Friday, August 26, 2005

   I WANT MUSIC!

Mood: Musicish Music: Eraser, Smile Empty Soul Total Visits 1752 Popularity Ranking # 427 (out of 33,749 active sites) Oh I forgot to give big thanks to Karumichan the other day too, and I also like to thank Elvesatemyramen for the critique..^^ It does really mean a lot to me. Whee, I didn't update yesterday because I went to bed early and when I got up I went and started making an anime gallery...^^' I've been working on it all day and only have like seven pictures uploaded...;-;'' So I didn't get to comment on anyones site, sorries. I'm just to busy now a days..x.x;; I also have been looking up lyrics of artist that I like and I love this one song from Distrubed called, "Remember" I want that song...e.e' I'm going to use it's lyrics for the song today instead of the song that I was currently listening to. DISTURBED LYRICS "Remember" Sensation washes over me I can't describe it Pain I felt so long ago I don't remember Tear a hole so I can see My devastation Feelings from so long ago I don't remember Holding on, to let them know What's given to me To hide behind The mask this time And try to believe Blind your eyes to what you see You can't embrace it Leave it well enough alone And don't remember Cut your pride and watch it bleed You can't deny it Pain you know you can't ignore I don't remember Holding on, to let them know What's given to me To hide behind The mask this time And try to believe If I can Remember To know this will Conquer me If I can Just walk alone And try to escape Into me [whispering:] Sensation washes over me I can't describe it Pain I felt so long ago I don't remember Im just holding on, to let them know What's given to me, given to me To hide behind The mask this time And try to believe If I can Remember To know this will Conquer me If I can Just walk alone And try to escape Into me into me into me It reminds me of a poem that I wrote that is entitled, "Behind The Mask"...o.o; I've got other lyrics from them, but I'll share them later. Oh, I'll let you read the poem: Behind The Mask There is no greater wish than knowing who you do not, and who you do know. Those who you do not know wish to know who you are, and are not. To see who one is to be not someone else, but your true self. Do you hide your beautiful face behind a mask that we all seek? Do not all of us seek to find the truth that is behind that mask? Do you tell the truth that is not all there, or is not at all? For I have known many, and seen many masks applied before. For the days, we watch go by, and see the new die into the old. For the oddness of their forte' gone and banished. Have you sought the truth out with all your might and energy? Has the song of truth gotten to your soul, or has it died? Have you not taken your time to think it through? Truth is everything for all of us to know, and all of us not to know. Truth is the secret that we all keep deep down inside. Truth is only told when it is most needed. Truth is all, but lies hidden deep inside a mask. Have a nice day...^^ Ending mood: Hmmm... Ending Music: Tongue, Seether EMERGENCY UPDATE: X.X!!! While I was updating my site, my kitchen was on...FIRE... I had no clue about it of course..e.e;; But you think I would because of where my room is upstairs and usualy smoke raises to the top most spot, but no...It didn't touch my room..x.x! The cause of it is because my dad fell asleep fixing himself some french fries. The damage isn't much...We have to replace the flat top stove put in a new ceiling, re-do the floor, and take down the shelf that is above the stove. Man our kitchen is going to look weird...It's only going to be half-re-modeled....o.o; It's a good thing our housing insurance covers all of this. They're going to replace the stove and shelving and the floor..^^ I guess that's the only good thing about fires...You get to get new things ..O.o'

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Wednesday, August 24, 2005

   Thanks everyone...^-^!

Mood: Playing Neopets..^^ Music: Truth, Seether Yay! Thanks everyone that gave me critiques...^^; It's very much appreciated, I now can push myself into the right direction, and special thanks to heruchigu, that will help bunches..^^' Now I can try to draw them a wittle bigger, I know that on my final piece they'll have more detail, colour, actual hands, and feet. I'm trying to concentrate on those the most since I have the most trouble with them...;-; Oh, and the faces too. I also got to visit a lot of my freinds Otakus so I'm proud of myself..^^ If you're one of the few I didn't make it to, I'm sorry. I'm trying push myself more now so I do hope to be around your guys's sites again today. I have already posted the lyrics to this song so I don't think there is much reason I why I should again..o.o;; Even though I really love this song...^-^! Well today I have to get up around six o'clock so then I can babysit my niece..;-;'' I don't like babysitting...v.v; I can't do what I want, but sit with her and watch t.v. and clean, and most of the time she's in the way while I'm cleaning. Well I'm going to go, my neopets are waiting for me...^-^ My screen name is the same for neopets if anyone wants to add me to their friends list. See you around, and have a terrific day! Ending mood: Perky Ending music: Home, Three Days Grace

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Tuesday, August 23, 2005

   Sketches

Mood: Creative Music: Down With The Sickness, Disturbed Total Visits 1731 Popularity Ranking # 431 (out of 33,578 active sites) I've had an alright day yesterday. I mean, I just got off the phone with my best-friend...But I had a creative day...o.o;; I drew pictures, yes I drew, more like a small sketches that I would like to improve though. But in order to know what I should improve on I need to be criticized, which doesn't bother me at all. People can go on for days telling how crappy my art is and I'd agree, take a note, and try to improve that. Eh, it's a little different with my writings though, if it's not toooo bad, I'll let it slide by. But here are the links so you may critique the drawings, now I do forwarn everyone that I am teaching myself it is very cruscial that I do get these critiques so I get a more wide expanse on how I can improve. Okay here's the first one: Amelia I do know that her face is messed up, and figured that I could just say her feet are hidden underneathe the skirt.o.o The second one: Bethany I think I did a little better on her, but somehow I ended up losing her neck in the drawing so her neck looks weird..@.@ Please critique them, I'll really appreaciate it.^-^! Oh and sorries that they're done on notebook paper, but that's because I sketched them on the piece of paper that I wrote down their character profile for the story that I am writing. WARNING: This song contains mature language, blah, blah. (Putting this so I don't get in trouble with all the cussing in the lyrics..e.e) "Down With The Sickness" Drowning deep in my sea of loathing Broken your servant I kneel (Will you give in to me?) It seems what's left of my human side Is slowly changing in me (Will you give in to me?) Looking at my own reflection When suddenly it changes Violently it changes (oh no) There is no turning back now You've woken up the demon in me [Chorus:] Get up, come on get down with the sickness [x3] Open up your hate, and let it flow into me Get up, come on get down with the sickness You mother get up come on get down with the sickness You fucker get up come on get down with the sickness Madness is the gift, that has been given to me I can see inside you, the sickness is rising Don't try to deny what you feel (Will you give in to me?) It seems that all that was good has died And is decaying in me It seems you're having some trouble In dealing with these changes Living with these changes (oh no) The world is a scary place Now that you've woken up the demon in me [Chorus] (And when I dream) [x4] No mommy, don't do it again Don't do it again I'll be a good boy I'll be a good boy, I promise No mommy don't hit me Why did you have to hit me like that, mommy? Dont do it, you're hurting me Why did you have to be such a bitch Why don't you, Why don't you just fuck off and die Why can't you just fuck off and die Why can't you just leave here and die Never stick your hand in my face again bitch FUCK YOU I don't need this shit You stupid sadistic abusive fucking whore How would you like to see how it feels mommy Here it comes, get ready to die And for the ones that did critique, thankies..^-^ I will be checking on the pictures daily. In other news my best-friend and I talked on the phone and we talked alot about first dreams and how scientist try to figure them out, and then we talked politics, and science which lead into religion and biblical debates and political. It was a good discussion that we both lost track of time, ^^; I'm going to go, have a nice day..^-^! Ending mood: Excited Ending music: Motivation Proclamation, Good Charlotte

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Monday, August 22, 2005

   -Hits snooze button-

Mood: Very tired. Music: Hold On, Good Charlotte ~Total Visits 1724 ~Popularity Ranking # 435 (out of 33,538 active sites) I forgot to tell everyone that I was going to be gone over the weekend...;-;'' I had to go to a family reunion which was VERY boring..x.x;; And plus I didn't get much sleep the other night...I had to sleep on the couch at my Aunts house and for some reason I just kept getting hot, and I can't sleep if I'm hot or warm, I must be cool or cold..o.o' I guess I'm just weird..@.@' Anyways, I couldn't sleep for anything, after dozing off and on, but I kept waking up sweating because I was hot..x.x;; Then my mother ALWAYS gets up at around five o'clock, and she getting up woke me up from me 'doze' She got up and started doing her morning things and I got up from the couch and layed on the floor next to the couch..e.e;; I was so much cooler on the floor then I was on the couch..O.o'' I'm thinking it had to do with the cushions.. Right now, since I was so sleep deprived my weekend, I'm way to tired to really do anything..e.e Typing all of this is a big effort right now... Oh, my mother got her a 2006 Toyota Corolla..^-^ I'd take a picture of it with my webcam, but it's to dark outside right now, and plus I still havent installed it's software..O.o'' But I went and actually looked for the picture online that looks like it The one she bought is a metallic black, which is pretty cool because when the sun shines on it just right you can't tell if it's a dark blue, purple or a black..^-^ That's it for now. I'm going to bed. -Yawns widely.- Ending mood: Still very tired Ending music: We Still Kill The Old Way, Lost Prophets

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Saturday, August 20, 2005

   Pissed to the extreme. >

Mood: Pissed off >< Total Visits 1715 Popularity Ranking # 434 (out of 33,402 active sites) >< I'm very annoyed right now. My dad interrupted me and I ended up deleting my whole entire post that I did already have up. He first went and disconnected my line because he can't wait for midnight to come around so then I can post..>< GRAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'll sum up what I had and I am not even going to do music right now. I'm just so pissed off right now. Well I basically just told you all how much of a weird day I had yesterday, and how much of swinging mood I was and how at first on my deviant someone thought the pictures I use to represent were my drawings, but later on I got the fixed and inspired them to write stories for their own art. I went into much greater detail though, but I'm to pissed to do that, because the post was really long and I had it typed up a half hour before midnight, so now I have to type all this in less then three minutes. Grah I better go so then he doesn't unplug me again.

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Friday, August 19, 2005

   It's New!

Mood: Tired, but relaxed Music: Sandpaper and Silk ~Total Visits 1711 ~Popularity Ranking # 437 (out of 33,362 active sites) Meep, I didn't get to post in the last six house becuase my father was on the internet 'til two o'clock in the morning and I was pretty sleepy, so I went to bed..z.z;; I don't like posting this late, I never get commetns when I do..@.@' Oh wells. I really didn't do anything yesterday though, I have been trying to help my parents find the new car they want..^-^ Yay, we're getting a brand new car. -Dances with joy.- Heh, it's like a miracle for my dad to do this, but my mom finally talked some sense into him, with probably some help with my sister. So, yay!!! No more cars that are like...6 years or older..x.x;; We have like six cars on our driveway...e.e; And none of them really run...We have them becuase my dad thinks he's the smartest person in the world and knows how to fix them all, but to fix them all he has to spend money that we can't always spare..x.x! So yeah, we have a classic that my dad is 'restoring', but it'd probably a long time before that's ever started..O.o' Goodnews though..^-^! They're going to tow off about four of the vehicles. Yays..e.e; Of course....All this happens while I'm getting ready to go to college..e.e; "Sandpaper And Silk" Wait 'til after dark we'll try to make a mark one that stays until we're done And we'll pretend again let's try not to forget where we are and who we're with Who we will find. Miles can cut this tie we've made the sharp side of the blade As these words play out they'll try and drag you down you feel like one of them Who we will find Miles can cut this tie we've made the sharp side of the blade Make sure that you can keep it make sure you keep it in your heart Miles can cut this tie we've made the sharp side of the blade (Make sure you keep it in your heart) (Make sure you keep it) in your heart Miles can cut this tie we've made the sharp side of the blade Miles can cut this tie we've made the sharp side of the blade Make sure that you can keep it make sure you keep it in your heart Miles can cut this tie we've made the sharp side of the blade (in your heart) Hmm, I think I might clean the rest of my room up today...Not sure, we'll see when and if it does happen later. Have a nice day. Ending mood: Blank Ending music: Pig, Seether

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Thursday, August 18, 2005

   My fingers aren't working...;-;''

Mood: Tired Music: Malchik Gay, t.A.T.u Current stats: ~ Visits- 1692 ~ Ranking- 440 Hiya..^-^'...I'm in a perky mood, yet tired. -Yawns.- I don't plan to stay up tonight...I just switched beds and can't wait to sleep on the futon now instead of my old twin bed that seems like I've had it forever. I know...Usually futons are uncomfortable, but I'm not use the mat that came with it, I'm using a matress that is really comfy..^-^! Hmm, I'm to lazy right to post lyrics...I mean...I have the site open and everything just dun feel like opening it..@.@ Er here's the link to the page...I'm just going to type it out so sorry if it doesn't work...http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/tatu/malchikgay.html...There, I think that's right..@.@'' I'm going to go ahead and jump into bed, and sorry if I didn't make it to your Otaku. Have a nice day. Ending mood: Damn people..x.x; Ending music: My Sacrafice, Creed

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Wednesday, August 17, 2005

   Save The Piggies!!!!

Mood: Pain..(Just hurt heel..x.x Oh the pain.) Music: Follow, Breaking Benjamin Ow...It really hurts because I hit on a tender spot...e.e;; Woot!! I did it again..^-^; Stayed up almost all night and played Sim City. It think it paid off though..I mean, I have over 4 million dollars to spend on my city and that's more than enough..XD!!!! It's great...I guess...O.o''' Oh, I'd still be asleep, but I was just having such a weird dream about these piglettes that were treated badly and they had to race, dance and jump..;-;'' Then there was this reading contest and if you won you could save the piggies, I won, but then you had to tell what all you read and I just thought to much that I woke up thinking what it was that I was reading in my dream...@.@'' Meep, I know I already posted the lyrics for 'Follow' so I wont re-post them. Have a great day! Ending mood: All better, just itchy..o.o' Ending music: Stupify, Disturbed

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Tuesday, August 16, 2005

   Feeling like a french sadistic bunny..o.o?

Mood: A little chilled, but alright Music: Letterbomb, Green Day Messengers ~Aim: . Americanfaith16 9 online, chatting 0 . Musicisonlyme 4 online chatting 0 ~Msn: 6 online, chatting 2 ~Yahoo: Not signed on...o.o;; O.o'' Hm, today was a weird day?? I don't know....I woke up and felt really sadistic for some odd reason, not for sure...Then I just kinda felt like I was an french sadistic bunny because my lunch was a lettuce salad with french dressing that really was revolting to me, but I was sooooooo hungry..x.x! I dun even like lettuce..O.o'' Oh wells. Other than that, nothing really happened, I played more of Sim City and talked on the phone...More like after the sadism wore out, it was boring..;-;'' "Letterbomb" Nobody likes you... Everyone left you... They're all out without you... Having fun... Where have all the bastards gone? The underbelly stacks up ten high The dummy failed the crash test Collecting unemployment checks Like a flunkie along for the ride Where have all the riots gone As the city's motto gets pulverized? What's in love is now in debt On your birth certificate So strike the fucking match to light this fuse! The town bishop is an extortionist And he don't even know that you exist Standing still when it's do or die You better run for your fucking life It's not over 'till you're underground It's not over before it's too late This city's burnin' It's not my burden It's not over before it's too late There's nothing left to analyze Where will all the martyrs go when the virus cures itself? And where will we all go when it's too late? And don't look back You're not the Jesus of Suburbia The St. Jimmy is a figment of Your father's rage and your mother's love Made me the idiot America It's not over 'till you're underground It's not over before it's too late This city's burnin' It's not my burden It's not over before it's too late She said I can't take this place I'm leaving it behind Well she said I can't take this town I'm leaving you tonight Hmm, I feel like myOtaku is dying...x.x!!! No one ever seems to stop by anymore. -Sniffles.- I'm trying to stop by everyone elses, but I keep getting caught up into a lot of other stuff, so I try my hardest to comment on the peoples site who comment on mine, so sorries if I haven't commented on your sites lately. Have a nice day! Ending mood: Typing synical Ending music: Conflict, Disturbed

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Monday, August 15, 2005

   The World Is Ending!!!!

Mood: Just Woke Up Music: Some Say, Sum41 AIM: 2 Names... . Musicisonlyme: 2 online, chatting 0 . Americanfaith16 5 online, Chatting 0 Msn: 4 Online, Chatting 1 Yahoo: 1 Online, Chatting 0 Omigwash! It's a total miracle, and the world might end because of it..XD I didn't get online last night, but that more of time issue I had...>->' See, I think I started to play Sim City at around lets say 5:00 p.m. because my dad got on the net like he usually does...Then, WHAM, I look over at the clock for the first time in a long time and it read 5:30 a.m...e.e!!! I was like what the crap!!! Is my clock broke...I really played that game 12 hours straight..;-;' This including that my mother had already left to go to work, and any minute my dad would be waking up to get ready for work....@.@' "Some Say" Some say we're never meant to grow up I'm sure they never knew enough I know the pressures won't go away It's too late Find out the difference somehow It's too late to even have faith Don't think things will ever change You must be dreaming Think before you make up your mind You don't seem to realize I can do this on my own And if I fall I'll take it all It's so easy after all Believe me 'cause now's the time to try Don't wait, the chance will pass you by Time's up to figure it out You can't say it's too late Seems like everything we knew Turned out were never even true Don't trust, things will never change You must be dreaming Think before you make up your mind You don't seem to realize I can do this on my own And if I fall I'll take it all It's so easy after all Some say we're better off without Knowing what life is all about I'm sure they'll never realize the way It's too late Somehow it's different everyday In some ways it never fades away Seems like it's never gonna change I must be dreaming Think before you make up your mind You don't seem to realize I can do this on my own Think before you make up your mind You don't seem to realize I can do this on my own And if I fall I'll take it all It's so easy after all Believe me, it's alright It's so easy after all Believe me, it's alright It's so easy after all Oh yeah, the messengers status thinger I just kinda threw in now all because I was bored..@.@'' And no one is ever online at this time, (12:00)..e.e' Everyone is online around like seven ish or late..o.o;; Have a good day! Ending mood: Just me. Ending music: Simple Design, Breaking Benjamin

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