Wednesday, March 3, 2004

In my recent days I have in fact been spending a lot of time in my room alone. According to my mother this isn't good, I don't know why. She ignores me when I make an effort to sit in the lounge room rotting my brains with the claptrap of television. I don't see how sitting in silence while the idiot box is healthy.
It's certainty not as good as sitting alone in my room doing my homework or reading something to expand my mind.
But obviously if I'm alone it means I'm "depressed" and going to kill myself. My mother is truly a stupid woman.
She doesn't get that I don't want to spend excess amounts of time with them. Does she not get that I like to sit alone because it gives me time to think, it allows me to get homework done.

I really don't think I'll bother to keep in contact with her when I do eventually decide I'm old and capable enough to move out.

I really miss Sera when I don't get to see her.
And I really want to see her. I love her hugs, and I love the feeling I get when we hug.
I love how we're both so comfortable around each other we can sit there in silence holding hands or touching each other's skin without the need to fill in the void with conversation.
There have been so many times when we've freaked each other out by being on the same wavelength [or as Ash and I call it; have Psycho moments].
I love knowing that I no longer have to be afraid of her reaction if I suddenly kiss her. I know I can say anything to her and she'll accept it as my opinion and I love how we can still joke around like we used to before we became a couple.
I just really love being with her. And I really bloody miss her so much.
I think I may ask her if she's doing anything on the weekend. If she is then that's sad, but if not we can go do something together and all will be happy! Lol. I am such a retard.

I just read some horoscope thing and this is what it said:
Your brain's on fire! [Oh no! Someone get a bucket of water!] No, not literally, calm down [give me a heart attack will you!]. But this week you'll be all about ideas and new connections, and you might find it hard to sleep with all that activity in there [there aren't any fuzzy animals bonking like rabbits in there is there?]. You'll meet someone interesting and very different from you early on [I go to a school with people who should be used as lab rats, that's somewhat interesting], and by Friday you'll see a turning point in your life coming up[I'm going to see the light? But I'm too young to die!]. Don't let the coming change freak you out, as you'll end up better off[since when is my being dead better off? Oh yeah… no more tripe from the brainless fungus whom are known as idiot girls at school… I could also meet Kurt…]. This weekend you can relax with the people closest to you and just enjoy the good vibes no matter where you all are[good vibes? Great, Romi's getting us stoned isn't she?!]

And with that I shall end this transmission.

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