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Friday, March 30, 2007
...man...
Yesterday in Speech class we got this book called Speak. It's actually a pretty good book. I can't really explain it right now, but the main character reminds me a lot of myself when i was in 9th grade.
Anyways, i was reading it at home and i was listening to some songs that carry a lot of memories with them, and i thought i could really get into the mood of this book if i listen to the one song that affects me the most. So i stayed in my room for 2 hours reading a book that brings back old memories listening to Hate Me by Blue October.
This isn't a good thing. Whenever i listen to that song i get real quiet and think too much about life (which always ends with me scaring the shit out of myself for a quick second by wondering what really happens to us when we die).
I get to this one part (and by now i've basicly lowered myself to don't talk, you're not worth shit mode), and the girl tries to cut herself. This brought back a painful memory. But by now, i could care less about what had happened back then. I decide to do it to myself. It was nothing bad, they just look like cat scratches.
Is it wrong to like having cuts and scratches on your arm?
Then, when i'm reading my book, my mom comes in and (i had asked her earlier if i could go to the varsity boys VS School faculty basketball game and she never answered me) said that i could go. I told her that i didn't feel like going anymore. She closed my door and walked away. I felt like like total shit after that. I had kind of wanted to go to the game, but my mood just got the better of me. I know it's MY fault, but not my fault...
anyways I'M SORRY IF I MADE YOU UPSET... these kind of stories have a ways of doing that.
Oh, and later that night Luke and i started talking and we were talking about finding that one true love that you wanna spend the rest of your life with. It kind of hurt inside to know that it wasn't me, but it's no big deal. I'm still just a kid anyways. But it felt really good to have a deep conversation like that with someone. I don't think i've ever had one like it before, at least, not with my friends i hang out with every day.
song stuck in my head (bet you can guess it :P): Hate Me by Blue October
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