Saturday, April 21, 2007

   update

Well me and Kayla went job hunting today...grrrr...man people were fucking rude, and this one dude was SCARY, like "Im gonna rape you scary" WE were like errrr lol...WE got like 8 applications all together...and prolly maybe have a possibilty of geting a job at three...or four, my best guesses are, Walmart, Dollar General,Hays, and maybe Hess shoes, we are just hoping. On later news...omfg my family...now me and my dad are good, cuz we have to side with each other, all the other two people in my household are fucked up on something. I just know they are fucking with some kind of drugs again...fucking mom and bro...grrr...yeah my nerves are shot because of them, first with michael and the alicia thing, now with this shit...sorry i cant explain cuz its hard, but oh well. I will be okay..only one more year lefted! YAY and kitty's mommy said i could come stay with them if needed LOL xD anyways im bored and sleepy and stuff. I miss my baby to death, she went to a thing with her friends, but i guess its good i didnt want her to hear all the fighting..but anyways i love you baby...well i guess i better end this post!!

Comments (3) | Permalink

Thursday, April 19, 2007

STUPID MOMENT

*sings* I CALLED HER ON THE PHONE AND SHE TOUCHED HERSELF, SHE TOUCHED HERSELF, SHHHEEEE TOUCHEEDDD HER SELF, I CALLED HER ON THE PHONE AND I SHE TOUCHED HERSELF, AND I WACKED MY SELF TO SLEEP!!!! *ends singing* lol sorry thought i should share that song with you! xD its "Wow, I can get sexual too!" by say anthing!

Comments (3) | Permalink

Monday, April 16, 2007

   Sooo

SO I have came to an Conclusion today. My dad is one of the very few people I cant stand up too. Well my dad and my aunt, but I knew about my aunt a long ass time ago.But my dad thinks im mad at him...(im not mad just upset that im apparently such a huge disappointment to him) but he is all like i know something is wrong...blah blah blah...and yeah i keep telling him no. But yeah I think he is ashamed of me being gay, ashamed and disapointed. He keeps making dyke jokes about me and my gf. (Sorry I did not tell you that baby, but yeah i figured it was something you didnt want to hear) but anyways i think he tries to mean it jokingly but it fucking hurts. I cant tell him this, he will say blah blah your too sensitive blah blah blah we always joke like this blah blah blah....I never thought i could feel so small. But around him I do. ITs a weird thing tho...one minute me and him can be joking and playing around, i mean I love my dad to death, I love spending time with him, but in a matter of 2 seconds he can make someone turn from a laugh to a cry. He really is an amazing human being. Sad part is I still cant help but want to be close to him. Its, i dunno, but on a lighter note. Nothing much new in my life. REALLY REALLY happy with Becki. School going average, my grades arent as good as the could be but whatever still passing lol...hmmm Im trying to get my future plans worked out, i think i may finally have it. Yay for me and kayla =] lol OOOOO kiwi touched my wenis today!xD yeah i guess thats all i have for today..peace out yall!!

Comments (2) | Permalink

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

   How well do you know me bitches

Create your own Friend Quiz here

Comments (0) | Permalink

Friday, April 6, 2007

   Biased judges

Well me and kiwi did witchcraft and the origins of magic for our g/t project. well we got the most biased judges, the first thing they said was "You realize you are dealing with two very devout baptists" and everything we said they counterclaimed, and basically fed our project back to us, im so pissed about it...they should have never acted the way they did, i mean one woman would even touch the voodoo doll or the cards...she was like -evil bitchy voice- "IM NOT T OUCHING THAT"...WTF!?!?! anyways sorry had to get that rant out...-_- anyways i guess ill go for now...

Comments (3) | Permalink

Monday, March 26, 2007

   Petit Jean Moutain

WEll i went to Petit Jean mountain with Kayla and her 'rents this weekend, it was fun..i was glad to get away...on saturday, we went to a petting zoo...so cute, there had this little goat that followed me around i wanted to steal him he was so cute...then there had a GOOSE but i couldnt pet it, it was mean and would bite ppl but i still wanted to pet it lol,a nd kayla got to pet a llama, i was happy for her. she was so hyper crazy over her llama. then we went to a auto mobile museum not as good as the animals but still pretty cool... then on sunday we went on a 2 mile hike...-twitches...DOWN A FLIPPING MOUNTAIN!!! 200 FOOT MOUNTAIN...going down and seeing the water fall was cool...going back up, me and kayla almost died, the brochure said..."Do not attempt if not physically fit" now tell me, WHY IN THE HELL DID I ATTEMPT THAT? lol no but everything but going up was fun, then when we got home....we got some cards, playing rummy was fun, playing skip bo WAS HELL,. they wouldnt let us leave, her parents are crazy...that game was a hell filled time of doom...i never wont to hear skip bo again -cries- 4 hours of playing cards. FOUR!! lol no but i did have a lot of fun...except for the becki withdrawals i had.. damn i missed her so much..i love her so much! -muah baby-

Comments (3) | Permalink

Friday, March 23, 2007

   SO yeah,

Well First and Foremost I want to say how much i love my baby, baby you mean more to me more than you will ever know. I want to thank you for always being there for me....And im sorry you had to hear me how i was last night...But because of you i WILL not cut. I care for you to much to do that. i love you baby. Well last night my parents got into a huge fight, (gasp big surprise) well they were screaming and cussing and shit, and i locked my self in my bathroom and room, then my brother kept trying to come in, but i didnt want to talk, well he got pissed bc i wouldnt,then me and mom got into a fight, she told me fuck you and i said it back and yeah then my mom said i betrayed her...i dunno wtf she was talking about...yeah i think its because im taking my dads side, even tho my dad is still kinda upset with me (for reasons i dont know) well i think my mom is strung out on that shit again, and i think my brother is getting strung out again too...which is fucking stupid he just spent 14 months in fucking jail because of that...-sigh- oh well, i wanted to cut so bad last night, i came so fucking close but i thought of Becki and how much it would hurt her so i didnt...i love her way to much to hurt her. SO i made a promise to her that i wouldnt cut...well i need to stop talking about this shit before i start to cry again.....well i g2g im in english and the bell is about to ring...

Comments (2) | Permalink

Monday, March 12, 2007

   Untitled poem for my baby

Rose petal lips Emerald eyes Baby when I talk to you I feel like I can touch the sky cute little laugh even cutter stutter wow baby you make my heart flutter Im so in love with you that words cant explain Baby, you are my dream girl Please don't ever change You are everything I have ever hoped for and everything I need Baby, my heart is yours as long as it still beats

Comments (2) | Permalink

Thursday, March 8, 2007

   My baby

wowz -blushes- I met this girl on myspace, we have only talked for a few days, but omgsh...she is so wonderful/amazing...i have never believed in love so fast, until now...I love her. Everything about her. WE have only talked for a little bit, but omgsh the connection. I swear she is my soulmate, we have so much in common. SHe is so beautiful/adorable/sweet/sexy/cute she is everything....

Comments (3) | Permalink

Saturday, March 3, 2007

   JB

Me and kayla went to Jb last night, we went to wally world, hastings, and the mall.. we had to look for kiwi and tiffy's bday gifts. we basically went around all night last night and acted stupid. we went to the park at like 8 oclock, then we started hearing and seeing shit so we left lol! Oh before the park we stopped at Kum and GO....THats a fucking gas station..its hilarious we took a pic of the sign cuz we are dorks! =) when we got to my house my bro pierced my lip i have a Monroe WOOOO lol oooo and thursday i got contacts WOOOOO lol well thats is my latest update...ooo yeah im still single -big surprise- lol

Comments (3) | Permalink