myOtaku.com: MorbidSmurf

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Birthday
• 1990-04-30
Gender
• Female
Location
• Arkansas
Member Since
• 2006-04-07
Occupation
• Student by day, Member of the Suicidal Butterflies X Squad of the Mercury Force by night
Real Name
• Nikki

Personal

Achievements
• National Honor Roll Society, Who's who among America's High School High School
Anime Fan Since
• Manga fan since 9th grade
Favorite Anime
• Black Cat, Bleach, Blood Sucker, Death Note, D-Gray man, Fruits Baskets, Full Metal Alchemist, Kumai, Saiyuki, The Cain series, The Tarot Cafe
Goals
• To Graduate from high school and College. Then to be a criminal Profiler. And to be with Becki Forever!
Hobbies
• Reading, writing, talking to my friends.
Talents
• I write Poetry, and the Mercury Bat can Fly...

myOtaku.com: MorbidSmurf

Wednesday, August 29, 2007

Fuck!

I am in such fucking bitchy mood.
I have been like that since Trig today.
I almost started crying in Trig.
I am so frustrated and pissed and bitchy.
And I don't know why.
I just feel like breaking down and crying.
Damn it.
I need to take my meds like I am suppossed too.
On top of that the people are starting to get to me.
I can't handle the stares and whispers anymore.
I am too the point of fucking swinging.
I just can't handle it.
Then Church.
I am going tonight.
Mainly because I need help in Trig from Eddie.
I feel like my youth pastors hate me now.
I used to be so close to them.
Then I came out,
and I feel like they don't like me anymore.
I can feel such tension when I am there.
I feel like they are judging me.
I am afraid of them now.
Afraid that I am a disapointment.
That is what I feel like to them.
I feel so small around them now.
I feel like they don't like me anymore.
*sighs*
I need to have a good breakdown.
I need to fucking talk to Becki.
FUCK

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