myOtaku.com: MorbidSmurf

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Vitals

Birthday
• 1990-04-30
Gender
• Female
Location
• Arkansas
Member Since
• 2006-04-07
Occupation
• Student by day, Member of the Suicidal Butterflies X Squad of the Mercury Force by night
Real Name
• Nikki

Personal

Achievements
• National Honor Roll Society, Who's who among America's High School High School
Anime Fan Since
• Manga fan since 9th grade
Favorite Anime
• Black Cat, Bleach, Blood Sucker, Death Note, D-Gray man, Fruits Baskets, Full Metal Alchemist, Kumai, Saiyuki, The Cain series, The Tarot Cafe
Goals
• To Graduate from high school and College. Then to be a criminal Profiler. And to be with Becki Forever!
Hobbies
• Reading, writing, talking to my friends.
Talents
• I write Poetry, and the Mercury Bat can Fly...

myOtaku.com: MorbidSmurf

Wednesday, July 5, 2006

im so tired of my episodes.

well ive been at my aunts since monday, i came over with my cousins and her mother. we came over for teh 4th, well we were suppossed to go home today but they changed their mind, well i was slighty pissed bc i wanted to go to church, and i couldnt find noone to take me to meet my dad half way so i had stay another night, and miss church. well these last couple of days ive felt like i really needed to go. ive been depressed lately, and a women from church talked to me sunday and it got me thinking, so i really wanted to go tonight and talk one of my youth leaders. but neways. i just started crying for no reason whatsoever adn i couldnt stop. i just stayed in the bath room adn cried for forever it seemed. i had my dad worried adn he was ready to come all the way over and get me. but i told him not to. well my aunt came in the bedroom, (i had finally settled down a lil) adn asked me what was wrong. *everyone thought i was flipping out about not being home, and that wasnt the case* well i told her that i didnt know what was up. she told me it might be my blood pressure medicine, cuz she went through this sort of thing with hers, i just agreed with her, but i dont think it is the medicine, i really want to go to a therapist, cuz i think im going crazy. ive had these "episodes" for awhile, i go through phases ill be happy, then sad, and then at random times ill just start crying. i just have a feeling its more than my medicine. when i told my dad i think i needed to see a therapist he said, he said that he doesnt think that was teh problem. i dunno im just so tired of it, im still gonna try to see one. but anyways after i got through talking to my aunt i went into my lil cousins room and slept for about an hour i felt a lil better but im still depressed, adn now im all tired and drowsy feeling. gosh yall just keep me in yalls prayers, i have no idea who im talking to cuz noone ever reads my journal, but oh well. l8rz!

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