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Tuesday, November 18, 2003
i'm sinking
every day now i've reached a new low in depression...
what am i to do? Nothing, i haven't wanted to do much of anything lately. I just wanted to be me alone. I have asked the question many times: can i do it (talk to her) then i asked should i? Now i ask why should i? i don't know any of these answers, they've plauged my mind all day. I've been coming more and more depressed, sinking at a dangeous rate, for there is nothing holding me back. The turn of the past year has brought back painful memories of the past, things i had tired to forget... things i had forgoten... they all came flouding back. Memories of burtality and pure hatred, all towords me. what do people have against me... i never did anything to them... yet they hated me so... why i ask... why? As far as talking to her, i honestly don't think i'll ever... i know my self to well, i'd never... i'm a spine-less loser that has no courage, too afraid of my own fears... i see her happy walking down the path from school, happy with the person next to her... i'd never have a chance, i was stupid to think i did...
sorry, i know you'll hate me for saying all that, but it's whats been going on lately, sorry, i don't dserve such great freinds you all are...
sorry, i'll try to cheer up...
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