Thursday, July 21, 2005

Non-artisitic..e.e'

Mood: Unsure, and nervous? Music: We're All To Blalme, Sum 41 Yesterday...was alright I guess. I didn't do much during it. I drew a picture though, but I don't think I'm going submit it or anything because no one really likes my art...;-; -Isn't a good drawer.- If majority want to see it then I might link the picture in one of my posts unless most want me to. I will tell you now that it's from neopets one of them how to draw things because I can't draw to begin with...;-; I made it somewhat different though, I changed it's color, so instead of blue and white it's red and purple. "We're All To Blame" Take everything left from me All! To! Blame! How can we still succeed, taking what we don't need? Telling lies, alibis, selling all the hate that we breed. Supersize our tragedies! (You can't define me or justify greed) Bought in the land of the free! (Land! Free!) And we're all to blame, We've gone too far, From pride to shame, We're trying so hard, We're dying in vain, We're hopelessly blissful and blind To all we are, We want it all with no sacrifice! Realize we spend our lives living in a culture of fear. Stand to salute; say thanks to the man of the year. How did we all come to this? (You can't define me or justify greed) This greed that we just can't resist! (Resist!) And we're all to blame, We've gone too far, From pride to shame, We're trying so hard, We're dying in vain, We're hopelessly blissful and blind To all we are, We want it all. Everyone wants it all with no sacrifice! Tell me now, what have we done? We don't know. I can't allow what has begun to tear me down, Believe me now, we have no choice left with our Backs against the wall! And now we're all to blame, We've gone too far, From pride to shame, We're hopelessly blissful and blind When all we need Is something true To believe, Don't we all? Everyone, everyone, We will fall. 'Cause we're all to blame We've gone too far, From pride to shame, We're trying so hard, We're dying in vain, We want it all, Everyone, don't we all? Today I am going to get my hair cut..^-^ Yay! I will also being going over to my friends house, but she has band practice so I might have to go to her practice first. Have a nice day! Ending mood: A little sleepy Eding music: Broken, Seether (featuring Amy Lee)

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   Nothing, hair cuts, and hot weather.

Mood: Suttle Music: Thoughtless, Evanescence Hm, today went all right. Nothing to much happened...In fact...I really think nothing happened. I woke early because I thought I was going to be getting my hair cut, but my mother changed her mind and said either Thursday or Friday. I'm going to get my hair cut up to my shoulders and layered, so it's going to be pretty different for me, and a new look. I've never gotten my hair cut this shor before. Then this weekend I'm going to go over to my best-friends house, so we'll probably rent some movies or go walking around town. I know we wont walk that agonizing thirteen miles we did that one day though, lol. It's just to hot. Talking about hot weather...I can't stand it..Gah! Mainly because I sweat so easily and it's also a reason for me getting my hair cut. "Thoughtless" All of my hate cannot be found I will not be drowned by your thoughtless scheming So you can try to tear me down Beat me to the ground I will see you screaming Thumbing through the pages of my fantasies Pushing all the mercy down, down, down I wanna see you try to take a swing at me Come on, gonna put you on the ground, ground, ground Why are you trying to make fun of me? You think it's funny? What the fuck you think it's doing to me? You take your turn lashing out at me I want you crying when you're dirty ass in front of me All of my hate cannot be found I will not be drowned by your thoughtless scheming So you can try to tear me down Beat me to the ground I will see you screaming Thumbing through the pages of my fantasies I'm above you, smiling at you, drown, drown, drown I wanna kill and rape you the way you raped me And I'll pull the trigger And you're down, down, down Why are you trying to make fun of me? You think it's funny? What the fuck you think it's doing to me? You take your turn lashing out at me I want you crying when you're dirty ass in front of me All of my hate cannot be found I will not be drowned by your thoughtless scheming So you can try to tear me down Beat me to the ground I will see you screaming All my friends are gone, they died (gonna take you down) They all screamed, and cried (gonna take you down) Never gonna forget, never forget, how we hate the world [x4] (Gonna take you down) All of my hate cannot be found I will not be drowned by your thoughtless scheming So you can try to tear me down and Beat me to the ground I will see you screaming All of my hate cannot be found I will not be drowned by your thoughtless scheming So you can try to tear me down Beat me to the ground I will see you screaming I think I shall close this post. I know it's brief, but then it's not a whole lot of reading..^-^ Have a great day! Ending mood: Hungry? Ending music: Pieces, Sum 41

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Wednesday, July 20, 2005

   Any good roleplayers out there these days?

Mood: Hyper Music: Never There, Hoobstank Meh my early day...Meaning like around 2:00 a.m. (I don't go to bed 'til 4:00 a.m.) One of my msn friends that I roleplay with got angry at me because I wasn't going to bring back one of my characters. It even wouldn't matter if I did bring that character back because they would die anyways. So for two hours he tried to argue with me on bringing him back, but I tried to explain to him that 1) You shouldn't get this upset about roleplay, for one, you shouldn't let it hurt you one bit. 2) You can't change the histories of one character and mistakes and 3) That I didn't care what he did with his character(s) and what happened in roleplay. Bleh people these days that roleplay, it's hard to find people that don't fret so easily over things. So, I went to bed angry at him for being angry at me for something so stupid....I know it's kind of redundent. I thought maybe when I woke up I wouldn't be angry anymore, but nope...I still had that anger flowing through me, and I knew the only thing that would keep me at bay from going off at people was keeping my hands and mind busy. To do that I decided that I would completely clean my room and rearrange it too. I did and was very exhausted afterwards considering I worked for 6 hours straight on it. I like the way it turned out too. During all the clean up I didn't find my Noir Dvd...;-; I have not a clue of where it could've gone to..e.e; Oh well, I'll just have to get another one then. [1st verse:] I'm filling up inside Like i need to open wide And pour my heart out to you But i'll just get denied And all i wanted was someone to hear what i'm going through [chorus:] Everytime that i need you around You're never there (never there) You're never there (never there) Because in my life is where i need you now But you're never there (never there) You're never there (never there) [2nd verse:] You were supposed to see All the signs i left to read in front of your face You were supposed to be The closest thing to being me But you're the furthest away That's because..... [chorus:] Everytime that i need you around You're never there (never there) You're never there (never there) Because in my life is where i need you now But you're never there (never there) You're never there (never there) You're never there And i doubt That i will ever find out If there's a way to get out Of feeling all alone Cause latley I've been thinking Maybe That no one's going to save me I'll do it on my own..... On my own [chorus:] Everytime that i need you around You're never there (never there) You're never there (never there) Because in my life is where i need you now But you're never there (never there) You're never there (never there) Hmm, I think that I might start reading another book of mine that I've had over a year and haven't read yet..^-^' Have a great day! Ending mood: Calmer Ending music: Vindicated, Dashboard Confessional

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Tuesday, July 19, 2005

   A Weird Dream.

Mood: Content Music: Angels With Dirty Faces, Sum41 Today was an alright day. I had a really weird dream though...;-; Here I shall relay it to you: I dreamt that I woke up and cleaned my room, except my room was smaller and had three beds in it and I had to make the room big..O.o' I succeeded in my dream, then I dreamed that told my mother about the dream and then I was on this bus and it was letting me off somewhere I don't know, then I was at this one place that had cats and this one kitten had been missing for three weeks and it came back, but the other cats and humans didn't want it back so I had the mother cat and the kitten with me, running away from the people that were chasing me, then these one guys had it...I was climbing through ladders and alleys..O.o Then I had the kitten again and I came out at this one thing were people were dancing to this one song and I joined in and then after the thing was done the dude was that was hosting it was shot and died and then I was back at that one place where the kitten lived happily ever after...-Blinks some.- That's the dream...;-; I think it was pretty weird. "Angels With Dirty Faces" I need this to get me through can't resist, don't want to believe it I know it's true can't beat it, don't want to try A perfect hell! It's more to me than you ever will know down here where the rest of us fell waste away nothing left to show while I'm in this perfect hell obsession has begun possessed by destruction how did I get so low believe me no one knows sometimes I can't hold on and no one can help me now it's got a hold of me I don't think I can make it through this now it's got a hold of me the less I do the more it makes no sense I'm walking pollution who's drained by delusions on the verge of destruction I cave in to abduction thin blood I'm bleeding my pulse won't stop racing just as my heart explodes no chance that I could win too hard to not give in I just don't feel the same cause I'm the one to blame sometimes I can't hold on and no one can help me now it's got a hold of me I don't think I can make it through this now it's got a hold of me the less I do the more it makes no sense I need this to be myself it feels like I need some help it's too late to save myself or it's just in my head now it's got a hold of me I don't think I can make it through this now it's got a hold of me the less I do the more it makes no sense now it's got a hold of me I don't think I can make it through this now it's got a hold of me the less I do the more it makes no sense Also today I got to finish reading Azure Bonds which ended nicely, but a little weirdly..^-^ It was still a good book. Have a good day! Ending mood: Itchy Ending music: Kryptonite, 3 Doors Down

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Monday, July 18, 2005

   Content day.

Mood: Good? Music: Hello Again, Lostprophets Today was alright, but I didn't really do anything. I read on my book and I'm almost finished with it now..^^! I was so wrapped up in the book that I forgot to go on my cleaning frenzy to look for that dvd. I'll have to try to do it after I get done reading then. I don't have much to say at all since it was a very bland day to begin with...o.o;....So tell me..What's your pet peeve...^^ Mine is when people don't flush toiletes..x.x' I think it's just so gross. "Hello Again" Hello again, why so old?, Wasn't time your friend? I must be told Hello again, it seems to long Since we last met, how has it gone Don't accept the blame, I would not complain, 'Cause i'm sure it wasn't your own fault That you never made it out your vault Just Lock the door, and find some time to scream To scream again... Just say "when" and you'll stop the pain of your life, Bring it to an end. Just say "when" and you could make amends Just say Hello, say Hello again... Hello Again, it's not that hard. No Dead ends, even with the scars Don't accept the blame, I would, I would not complain, 'Cause I'm sure it wasn't your own fault That you never made it out your vault Just lock the door, and find some time to scream Just say "when" and you'll stop the pain of your life, Bring it to an end. Just say "when" and you could make amends Just say Hello, say Hello again... You have no home, you lost your throne, where has it gone?, Well it could all come back, But you're being led by the walking dead, You stumble and you cracked the ground, You're pinned down... Just Say "when" you could stop the pain, Just Say "when", and you could make amends Just say hello, say Hello Again, Hello Again, Hello Again, Hello Again, Hello Again, Hello Again, It's not the end if you just say hello again... Tee hee, I wonder what the responses will be. Have a great day! Ending Mood: Alright Ending Music: Wolrd Falls Away, Seether

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Sunday, July 17, 2005

   Lost, but never found...

Mood: Content Music: Cigarettes, Seether Today or well yesterday went all right. After I got offline I took about an hour nap. I got back online and I was on there for awhile. Then I called my best-friend up and we talked 'til 11:00 something before we both went and got online once again...That's pretty much that happend...Oh, I'm trying to finish my book Azure Bonds...-_-; I've had it for awhile, but one day I just sat it down and forgot all about it..o.o; So I'm picking up to where I've left off, it's a good thing that I still remember what all has happened in the book even though it's been months since I read it..^^; "Cigarettes" They suck you in like cigarettes While hanging you out to dry, yeah Making you feel like a hyprocrite because you cannot lie, yeah You are the reason we will never be set free We wanna be like you- we wanna be so cool Just like you They're hanging you out with their whiskey breath While leaving you out in the sun, yeah Making you feel like a hyprocrite because you cannot run, yeah As for today, I don't have a clue what I'm going to be doing..I'm thinking of cleaning out from underneathe my bed...x.x I have a reason for that though...O.o One night I was watching my Noir dvd and I had placed it back into it's case and everything...Then in the morning I went to watch it again, but it was no longer in the case...O.O! I don't have a clue where it went to, so I'm cleaning my room in the odd areas to see if it went there..x.x Have a good day! Ending mood: Content Ending music: Nowhere Kids, Smile Empty Soul

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Saturday, July 16, 2005

   Lots of fun!

Mood: Sleepy Music: Farther Away, Evanescence I'm back from the party and it was great..^^! I have tons of pictures that I took, and I'm only in one of them haha! I had no choice there, that's the group picture. There was dancing, chatter, gossip, squshie balls, glow sticks, black light and anime! We watched the second movie of Inuyasha and it was great..^^ Then we watched Princess Mononoke which was really good too. Other than that we all had a lot fun and a bunch of laughs...Tee hee.... Today I was supposed to go to my sisters baby shower, but I told my mother that I was too tired to go..z.z; Yeah...My sister that I babysat for is having...TWINS! Ahhh, no more....Wait...I don't have to watch them..XP I'll be in college. "Farther Away" [Guitar Solo Open] I took their smiles and I made them mine. I sold my soul just to hide the light. And now I see what I really am, A thief a whore, and a liar. I run to you, Call out your name, I see you there, farther away. Im numb to you - numb and deaf and blind. You give me all but the reason why. I reach but I feel only air at night. Not you, not love, just nothing. I run to you, Call out your name, I see you there, farther away. Try to forget you, But without you I feel nothing. Don't leave me here, by myself. I can't breathe. I run to you, Call out your name, I see you there, farther away. I run to you, Call out your name, I see you there, farther away, Farther away, farther away, farther away, farther away, farther away. [Drums Solo with Guitar Background] [Guitar fades out] Plans for today isn't much, I just plan to try to catch up on some sleep, but I don't think that will happen..e.e; I'll probably end up cleaning the house or something. Have a great day! Ending mood: Pondering.... Ending music: No Games, Breaking Benjamin

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Friday, July 15, 2005

   Grah.

Mood: Sleepy..x.x Music: Bottom of a Bottle, Smile Empty Soul I'm back everyone!! Ahhhg, my site didn't do so well while I was gone..x.x my rating went down. -pouts- Oh well I can make my way back up..^^! Now for the reason that I am tired is because I had to watch my niece lastnight and she had to sleep in my room...>< She woke up at 3:50 A.M. and wouldn't go back to sleep 'til 5:00 something...v.v' In other news I was extremely bored while I was in Ohio...There's nothing to do at my grandmothers house...Though I did get to watch some re-runs of Inuyasha and Full Metal Alchemist. Other than that I played rummy and uno with my grandmother when I wasn't watching t.v. Oddly, I don't really get to watch that much t.v. though so it helps me catch up some I guess... "Bottom Of A Bottle" Been scared and lonely I've asked myself is something wrong with you My girlfriend told me I need some time alone to deal with issues But something makes me carry on It's difficult to understand Why I always wanna fly I do it for the drugs I do it just to feel alive I do it for the love That I get from the bottom of a bottle You always call me And ask me how I make it through the day I'm always fallin' I guess it's just God's way of making me pay But something makes me carry on It's difficult to understand, why I always wanna fly I do it for the drugs I do it just to feel alive I do it for the love That I get from the bottom of a bottle I do it for the drugs I do it just to feel alive I do it for the love That I get from the bottom of a bottle When I, I wonder why I try And I, I wonder why I bother And I, I wonder why I cry Why I, I go through all this trouble I do it for the drugs I do it just to feel alive I do it for the love That I get from the bottom of a bottle I do it for the drugs I do it just to feel alive I do it for the love That I get from the bottom of a bottle Well today I am supposed to be going to a party I think I'm staying the night, and then on Saturday I have a babyshower to go to..x.x Have a nice day Ending Mood: Annoyed With MSN Ending Music: I Want My Life, Smile Empty Soul

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Saturday, July 9, 2005

   Roller coaster rides.

Mood: Iffy Music: Sidewalks, Story of The Year Today was just a big roller coaster..x.x On minute I was alright the next I just felt depressed, then after awhile I was alright again..-Blinks.- Heh. I didn't do anything today, but get some more pictures and and organize the ones I have...I deleted quite a few of them because some of them were just pictures that I didn't really want or need..o.o; Hahaha, it's still in the six thousands though and will be soon seven thousand once I finish getting these pictures from this site that I'm apart of. Most of the pictures I get from there I'm not sure what anime they're from if they are from one.o.o The picture of the day is from the site also..^^ Well today I get to go to look at the apartment that I'm going to be living in when I go to college. I'll tell you all about it on sunday..^^ Today I don't feel like doing lyrics...Don't get me wrong...I'm just to lazy right now to type of a few words and click around..e.e; I'm going to be going to bed right after I post this actually. I have to get up early than I usually do and I have been going to bed at 3:00 a.m...o.o; Heh, just haven't been sleepy. Okay, enough non-sense rambling, I'm going to retire for the night! Ending mood: Readying for bed Ending music: Jesus of Suburbia: Jesus of Suburbia/City of the Damned/I Don't Care/De, Green day (Long song name..O.o) Later on During the day....: I'm going to be going up to Ohio to stay a week over at my grandparents, but I'll be back on Thurday..^^ Don't miss me to much.

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Friday, July 8, 2005

   Behold the pictures!

Mood: Content Music: Simple and Clean, Kingdom Hearts (Utda Hikura) Everything went pretty alright today. I really didn't do anything today except take a walk down the road with my mother and niece. My niece wanted me to carry her the whole way since she was tired..e.e; She wouldn't do anything for my mother, wouldn't even let her pick her up..o.o; I also been collecting more pictures...I mean, I don't really need too, but I don't have all the anime pictures that I want so I strive to get them all..O.o I mean right now I'm at...6,765 pictures..^^! The main animes that I have on my computer are, X/1999, Descendants of Darkness, Inuyasha, Ceres: Celestial Legend, Devil Hunter (I just started collecting yesterday.), Pita-Ten, Little Snow Fairy Sugar, Saiyuki, and Weiss Kreuz. I have a little bit of the others, but I just have a few...I just haven't made folders for them yet. So you see, There are tons more pictures for me to go after..^^! Also along with my collection is a whole lot of dragons, and some fairies with angel pictures. "Simple and Clean" You're giving me too many things Lately you're all I need You smiled at me and said, Don't get me wrong I love you But does that mean I have to meet your father? When we are older you'll understand What I meant when I said "No, I don't think life is quite that simple" When you walk away You don't hear me say please Oh baby, don't go Simple and clean is the way that you're making me feel tonight It's hard to let it go The daily things that keep us all busy Are confusing me That's when you came to me and said, Wish I could prove I love you But does that mean I have to walk on water? When we are older you'll understand It's enough when I say so And maybe some things are that simple Hold me Whatever lies beyond this morning Is a little later on Regardless of warnings the future doesn't scare me at all Nothing's like before Okies, I'm going to go back to my picture collecting...^^! Have a good day. P.S Some times I wonder if I should have a picture of the day..O.o' I mean..I do have more than enough to spare..XP Ending mood: Organizer? Ending music: Breathe No More, Evanescence

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