Sunday, August 14, 2005

   Tiredness

Mood: Tired Music: To Hell We Ride, Lost Prophets Hm, I woke up at around 1, but for some reason I'm still tired even though I went to bed at around 12:30 a.m. ..x.x'' I think it's more of because I slept to much and my body isn't used to that. It's used to get nine hours of sleep or less, not twelve and a half hours..e.e;; I went to my college pre-orientation yesterday and it was pretty boring...z.z'' First thing in the morning they took our pictures for our I.D's. Mine sucks because my hair was wet, and I look horribe when my hair is wet. We sat in a room for about an hour with instructors and students telling us what all to expect. Afterwards we got a fifteen minute break before we went into a class room where the academic instructor told us how we should manage our time and crap. Then we went to the main I.T. lab to get our student e-mails and user name..e.e;; Once that was done we all went to the student lounge had some pizza, got our I.D's and other stuff. I was tired when I got home so I took a nap downstairs on the couch since my room is so hot during the summer and the heat wave here isn't helping it much. When I woke up I was pretty much refreshed for the rest of the day. I dunno, but I'm still tired. "To Hell We Ride" With you it's never good enough Because you want the stuff That could change your future You're lost amongst a sea of chance And now the more you dance Just gets you sinking deeper It's ok don't apologize You don't know what you're striving for And you never seem to try It's to early, don't live your lie Keep on moving, it's time to Ride, ride, ride, now it's time to ride, ride, ride Everything seems tempting But nothing comes for free I often wonder how you drive When the roads too dark to see It's too early, it's time to ride, ride, ride We light the fire to watch it burn But when it comes your turn All that's left is embers You ran this race with no real heart Yeah right back at the start You'd already lost it Everything feels tempting When you don't know who to be I often wonder how you feel When you're lying next to me It's too early, it's time to Yeah, yeah, yeah so what Yeah, yeah and after all that time Yeah, yeah no answers You know it's not enough I didn't feel like posting during yesterday while I was on pretty late -Blinks.- So I'm posting now... Ending mood: -Yawns- Ending music: Somewhere I Belong, Linkin Park

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Saturday, August 13, 2005

   Snoozing! Gaming! Music! Are the only things I need to live...Oh and plus love..^-^

Mood: Alright Music: Follow, Breaking Benjamin Whee, yesterday was....Peaceful...o.o;; I slept 'til 12:00 p.m. ^-^' Which was great, then my mother called and told me that she was going to take me to orientation instead of my sister since my mom has to go car shopping anyways. But...Nuu I wont get to stay at the apartment because my friend just started her job..;-;'' Oh well, that means I get to come back home and spend some time at home...Like I don't do that to begin with.....x.x;; Meh. Hmm, to sum up yesterday...All I did was..play games on my computer..o.o;; I got caught up into one of my games that I hardly noticed that it was around eight o'clock already. I believe that I already posted the lyrics to Follow, so I'll just not re-post them, it would seem a little redundant to me. -Packs a pillow for todays pre-orientation.- Man this is sure going to boring..x.x!! Wish me luck! Have a good day. Ending mood: Silly Ending music: Little Devotional, Taking Back Sunday

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Friday, August 12, 2005

   Nuuu, it was a virus!

Mood: Unsure Music: Rescue Me, Unwritten Law Gah!!! I know I didn't post yesterday, but that's because I was busy downloading a bunch of crap...o.o;; Yep...The other day I woke up and my computer had a VIRUS! I restarted it thinking that's all it needed, (at that time I didn't know I had a virus.) but it went straight to scan disk and right after that it rebooted again and did the scan disk again and so on..e.e;; I couldn't even boot under any of the safe modes so I went on a rampage through my dads room and found the box of XP home edition so that I could re-format my computer and all that crap. I finally calmed down after I got it all re-formatted and SP2 installed onto my computer. Hehehe, I didn't lose any of my important documents though because I had it all burned to cds..^-^!! Then came the annoying part of downloading..;-; Rawr, it took me seven times to update my Windows Media Player back up to series ten, once it was in the middle of installing and live update popped up on me and restarted my computer right when it was installing..x.x;; That took all day Wednesday, and now yesterday I downloaded all my other accentials. My computer is now back to normal...^-^! It's such a good thing that I know a lot about computers or else I wouldn't be posting right now. Shut down Fallin over once again Dropped out Hand extended for a friend Looked up And there's you lookin in And who cares Cause no ones lookin anyway Impaired My vision lost it yesterday And that's fine Don't mind feelin that way Just don't let me lie here by my self Let’s go I know I'm faded Outta sight Tonight Just stay with me, I don't wanna go home Outta sight Tonight Just rescue me I don't wanna go Rewind and take me back to start again Ducked out cause paranoia's settin in But I'm with you until the end One ride We'll drive around the parkin lot No pride Cause I don't seem to care a lot No cash This change is all I got Just don't let me ride here by myself now Let’s go I know I'm faded Outta sight Tonight Just stay with me, I don't wanna go home All right Tonight Just rescue me, I don't wanna go So set still One last thrill Just stay with me and we'll never go home Outta sight Tonight Just rescue me and we'll never go home Yeah we'll never go home Yeah I don't wanna go One more ride One time once again Just climb in I'm still climbing yeah One more ride One time once again Just climb in I'm still climbing Outta sight Tonight Just stay with me, I don't wanna go home All right Tonight Just rescue me, I don't wanna go So set still One last thrill Just stay with me and we'll never go home Outta sight Tonight So rescue me and we'll never go home Sooo, now on Saturday I don't think I'll get to post because I'm going to visit my college for pre-orientation which is like four hours long..;-; I'm going to stay down at my new apartment with one of my room mates to see how it kinda is and go around to get me some job applications. Well me needs to goes. Have a nice day ^-^! Ending mood: Itchy Ending music: I Hate Everything About You, Three Days Grace P.S. Gah, I'm having trouble with the uploading of the picture of the day, it shall be there sometime.

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Wednesday, August 10, 2005

   Blandness

Mood: Sleepy Music: Set Phasers to Stun -Big yawn.- I'm ready for bed...I think after this post I'm going to go and lay down and go to sleep. I know it seems weird that I say this, but since I live in the eastern time zone my O resets at exatly 12:00 a.m. and that's when I like to post, but usually I type the post an half an hour before so if I miss anything I can add it in. Sadly there wont be a picture of the day today or any lyrics. I'm just to sleepy right not to worry about it. My day yesterday was pretty bland, I woke early feeling I was skipping school, but I knew I wasn't at the same time. It feels so weird being a graduate. Okies, -Really long yawn.- Yeah, I think I'm going to bed now..e.e Nighters, and have a good day! Ending Mood: Extremely tired Ending Music: Scared, Three Day Grace

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Tuesday, August 9, 2005

   J-pop lyrics!

Mood: Waking up and confident?..O.o' Music: Ex Dream, X-TV-OST 1 Yesterday babysitting wasn't bad at all..o.o;; All she did was sit in her little green Dora chair in front of the food I gave her to eat. I told her she wasn't allowed to leave that chair 'til her nummies were all gone. Heh, she never got out of her chair..x.x Even when I dozed off, when I woke up with going, "Rae!...Rae.." She was still sitting in her chair. Now for the food, all it got was some poking at and smears down her white shirt..x.x She did eat some of it because she had speghatti sauce all over her mouth. Todays lyrics come from animelyrics.com! It's in Japanese, but I'll include the english translation, so the lyrics part might be a little extra longer. Ex Dreanm (Japanese) izure koware yuku kono sekai ni wa yume ya kibou to ka dou demo ii kokoro no naka de nemuru kimi wa mezameru koto nai kedo kaerarenu mirai o sono te de kanjite Burning for your life itsuka moetsukiru kono inochi o sasagete mo (for the perfect dream) Drowning in my dream tatoe oborete mo yume wa yume de shika nai kimi wa star light hikari afureteku sono sekai ni wa kimi no tamashii ga michite yuku mushou no ai o negau tenshi wa mezameru to sugu ni owari yuku mirai o kono te de uketomete Burning for my life itsuka tsukihateru kono inochi wa modoranai (for the eX dream) Drowning in your dream tatoe oborete mo yume no tsuzuki wa doko e boku wa moon light Burning for your life yagate otozureru sono kibou ni kakete demo (for the perfect dream) Drowning in my dream tatoe taorete mo nigedashitari wa shinai Burning for my life kesshite mayowanai kono kimochi wa tomaranai (for the eX dream) Drowning in your dream tomo ni tsukisusumu ashita e no michi to naru bokura wa star light Ex Dream (english) Of this world, the end is coming Dreams and hopes do not matter Inside your heart, you are sleeping but you will not wake up Feel the hand of a future that cannot be changed Burning for your life This life will burn out someday, even if you try to cling to it (for the perfect dream) Drowning in my dream Even if it's remembered, a dream is only a dream You are star light In that world, overflowing with shines Your spirit will die out Soon after the delivery of love by a wishing angel, With it's hand, stopping the end of the future Drowning for my life Someday it will hit, this life cannot go back (for the eX dream) Drowning in your dream Even if it's remembered, where will the dream continue? I am moon light Drowning for your life A surprise is on the way, even if hope is held on to (for the perfect dream) Drowning in my dream Even if destruction occurs, I will not run away Drowning for my life Never undecided, this feeling will not stop (for the eX dream) Drowning in your dream A rushing companion, this will be the road of tomorrow I am star light Whew...x.x That was time consuming. I don't know if the english part is correct Japanese tranlastion of it because I know not a single japapnese word..@.@' Anyone that does?? Could ya tell me if that's right, because I'm confused how the got drowning out of burning..-Blinks- Have a good day! Ending mood; pondering Ending music: Rest of My Life, Unwritten Law

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Monday, August 8, 2005

   Grah!

Mood: Sleepy Music: Show Me Love, t.A.T.u Yesterday was pretty...Boring I guess. There isn't much for me to say since I had a late post..@.@' But during the time that I last post I got stuck babysitting my niece in my bedroom. All she did was cry, but then I got her interested in to blowing bubbles which entertained her for awhile, but then she'd be back crying for her nanna..x.x Then I got her to draw on a piece of paper with colouring pencils, after she was done I told that she needed to put them back in the box, but after a few made it in, she took and dumped all seventy two colouing pencils out on the floor...x.x I had to pick them, and she did get in trouble for it. After that she sat on my lap while I chatted with my friends, but she kept getting fussy with mouse and wouldn't give it to me when I need to use it...x.x Once I got it back she head butted me in mouth and believe me that hurts...e.e' Now I have to babysit her today too. -Growls.- I hate babysitting ;-; "Show Me love" This was an accident Not the kind where sirens sound Never even noticed We're suddenly crumbling Tell me how you've never felt Delicate or innocent Do you still have doubts that Us having faith makes any sense Tell me nothing ever counts Lashing out or breaking down Still somebody loses 'cause There's no way to turn around Staring at your photograph Everything now in the past Never felt so lonely I Wish that you could show me love Show me love, show me love, show me love, Show me love, show me love 'Til you open the door Show me love, show me love, show me love, Show me love, show me love, 'Til I'm up off the floor Show me love, show me love show me love, Show me love, show me love, 'Til it's inside my pores Show me love, show me love, show me love, Show me love, show me love, 'Til I'm screaming for more Random acts of mindlessness Commonplace occurrences Chances and surprises Another state of consciousness Tell me nothing ever counts Lashing out or breaking down Still somebody loses 'cause There's no way to turn around Tell me how you've never felt Delicate or innocent Do you still have doubts that Us having faith makes any sense You play games, I play tricks Girls and girls, but you're the one Like a game of pick-up sticks Played by fucking lunatics Show me love, show me love Give me all that I want Show me love, Show me love 'Til I'm screaming for more I hope that she is better today then she was yesterday because that was just horrible..x.x Have a good day. Ending mood: Tired Ending music: Hold On, Good Charlotte

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Sunday, August 7, 2005

   Sleep and Work

Mood: Waking up, (12:21 pm.) Music: My Bloody Valentine, Good Charlotte I didn't get to post when I wanted to because when I got offline last night at around 7 nish I layed down to take a small nap 'til around 11:30 or so, but I ended up sleeping until now. -Blinks.- I guess I was really tired and didn't know it..e.e'' I've been sleeping a lot lately though. I wonder if it's normal? Heheh I don't know. My Bloody Valentine Lyrics Oh, my love Please don't cry I'll wash my bloody hands and We'll start a new life I ripped out His throat And called you on the telephone To take off My disguise Just in time to hear you cry when you... You mourn the death of your bloody valentine The night he died You mourn the death of your bloody valentine One last time Singin'... Oh, my love Please don't cry I'll wash my bloody hands and We'll start a new life I don't know much at all I don't know wrong from right All I know is that I love you tonight There was Police and Flashing lights The rain came down so hard that night and the Headlines read A lover died No tell-tale heart was left to find when you... You mourn the death of your bloody valentine The night he died You mourn the death of your bloody valentine One last time Singin'... Oh, my love Please don't cry I'll wash my bloody hands and We'll start a new life I don't know much at all I don't know wrong from right All I know is that I love you tonight Tonight He dropped you off, I followed him home Then I, I stood outside his bedroom window Standing over him, he begged me not to do What I knew I had to do cause I'm so in love with you Oh, my love Please don't cry I'll wash my bloody hands and We'll start a new life I don't know much at all I don't know wrong from right All I know is that I love you tonight Tonight Other than that, the other day I went to my best-friends house and spent the night over so then I could help her with the Marching Band Car Wash, it was pretty dull though. The only fun part was when the both of us were trying to get each other wet with our sponges. It was funny, she barely got me wet because each time she'd fling her sponge at me I'd take a hold of it and wring it out, but I got her good. ^-^; She Her shirt was soaked. Have a nice day! Mood: Content Music: Dare You To Move, Switchfoot

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Friday, August 5, 2005

   Meepidess.

Mood: Dunno Music: Ever Fallen In Love, Pete Yorn Sorry that I didn't get to post yesterday...x.x; It was a eventful day that day..e.e; I didn't go to bed until 5:00 A.M, one I wasn't really tired and two because my stomach was once again keeping me from sleep. I had finally fallen asleep until the next thing I knew my dad was yelling at me because of where he didn't go to bed 'til two and was now late for work because he over slepted and missed his call from my mom...x.x;; It's sad if you can't hear an alarm go off for a whole half-hour and have to be dependent on someone to call you and wake you. He kept going on that it's all my fault if he gets fired, but he didn't even get fired..x.x' My mother made me go over to my sisters house just so that I could babysit. I told my sister how my stomach was acting and right away she got me a doctors appointment for on that day. While we waited for it to be time to leave I tried to sleep some, but couldn't...x_x When we got to the doctors office we had to sit forever to await my turn. Finally after around twenty minutes I got to go in. The doctor of course asked several questions and all that good stuff. Afterwards he told me that I had been contaminated by some food and my stomach is on a revolt to get rid of it. He also subrcribed me with some medicine and told me that I am not allowed to eat greasy or fried foods. After the visit to the doctor I slept all until 11 a.m. this morning..e.e;; My sister picked up my perscription and I looked at the lable and it read, "May cause drowsiness" Oh great, just what I need...More sleep..Lol. I don't think I'm going to post the lyrics to this song, I just don't feel like it..o.o;; I'm glad you all like the theme, I guess then that I'll keep it the way it is for now...^-^' Ending mood: Headache approaching?? Ending music: Wondering, Good Charlotte

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Wednesday, August 3, 2005

   Here or now, or just never?

Mood: Grah? Music: Bottom of a Bottle Grah!! It's 2:15 A.M. and my dad just now got off the internet..>_< He's supposed to get up at 5:20 to get ready for work too. I'm annoyed yes, because my mother gets up in fifteen minutes to get ready for work. ;-; I think that I've already have posted the lyrics to that song so I'm not going to bother putting it twice, lol. Oh, you probably noticed that I have done a few changes with my site, but it's the same theme still, lol. I just put in different pictures, I thought if I tried to make my site more of calm theme for now, maybe it'd help me fell calmer? I guess it's a try, if you guys like it, I can hold off my upcoming theme for another time. I really do think that it will take me awhile to get the right feel for what I want for the other theme. Give me your opinion, tell me if you like this or if I should dump it and go on with the new one. Ending mood: Dunno Ending music: Little Drop of Poison, Tom Waits

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Tuesday, August 2, 2005

   Aggrivation release.

Mood: Reflecting and aggrivated Music: Who I Am, Smile Empty Soul Yesterday was sorta weird I guess. I wasn't online much or the phone. But, I just happened to be on the phone with one of my friends when my parents got home though..v.v; My dad even before he walked in through the door yelled at me to get off the internet...GRAH! WTF?! I wasn't even on the internet, I was on the freaking phone to begin with. So I got off and then I didn't get back on it 'til my mother left, that's when I was online for about an hour, maybe not even that long. After I got off, I went and checked on the kittens then called my other friend back up. I hadn't been on the phone with her that long when my mother came back home and had to use the phone. After awhile more I called my best-friend up again and then my mom cut through the phone telling me that she needed the phone for awhile and for me to not get on the net...GRAJLDJLANE.DGLE,RNL!!!! -Extreme angry face- Okay and again, I was on the phone not the net...Grah..v.v; So then my mother leaves again to go get my dad from where ever he was. After awhile I call back my other friend and we hadn't really talked that long when all of a sudden my line went dead..GRAH once again...-Extremely angry face with clenching teeth and fists- I went out and told them that I was using the phone and to behold it was my dad going to get online without really seeing if I was use the phone so that he could 'politely' ask me to get off, but no he had to be rude about it, I even told him how rude it was that he did that. Then he started saying that I'm on the phone all freaking day which is total bull crap, because I'm not. One, I don't even get up until around 12 or 1 and when I do, I get online 'til around 1:30 then I get off and do my chores. I wait around three or so to see if my one friend is online so I can talk to her for a little while or just call her up. I then get off around like five o'clock and then that's when my dad usually takes the phone and is on the internet all night long til around 11-12 a.m. If you do the figuring you can now say that my dad uses the phone more than I. And that's why it always annoys the hell out of me when he tells me that I'm on the phone all day or right before he walks throug door yelling 'Get off the internet.' Bleh! I would put up lyrics today, but I'm a little to aggrivated to do that...-Sighs.- After awhile though I hooked my line back up and apologized to my friend for what my father did, but I got off not to long afterwards because I was afraid that he would start yelling at me again. During that time when my dad had the internet I was sitting up in my room reflecting about things...Sad things, happy things, so-so things. In the long run though I thought about how if this or that happened, I wouldn't probably wouldn't be as lucky as I am right now. I feel a little better now that I have released this aggrivation, and I do hate it when I have to release out on my friends on the O' though. Have a good day. Ending mood: Don't know anymore Ending music: Smashed Into Pieces, Silverstein

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