Friday, January 16, 2004

Take the Which of the 7 deadly sins are you? quiz, and visit Castle Diqueria.






Take the What's Your Song? quiz and visit Castle Diqueria.







Take the Which Evil Demon are you? quiz, and visit Castle Diqueria.

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Why can't I wear that?
That What Not To Wear show annoys the crap out of me sometimes... mainly cause those host women have crap titties and they end up naked in the opening titles... anyway, its alright I guess, some of those clothes are alright looking for when I feel girly.

I had the oddest coolest dream today [I sleep during the day] anyways it guest starred Brian Molko, Stefan Olsdal, David Bowie and John Marsden.
It was cool. John Marsden gave a talk to my poetry class [my school was co-ed in my dream] and I talked to him a bit about writing. Then I had to go to another class in which I had to go to a different campus or something, and the seating was like those Americal colledges in the movies. On my way to my other class I saw David Bowie, he was doing metal works or something.
Then I found myself talking to Brian Molko and Stefan Olsdal. In which I was continuously hugging Brian. In the end we pashed and I woke up.

Good dream if I do say so myself. *giggles* Brian is so dreamy.

In other news I am so jealous of Ashlee getting tickets to go to BDO. But happy for her. ^_^
Its just odd.

Ah well, I'd have no-one to go with if I did get tickets. But I wanna go to it so badly!!
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Thursday, January 15, 2004

"I'm Agent Johnson and this is Special Agent Johnson" What makes him so special!?!
Well, I'm boreded... No Ashleeski or Aimee or Rachness to talk to... There hasn't been a Dan in a while either and no Soley since last year! Where are you people?!

..typical! I start complaining about not having an Ashleebonesski and she shows up. But it is good. w00t!

Just so you people all know, I killed my god! To cut a long story short I decided my Musli Bar, which was strawberry flavoured and one of those yoghurt topped ones, was my new god. Then I got bored and ate it. So now I am godless. *sigh* this is so sad... lol

Well, I am placebo obsessed once again! w00!! SWG on repeat. Might put Placebo or WOYIN on later... By the way I'm using the first letter of the words in the titiles... people who are Placebo obsessed should get me... if not, SHAME ON YOU!!! You should and shall be shunned... lmao. Okay no, I just like to be um.. I dunno... over here now!




Gonna go now.. yep. Bye!!
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Worst post ever

Okay, so no-one’s online and I’m major bored and stuffs, so I shall take time out and do an actual blog post kind of post. Yes, I shall.

For those whom know/knew me personally throughout last year, the year before and well, the beginnings of this year would know I’m not always the easiest person to put up with. Seeing as I have a habit of having sudden mood swings from being really happy or feeling great [which I fear don’t get expressed much when they do happen] to me just being irritable, sad, cynical and just pessimistic.
Most also know I’m bisexual and happen to have an interest in one of my good friends. Which is very complicated at the moment.

You see, I like her heaps, so much that it makes the line of like and love hazy. I mean I’d do anything if it meant she’d be happy. [Although I’m sure I’d do that for many of my friends, but not to the same extent for her.] So, here I am, happy as a clam whenever I’m around her, now before I use the word “her” too much I’ll just start using her name, Sera [Sarah]. I love being around her, we have a good time and even though when we start taking the piss out of each other I do end up kicking and/or biting her she’s still happy and willing to be my friend, often telling me that a few bruises are nothing in the long run when I apologise.

Any way, our friendship/relationship is extremely confusing at times. She herself is bisexual too. She also has her share of mental-ness.
Often when we’re out together we’ll hold hands and stop and hug and its just really sweet.

So, a week or so ago I sent her an SMS with the typical kind of thing saying all this stuff to do with liking her and what not and asking what she thinks of me because in all honesty I don’t know.
In the end I fucked things up, and she believes she did, and we’re both so scared of the fact that we could have ruined everything we’ve spent the whole past year making, going through and experiencing.
I have taken the step to resolution and asked her to hang out sometime, if she wants to that is. That way we can talk and work all this out.

For those that don’t know me well I have an awful habit of thinking too much about the things I’ve done and said and being over self-analytical which ends up with me believing people should hate me for certain reasons, making more of them and eventually believing they do.
I spent most of last year in the company of Sera and Rach two of the best friends I had at school [I’d like to point out they were in year 12 and therefore no longer will be at school when it commences this year.] we had tonnes of fun together and Rach was fine with the fact that we were both bi, and she was great to talk to and always managed to make me smile and I always loved making her smile.
And because of the fact that they did bitch about some of the year 12s they hated I started to believe that they bitch about me when I’m not there and that they both hate me. So I often felt like an idiot when Sera looked at me. If I hadn’t opened my metaphorical mouth I’d probably still be happily thinking I was an important part of their lives, while ever so doubting that I was worth their time and not believing that I really was important.
I guess its one of those human nature things.
Not the band. Bad music.

I guess this covers a lot of my thoughts of late. Thank you if you actually read through all this without being bored.
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Wednesday, January 14, 2004

Brian say's: Days dawning, skins crawling

I went out to town today, it was much fun.
I brought two new badges, one with AFI written on it and wings, and the other say's "I like you, I'll kill you last."

I'd like to honour Dave Grohl and say Happy 35th Birthday.
[yes, it is unlikely that he'd read this, but bear with me]

Some complete strange chick told me I had nice pants today, which are my "Kurt Pants" which are trashed black jeans whith rips and paint stains on them and ink from me drawing on them. They have "PoTAtO" written on the left leg, just an interesting fact.

I lost Jebus!! WHERE IS JEBUS!!
OH, Cheeses... Cheeses will save us!!

I saw a scary Hulk toy, it scares me 'nuff said...

Evil pig movie was on Hallmark before, that scares me too... pigs are scary. So are Unibrows... *runs*
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Sunday, January 11, 2004

Something to amuse Ash

"I think those boys are the work of the devil. I think someone is pulling their strings...yes, I'm very afraid of those boys." -- Marilyn Manson referring to Hanson


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Friday, January 9, 2004

I am 74% Grunge

I am pretty dirty, all right and, I reek of teen spirit... I would sell my own children for a moldy hotpocket, man.

Take the Grunge Test at fuali.com

well, tell me how else to get a moldy hotpocket?! Aye? AYE?!!?

I am 77% Evil Genius

I am pure evil. I lie awake at night devising schemes of world domination, and I will not rest until all living souls bend to my will.

Take the Evil Genius Test at fuali.com

Mwahahahahaaaa.... erm... no, I am not evil....

He's the one who likes all our pretty songs and he likes to sing along and he likes to shoot his gun, but he knows not what it means
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And I forget just why I taste

And I'm back from my four-day stay at Naomi and E's.
I went there on Tuesday, came home today, being Friday. Much fun was had. Very LOTR orientated in which we watched many things on the extended DVD and extra DVDs.
We learnt that Viggo is insane and Sean Astin is safety obsessed.
I was actually meant to be picked up last night but at around 2:30 [while watching Audio Commentary of LOTR] we realised no one was gonna pick me up. So we just sat around listening to the Cast talk through the movie. It was amusing.

I went to bed at 9AM this morning and get woken up at 1:30 cause mum picked me up after work. I find out our stupid bitch cat has given birth to one kitten, and it's alive this time. I've decided to call it Paperclip and shall also make it an alfoil hat like mine. wheeee!

Jay is box obsessed.
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Monday, January 5, 2004

*just choked*

Had erratic moods lately... most of it anger or sadness.
I've had so many fucking panick attacks in the last few days cause I ruined something really special to me and I've convinced myself that the recipitent of what I've done had done something to themselves and that they're dead. Which isn't a good thing and had caused me to call them at 4Am in the morning to make sure they were alive and well, or at least breathing and coping.
I'm happy that they can still stand to talk to me or listen to me.

And at least I did get a somewhat good answer from them. Ah well... I'll probably fuck something else up along the way.

Surprisingly I was actually optamistic yesterday.

funtimes... I saw Peter Pan yesterday. Good movie.
Saw Return of The King on the 27th or something like that. Great movie.

Found out that you have to be over 18 to work at a brothel. Interesting fact that.

Really want the Docs I saw in town yesterday, speaking of town apparently a Goth/Punk guy we walked past was watching me, I really wish I had enough money to buy things from Dragons Blood. Beautiful Store.
Think that's it for the time.
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Sunday, December 28, 2003

Congratulations! You're Merry!


Which Lord of the Rings character and personality problem are you?
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