Monday, August 1, 2005

   Better..^-^

Mood: Headachey Music: Smashed Into Pieces, Silverstein Thanks for all the comments, I feel much better..^-^' We got to talk, which made things so much better for me. For the theme, I don't know when I'm going to get it put together, so just don't be to suprised when my site has no guys on it, but girls instead..O.o'' It's an anime with all female main character, but it's a pretty cool anime..^-^ Yesterday...I didn't do anything really...Yeah I know that's boring...I watched my new theme to come twice though, I think..Yeah twice I watched it. "Smashed Into Pieces" Never Again. I'll slit my throat with the knife I pulled out of my spine. Maybe when you find out that I'm dead, you'll realize what you did to me. [Chorus] And if my lungs still let me breathe, would you be there for me. If I can make myself believe, I'll give you back what you took away. No, I won't let it go. Douse myself in gasoline. So don't save me when you come into the fire. I'd rather die than have to see your smile. [Chorus] You made me swear [x2]. I, I can't sleep. Realize all these things that you took from me. Smash my heart (you made me swear) into dust. (you made me swear) Suffocate my mind. (you made me swear) Tear at me from inside. (you made me swear) Smash apart what you created. How can i ever stop you from crushing my soul? It was, it was yours, yours to begin with. [Chorus] Plans for today is really the same as yesterday..e.e;; -Yawns.- I'm getting tired so I guess that I'll go for the night. Have a great day! Ending Mood: Singing! Ending Music: Stupify, Disturbed

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Sunday, July 31, 2005

   Lonsome

Mood: Lonely Music: Believe, Breaking Benjamin Today went alright I guess, or well maybe not. Nothing went the way I wanted..v.v;; I haven't gotten to really talk to my love at all which makes me sad. Also today I was just playing around and did a searh with my name on google and found one of my old friends from middle school. She seems like she's changed a lot though. I don't plan for this to be a long post, just feeling to down at the moment. Have a better day then me. Ending mood: Sad Ending music: The Movtivation Proclamation, Good Charlotte

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Saturday, July 30, 2005

   Finished!!

Mood: Iffy? Music: Peaceful Daily Living, X-TV Series I Yesterday was well yesterday...o.o;; Woohoo!!! I just finished the book that I was reading and cried at the end, well more like cried here and there...x.x;; It was all so sad and I so want to know what is going to happen next...I guess that I should tell the people that don't know what book I'm reading is then...Okies, I finished reading Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince. I wont say anything about it though...If anyone that has read wants to discuss it with feel free to Private Message and I'll be happy to talk about it. Meep no lyrics because it's another musical from X/1999...Oh which reminds me to say that I'll be changing my theme sometime when I get everything together and ready. I hope you all will like it..^-^' Ending mood: Creative..o.o Ending music: Yound and the Hopeless, Good Charlotte

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Friday, July 29, 2005

   Phew..x.x;;

Mood: Panic...o.o;; Music: Cold, Crossfade Oh my gosh, I thought I seen my life flash before my eyes when all of a sudden my speakers wouldn't work..;-;'' Nooooooo, I like my music and sound while I'm using the computer..x.x;; I know it may be a little over dramatic, but I listen to all my music on my computer because I can have more of a mixture of the artists that I like. Knowing me, with my love for my music...I really thought that I was going to die, without sound...-Blinks some.- Other than that...Yesterday went pretty okay. I read some more of the book that I'm reading, but I didn't read that much today, I think I'm on chapter twenty-one which isn't that big of a difference from where I last left off..@-@ I got caught up in watching Noir though and talking on the phone. I will read more tomorrow though! "Cold" Looking back at me I see That I never really got it right I never stopped to think of you I'm always wrapped up in Things I cannot win You are the antidote that gets me by Something strong Like a drug that gets me high [Chorus x2:] What I really meant to say Is I'm sorry for the way I am I never meant to be so cold To you I'm sorry about all the lies Maybe in a different light You could see me stand on my own again Cause now i can see You were the antidote that got me by Something strong like a drug that got me high [Chorus x2] I never meant to be so cold I never really wanted you to see The screwed up side of me that I keep Locked inside of me so deep It always seems to get to me I never really wanted you to go So many things you should have known I guess for me theres just no hope I never meant to be so cold [Chorus x2] Nothing to intersting happened, so it was a pretty much a normal day...o.o'' Have a great day! Ending mood: Relieved Ending music: Somewhere I Belong, Linkin Park

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Thursday, July 28, 2005

   I dunno

Mood: Dunno Music: Out Of Control, Hoobstank Everything yesterday was pretty okay. I woke up at around one o'clock though..e.e;; Then I went outside to feed my cats and when I walked and looked to where the kittens were, the mother cat was having another one..o.o! So now it's four blacks and two white tiger looking ones. Other than that I read some more of the book and I am now on chapter seventeen..^-^ Only thirteen more to go. I really don't feel like typing much so I'm even leaving out the lyrics. Oh, sorry that I haven't been visiting sites..@-@ See you around Ending mood: ? Ending music: Meant to Live, Switchfoot CRITICAL UPDATE! Yes!!!! I have found my Noir dvd in the most unusual spot. Somehow it made it's way into my side table drawer and I don't have a clue how it got there though...@.@

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Wednesday, July 27, 2005

   Kittens!

Mood: Wanting to read. Music: Right Where I Belong, 3 Doors Down Today went pretty well..^-^! I woke around nine something and I read some more of that book. So far I have found nothing surprising about it. I have knack at finding things out in books while I just read. I don't know how sometimes..@.@ My brain just whizzes off and I think up so many possabilities that it slows my reading down 'til it settles to an obvious choice. I love books that make my mind guess so much that I spend months on the book..O.o! Usually when my mind is made up I can go on a quicker pace of reading and when I do I alawys seem to lose track of where I am, and what chapter I'm on, that is until I pause at ones end to see or take a break. Oh, once while I was taking a break from reading I had to feed my cat that is or well was pregnant..^-^ I went out to find that she had her kittens while I was asleep. She had two kittens that look like her and the other three are black just like their father. "Right Where I Belong" There's a difference in spending time with me And killing time while I'm there On too many people and too many things And it makes me feel like hell You have gone as I can see And all of this she says to me [Chorus] Theres too many questions And too many strings And they won't keep this thing tied On a roller coaster ride It Feels like im lying next to a ghost at night I dont know why I gave you my heart Cause sometimes it feels so wrong But despite of all this weather I know why we are together And I swear right now I'm right where I belong I know I get a little bit crazy But I never done you no wrong Well I get distracted and carried away And it's been this way too long But I dont know what you need from me Cause all I know is what I can see [Chorus] I dont know why I gave you my heart Cause sometimes it feels so wrong But despite of all this weather I know why we are together And I swear right now I'm right where I belong Im right where I belong Go on, Play it for me Son [Chorus] I dont know why I gave you my heart Cause sometimes it feels so wrong But despite of all this weather I know why we are together And I swear right now I'm right where I belong Now, like I've said..I'm not telling what book that it is that I'm reading until I'm finished with it. I only do this for fear of people giving away things of the book, once one does that, I lose intrest of the book because my mind isn't able guess at possabilities. Have a good day! Ending mood: Anxious Ending music: ...Slowdance On The Inside, Taking Back Sunday

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Tuesday, July 26, 2005

   Roller coasters day.

Mood: Feeling better Music: Secret Sorrow, X-TV Series I Hmm, yesterday was a little bit of a roller-coaster you could say. First of all I didn't sleep all that well last night because of my stomach and twice I woke up feeling like I was going to get sick.x.x;; Then while my friend was over there was some bad things that happened on the net, but I don't feel like talking about that. Then my mother came home and we found out that my friends mother had been trying to call so I had to get offline and let her use the phone. She ended up going home, but in away I think it was more for the best. My feelings were hurt, and there was a lot of yelling that really wasn't that necessary. I'm one of those type of peoples that just breakdown when people start yelling things toward me and it also lowers my self-esteem pretty steeply. I don't feel like posting the lyrics to Secret Sorrow up, not because it's Japanese, I mean...I could get the lyrics in English, I just don't feel like posting the lyrics..^-^;; More of a laziness. I don't know what I am going to be doing today, I guess I'll read some more...Tee hee, I'm not going to tell any of you what I am reading now..^-^ You'll find out when I'm done with the book, but I should go now so that I can finish the book. Have a nice day! Oh and thanks for all support and I'm glad to say that my stomach feel a lot better now..^-^ Everyones concern was very much appreciated! Ending mood: Sleepy Ending music: Say Anything, Good Charlotte

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Monday, July 25, 2005

   Stomache Aches..x.x

Mood: Stomach ache Music: Love Her, Seether Yesterday went alright I guess...Hehe, in the eight hours ago that I've posted, nothing major happened. My friend and I played my Nintendo sixty-four for awhile and then my mother jumped in on it too. Then we got online and got some more midi's. I've changed my midi in the background..^-^ I hope you all like it. "Love Her" I met a girl who hated the world - she used her body to sell her soul Everytime they'd break her and pay - tear out her heart, and leave her in pain I never found out how she survived all of the sadness she kept inside I never found out how she could lie with a smile on her face, and the scratches she'd hide [Chorus:] You could love her if you paid, you could have her everyday You could love her if you prayed, you could have her every way Down on her knees, she wept on the floor - this hopeless life she wanted no more Dead in her mind and cold to the bone - she opened her eyes and saw she was alone She never found out how much I tried - all of the sadness she kept made me blind She never found out how much I cried - the rope so tight on the night that she died... [Chorus] I never found out how she survived - a life lived in lies is a life of denial I never found out how she could lie - with a smile on her face and the darkness inside [Chorus x2] Other than that, my stomach hurts..;-; I had some eggs and biscuits for a brunch then my mother made beans and cornbread which I didn't really eat it because I wasn't hungry. Then later on I was so my friend and I got sandwhich's to eat. Now, my stomach just hurts and I don't know why..;-; I hope everyone is feeling well! Ending mood: Pain? Ending music: Runaway, Linkin Park

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Sunday, July 24, 2005

   A ripped off Fair day..^-^!

Mood: No energy..? Music: The Two Kamui, The Two Secret Swords, X TV OST I'm back over from my friends house today. I guess I'll go ahead and up load the picture than so that you all may see it. ^-^ Yesterday I went to the Bluegrass fair with my friends and it was alright. ^-^ My best-friend and I ripped off one the carny people. My friend was carrying around this pizza box that only had two pieces left in it. The guy gave her a free dart to 'try' and then gave her another for the pizza and if she popped a balloon she got a prize, and she did. After that we quickly walked away, then after we were a good distance away we turned around and saw the look on his face when he opened the box..XD The carnies eyes got really big, we just started laughing and kept walking. Her prize was a little blue star, but it's cute..^-^ Hmm, that was our highlight of the day while we were there, it was just so great! Meep, no lyrics because the X/1999 song is a musical..XP It'd be hard to find lyrics for that, you'd probably find the music sheet for it though..o.o;; Okies, I think I'm going to go now. Oh, and sorry that I haven't been able to visit anyones site. ^-^' I'll try when I have the time. Have a nice day! Ending mood: Sore arms? Ending music: Believe, Breaking Benjamin

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Friday, July 22, 2005

   Non-artisitic..e.e'

Mood: Unsure, and nervous? Music: We're All To Blalme, Sum 41 Yesterday...was alright I guess. I didn't do much during it. I drew a picture though, but I don't think I'm going submit it or anything because no one really likes my art...;-; -Isn't a good drawer.- If majority want to see it then I might link the picture in one of my posts unless most want me to. I will tell you now that it's from neopets one of them how to draw things because I can't draw to begin with...;-; I made it somewhat different though, I changed it's color, so instead of blue and white it's red and purple. "We're All To Blame" Take everything left from me All! To! Blame! How can we still succeed, taking what we don't need? Telling lies, alibis, selling all the hate that we breed. Supersize our tragedies! (You can't define me or justify greed) Bought in the land of the free! (Land! Free!) And we're all to blame, We've gone too far, From pride to shame, We're trying so hard, We're dying in vain, We're hopelessly blissful and blind To all we are, We want it all with no sacrifice! Realize we spend our lives living in a culture of fear. Stand to salute; say thanks to the man of the year. How did we all come to this? (You can't define me or justify greed) This greed that we just can't resist! (Resist!) And we're all to blame, We've gone too far, From pride to shame, We're trying so hard, We're dying in vain, We're hopelessly blissful and blind To all we are, We want it all. Everyone wants it all with no sacrifice! Tell me now, what have we done? We don't know. I can't allow what has begun to tear me down, Believe me now, we have no choice left with our Backs against the wall! And now we're all to blame, We've gone too far, From pride to shame, We're hopelessly blissful and blind When all we need Is something true To believe, Don't we all? Everyone, everyone, We will fall. 'Cause we're all to blame We've gone too far, From pride to shame, We're trying so hard, We're dying in vain, We want it all, Everyone, don't we all? Today I am going to get my hair cut..^-^ Yay! I will also being going over to my friends house, but she has band practice so I might have to go to her practice first. Have a nice day! Ending mood: A little sleepy Eding music: Broken, Seether (featuring Amy Lee)

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