Saturday, June 11, 2005

Mood: Hyper, A little tired, but glad. Music: World Falls Away, Seether Whee, yays I'm home..^^! I also got to talk to my important person..O.o XD Wheee. I now wish that my annoying cousin would leave..x.x Each day she keeps getting more annoying and more whiney. Grrrr. Get this, she only like a band if she thinks the people in it or has one 'cute' guy in it. And what she thinks is cute, isn't even cute..x.x; Meh she should be happy that I'm burning over 25 of my cd's for her. Today I would like to dedicate this post to Sorrowwinds. He's a really cool person and a great friend..^^! When I'm down he helps cheers me up some times when he can. It would be great if you could be his friend too! Take a peek at his site, comment, be a good friend to him just as you are to me..^^ I know he'd really like that, and it would make me feel good that I could help repay him for the times he helped me. "World Falls Away" Must be something they're hiding Must be reasons that no one will dare to tell Must be something inside me But I don't think so anymore It's hurting again now And I don't need friends when I have foes like you It's hurting again now It's killing me to be here all alone Go away it's all the same There's more for me As the world falls away, and I can't find a reason As the world turns to grey It's killing me unwillingly and I am just the same as you Must be something confided Must be someway to feel the pain and heal again Pain and pleasure, inviting I don't think so anymore It's hurting again now And I don't need pills When I have drugs like you It's hurting again now It's killing me to be here all alone Go away It's all the same There's more for me I'm just like you, just not a fool I'm just like you Shut up... Also I would like to thank all of you for being great friends with me..^^ I always enjoy going to everyones site when I can and reading their post so then I can comment..^^; I do hope you will take apart of your busy time and visit Sorrowwinds, he really is a great friend to have..^^ Have a great day! Ending Music: Diseased, Seether

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Friday, June 10, 2005

   Me want home..x.x

Current Mood: Agrrivated at my niece, but excited to go home. Music: Little Devotional, Taking Back Sunday Yay, I get to go home sometime today..^^! I miss my own bed, even if it's like really hot in my room. My house doesn't have ac because of where it's an old victorian house..x.x My mom's dream house that we just got. They have the first floor air conditioned, but not the second floor so it's always unbearably hot up there. But I put up with it some how. My mother said she's going to put an airconditioner up there so maybe it should get better..^^! In babysitting news there isn't really anything to say other than that she's been the usual brat like usually..x.x; We went to Wal-Mart and she's supposed to sit in the cart you know, but since it's almost her bedtime she absolutely refuses to do that, so my cousin and I are chasing her around, and she discovers the toy section that we had to haul her out of..X.X She like this one noise making toy. Maybe I can talk my mother into getting one for her..O.o' Even though it looks more like a little boys toy then anything. It's just every time she sees that toy she runs over to play with it..x.x! "Little Devotional" Well I'm blowing smoke out of your window And you're slipping back into your dress You know you were always such a lady I've always been impressed But gentlemen They don't ask questions Just keep quiet She'll pay attention Gentlemen don't ask questions We could pay attention I said, "I'm gonna have myself in shambles Before your folks are up and looking for some answers." Said, "I'm gonna have myself in shambles Before your folks are up and looking for some answers." Well I pictured you in blue But I have to say I'm more partial to the red Deep, dark, and devastating Leaving no question as to where you've been I calm the crowd by keeping quiet Move like a shadow up to your matress Gentlemen don't ask questions We could pay attention Do you think he'd be better ('Cause we're down for competition) Doing what I do best? Do you think he'd be better (This could all be on purpose) Doing what I do best? I said, "I'm gonna have myself in shambles Before your folks are up and looking for some answers." Said, "I'm gonna have myself in shambles Before your folks are up and looking for some answers." Do you think he'd be better Doing what I do best? Do you think he'd be better Doing what I do best? Do you think he'd be better ('Cause we're down for competition) Doing what I do best? Do you think he'd be better (This could all be on purpose) Doing what I do best? I said, "I'm gonna have myself in shambles Before your folks are up and looking for some answers." Said, "I'm gonna have myself in shambles Before your folks are up and looking for some answers." Said, "I'm gonna have myself in shambles Before your folks are up and looking for some answers." Said, "I'm gonna have myself in shambles Before your folks are up and looking for some answers." Well that's all for now..^^; I can't wait 'til I get home and use my computer, even if the internet is slower and I still have to put up with that spyware thing..>< -Ish going to wipe her computer clean sometime.- So then if it does destroy my computer I wont have to worry about it to much..^^ I just need to burn my pictures to a cd before it does. Have a great day! Ending Music: Slow Dance On The Inside, Taking Back Sunday

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Thursday, June 9, 2005

   Package!

Mood: -Yawns- The usual. Music: Boulevard Of Broken Dreams, Green Day Wheee, -Rubs eyes.- I just woke up..@.@ Meh. Oh I got a package from Msn Messenger Beta people yesterday..^^! They sent me a new webcam. My friend got one too. I already had one to begin with, but this one is so much better, it has a microphone built into it..^^! In the babysitting world, last night my niece tried going asleep three hours before her actual bed time which is like a big no no. If we had let her do that then she'd been up at lie 5:00 in the morning..x.x So we had to wake her up and everything...X.X Other than that nothing much really happened. "Boulevard Of Broken Dreams" I walk a lonely road The only one that I have ever known Don't know where it goes But it's home to me and I walk alone I walk this empty street On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams Where the city sleeps and I'm the only one and I walk alone I walk alone I walk alone I walk alone I walk a... My shadow's the only one that walks beside me My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me 'Til then I walk alone Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah I'm walking down the line That divides me somewhere in my mind On the border line Of the edge and where I walk alone Read between the lines What's fucked up and everything's alright Check my vital signs To know I'm still alive and I walk alone I walk alone I walk alone I walk alone I walk a... My shadow's the only one that walks beside me My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me 'Til then I walk alone Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah Ah-ah, Ah-ah I walk alone I walk a... I walk this empty street On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams Where the city sleeps And I'm the only one and I walk a... My shadow's the only one that walks beside me My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me 'Til then I walk alone... Nothing else to talk about for now, but I better get back to watching the little brat. Have a great day. Ending music: Anthem Of Our Dying Day, Story Of The Year

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Wednesday, June 8, 2005

   Sleeeep..x.x

Mood: Wanting more sleep Music: Conflict, Disturbed Yay, I got good news when I woke up..^^ The other little girl that I was supposed to babysit is going to stay over at her cousins...^^ So, now I just have my niece. I haven't really been doing to much. Played some cards, listened to my music, played Soul Calibur II. I get online once in awhile to check my e-mail and my site. -Looks blankly around while rubbing her eyes.- I'm just to tired to think of what to really say for right now..x.x; My sister didn't take us to the movies like she promised. I shouldn't have ever trusted her, she never keeps her word..v.v; "Conflict" You are, enemy You are my hated enemy I am enemy Number one rated enemy I'm labelled enemy I am your mortal enemy My actions enemy Make me your bitter enemy All the world around enemy They're tearing up the ground enemy They're drawn in by the sound Enemy, enemy I must eliminate my Enemy Your people, enemy My people's hated enemy What are you, enemy Though a created enemy Terminate the, enemy Eradicate the hated enemy I am an enemy My very greatest enemy You try to tell me that you love life Then find another way to kill life Wanting, love life Needing, kill life Wanting, love life Needing, kill life Enemy I don't have anything else to say for now, I guess.x.x I hope you all had a good nights rest. Have a good day. Ending music: Down With The Sickness, Disturbed

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Tuesday, June 7, 2005

   Weird dreams.

Mood: Just waking up Music: Bend The Bracket, Chevelle Meep, I was having such a weird dream. It was a mix between FMA, Final Fantasy X-2, Angel (The show), and Graduation. Now just think of the combination, isn't that a weird one..x.x I don't even know how to explain it. The most I remember right now is that after I finished getting these two chest that looked like they were from FMA game, the waterway that was infront of the entrance became endless, and if you weren't a good swimmer you'd drown...x.x; During my dream you had this 'traditional' run with all the graduates..O.o So everyone was running and this one girl, (I guess it was supposed to be me?) Was winning. At first they were just on their feet then they were on horses..o.o; Once she won it was like hell broke lose. The person died in the end, but then it just started all over again..o.o; @.@ It was a very weird dream. I seem to have more weird dreams when I'm over at my sisters house for some reason. Now in babysitting matters, it's going well right now. The booger woke up in the middle of the night because she had a nightmare, so my cousin handed her to me and I layed down with her and soon afterwards she was back asleep in no time. I took her back to her bed, and went back to bed myself. "Bend The Bracket" So the water's thickening His collar's pulled, begin to be aware It's on, that he needs to focus Beyond that man, he brings a world of pain Cause [Chorus] The war is on, too weak to move Call it off, sorry refused So we bend the bracket Shove it down anything to make it fit It's on, and being foolish won't cover up Exposing them as fakes So boredom captured another fool Shredding him to bit it's on And the more we tense up, avoiding pain You'll never learn a thing Oh, I've came to the conculsion that if I am able to comment on sites, I'll just comment on the ones that commented on my post while my cousin is here. I would never have enough time to go through everyone on my list...x.x' -Hugs!- Have a nice day. Ending Music: So Cold, Breaking Benjamin

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Monday, June 6, 2005

   Babysitting

Mood: Calm, Bored Music: Forget It, Breaking Benjamin Meh, I'm so bored right now. My cousin is down stairs in the living room getting my niece to sleep, because my niece doesn't like to have anything to do with me when she's sleepy..@.@ I wonder if it's because I was usually then one that put her to sleep. Blah. I wont get to visit sites while my cousin is over, but I will get to update, don't worry..^^! I wish I could visit everyones sites to see what's going on, but I can't..T.T Well, yesterday was alright. We went to town and I got THREE new cds, I got Lost Prophets, Dashboard Confessional and Chevelle Dual disc...^^ It's a dvd and cd. On the dvd it has the songs in surround sound which should be awsome. I haven't gotten to check it out yet. Today I go back over to my sisters house..e.e; I think being there for only three days of the week wont be to bad, right? I watch my niece at home on Mondays because I don't have to watch the other little girl I have to babysit. And on fridays I go home..^^ Then Mondays I go back..o.o This feels like my life when I was a Sophmore in High School and babysat for this one friend of mine Lori and her husband. I liked babysitting for them..^^ They gave me a hundred dollars for every week, which isn't bad for babysitting. It's a crime you let it happen to me Nevermind, I'll let it happen to you Out of mind, forget it there's nothing to lose But my mind and all the things I wanted Everytime I get it I throw it away It's a sign, I get it, I wanna stay By the time I lose it I'm not afraid I'm alive but I can Surely fake it How can I believe when this cloud hangs over me You're the part of me that I don't wanna see Forget it There's a place I see you follow me Just a taste of all that might come to be I'm alone but holding breath you can breathe To question every answer counted Just fade away Please let me stay Caught in your way Forget it Just fade away Please let me stay Caught in your way It's a crime you let it happen to me Out of mind, I love it, easy to please Nevermind, forget it, just memories On a page inside a spiral notebook Just fade away Please let me stay Caught in your way I can live forever here Forget it How can I believe when this cloud hangs over me You're a part of me that I don't wanna see I can live forever here Oh lately my stomach been killing me after I drink someting..e.e; I'm trying not to drink so much now because of it. I drank some apple juice earlier and it did it. I don't see what it is, because I don't drink that much pop at all, if I do I try to get it caffine free. I better get off so I know if my cousin and niece aren't tearing the living room apart.o.o; -Doesn't hear anything going on.- May be that's good? Have a great day..^^! Ending Music: Atleast I'm Known For Something, New Found Glory

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Sunday, June 5, 2005

   Horror Movies

Mood: Freaked out from watching movies..o.o; Music: Sound Siren, Unwritten Law Ohmygosh!!! O.O! I just got done watching Darkness. That so far would have to be the best horror movie that I've seen... I mean, it was great. I got to watch the unrated version of it so it showed EVERYTHING. I'm not going to say anything about it because I don't want to ruin the movie at all...^^! I'll just say, usually I can go straight to bed after watching a horror movie, but not this one....-Doesn't want to turn out her lights.- Heheh as long it's not some type of lunar eclipse. Hehehehehe. Ooooooooo I also watched, Ju-No It's the actual version of The Grudge. It has the original Japanese credit and everything. There was a big part that the American version cut out, and that it added in that the Japanese version didn't have. The Japanese version didn't have the scene with the bathtub at all, I kept looking for it ..x.x Lol, but it is still very good..^^; "Sound Siren" Sail with me Across the sea So we can see what's going on Along the way, Red stack the bong We'll make it tight alright We'll write the one That makes her cum The one that makes it so she can't sleep tonight [CHORUS] So bombs away and as they say Here's to oblivion And cheers to you As well it's through Sound siren She's still cryin Its over, it's over Sound siren It's over, it's over We'll have some fun Play with a loaded gun Try not to shoot and kill no one Cause I would feel like shit But in the same regard Its getting hard to deal with it And I'm sick of it And no place is too far [CHORUS] So bombs away and as they say Well it's over now, it's over now She's gone, yeah and he won't go away [CHORUS] I'm sure by this post you can tell that I love to watch horror movies..^^; I may not watch a whole lot of t.v. but I don't mind watching scary movies. Oh, if I had to choose the Japanese Version of the American, I'd go with the Japanese just because it gives you a better idea on why the 'girl' makes that sound..^^ I'm sure that some of you that've seen it would know, but the others don't, so don't give it away...XD Have a great unscary day. Ending Music: Want, Disturbed

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Saturday, June 4, 2005

   Grrr...

Mood: Aggrivated..>< Music: Life On Stand By, Hawthorne Heights. Argh..>< Some how my computers has been efftect with the malware of Lopcom. A very terrible and annoying thing to get on your computer. I've been trying to get rid of it ever since I noticed it on my computer...-Growls.- I hate this, this hasn't happened to my computer in the longest of time..x.x; -Is doing everything she knows.- Grah, make it go away. I'm home for the weekend now, yay..^^! I should be asleep, but this malware is keeping up..x.x Plus I have to get up early to get ready to go to Sullivan so I can finish up my financial aiding. "Life On Standby" The distance and my hearts to sand Flowing through the hour glass Time to let go of all we know and break our hearts in stride. I need you now more like yesterday The last day I could see you smile. For the last time turn out the lights My life on standby. So standby and watch This fall away and fall apart. Just say that it's over, It's over and she's gone. (NOW... SHE'S...GONE) Don't worry he Said, and she's not coming home. (SHE'S....NOT...COMING...HOME) It's over and she's gone. The distance and my hearts to sand Flowing through the hour glass. I fall to pieces, I can't let go Of all the times I never said goodbye. Just say that it's over, It's over and she's gone. (NOW... SHE'S...GONE) Don't worry he said, and she's not coming home. (SHE'S....NOT...COMING...HOME) It's over and she's gone. WAKE UP! WAKE UP! WAKE UP! WAKE UP! Wake up now it's over... just tell me it's ok to die WAKE UP! WAKE UP! WAKE UP! WAKE UP! Wake up now it's over... just tell me it's ok to die Wake up now it's over... just tell me it's ok to die Wake up now it's over... just tell me it's ok to die Other than that, I don't really have much to say now. I'm just really annoyed....><' Oh I did beat Silent Hill 2 today..^^ He commited suicide for me...Yayness...I mean, awwww...>->' Ending Music: Ever Fallen in Love, Pete Yorn

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Friday, June 3, 2005

   A Short Post

Mood: Not sure... Music: Silence..o.o; Wheee, I get to go home today for the weekend.^^ Mwhahahaha, hmmm, I've been having weird dreams about winter...-blinks- I think it's because that's how cold they keep the house. -Chatters teeth- It's soooo cococold. They keep it colder than it is outside in the morning..x.x You know if it was like 80 degrees or something a little higher, I could somewhater understand....Actually when it's that hot I'd have the a.c on like 70 something so it's comfortable and not freezing...@.@ Oh well it's comfortable to them. Oh, the other day I forgot to mention the my brother-in-law likes anime too..^^! Yay, he has all the dvd's of Yu-Gi-Oh that he said that I could watch if I wanted to. Hhehehe I know some of my friends that would love too...>->' Mwhahahaha. =P I'm outtie, type to you all later.

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Thursday, June 2, 2005

   Silent Hill 2

Mood: Awake, but freezing Music: (Wont be any for this post) Meh, I hate posting this late into the afternoon. My brother-in-law took a day off work so then I didn't have to babysit today, just help out..^^ I don't know if this will be long or not depends on what I think of to say...X.x To start off with I want to talk about Silent Hill 2....o.o; I'm playing that game right now, and it's pretty confusing. As of now I'm at the 'Boat Launch' getting ready for the boat adventure. Just to tell some of the people about that game, it's extremely chlostorphobic...(I know I didn't spell it right.) Most of the time your in a small dark room or a foggy road that you can't see two centimeters in front of you..x.x; So far three people have died...Correction two..o.o; One of them were the same person..-blinks.- Well just to be blunt about it...I killed Eddie just a few minutes ago on the game, and Maria gets killed twice some how (*)Spoiler(*) and comes back a third time as a boss..x.x; Or so I think, I haven't read through the whole walk through yet so she might pop up somewhere in between again. It tries to creep you out with spooky noises and eveyrthing, but it hasn't bothered me any...>->; -Wonders if weird dreams about zombies count.- I can't think of anything else to talk about for now, oh and everything is going alright now, I get to go home this weekend, and then my annoying cousin Kayla is coming down. Atleast I'll have someone to talk to then..o.o? Have a great day!

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