Sunday, November 2, 2003

opinions

i was going to write another Origin, but i couldn't come up with anything, so you can vote! 1)talk about 7th grade ZzzZZzzzZzzzz boring >_< 2) your opinion! tell me what you want me to talk about... also i want to know your true opinion, bo you really think i can talk to her (crush)?

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Saturday, November 1, 2003

   vol. 2 "a year in hell"

"it's not uncommon for someone to hate you, but it's different if a whole class hates you" -iggy 6th grade was by far the worst year, i ask why people hate each other but i can't figure out why... during 6th grade i broke my arm, that was bad... but doesn't compare to other things, i was (and still am) a social out-cast so i was often the head of jokes/pranks you name it. thats when depression sank in, i lost so much confidence, i started to decline in my school work, i started with an A but that soon turned into a C/D, i was ashamed of my self... i had no one to talk to, i just wanted to scream... but i couldn't. I did have some friends, but only three... just when things couldn't get worse, my Grandfather died, that was it... i couldn't take it any longer, i became a shell of my fomer self... all i wanted was to fit in, but some never do... "why do people hate me so"

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Friday, October 31, 2003

AIM

OMG, i just had the most frighting aim conversations. Some old friends from grade school (all girls) went over to my friend heather's house and loged in on her screen name and said some stuff... like: "I LIKE U" and "I THINK YOUR PRETTY" and other stuff, my heart nearly exploded! I was shocked and confused... but then heather regained control of her computer... (thankfuly) question: why do teen age girls like to hurt me emotionly? AHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAAHHA! RUN! RUN FOR THE HILLS!!!!!

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hmmm...... not yet

*sigh* well i feel a bit better, at least better than yesterday... i din't speak to her yet... but i will! i can say this that i will spreak to her, i know i can do this, it's just going to take a awhile, but i will... although, i've made a fool of my self on nomorus acations(sp?) one time we were doing a review and the teacher was throwing a plastic ball, to speak you needed the ball in your hands, anywayz she throught it and it bounced out of my hand hit the desk hit me again and fell to the floor and i dived after it with no success *sigh* .......... well i'll be here most of the day handing out candy to the little tricker or treakers and stuff... one of my friends asked if i was going to any parties. i said no, he asked if i was invited to any parties. i said no....... like i said i'm not very soical...

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Thursday, October 30, 2003

depressed

i didn't........... i don't understand anymore i'm very depressed today, i didn't talk to her yet, i still don't understand why i can't talk to her, i walk up to her and i try and try but i just can't... at lunch i didn't even eat a bite, i just put my head down and wished that the day would end... i wanted it to rain but the sun shined and it got warm, it seemed morther nature was taunting me... as far as the "I talked to her" post i don't think that will even happen...

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Wednesday, October 29, 2003

   well................

nothing much... today was ..... hmmmmm what was today? eh? oh well i don't know... anywayz my confidence is back, thanks to you all! your all such great friends! so someday soon... all i know is i CAN DO THIS!!!!!!!

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Tuesday, October 28, 2003

upset...

*sigh* I'm upset with my self, yea thats right i still haven't said anything... i don't understand i mean i have nothing to truely fear and i truely beleave in my self but i just can't! i just can't! i mean when i see her i can't say a word, i'm not sure how to explain it but i just can't! i'm confident that i can do this but i keep letting my self down... [rrrrr....] i'm really upset about this... i just can't! i just can't!!! please someone help me.................

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Monday, October 27, 2003

   Vol. 1 *blush*

well i'm bored so i thought i might as well do vol. 1 of "Iggy the Origin" but PLEASE read my prevous post as well! Love... thrid grade: thrid grade was a boring year in general except one thing... some one acaully like me *blush* this is the only thing i remember about this grade... of couse being being in thrid grade it was wried so ya... i mean i was like 8 years old... i don't remember her name or even what she looked like... scary huh? well nothing happened, not like i regret it or anything i mean i was just a kid... hee hee....

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   oohhh well.........

not much today... well today wasn't bad but wasn't good either, in shop class i turned in a safty sheet that was due in the first week (oops) and he seemed to stare and laugh at my ignorance, i hate him! Nothing much happened other wise... i didn't speek to her (crush) yet but i'm not going to beat my self up because i know i will some day (soon) speak to her... or so i hope...

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Sunday, October 26, 2003

Iggy the "Origin"

i'm going to start a series over the weekends called Iggy the "Origin" so for you to understand some of these things... this is the introduction to the series of how i am and a few things about me... ok? well ready?... well here i am minding my on buisness... yep, ... yep ... heres my friends *sigh* don't i wish... i sit across from my crush in spanish class... *sigh* this is what i thought might happen if i talked to her... or even this... but in the end i hope things turn out well... tune in next weekend for Iggy the "Origin" vol. 1 and 2

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