Thursday, July 7, 2005

   A better day...

Mood: Tired Music: Dead Skin, Crossfade Hmm, well yesterday went pretty alright for me. I was pretty hyper for the most part of the day because I got to chat with my love, and to clear up something for beyblader...I forgot the word tell in my post on accident, so it was supposed to say, 'get to tell her.' Tee hee, what with the simplest little word can change how people look at a post. When I woke in the morning I wasn't in a good mood, but it got a whole lot better during the day, and suttled back down to a solemn calm at night. Other than that, the last fifteen minutes have been really boring..x.x; I don't really have anyone to talk to, but I am helping out one of my friends right now which makes me feel a little good, I just hope that it helps her. "Dead Skin" So I'm the king of all these things of this mess I have made Such a waste what a shame my whole life is a fake Well I'm a bore and I'm sure I'm a thorn inside of you that has torn at you for years The alcohol the demerol these things never could replace What a minute with you could do to put a smile on my face I'm a bore and I'm sure I'm a thorn inside of you that has torn at me for years I can't get out of this dead skin I can't shed my skin I'm not sure where to begin why can't I begin again I can't get under my dead skin I can't shed my skin Can I sllep 'til then Phenobarbitol and alocohol these two surely will do To knock me out keep me down at least a day or two When I'm awake I can taste how bitter I've become And it's more than I can bear somedays I pray someone will blow me away Make it quick but let it burn so I can feel my life fade Well I'm a waste and I can taste how bitter I've become And it's more than I can bear I can't shed my skin I can't shed my skin I wish her luck..^^! She needs it. I'm going to go now. Have a great day everyone. Ending mood: Tired Ending Music: Take Me Away, Seether

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Wednesday, July 6, 2005

   -Sigh-

Mood: Grumpy? Music: Set Phasers to Stun, Taking Back Sunday Yesterday started out pretty well. At first I was sad because I didn't get to my love bye, and wish her well while she went off to her cousins. -Sniff, sniff.- But then I looked at my ranking and it read 500, so I was like 'YAY' After that I was in a good mood all day, but then my dad has to go and ruin that mood by putting me down. -Sighs.- I finished reading Eragon yesterday..^^! I can't wait for the second book to come out so I can continue my adventure. The second book is called 'Elder' and it doesn't come out until August. Hmmm, I need to get me some more Manga....Hahaha, I need to finish collecting Hana-Kimi and continue to be patient with Descendants of Darkness. I usually just buy one set at a time, but some how I ended up with two..o.o; But I'm more concerened about getting all the manga I can..O.o' Meep...here's the lyrics. "Set Phasers To Stun" Say yes, say yes, say yes, say yes Say yes, say yes, say yes, say yes I'm sorry it took me so long I'm sorry it took me so long (to come around) I'm sorry it took me so long (to come around) Your famous last words started once your fingers hit the snooze Just nine more minutes, please.. (And they) They all know where to find me Every word that I said, what a big mistake And the ones you left out are keeping me away Well I will never make another promise (without you) I will never make another promise (with you in mind) So pace the stairs to your apartment Like it's where you wanna be (where you wanna be) It's where you wanna be (where you wanna be) I'm sorry it took me so long I'm sorry it took me so long (to come around) I'm sorry it took me so long (to come around) Well there's a secret I've been perfecting, I swore I wouldn't but you let me I'm comfortably confused (and you...) You've gotten so removed You know I, I could take the place of those pills Ocean blue, paint it white Now who ya gonna call tonight? Well I will never make another promise (without you) I will never make another promise (with you in mind) So pace the stairs to your apartment Like it's where you wanna be. (where you wanna be) It's where you wanna be (where you wanna be) [x2] We paint our sins on the ceiling I keep them glued to my chest It keeps me close like a promise kept (Say yes, say yes, say yes, say yes) If I talk in my sleep, will you just keep trying? (We paint our sins on the ceiling), I might give it up, if you just keep trying (Well I keep them glued to my chest), If I talk in my sleep, if I talk in my sleep, it's gone (It keeps me close like a promise kept). (Say yes, say yes, say yes, say yes) I'm sorry it took me so long (Say yes, say yes, say yes, say yes) I'm sorry it took me so long So pace the stairs to your apartment (Will you stop me, I just wanna know?) (I'm sorry it took me so long) Like its where you wanna be (Will you stop me, I just wanna know?) where you wanna be Well, I guess it's back to my boring and depressing life. Have a good day.. Ending mood: Sad Ending music: Breakdown, Breaking Benjamin

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Tuesday, July 5, 2005

   Eragon and Seeter....o.o;

Mood: Anxious to finish the book Music: Broken, Seether featuring Amy Lee Whee, I just love this song..^^! Tee hees. I know I just posted like..four hours ago....In those four hours, I haven't done to much though. I read more of my book and now I'm down to exactly 117 pages...^^ I stopped at a very suspensed spot so I'm very eager to get back to my book to find out what happens. I'm not going to tell you anything about that book because that would ruin it for those who might read it later on, and for those who don't know that book I'm talking about it's called "Eragon". It's pretty cool it's all about this dragon and boy..^^! "Broken (feat. Amy Lee)" I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away I keep your photograph and I know it serves me well I wanna hold you high and steal your pain 'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome And I don't feel right when you're gone away You've gone away, you don't feel me, anymore The worst is over now and we can breathe again I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away There's so much left to learn, and no one left to fight I wanna hold you high and steal your pain [x2] 'Cause I'm broken when I'm open And I don't feel like I am strong enough 'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome And I don't feel right when you're gone away 'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome And I don't feel right when you're gone away You've gone away You don't feel me here anymore Did you know that Seether himself sings 'Broken' byhimself but there's only slight difference in the lyrics. Not that big though for people to actually catch it..o.o; I noticed it right off because it always seemed different to me when I listened to, so that's when I looked up the lyrics to both of them and compared them to each other. Check it out for yourself if you want..^^ Have a nice day. Ending mood: Ahh the suspense Ending music: The Beautiful Letdown. Switchfoot

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Monday, July 4, 2005

   Mpf.

Mood: Alright I guess? Music: Behind Those Eyes, 3 Doors Down Agh, sorry I didn't get to post early like I usually do..v.v I've been having enormous family problems right now, mostly with my dad..-Growls.- No lyrics for today, mainly because I don't really feel like fetching for them..e.e; Other than that...All day long I've been in my room reading 'Eragon.' It's a great fantasy that deals with dragons..^^! It's pretty great, but I cried when this one person died...T.T I hope to finish it either tonight or tomorrow because I only have 100 something pages to go. I know it's a shorter post, some are probably like, "Yay, it's short." Heh, I know I do it sometimes. Well see you all around. Oh, I might be going up to my grandparents this week, I'm not sure. You'll know if I don't post again for awhile...@.@ Or else it has to do with family.... Ending mood: Hungry Ending music: Disappear, Hoobastank

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Saturday, July 2, 2005

   Creativity?

Mood: Sleepy Music: Divide and Conquer, Story of The Year It's good to hear from all of you again..^^ I'll be leaving for camping around noon...I'll be gone until Monday I believe. Dun miss me to much..XD Oh and I made a new greeting if anyone is intereseted in seeing it. Whooo hoo, everyone knows that quizilla site right? Well, I made two quizzes on it..^^ One is about fairies and the other is about dragons. Take fairy quiz. Take dragon quiz. Tell me what you think about them, and just to warn you. It is my first time making a quiz so it's probably not that good. "Divide And Conquer" Does the shadow live forever? Will this graveyard be the dance floor for these corpses? Will they be the first to fall and dance the night away? Why do we do this to ourselves? We're buying every word they sell. Starving loved ones carry our guns Take a look at what we've become. Hungry nations standing in the ashes of our enemies's remains. Why do we do this to ourselves? We're buying every word they sell. Why do we do this to ourselves? We're buying every word That they sell. So we dance the night away. So we dance the night away. So we dance the night away. So we dance the night away. The night away. Why do we do this to ourselves? We're buying every word they sell. Why do we do this to ourselves? We're buying every word That they sell. Oh goodness there really isn't much to talk about now. Well I hope you all liked the quizzes. Tata for now. Ending mood: Asleep Ending music: Weathered, Creed

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Friday, July 1, 2005

   I'M ALIVE!!

Mood: Tired Music: Not Going To Get Us, t.A.T.u I'm still alive, nothing happened to badly to me when I was over at my sisters...x.x; My sister and my brother-in-law moved the computer into their room and changed the passwords and turned off the guest mode...T.T So, I couldn't update or anything. Ahh, it drove me crazy..x.x! I couldn't talk to the one I love, I couldn't even send her an e-mail to tell her how I was doing and to see how she was doing. -Sniffles.- I never got to get to the second disc of the game that I was playing because my mother literally blew her top when she found out that I had accidently over slept and my niece was running around in the house by herself..v.v; She kept calling me 'irresponsible' and other crap that just kept putting me down. So, I wrote her a two paged letter explaining to her what was wrong with me, that I'm constantly depressed and when she says things like 'irresponisble,' that it puts me down any further. I told her the main details of just about everything. After that she came in my room, gave me a big long hug and told me that she did over react. So, in the end everything went alright, I got to go back over to my sisters house and babysit. "Not Gonna Get Us" Not gonna get us They're not gonna get us Not gonna get us Not gonna get us Starting from here, let's make a promise You and me, let's just be honest We're gonna run, nothing can stop us Even the night that falls all around us Soon there will be laughter and voices Beyond the clouds over the mountains We'll run away on roads that are empty Lights from the airfield shining upon you Nothing can stop us, not now, I love you They're not gonna get us, they're not gonna get us Nothing can stop us, not now, I love you They're not gonna get us, they're not gonna get us They're not gonna get us Not gonna get us Not gonna get us We'll run away, keep everything simple Night will come down, our guardian angel We rush ahead, the crossroads are empty Our spirits rise, they're not gonna get us My love for you, always forever Just you and me, all else is nothing Not going back, not going back there They don't understand, They don't understand us Not gonna get us Not gonna get us Nothing can stop us, not now, I love you They're not gonna get us, they're not gonna get us Nothing can stop us, not now, I love you They're not gonna get us, they're not gonna get us They're not gonna get us They're not gonna get us Just when you thought I would be back for the weekend, I will not be. x.x I'm going to Ohio to Werden where my Grandpa owns like this huge amount of land..@.@ We're going camping there and setting off fireworks too, I hope it's not to dry though. Meep I forgot that the last time I did this my Uncle broke his collar bone while four wheeling in the woods..e.e; Oh, all day yesterday I was so tired..x.x I think it's because of where I had a migrane the other day and everyone kept shoving pain killers down me..e.e; I had three different brands ...o.o; One was an off brand from home and that was two...Then they gave me alieve at my sisters house, and that was two also...After that my grandmother-in-law gave me one advil..e.e' I'm still tired too...Pain killers just put me to sleep, even the weak one..O.o' Mood: Still tired, but happy she's home. Music: Follow, Breaking Benjamin

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Sunday, June 26, 2005

   Gaming

Mood: Sleepy and game stratagizing. Music: The air..o.o; Wheee.x.x We're going over to my sisters house tonight, but we don't know how late, but we are..o.o; Lalalala....I kept dreaming about the game that we rented from the movies store..o.o; It's Shadow Heart Covenant II and it's pretty cool so far..^^! I'm just now getting through the subway thinger and I have to beat these two weird looking monsters..O.o' I died the first time because I getting ready to do a combo and the two monsters made their own combo and attacked my people that were getting ready to do a combo and they were 'defeated' So all I had left was the wolf Balenca who went Beserk so I couldn't do anything, but hope that he would defeat them, but nope...e.e He peed on one them though..O.o; Well, I think that I'm going to go for nows, I don't have anything much to say..e.e; Ending mood: Hmmm.. Ending music: Air conditoner...!!..O.o Hehaha

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Saturday, June 25, 2005

   Busy week.

Mood: Dunno? Music: None..O.o And you may ask...Why no mood and no music...Mwhahahahaha that's because I'm over at my friends house, Ailahwolf. I'm helping her babysit this weekend since her mother had to go into work..x.x But.....She gets to come over and help me babysit for the week..XD It wont be hard though...O.o We'll be over at my grandmother-in-laws house. In my mothers news, I don't know how she's doing right now, and I don't know when she is coming home either, I think they might keep her through next week or until it heals fully. Oh, thanks for all the helpful comments they were very much appreciated, but I should part with this short post and go back to help babysitting..o.o' Ending Mood: Dunno? Ending music: The airconditioner.....O.o (If it counts?)

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Friday, June 24, 2005

   Hmmm...

Mood: Meh Music: Burn Burn, Lostprophets I got to see my mother today. Gah, did I ever mention to you on how much I really don't like hospitals? It hurt just to stand there by mother and see her helplessly cry because her pain medicine had wore off and she could feel the pain of her pancreas..x.x In other news, I don't know what I'm going to be doing next week...x.x There are so many possabilities on what is going to be going to happen that I'm not even going to begin to list them all. I do know for sure that my friend Ailahwolf is going to come over though. "Burn, Burn" Where do I begin, with this life we're living in Market youth their uniform, make us all fit in But do you think, that we're that blind? That we can't see through all your lies? [chorus:] Cause if it's no good Burn burn the stations We'll burn it down Burn burn the truth Enjoy the flames In celebration Enjoy the sound For us, for them, for you I know that I've been told My intergrity was sold Price and placed upon the shelf It's worth it's weight in gold But do you think we've lost our minds? Yeah we can see through all your lies? [chorus] Burn burn the truth the lies the news Burn burn the life that you cant choose Burn burn the hate that gets you through Burn burn for us, for them, for you [x4] Cause if it's no good Burn burn the stations We'll burn it down Burn burn the truth Enjoy the flames In celebration Enjoy the sound For us, for them, for you [x5] Okay well I'll be going. I need to get back to my roleplay..^^! Ending mood: Content Ending music: We Still Kill The Old Way, Lostprophets

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Thursday, June 23, 2005

   Headache gallore

Mood: Hurting... Music:I'm The One, Seether Ow my head hurts so bad..x.x I've had this headache for five hours now. I don't have any advil left ether. -Sniffles.- It hurts so bad that I just want to cry, but that will only make it worse. I also have bad news...My mother was taken back to the hospital, now her pancreas is inflamed instead of deflated...x.x They're trying their best to where they don't have to remove it or anything. My father said she'll be in there for awhile...I was going to see her today, but my head was killing me to much that I had to lie down and try to nap or something. I usually only get these types of headaches when I lack sleep..x.x I've been trying to sleep in, but the phone always wakes me up or my father does. I hope to get a good rest tonight so then I'll be refreshed in the morning so then I can visit my mother. Tonight I'm not going to put any lyrics just because of my headache. Looking at this post hurts it even more because it's a white background that you have to type in....Why can't it be dark or somehting...v.v I'm going to go so then I can get rid of this headache withough crying...;-; It'd be appreciated if someone could send me some advil gel caps since it's the only pain killing medicine that I'll take. Thank yous. Oh I forgot to add that I made some more wallpapers if want to look. Have a headache free day. Edning Mood: Dying from the headache Ending Music: Remedy, Seether (Seether mood once again.)

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