Thursday, May 24, 2007

   Random
Hello my Friends!!!

How is everyone!



Well shcool almost over and we've had a lot of finaly. Which i think i did ok at. i guess. anyway, nothing really happening, so i'm posting questions. Oh, but about the Gb thing i asked yesterday...DUH! How can i be so dumb! heehee.
Now Questions!!!

1)One word to describe me.
2)What do you think of me?
3)Have i ever annoyed you?
4)Am i a drama queen?
5)Name a show that you think someone made while smoking weed or anyother drug!?

Yes, i stole some questions form Kita and Edge but they'll live. Right? heehee. Anyway, you dont have to answer it's ok with me. Well see you all later. My answer for the last one is FLCL. And Fragel Rock. i probably didnt spell that right but oh well!!!
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Wednesday, May 23, 2007

   Random
Hello My Friends!!!!

How are all of you!!!??!?!

Well i feel so much happier today! Why? I have no idea! LOL, man i have mood swing issues. If any of you guys out there say it's becuase i'm a girl i'll kick your butt! LOL. Now then, it is so hot!! Good lord! It's like ninty and getting hotter. someone save me!! Sorry i hate this kind of weather, give me rain anyday.

Hey have you guys ever went to sign someones guest book becuase they signed yours and you get there and you cant because the box isnt there?? Whats up with that? I feel random today.

Does any one remember Care Bears, you know the bears that were all the colors of the rainbow! Well this is my favorite Care Bear.



Isnt he precious!! LOL. Well have a nice day everyone.
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Tuesday, May 22, 2007

   Blah
Hello everyone.



*sigh* For some reason i feel so depressed today. my heart feels so heavy and i dont know why. *sigh* I hate that feeling. And todya my sis was being messed with, again, people were throwing bibles at her. Yes, you heard me. She's "goth" so people treat her badly. Such a load of bull. I went with my mom to pick her up today and i saw a bunch of prepy girls getting all in her face. So....well, i got mad. My sis can handle herself, but when i see these things it really pissed me off. She's my sister and no one can mess with her except for me!! LOL, i didnt threaten them i just well, i told them to knock it off. That's it, i swear. Well, that was pretty much it. See you all later.


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Monday, May 21, 2007

   Weekend


The weekend was atcually pretty fun. considering i wnet to a funeral on friday. the biggest shocker was that Derrick organized the plans. he wanted us to rent a boat on Sunday and ride a round on the lake.

I was even more shocked that we actually did. We were out there just us teens. Well, i mean techinically most of us are 18, but you know. Luckily Derrick, Jake, Chris, Mark, and Anna know how to drive a boat. Otherwise there was no way i would have gotten on it. I like to have fun but i like living better. lol. It was really fun and carefree. A real party, there was at least fifteen of us on that boat. Best of all Derrick looked like he was really having fun, so that made me happy. I hope everyone else had a good weekend as well. See you all.
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Friday, May 18, 2007

Funeral
Before i go with the post i would like to say thank you to kitabug69 for the help on my site. i appreciate it. thanks!



So i left school at eleven today. My mom gave me permission and all. But derrcik picked me up.

I wore balck of course. Everyone was crying, which made me anxious and uneasy. Derrick didnt say anything the whole time. however when they started going up there placing the roses on her casket he grabbed my hand. He was suppoosed to go up there but he said he needed me to come with him. So i did. Immidaitly his all family thouight we were together. What i time to even care about that crap! Anyway when it was over his family was going back to the house to do that whole....i'm not sure what it's called. A wake i think. Anyway, Derrick informed me that he didnt want to go. So what does he do, he dorves us to the baech, which is a long drove from here. Derrick is unpredictable at times. Today was one of those days.

When we got there he quickly got out. I thought he was just going to run out to the ocean but he came to my side of the car and asked for my hand. I gave it to him and he ran to the ocean. He pulled me in with him. It would have been fun if i dodnt no better that he was trying to distract himslef. he even forced out a laugha and a smile. Finally i told him it was ok to be sad. that he could cry. like me, he feels like he has the wieght of the world on his shoulders. And to us it's not ok to be weak. But we've been helping each other get over it. To my shock he really did cry, he was very soft. He buried his head in my shoulder when he did. He told me not look at him, he didnt want to see him so vulnearable. in truth i'm glad he did. It made me feel like i was doing something to help him. So we stayed there for a little while longer than we drove back. he seemed better now, i just hope it stays that way. well see you guys later. have a great weekend.
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Thursday, May 17, 2007

   Perverts


Hey all.

well tommorrow is the funeral. *sigh* I'm nervous i guess. i just dont like being around so many sad people at once. but i suppose not many do. But i swear i will bea strong!!!

On a lighter note, all of my guys friends today were being total pervs. Now, i dont really like pervs in real life. I only hold a few exceptions. (you know who you are) A part of me thinks that i'm a hypocrite since i'm some what pervy myself. That's right guys, girl can be just as pervy. But even those with girl friends were hollering at girls who walked by. Most of the girl wore skimpy clothes today since it's so FRICKEN hot here. But Jake, said, "All men must appreciate the female form if it's parading right in front of them." I guess he's right....It's not fair! Why arent their any hott guys parading around in front of us girls! damn it all. lol. Well see you all later.
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Wednesday, May 16, 2007

   Come over


Hey everyone. So i'm trying not to be depressed and all when today Derrcik calls me at school. I was shocked to say the least. all he said was, "Can you come over after school?" I of course said yes.

So i visited him. He looed so terrible. I mean, his eyes seemed so hollow. I thought i would start crying. But i didnt. i sat on the oppsoite end of his bed and for a long time he just stared at me. Which was very uncomfortable. He then asked if i would come with him to the funeral this friday. that was even more shocking. before i could say yes he added that he needed me there. which i made me want to cry even more. i of course said yes. he seemed very relieved by answer. like i would say no! hoestly. *sigh* poor Derrick, he's a mess. I styaed there for an hour with him, he just talked about memorys with his sister. I just listened. He then said thanks and i left. I hate this so much. i hate it when he's so sad and i feel so hopeless. I'm sorry that i keep talking about this guys. please bare with me. I hope you all have a great day/night. See you.
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Tuesday, May 15, 2007

   Happy Dispostion (on the out side)


Hello my Friends. Thanks for the concern about Derrick. He didnt show up at school today, again, but I understand that. Today i'm going to try and not be all depressed or whatever.

MY GOD IT IS SO HOT!!!!!!!!!! I feel like i'll be lit on fire if i walk out side. Sorry but i prefer the cold and rain. Oh, and LS, yes i suppose washing animals could sound wrong. Thank you for pointing that out. lol. Speaking of which my sister brought home a stray puppy today. *sigh* I swear we could open up a shelter with all the pets we have. Her name's Dezzy, i dont know where she came up with it. She's a black lab mix. She's hyper and oh so annoying. But she is cute. Darn cutness. My mom says that we areny keeping her but i know better. That's what she said about all the other ones. *sigh* All i know is she's not staying in my room! lol. Well i hope you all have a great day/night. See you later.
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Monday, May 14, 2007

   Weekend


Hey all! I hope everyone had a nice weekend, especially the moms out there.

Now, my weekend was ok. My mom had a really nice mothers day. Simply becaue me and my sister were her slaves. lol. We cleand the whole house, cooked, and washed our animals. (which is a lot by the way) I almost died from all the cat scratches. JEEZ!

Sadder news, Derrick wasnt at school today. I dont blame him at all. If my sister just died i wouldnt go to school either. Poor guy. He hasnt talked to anyone at all since friday. *sigh* i feel so terrible. It's eating away at me. I wish there was more i could do but i'm not going to force him into talking to me. I guess all i can do is wait. Sometimes life is a bitch. lol. Well see you guys later.
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Friday, May 11, 2007

   Dark Days


Hi everyone. I'm glad you all missed me. I really did miss you all. You all mean so much to me! Sorry for being sappy.
School sucked. Derrick was in a such a depressing mood. He was in all black today, he had dark circles under his eyes like he handnt slept. He wouldnt even talk to me. Finally i got him to speak at lunch. Apprently his older sister who was twenty three was killed in a car accident yesterday. I was so horrified. I dont know what to do!! I dont even thinks there's anything i can do except be there for him. I just hope Derrick doenst spiral down and crash. Like me, he doesnt hadnle death very well. *sigh* Sorry if this post is depressing.

But this weekend is mothers day. So happy Mothers Day to all the Mom's on the O! May your Mothers Day be a good one. See you all later.
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