Friday, August 3, 2007

   friday
Hello all my good friends here on the O!!


I'm ok. Nothing much going on. Just my friends birthday. It should be fun! Apparently she wants to see hairspray. *sigh8 not really looking foreward to that, not to mention my sis is soooooo dreading it. but it is her birthday, so i shall do what she asks of me. Well, nothing else really to say, i hope you all have a good weekend. Oh and about the fanservice....none today! why? because photobucket is being freaking retard. so on monday, i shall post it! later
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Thursday, August 2, 2007

   Stuff
Hello all my friends.

Well nothings really happeing today. My friend crissy is coming back from orgen tomorrow, it's her birthday. sadly her parents arent really going to celebrate it. So we are! my sis made her a cake and we bought her some mangas! she's an anime freak as well! Thanks to me!! lol. it should be fun. other then that not much is new.

About the drama thing, yes it is crazy. thank god it wasnt really happening to me. And is he would have hit her, trust me i would have been right there, kicking his ass.

Oh, one more thing!! My bf is at a convetion right now and i'm sad!! lol. well talk to you all later.



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Wednesday, August 1, 2007

   Drama
Hello all of my O friends.

Well as you can guess form the title, some drama happened yesterday. It wasnt really mine but i was involved, as usual. So i was hanging out with my good friend Alli, she was trying to help me get my mind off my dad. It was all ok, until of course we started to talk about her current bf. She was asking my opinion on some things, also like usual. From what she told me he was being a little overbearing, always checking up on her. Which is never a good thing. (i would just like to add that he also shaved his head! omg he looked so funny, it was weird)

Anyway, as the day progress, her ex that she was with for about two years comes over. They were playing around but i saw very clearly the spark that was still between them. So, Alli tell me that she thinks she should break up with her current boy, just becuase he wasnt working out. I agreed, it's not fair that he loves her and she doesnt. so that night i went with her and well.........he was pissed. He said it was just because he shaved his head. *sigh* it was so drama!! i swear, i though he was going to punch her, he was so pissed. Scary. anyway, that was my day yesterday. I hope you all have a good one today, see you.


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Tuesday, July 31, 2007

   Blah
Hello all my friends. In response to yesterday...

Edge and LS, thank you for your pervy honsety, i expect no less from you guys. as for the aunts thing, your probably right, i guess when i leave they will treat me differently. maybe.

Now then, today i'm not really doing much, just cleaning. WHICH I HATE. lol. Oh, yeah, also me and my sis have been taking care of a bird my mom found. (i dont know why she has to rescue every animal in site but she does) it's kind of funny to watch my sis chase after the bird after it fly around. heehee. also we have a new cat in the house that we named Angel. shes so cute with big blue eyes but...she's kind of mentally challenged and she's crippled. poor kitty!! anyway, that's the update on the zoo that is my house. lol. i love animals though.

One more thing here is a pic for my hunni, Jack. I hope you like if not......to bad!! heehee, just kidding i love you.


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Monday, July 30, 2007

   Weekend
Hello all my friends. i hope you all had a good weekend.

Mine was alright. Watched some movies with my family, relaxed. Went to the mall to by my friend some birhtday gifts. it was ok, i was kind of happy, not depressed like i have been lately. Again i thank you all for your support.

So my aunts visited my dad, it's funny how i'm 18 but they dont talk to me like that. They were goving me that fake happy voice, i guess to them i'm still their yound niece. *sigh* well he's not doing that great. i guess he still cant breath on his own and he's not really aware of what's going on around him. But they read our letters to him, left them and me and my sis picture there too. It's like waiting for a bomb to go off. i hate it. But i'm trying to stay cheerful.

Anyway, back to the mall. So me and my sis were wandering around the mall, when we went into this music store. FYE, i think it's called, she got all gaga over this guy that worked there. it was funny since he was way older then her. She said, "It's not fair why do all the hot guys have to be older then me!" I laughed, isnt that always the case. Of course the day wouldnt be complete if a gross older guy didnt stare out my chest. I swear, if your going to look can you try not to be so fricken obvoiuse about it! Anyway, i hope you all have a great day.


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Friday, July 27, 2007

   Friday
Hi everyone. Well, first off i'm glad Edge had a good birthday.

Again i thank you all for your support about my father. Me and my sister have written letters and gave them to our aunts. There fairly brief but it will make HIM feel better. in truth i dindt put half of the things that i wanted to say. if he does die i will not have those things on my conscious. Anyway, i feel ok right now though. I guess i'm just waiting to see what really happens. But it is fanservice firday! so on with the hottness!


for the boys:


for the girls:

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Thursday, July 26, 2007

   Edge
Hello all my friends. i hope you are all doing well.

Today i am going to forget all the crap that is happening in my life right now. I will be happy today because it is one of my good friends, here on the O, birthday. Happy BirthDay Knight Edge, you are now older and possibly more wrinkly. lol. I hope you have a good birthday and feel better, ok my friend. Everyone go and wish Knight Edge a happy b-day!!!



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Wednesday, July 25, 2007

   Dad
Hey all my friends. i hope you are all well.


I hope your well because i am not. So it is official my father is going to die. I believe it is do to liver failure, which doesnt shock anyone becuase he was an alcholic. He's a machine since he cant breath and had to have multiple blood transplants, but it's really not good.

two of my aunts are going up to colorado to see him in his last moments, whihc is 15 hours from where we are. But...well here's the story. My father has been in and out of jail/prison all my life. So, that it was i have mix emotions about the whole thing. I mean...i did have about four years with him until i turned five then he was in jail for longer periods, like years as supposed to days. which is why my sister doesnt know him at all. the last time i saw him was in the seventh gradeand i just graduated high school, so u do the math. i still feel so angry about it....i will never get to tell him all the stuff that i want to tell him. All my life he has given me broken promises and now it's over! *sigh* I'm sorry you guys, i dont like ranting about this kind of crap....anyway, i thank you all for listening. It means alot to me.



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Tuesday, July 24, 2007

   Mixed Emotions
Hello all my friends. Well as you all can plainly see i'm still here and not on my way to San Fran. Why is this? Simply because Alli popped three of her tires and has to pay her mom back. So we wont be leaving until god knows when. Which suxs. Because right now getting away would be pretty good.

But........i feel, well i dont know actually. yesterday we had some bad news. It was about my father, who i never really talk about if you ahdnt noticed. That's because...well i guess...i dont want to explain it all, not now. But he may be dying, yes my father who is really only my father because of his DNA. It's been over six years since i have seen him, you can draw your own conclusions if you like on why that is. Anyway, i have been angry at him most of my life. All he ever gave me were broken promises and i hated him for it. He always had a way of making me feel guilty for being mad at him, though i had every right. And now....now i may never get to tell him all these things that i left bottled up. A part of me is angry, some of me is sad, which makes me even more angry. I also feel kind of guilty too. Which really pisses me off.

I dont know what to do or how to feel about this! Which makes me irritated and closed off. So i apologize. Especially to my sister who has to put up with my over emotional crap. But i cant help it.....i'm sorry you guys. Sorry sis, please forgive me. Well, see you all later, have a good day.



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Monday, July 23, 2007

   Leaving
Hello all my friends!! I hope you all had a good weekend.


Mine was pretty good. My friend Crissy stayed over on Sat. We went to the mall and the craziest thing happened. the power went out. It was so weird. my sis was pissed because she couldnt by her CD's.

Anyway, so tomorrow i'm leaving for about three days. So this will probably be my last psot until i return. I'm going to San Fran with my good friend Alli. Well that's the plan anyway. *sigh* she has a habbit of waiting till the last minute. It's her birthday tomorrow and this is my gift to her. going on this crazy ass trip to see her guy. Well, i believe it is her guy. i dont know. But yeah it should be fun.

I should be back on the 26th which is Edge's Birth Day!!!!!!!!!! So, no one forget!!!!!!!!

See you guys later!!



P.S. Love you Jack!
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