Disconnect and self destruct one bullet at a time
What's your rush now, everyone will have his day to die"
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Wednesday, January 21, 2004

They say in chess you got to kill the queen and then you mate it

"So Devine, Fell off an elevator"*

Let me see... its 4:35am, tis fun... nothing to do, nothing on TV... music is goodness.... Eddie Izzard rocks... APC rock... Placebo rock, the Foo's rock, Dandy's rock... rocks rock....

I want to go to the APC concert next month... see if people do as I say and give me money for my birthday I probably could.. oohhh hopefully someone brought me a BDO ticket... I want to go to BDO badlyy.... everything sucks. *sits on the ground*

*sings* I have lazy day jumper.... laaazzzyyyyy

I was in the land of Delerium the other day, so anyways I'm all into whatever the Delerious people do and what not when invisible ninja's attack me while I'm doing my solo air-guitar riff and almost make me fall over... so in retaliation I proclaim I'll cut off my feet and throw them at the neighbours. Which personally I think is an excellent idea, but E was grossed out by it and Naomi said she had no objections however it was gross. Then I just went into town with Naomi. GO NO SLEEP!

Oh, wow! A wonderwall!! *spins*

*[not actual lyrics]
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I'm more than just a little curious how you plan on making your amends...

Okay, I was at Naomi and E's since Monday Night. Leaving home at around 11-12ish at night, my dad is super cool.
Naomi and I didn't sleep at all monday night and then proceeded to go out on tuesday to get some panties. [Panties, glorious panties!]
So that was interesting, we also had one of our talks about religions and stuff and how Mary more than likely wasn't a virgin cause its not possible in those day and ages. We reckon she was raped.

Anyways, Wednesday was E's 16th birthday. E reckons I have narcolepsy, Karina showed up at like 8-9. I was asleep on Naomi's couch when dad picked me up at like 11:40 and so I forgot to give Naomi her Lazy Day Jumper back. But I shall next time I see her.

Ummm... don't you hate it when you have something to say to someone then you go to say it and you forget? I HATE THAT!

I have to call Sera tomorrow or something to that effect cause I said I'd call her sometime this week when I got back from Naomi and E's. And obviously getting back at like midnight isn't a good time to call anyone.

I got an aplication from the ACSA to do some art courses, which is excellently cool!
Just gotta get the money and work it out with the folks....

I hate James Bond, but I love Get Smart. Is that odd?

I have to file my nails tomorrow. Yes I do. I dunno if I can be bothered to go to bed tonight [yes I am in wednesday mode still]. I'll see what happens.
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Saturday, January 17, 2004

Remember me through flash photography and screams.... remember me, special dreams

You know how there's always that painful feeling you get in your chest when something happens in a Romance Movie and the "lovers" break up and go through all those tears and memories and ice cream. And deep down you feel sad, but don't want to cry because its a movie and you just don't think its right to cry because of that fact, and you long for them to get back together so it doesn't hurt anymore and you'll be happy and they'll be happy.
I love and hate that feeling. Hate it more than love... but I guess thats how it is with a lot of things, a massive Love/Hate relationship.

"Christlike, whipped and weak
Painted nails driven through the meek
Yet in obituary
My dreams still weep
Of dark blood and fucking thee"

I'm being incredibly selfish of late. But for once I feel like I deserve it. I'm allowed to wallow in self-pitty/hate/angst because I've done all that I can at the moment to try and fix what I've ruined. So, in the end I'm getting my arse kicked majorly by Karma and I just have to put up with it.
I don't know how I'll cope if I've ruined the only thing that kept me alive last year. I always had the feeling I'd never live past high school... I'm so fucking scared.
I think I have to get out of this house, I'm starting to feel suffocated. Its too much. This house is the reason I am who I am, the people moreso than the house, a building can't define character...
I'm sorry.

Its not right for me to be selfish.
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