Sunday, March 4, 2007

   fun stuff

so i ended up going cosmic bowling last night. it was so fun! i went with Nathan(he came back from California for a while), Aalen, and Jaiden. when we got there all 4 of us freaked out becuase Nick(not Ericson-hill), Alexia(not the one from school), and Marina(not from school) were there. so we all ended up using two lanes that were next to each other. they played allot of emo music i was suprised. then when we were bowling Marina came down from some stairs and jumped at me and grabbed my boobs then she yelled "SEXUAL HARRASSMENT!!!!!" allot of people starred at us but it was funny. then when it was my turn to bowl, Nathan started talking about my ass. he said that it had a nice shape. the hand jesture that went with what he said made it funny as hell. Marina and Alexia are bi. Nick said that i had to watch out if i was spending the night at Marina's house. then at 12:00ish in the morning we went to her house after we were done. they declaired me their sex slave -_-''' i was like "umm...nooo" then we watched a move or atleast tried to because we were watching brokeback mountain. you know..the one about the gay cowboys. Nick was "doing the dialoge for the movie" he said that he would have written better scripts for the actors. it was really funny whenever he would say stuff. so Marina has a pool. it was 38 degrees ferenheight...Nathan decided that it would be fun to jump in the pool. there was ice on the top of it. so he jumped into it. it was so funny he sreamed then got out. he ended up talking his clothes off in the back yard. it was pretty sexy...okay not really. Marina had some boxers that he could have through so at least he had those. last night was fun *smiles* oh and the family camping trip has been shortened to 4 days. no one could get the rest of the time off. YAY and my cousin is comming up from Florida. my family thinks that hes just as bad as me.

Saturday, March 3, 2007

   derrrrrrrrrr...................*drool*

im tired. i found a box and now my kitty is sleeping in it. it is now "the kitty box." i woke up this morning and i was biting my blanket. i chew on stuff when i sleep i know thats its weird. not much is happening today. for some reason i really miss Drew though. i might go cosmic bowling tonight. if you don'y know what it is look it up its fun. last time i went they played techno all night. they usually play all sorts of things though. do you like cosmic bowling? so about yesterday. i do talk to people about my issues. i usually talk to Nathan. i used to talk to Drew...then he died. he died like 2 years ago. he was 16 and he died of an ecstasy overdose. i was so sad. that was like one of the first things that i was ever really really depressed over. his mom called my cell phone but it showed his number so i was like "hey Drew!!!!" but the it was his mom. she told me that he died like the night before and i was the only one she could get through to. i started crying in the car like an idiot. never use ecstasy!!!!! its bad! *takes deep breath* on another note. sometimes i talk to Nick too. hes not really my friend though. hes more like the perverted emo guy that asks me if im a virgin every time i see him. hes not one of the emo brats that cuts themeselves. hes just emo Nick... well im just rambling on. bye bye *waves*

Friday, March 2, 2007

   oh my god!

today was the worst day ever! it started out okay. then it went to fucking hell! i ended up skipping 3rd period because i was in the bathroom crying for like an hour. i called my dad to come pick me up but he wouldn't get off of his fat ass to get me. i already have in school suspension for like a week becuae of the kid in my last post. now im going to have more because i skipped 3rd period and if i tell them that i was crying they're gonna make me see the counsilor for the rest of teh school year...god i hate that bitch. shes always like "oh you act out becuase you need help! blah blah blah!" she doesn't know anything! last year she just made me worse. i have issues but i know whet they are she doesn't have to bug me about them. and now my dads saying that its all MY fault that things are going bad im my family. how is it all my fault?! i don't get it! I HATE THEM ALL!!!!! god............i feel like crap im going to sleep. thanks for listening to me. i hate being like this....I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!!!!!! you and my friends are the only ones that care about my problems...or atleast act like you do. thats good enough. and i love Pon and Zi. they're so cute.

Thursday, March 1, 2007

   ...

i kicked someones ass today. i was so pissed. my friend Brittany tripped and fell over in art. then some fag named Persy was like "omg eathquake!" then he started making fun of her. shes not fat...or at least as big as i am. so she started crying. i ended up punching him in the stomach and kneeing him in the crotch. people can make fun of me but they can't make fun of my friends. oh and i know that everyone doesn't cut themselves for attention. i was pissed so i didn't get the message across. sooooooo...i fell asleep in 1st period. i woke up when my friend started shaking me. she was laughing too. after a few seconds of waking up i noticed that i was chewing on my sweatshirt. then when i got up to go to my next class i felt dizzy. she woke me up a minute before the bell rang. i was still half asleep. so im making more candy. i love the stuff. we also found one of our kitties! it ran away but we found it! i looked at the place where i punched the wall... there is a mark. its not very defined but its there. the walls on my room are really soft. you can see where my nuckle made an indent. my friend threw a 2 pound weight against the wall and it made a hole. its not very big. its behind my bed. right now my dad is complaining about money. we are poor. WE ALL GET IT. WE KNOW THAT WE ARE POOR. yeah sorry about that...stuff like that just kinda comes out. yeah im becoming much more open around people on this site. im really shy in real life.

Wednesday, February 28, 2007

   hahahahahahaha...its long

today sucked for the first part of it. then it was great. i almost got arrested. me and my friend tipped over a honey bucket. we ran away but they found us. i got off with a warning but they said that next time i wouldn't. then when they were leaving me and my friend ended up sitting in the middle of the street on the double yellow line. we saw or friends the officers again. they made us go home. then after i got home i got online on a website called www.justaface.com or something like that. people actually think im hot. so now im making candy. Some little douche bag named Justin broke Kearstins "i love you" candy so now im making her more. i also made some candy for my friends Cassie and Alexia. the thing is that im worried about Cassie because she cuts herself. wow im really going on today. oh well. someone called me a poser today. i don't care though because they thought i was trying to be emo but im not. im just ME. nothing else so i don't care. she tried to say that i cut myself. well i don't. i might not be the happiest person in the world but im not that sad either. i also wouldn't do it for attention. owwww i punched my wall today becuase i was mad at a video game. that was the first time i ever cried because of a video game too. i cried becuase my hand hurt so much. now i have a big bruise on one of my fingers and two of my nuckles...i almost wrote duckles. hahahaha im hyper right now. i like the song on my profile. its cool. do you like it too? if it dosn't show up click around over the pic of my sexy whore. this video is funny. i think that Yu-Gi-Oh is stupid but this is funny. well bye bye =D

Tuesday, February 27, 2007

   haha

i like charlie the unicorn its funny. i watched when it only had like 15,000 veiw now it has like 1,000,000. haha im watching it again now. i had the song stuck in my head this morning. im suprised when people don't know about it. oh..... im happy. now im gonna go make candy. bye bye =D oh and about the guy...it turns out that it was him that was calling. -_-''' i forgot that i gave him my number.

Monday, February 26, 2007

   HMMMM......

so today was good. i have a big test tomorrow but i will probably forget to study tonight. my mom and dad just told me about this big camping trip for this summer. were going to some lake or the ocean for 2 weeks with the whole family. i mean EVERYONE. i however will probably end up at some random persons campsite that isn't related to me. my whole family are a bunch of conservative poo heads. they think that im a bad influence for kids that are younger than me and all of the people older than me are boring. and they all think that because i have dyed hair and i wear black that im not a good person. :P the only people that i get along with are my sister and my mom (when shes not being mean). well any whoo i should be receiving my hippo vans soon. they're black and have pink hippos on them. they are soooo cute.

Saturday, February 24, 2007

   woah

last night i found out that this person i was talking to online was a guy. i've been talking to him for like 2 months and he just told me that he was a guy. i thought he was a girl =p. he has hair thats longer than mine and he has a boyfriend. is hair was covering his face in every pic that ive seen of him. when he told me that he was a guy i was like "ohhhhh oops" =O i think that he might of been the guy that i yelled at on the phone to stop calling. he started laughing at me afterwards. it was pretty funny. im gonna steal my orange kitty and take her over to my sister's house. i re-dyed my hair black because my friend tried to put blonde streaks in it but failed miserably. the good grades didn't last very long. i have 2 D's 2 C's and a B and an A. yeah...im smart but i just don't show it very often. i put a pic up of my kitty. heheh my kitty pants. shes fat squishy and orange. her name is Orange. im very imaginative huh? owww she just bit me. just because shes cute doesn't make her nice. oh and im not just anorexic because people make fun of me. i also put up a pic of my sexy whore.

Wednesday, February 21, 2007

bastards! :'(

its been a while since ive been on. they can all die! i hate everyone at my school except for Dustin, Alexia, Kearstin, Cassie, and Austin...i guess that Nancy(Angel) is cool too. god. some one called me a whale. the people that make fun of me all the time...its their fault that im anorexic! if they would just leave me alone i would be fine! then again maybe being fat had nothing to do with it. how do you think i look? be honest i don't care if its mean. so some good news is that Donnie might come back yay! i miss him so much. i talked to his cousin Jessie. i also left school early. i kinda sorta just left. well.....Donnie left then came back later last year too. i won't be suprised if he does come back. i don't feel good. im going to sleep. bye bye

Friday, February 16, 2007

today

it was alright for the first part of it. i had a playtest today for my clarinet but my sister broke my reed last night so i couldn't change it. im pretty sure that i failed because i sqeaked so much. we had a pep assembly today but it sucked ass. i got hit with a ball three times. after school was when it got crappy. i got off of the bus and someone called me a fat whore for no reason. they don't even know me. so then i came home and the dog peed in the house. we're going to get it put to sleep soon. and i got really sad today because another one of my friends is moving. so now Kearstin, and Alexia my two best friends are going to leave and Donnie, Nathan, and Emily are already gone. Donnie, Emily, and Nathan were 3 of my best friends too. i haven't been able to talk to Donnie ever since he left because of his fucking cracked out mother. well im done complaining. i just picked up my fat orange kitty and squeeshed her. shes very soft and squishable. she always makes me feel better. the good thing is that i will still be able to stay in contact with Alexia. its also Friday... yayness! oh and i got my report card. i got 3 A's 2 B's and a C-. well...thats about it...oh im not going to dye my hair purple for a while. next month im going to see family and they're old and would freak out if they saw my hair.