Saturday, December 18, 2004

Haven't posted for a while!
Sorry bout that but I am sure the lack of mouse related news is entirely bearable given that it usually isn't news but useless ramblings.
Anyways so yeah I am intensly bored seeing as how my sister is at some christmas party, my older brother is having a lan party which my younger brother desperately wants to join in on, my dad is watching cricket and my mum is asleep next to him. I seem to be the only person here, even though there is a considereable number of rowdy nerds downstairs but they seemed to have labeled me with various evil names.
But as a welcome departure from my normally pessimistic self I am able to look on the brightside of my brother's little get together. I know I am shocked too! But what you are yet to understand is that he has promised to leach the entirety of ghost in the shell for me plus whatever other anime he can get his hands on, which is awesome considering my collection is so small and also that he hates the stuff.
Well I might ring fairy chook or someone because I am dying of boredness.
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Wednesday, December 15, 2004

Full of happiness today!
Awww all happy sentiments floating round my considerably crazy head today. aI think it is because I have a cold. now this is going to sound wierd but colds always make me feel happy. Like all warm and sick, ok um sounds weird I know but it is like if I were in a movie the audience would feel sorry for me, not that much mind you but well Ok then this is getting too wierd...
But all that matters is that I am feeling happy which makes me even happier! Hooray!
So thanks to all who left lovely comments on my last post, means a lot that I can rant to someone.
Anyways so I will talk about something now...
Lord of the Rings! I spent hmmm about 3 and a half hours on Monday then 8 hours on Tuesday watching the extended versions then watched the cast sommentary of Return of the King and half of the Two Towers. Does anyone else get extremely sad about not being in those movies. I mean I would die happy if I was acting a main character in that movie. It is so good and looks like so much fun and they are all friends and what an experience! And and and... oh I can't stand it! *sniff* So yeah I just think it sad that such an awesome movie is all over and I never got a chance to be part of it. Anyone else get that feeling or am I alone in my strange ways.
Well enough of my ravings about me., bye now!
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Monday, December 13, 2004

   I am sorry! Please except this smiling love heart...
Yeah so to anyone who had to read my extremely uncalled for rant yesterday I just wanted to say I am VERY VERY sorry! Normally I am not that much of a bitch but *sigh* I have to admit that often it just comes out. I especially feel bad to teh certain friend mentioned last post, if you are reading this and you know it is you then I am sorry I should never have said that stuff and should never have thought it. If it makes you feel better it is all probaby jealousy anyway!
SO I have decided to give myself a new rule, no more rude language and no more extreme self pitying. (although that last bit I might find VERY difficult)
So as you can guess I am feeling a little better no thanks to a painful and boring night of jazz (don't get me wrong loved the jazz) but thanks to a random pm from wolf in the rain thank you! It may not have been much but not many people message me and it just reminded me of what a wonderful place otaku can be full of some really great people. Scuse my little sappy moment but I think it can be excused given the little outburst last night.
Anyways trying to kill the mousie hate and send mousie love to you all instead you all deserve it!
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Sunday, December 12, 2004

   Oh dear there you go again Mouse Bag
Well I wrote that extremely full of rage post and now I think maybe I shouldn't have. I mean it is bad enough I burden random sort of friends with my problems but random people on the internet! I am SO sorry but at the same time SO glad I could write it somewhere so if you can stand the bad language and copious amounts of hate and self pity then I really appreciate just being able to tell my little story such as it is.
Anyway but my advice is don't read it because really it sounds like a really sad desperate grab for attention which knowing how dumb I am it probably is. Anyway read on if you dare...
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   Be forewarned the following post is extremely self pitying annoying and rude. I advise not reading it but I really had to write it.
So yeah I couldn't sleep cause I am heaps lonely. You know everyday I see more and more clearly that humans were not meant to be alone. One or two days without friends you can get over ut not a whole life time. I am so sick of pretending that I am not always sad and to make matters worse my bitch who I thought was my friend just refuses to admit she has no idea of what I am going through cause people always listen to her and she has heaps of friends everywhere. She keeps giving me this bullshit about how yeah I know. Like hell you do bitch! To make matters worse everyone htinks i am happy and noone believes I have no friends those stupid arseholes. Everyone just thinks, so I am not her friend surely someone else is, don't worry about the fact that this girl is completely alone and just wanting to talk to someone I am too busy to even talk to her well FUCK YOU! I hate them those stupid dickheads.
And to make matters worse I can't even kill myself, it is like everything in me wants to, I feel like shit and even the logical sensible part of my brain just keeps saying well I didn't want to make love a competition but the only way you can win is suicide. But for some reason I can't do it. For one thing I can't find anything sharp enough. I mean seriously have you ever tried to slash your wrist with a blunt pair of scissors, you make a royal mess of you arm but not much blood loss which is essentially the point of slashing one's wrists! But I think it is just that I am too weak I mean if I had the guts I could kill myself with anything pretty sharp. It isn't the pain it is something else, but what? I must find out so I can kill it then die in peace!
And wouldn't you know my dickhead brother is back from uni, right on cue arsehole! He is such a bastard he hates me and takls so much shit about me to all his dickhead friends. But it is OK cause I am over this whole doing the right thinkg and decided I just plain old hate him which makes me feel much better than trying to make him not hate me. Yep I try to love people but there I three people I will never be able to love, my brother, my mother and of course everyones favorite enemy ME! I mean everyone else hates me why shouldn't I! I am an ugly selfish bitch with no friends who always annoys these people who aren't even friends cause I can't seem to keep it to myself.
I was all set to move to Sydney too and then I remembered I would have to live with my parents another year! Besides mum told me she wanted me to move out anyway. The worst thing about my mother is everyone thinks she's so fucking wonerful just cause she's the ministers wife and she acts all nice in public, stupid, fucking bitch!
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Wednesday, December 8, 2004

   Back from my last presentation night.
Well I have just had my last ever presentation night! Woo hoo! Well I got this trohpy as I mentioned a few days ago for excellence in literature. It was a pretty impressive trophy with all the trophy stuff like those winged dudes and a 3d gold disc/picture of literature in visual representation and my name and 2004 on its first little shelidy thingo. Moh how pretty!
Anyways it was quite pointy and big so you can imagine the problems getting it out of a crowded ex-servicemans club... I poked a few unsuspecting parents in the bottom! tee hee!
Well it was all very fun apart from the intense frustration and boredom that comes from these events. It was alright once I found my friend. You know she is the smartest friend I have but I never feel so smart as the times when I am with her, she is great. We had a steriotyped nerd moment and talked about how much we hated highschool.
She reckons I should move to Sydney with my parents so that I can join an anime society. Sounds mighty tempting.
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Tuesday, December 7, 2004

   Well I have been exceedingly lazy lately!
Yep I have visited barely any sites and I am sorry. I will go on a little visiting spree tomorrow and try to make some new friends I just love anyone who loves anime. Anyway but at the moment I am really really tired you know every five secconds fall of your seat tired.As a result I have been completely unable to draw. Even though I was trying ll day *sigh* well hopefull tomorrow after I get a good nights sleep (as if) I will be able to draw.
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Monday, December 6, 2004

   Oh mousie friends I have thought of something else!
Yes I thought I would briefly share with you all the excitement of Sunday school end of year thingo. I teach the ages 3 to 5 and they are very cute but very shy so while everyone else was performing something I had to think of somehting else. So I them up the front will goo old posters! Anyway I had to say something about what we did this year which was pretty hard cause I don't remember I mean COME ON it was ages ago! besides I didn't do that much near the end of the year cause of my exams. So I made something up, well I told the truth but you know there is well thought out truth and there is making people believe you remember a lot more than you do truth. then we had some adorable pics of the kids loke the cutest one of them when they got sparkles on their hands and were all showing it off to me. awwww how cute! I wish I could post it but probably shouldn't since I don't have their parents permission.
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   Hello Otaku peoples!
Well! Have I got news or what?! I'd have to say yes at least more than usually due to my severly boring life.
Firstly the most recent I am exrtremely stoked because I FINALLY finished a movie I have been making for my friend who moved away for like ever! Well not forever but she has been gone a couple of months now. But I did have exams, really important ones too!
Anyways I brought my friend who recently finished school up and we worked from about 10 in the morning till 3:30 or something all at my old school despite the amount that I detest that place! And the fact that I had to do it in the library even though the librarian kept asking me about this book I lost. I DID look for it and I will chase it up but COME ON! We finally got it finished and went to have lunch at about 4:00, when I discovered that my bak acount was empty!
Which leads me onto the reason it was empty... MY 18th BIRTHDAY PARTY WAS SO MUCH FUN! and of course I needed prizes and a costume and stuff *sigh* what fun!
We were all dressed u pas gypsies and I had some gypsie music and we decorated our church hall as a gypsie tent with colourful circus tent like flaps over the doors and and avsomely cool table covered in candles and goblets. We even ate with our fingers, well most of us did. We had roast chicken and lamb and baked potato and pumkin plus some really nice bread!
Then we played theatre sports throughout the evening and the best bit was when the fake camp fire in the middle of the room that was made of some logs, cellophane and a lamp caught on fire! Well OK so it only just started to smoke a little cause the globe was too hot.
We even did some awesome gypsie dancing and in the dellusion of the mood I was under the false impression that I could belly dance having purchased myself one of those belly dancing belts.
And to my surprise lots of people came! Who have thought I have friends, or maybe I should say had after the way I carried on, I wish I had been drunk so that I could have used that as an excuse but alas no, I fell of my chair drunk on nothing but atmosphere. But it doesn't really worry me they are all used to that particular behavior and they still came to my party!
Yep it was very fun and I am so glad I went through with it! Mousefully yours Mouse Bag
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Thursday, December 2, 2004

   GUESS WHAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hey there peoples well I just remembere some most awsome news I got down at the shops. Well apperently I am getting an award at our presentation night but not just any award. No it is not some stupid award for being naturally talented at maths and topping the class, not that I did cause I was SO lazy last year in maths. I did like no works he he...
But no back to the point peoples I am winning a perpetual trophie for... Oh I am just so happy, excellence in literature! HOW AWESOMENESS!!!!! Isn't that the best thing you have ever heard! I am so happy. Not that I think I am any good at umm... literature related things but it has to be my extension english teachers doing. I wrote poetry for my major work and she was just in love with it. Oh I don't deserve it but you know it is always nice to have someone who thinks you do. MOH THE JOY!
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