Sunday, May 22, 2005

   Wheee, shopping?

Mood: Just waking, Music: No Giving Up, Crossfade Yesterday wasn't that interesting, nothing really happened. I did go out to eat with my family, but my mother and I always rather leave my dad behind, he's such a trouble maker..e.e; Today I get to go shopping with my half-sister. Yay...-Sarcastic tone.- Oiy, my sister and I just never get along....So this shall be interesting. So you found out today your life's not the same Not quite as perfect as it was yesterday but When you were just getting in the groove Now you're faced with something new And I know it hurts and I know you feel torn But you never gave up this easily before So why do you choose today to give it all away Well it's not so bad y'all Together we all fall Just as long we get up we'll stand tall We shouldn't waste another day Thinking 'bout the things that we forgot to say I'm hittin' back y'all Kickin' these four walls Just as hard as I can til I can't crawl I won't waste another day With all these silly things Swimmin' in my brain [Chorus] There's no giving up now Do you really want to give this all away Can't you ever see things in a different way Somedays No giving up now Such a beautiful thing to throw away You should think things through Over and over again All over again So your scars fade away You soaked up the pain A better person 'cause you lived through those days And now you know what it's like to prove You can overcome anything that gets to you Well it's alright We're sayin' our goodbyes To the past and everything that ain't right We won't waste another day With all these silly things in our way [Chorus] I know we have given All that we can give When there's nothing to lean on Well, I remember this All we make of this lifetime Is always here within And remembering that's why We should never give in [Chorus] There's no giving up now I need to be getting ready, so sorry it was short post, tomorrow I might have more to say. Have a great day..^^! End Music: Give It Up, Midtown, (Hey isn't that contradicting with the first..o.o?)

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Saturday, May 21, 2005

   I love music...^^!

Mood: Happy and playful Music: Until The Day I Die, Story Of The Year Yay, I just got done babysitting...^^ My niece slept for an hour thank goodness because all she would do was cry for her mother, and then I was talking to StormofSerenity and I was going to let my niece talk to her on the phone, but she hung the phone up instead...Lol, guess she didn't want to talk to her then. Yesterday at school I was VERY HYPER!!!! Mwahahahahaha my second block class said that I was crazy and should go to the nut house..o.o; I couldn't stop laughing, I was laughing so hard that I couldn't barely breathe at times which made me cough..e.e; Oh I've made some new greetings and backgrounds if you want to check them out. ^^; I'll probably make some more on Monday and through out the week so expect the numbers to go up. Okay this is up to you all, I've been thinking of posting the lyrics to the song that I start out with during posting, but that's up to you all since you will be reading. -Giggles.- I just love music and reading lyrics I guess that's why I got the idea, well I'm letting it be your choice. Okay, I'm off to try and comment on sites, and sorry if I don't make to yours. Ending Music: Driven Under, Seether (I swear it's randome...e.e; )

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Friday, May 20, 2005

   A bit better.

Mood: Sleepy and feeling better Music: Remedy, Seether. Heh, I guess I've been in more of a Seetheric mood(I made that up.)..O.o All three posts have Seether for my music....^^ But I really love this song, it so speaks to me, but I don't know why....I guess it's just one of those weird things. Today went alright I guess, my best-friend and I didn't talk, but we both probably need a little space from each other so maybe everything will be alright. And good news!!! I didn't cry at all yesterday which is so awsome..^^! Also I thought I made a 97% on my English exam but instead there were a few grading mistakes that I got corrected because the answer was totally right, and ended up with a 108% O.O! Yay, I'm so proud of myself. Now I need to do that good in my A.P. Calculus test that I have today. As of today I have well..a very bad grad that I need to bring up to atleast a low C BEFORE I take my final in that class..x.x Wish me luck on this, because I'm sure going to need it. Oh! Before I forget, thank you all for your very helpful comments...^^! And now instead of saying have a great day at the end, I'll depart with my opening song....O.o What? "Remedy" Throw your dollar bills and leave your thrills all here with me And speak but don't pretend I won't defend you anymore you see It aches in every bone, I'll die alone, but not for you My eyes don't need to see that ugly thing, I know it's me you fear If you want me hold me back Frail, the skin is dry and pale, the pain will never fail And so we go back to the remedy Clip the wings that get you high, just leave them where they lie And tell yourself, "You'll be the death of me" I don't need a friend, I need to mend so far away So come sit by the fire and play a while, but you can't stay too long It aches in every bone, I'll die alone, but not for pleasure I see my heart explode, it's been eroded by the weather here If you want me hold me back Frail, the skin is dry and pale, the pain will never fail And so we go back to the remedy Clip the wings that get you high, just leave them where they lie And tell yourself, "You'll be the death of me" Frail, the skin is dry and pale, the pain will never fail And so we go back to the remedy Clip the wings that get you high, just leave them where they lie And tell yourself, "You'll be the death of me" Hold your eyes closed, take me in Hold your eyes closed, take me in Frail, the skin is dry and pale, the pain will never fail And so we go back to the remedy Clip the wings that get you high, just leave them where they lie And tell yourself, "You'll be the death of me" Frail, the skin is dry and pale, the pain will never fail And so we go back to the remedy Clip the wings that get you high, just leave them where they lie And tell yourself, "You'll be the death of me" Closing Music: Ohio Is For Lovers, Hawthorne Heights

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Thursday, May 19, 2005

   Tired of Crying.

Mood: Mixture of Depression, and Pissed. Music: Truth, Seether This week has just been horrible, so far I've cried every day of the week, and I fear I will continue to cry. I started off my day on a good note, but all of that was butchered into tiny pieces of air. That's right to non-existance. I was talking on the phone with StormofSerenity and my mother just unplugs my line without giving me anytime to say, "I guess I better go and do my chores, call you later." No, she just unplugs it, she didn't even plug it back in, I had to go downstairs to plug it back in. Then I was talking to her again and my mother said she needed the phone, so I got off and handed her the phone so she could use it. For a whole hour she didn't even use the phone so I called StormofSerenity back and continued talking to her. My mom gets on the other line when she's knows I'm on it, first she hung it up, then she did it again and says "I need the phone." She's doesn't give me that much time to say bye or anything, just goes and unplugs my phone. That's when I got into this big fight with my parents, I seemed to have won, or else I wouldn't have been able to be on the internet last night which is another thing... My biggest mistake lastnight was getting online. I guess I'm not allowed to have any help from my best-friend, and only I'm supposed to help them. And then if you don't want to tell someone something about them, don't ever bring it up. You're just making it to where they quesiton if they should trust that friend or not. Okay, but here's the number one thing I hate about people: Jumping to conclusions. I absolutely hate it when people do that around me, especially when it's not even right, but it bothers me more when a friend jumps to a conclusion...Why do people have to be so self-centered. I would atleast want them to try and tell me...."Try it before you discard it." If it doesn't work then don't do it again. -Shrugs.- I'm guessing you all are tired of reading my rantings of my uncaring life of friends. I'm sorry that you have to read this, I hate dropping things like this onto other people, but I had to do something to get some anger/depression out of me, please forgive me. Have a nice day, and I'll try to have one myself.

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Wednesday, May 18, 2005

   My poor kitty...

Mood: Sad Music: 69 Tea, Seether One of my kittens died yesterday, I made that gif for him, but the picture didn't turn out right so sorry if it looks bad. My day started out okay until I got home that is. When I was walking by the cars in my driveway I heard the kittens mewing and I found out the mother cat had moved them once again. I had to take the kittens out of the hot car and put them back up near the door where they're supposed to be. Afterwards I fed the cats, and I cleaned the kittens eyes so that they could see. The black kitten was doing just fine then. I went in and did whatever I did. My mother was going leave to go to town and I was going to remind her to get more cat food since we were about out. When I did my mother found the black kitten on our walk way laying on its side. She was going to take him to the vet, but when she went to start her car the battery died for some apparent reason that we don't know. I took the kitten, and he mewed and everything, but he couldn't stand or anything...My mother told me that I should just lay him somewhere peaceful to die, but I couldn't do that, I didn't want to believe he was going to die at such a you age of 4 weeks. So my mother let him stay by the stairstep. Later on during the day I went to see if he was still hanging in there, but when I walked outside the door I saw the brother kitten standing over the black kitten...I knelt down to touch him, but I only felt a cold, stiff, lifeless kitten. I was already crying and I had cried for a long while. StormofSerenity and Conneryalexis Helped me through the night, and I thank you two, you both are really good friends. On another side of a coin, I have my English exam today and I feel pretty prepared for it, so I should do well on it. I also finished my Macromedia Flash final, I made a movie about Halloween. Well I'm going to be going now. I'll try to have a good day.

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Tuesday, May 17, 2005

   Tyger, Tyger Burning Bright.

Mood: Questionable Music: Therapy, Smile Empty Soul(All of my music is random, out like 600 songs, dun ask why it chooses Smile Empty Soul each time I go to post..^^) My birthday went all right, my mom and dad are going to get me a car for my birthday, but can't yet since we're buying a house..o.o; That's understandable, I'll probably get some presents today from friends. My fourth block class sung to me, and this one girl is going to get me something, but I wouldn't know why, I don't know her that well...-Blinks.- Strange people. Talking about strange people reminds me, Thanks to everyone that made me some type of banner, card, or wallpaper for my birthday and thanks for the congragulating...^^! In school news, I have kept up with me work in my Math class and I actually go to the teacher for help now..^^! I mean there's nothing wrong with that right? I have a big English Exam coming up on about the British Romantics. My favorite poet is from that period, William Blake, I absolutely love "The Tyger" I used to be able to recite it. Okies, I better continue getting ready for today, and sorry if I didn't comment on everyones site...I fell asleep lastnight online once again, and sorry to those who I was talking to at that time.HAVE A GREAT DAY!

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Monday, May 16, 2005

   Happy Birthday Too Me ^^!

Mood: Tired, and refusing to sleep Music: For You, Smile Empty Soul Woo hoo I'm eighteen now..^^! Wheee!! Oh yesterday I had an unexpecting visit to my house..e.e; My father came up and told me that someone was at the door for me, but I was like who would be coming to visit me without telling me...Well I get there and to find out that it was my ex-boyfriend..X.X! He had stopped by to wish my happy birthday and get advice about his own new relationship. It was...Realllyy...Awkward..e.e; Never again, please. Lol. Oh, and this is just a little dedication...>-> To my friend StormofSerenity, even though she's probably going to kill me for this. -Gives her puppy eyes saying please don't.- Yeah, but she's a very good friend of mine and she needs a little boost with her site, so if wouldn't mind, it'd be great if you visited by, signed her guest book and things, she's really wonderful person to know...^^! I should know..=P Well I should get to bed it's late and I don't want to be grumpy on my birthday..^^! Have a wonderful day.

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Sunday, May 15, 2005

   Yay: Feeling better, and exctied.

Mood: Feeling Better Music: Home, Three Days Grace Yay! Thanks everyone for your comments, I felt a whole lot better when the afternoon came around ^^! I wouldn't know what I would do without all your encouraging comments. Well during the day when I wasn't online and my parents were gone I talked to StormofSerenity the whole time they were gone, and that was over 300 minutes, I was supposed to babysit my niece, but they decided to go ahead and take her home. Talking to her helped me feel better too. I'm always happy to talk to her..^^! Yay one more day until my birthday, but I can't have the actual party until the second week of June..X.x My mom is going to try to throw a pool party for me, and it'd be better I guess because I'd have a better chance of people getting to spend the night at my house. And if anyone of my friends forgot to get me presents don't worry, it's the thought the counts, not the money spent. It's something like that. -Giggles.- Okay, enough of my blabbling, I'll let you all goes. Have a great day!!

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Saturday, May 14, 2005

   Sad, Scared, and Sick

Mood: Just woke up, Lonely Music: I'm Not The One, Sum41 I didn't have absouletly anyone to talk to lastnight...v.v; And I was feeling pretty down about myself, especially with me still sick and all. Which I am tired of being sick, I don't want to be sick anymore, stupid allergies. But I wont burden you all with why I was depressed because I try to be happy for my friends that are always seem to be so sad, or depressed. -Sigh.- For the past two days we've had a subsitute driver for our bus and a subsitute bus. I've never been so scared to ride a bus in my life. The bus was an old bus and it didn't even have shocks or anything. Every bump it went over you'd practically bounce out of your seat, and I guess it doesn't help that I sit in the very back of the bus..v.v; I was holding onto dear life while we were going down my road..x.x Then yesterday the bus driver crossed the railroad tracks when the lights started going off and the train was giving it's warning....>< I've could've died that day...But the bus driver sped across the tracks, I was scared..x.x Oh sorry again for not getting to visit sites, the schools internet at the Vocational school wasn't working. I'll try today if there isn't to much going on. See ya around. Noon: Mood: Crying, sad, sick, just plain dumb Music: All My Problems, Smile Empty Soul I'm commenting on sites, but sorry if I didn't read the post, It's hard to read with tears fogging up my eyes. This is a greeting that I made that I know the otaku wont accept, but yeah it's what I feel.

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Friday, May 13, 2005

   -Cough, wheeze...x.x- Still sick

Mood: I'm I even here? Music: The fan in my window? Yesterday at school was pretty....the same. We watched Young Frankenstein in my English class though which was pretty cool, I mean I already seen it. This morning though I woke up and I kept coughing, I wonder if it's because I didn't take my medicine..o.o; I don't like taking it, it's 10% alcohol and makes me pass out. Oh and I'd like to thank Karumichan for the birthday card...^^! It's so pretties, and it goes along with my theme. Well I better go, I have three problems of my Math homework to do. Eeep, and I didn't get to comment on everyones site yesterday because it was hectic during my third block class..x.x I wasn't even in there for 45 minutes of it. Okay, I'll let you go, and I'll try once again to comment on everyones site, have a great day!

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